A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

lastexitlondon

I'm just going to my emergency  mental health  appointment  to get me back into the system at a higher level. I can't  stop crying utter despair . Thank you for caring my friend 

Thoughts_Arrive

Glad to hear from you. I hope they help you rather than turn you away.

lastexitlondon

Get this whilst I was waiting  for my appointment  I looked a "safe" website . Anxiety uk.  They had the headline anxiety  and depression  linked to dementia.  I fell apart and cried my heart out in front of everyone there. I got into my appointment  a fuckin mess. This is meant to be a safe anxiety  page
 I messaged  them saying I've been suicidal  with fear and how irresponsible  of them.  It's crushed my soul. Nothing is safe. Here in uk some celebrity  in her 80s has dementia  it's all over the tv and papers. Today is the worst day I could imagine .  How I am alive I have no idea. My partner is a saint

mickeyrat

lastexitlondon said:

Get this whilst I was waiting  for my appointment  I looked a "safe" website . Anxiety uk.  They had the headline anxiety  and depression  linked to dementia.  I fell apart and cried my heart out in front of everyone there. I got into my appointment  a fuckin mess. This is meant to be a safe anxiety  page
 I messaged  them saying I've been suicidal  with fear and how irresponsible  of them.  It's crushed my soul. Nothing is safe. Here in uk some celebrity  in her 80s has dementia  it's all over the tv and papers. Today is the worst day I could imagine .  How I am alive I have no idea. My partner is a saint

so in what way is the link? that people with dementia experience anxiety and depression? or something else, like reverse?

HughFreakingDillon

mickeyrat said:

lastexitlondon said:

Get this whilst I was waiting  for my appointment  I looked a "safe" website . Anxiety uk.  They had the headline anxiety  and depression  linked to dementia.  I fell apart and cried my heart out in front of everyone there. I got into my appointment  a fuckin mess. This is meant to be a safe anxiety  page
 I messaged  them saying I've been suicidal  with fear and how irresponsible  of them.  It's crushed my soul. Nothing is safe. Here in uk some celebrity  in her 80s has dementia  it's all over the tv and papers. Today is the worst day I could imagine .  How I am alive I have no idea. My partner is a saint

so in what way is the link? that people with dementia experience anxiety and depression? or something else, like reverse?

a quick google search brought up this

"Pathological anxiety and chronic stress are associated with structural degeneration and impaired functioning of the hippocampus and the PFC, which may account for the increased risk of developing neuropsychiatric disorders, including depression and dementia." 

lastexitlondon

So how are people with anxiety  helped by this..... how do you stop what you can't  control from ending in dementia . I have terrible symptoms  and this does nothing but cause pain . I'm done . With all of it. HfD I do not use Google so I'm not equipped  to cope with it at all in the slightest. As alice in chains said


I'm about as low as I can get..
I'm pretty sure I'm.done
 They asked me if I have  a plan for suicide. I said no to protect my children  mainly my 9 month old. Because  if I had told the truth them maybe they would take her away. Not gonna happen
 I won't  tell them no way.

lastexitlondon

I'm beyond scared and rational. I'm beyond panic and lay in bed fear . I past all of these stages. I'm here because  I love pj and I love these people here. In use only my phone and that is becoming an evil that I just cannot sensor. I love all of you that care for each other like brothers and sisters . 
But I need to stop all of this. I need to not keep doing this.  I aim to go to London  18/19. Krakow 3rd July. If I don't I don't if I do I've won a small victory.  I'm not able to use internet or read papers or watch tv anymore
Sorry my friends  here. Remember this live . Live loud. Love. Love plenty. And truth. Always tell the truth  it's liberating.  See you on the flip side. 

HughFreakingDillon

lastexitlondon said:

So how are people with anxiety  helped by this..... how do you stop what you can't  control from ending in dementia . I have terrible symptoms  and this does nothing but cause pain . I'm done . With all of it. HfD I do not use Google so I'm not equipped  to cope with it at all in the slightest. As alice in chains said


I'm about as low as I can get..
I'm pretty sure I'm.done
 They asked me if I have  a plan for suicide. I said no to protect my children  mainly my 9 month old. Because  if I had told the truth them maybe they would take her away. Not gonna happen
 I won't  tell them no way.

I was just answering Mickey's question. I thought since you had already read something similar that it wouldn't be bad to post it. If it was, my apologies. 

unfortunately, I don't think not being honest is helping. you need to get the help you need, and for that you need to be 100% truthful, otherwise they'll just write you off. I can't imagine they'd take a baby out of their home because of a parent being depressed. I mean, the baby still has its mother, right?

Thoughts_Arrive

I think the best thing would be to stay off Dr. Google.
Associated does not mean caused by. It just says there is a relationship which may be caused by some other factor.

mickeyrat

lastexitlondon said:

So how are people with anxiety  helped by this..... how do you stop what you can't  control from ending in dementia . I have terrible symptoms  and this does nothing but cause pain . I'm done . With all of it. HfD I do not use Google so I'm not equipped  to cope with it at all in the slightest. As alice in chains said


I'm about as low as I can get..
I'm pretty sure I'm.done
 They asked me if I have  a plan for suicide. I said no to protect my children  mainly my 9 month old. Because  if I had told the truth them maybe they would take her away. Not gonna happen
 I won't  tell them no way.

dementia is a possibility for everyone, as a result of aging.


am curious if you played football growing up or into adulthood? did a lot of headers? Any concussions ever? other head injuries?

have your doctors ever done bloodwork associated with the symptons you've presented?  looking at vitamin B12 levels?  any brain imaging?

whats your diet like?


btw an expat brit frind of mine, former member here, is visiting his dad from monday next. he will mail that cd to you from the uk to simplify things for me. you should see by wnd of next week, I should hope.

mickeyrat

HughFreakingDillon said:

lastexitlondon said:

So how are people with anxiety  helped by this..... how do you stop what you can't  control from ending in dementia . I have terrible symptoms  and this does nothing but cause pain . I'm done . With all of it. HfD I do not use Google so I'm not equipped  to cope with it at all in the slightest. As alice in chains said


I'm about as low as I can get..
I'm pretty sure I'm.done
 They asked me if I have  a plan for suicide. I said no to protect my children  mainly my 9 month old. Because  if I had told the truth them maybe they would take her away. Not gonna happen
 I won't  tell them no way.

I was just answering Mickey's question. I thought since you had already read something similar that it wouldn't be bad to post it. If it was, my apologies. 

unfortunately, I don't think not being honest is helping. you need to get the help you need, and for that you need to be 100% truthful, otherwise they'll just write you off. I can't imagine they'd take a baby out of their home because of a parent being depressed. I mean, the baby still has its mother, right?

yeah, I was trying to see if he was able to get past the header.

learning how it came to be may be useful info, but if true as he believes it to be, learning how to accept it live with it and cope with it effects is more important imo.

as an interested observer here , I can more readily explore and research and remain personally unaffected by the findings and will do so if its welcome here.

fwiw last, you remain lucid and coherent in how you present here.

Thoughts_Arrive

How are you lastexit?

Meltdown99

lastexitlondon said:

I'm beyond scared and rational. I'm beyond panic and lay in bed fear . I past all of these stages. I'm here because  I love pj and I love these people here. In use only my phone and that is becoming an evil that I just cannot sensor. I love all of you that care for each other like brothers and sisters . 
But I need to stop all of this. I need to not keep doing this.  I aim to go to London  18/19. Krakow 3rd July. If I don't I don't if I do I've won a small victory.  I'm not able to use internet or read papers or watch tv anymore
Sorry my friends  here. Remember this live . Live loud. Love. Love plenty. And truth. Always tell the truth  it's liberating.  See you on the flip side. 

Please do not take this the wrong ... but have you or any of the health professionals you ever consider you might be a hypochondriac ... the reason I ask, is that if you are possibly a hypochondriac then maybe there are different options to help.  Once again...please do not take it the wrong way.

Hypochondriac: A person who has hypochondriasis, a disorder characterized by a preoccupation with body functions and the interpretation of normal body sensations (such as sweating) or minor abnormalities (such as minor aches and pains) as portending problems of major medical moment. Reassurance by physicians and others only serves to increase the hypochondriac's persistent anxiety about their health. 

https://www.medicinenet.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=18717

May be worth asking your health professionals...

Gingerlou77

lastexitlondon said:

I'm beyond scared and rational. I'm beyond panic and lay in bed fear . I past all of these stages. I'm here because  I love pj and I love these people here. In use only my phone and that is becoming an evil that I just cannot sensor. I love all of you that care for each other like brothers and sisters . 
But I need to stop all of this. I need to not keep doing this.  I aim to go to London  18/19. Krakow 3rd July. If I don't I don't if I do I've won a small victory.  I'm not able to use internet or read papers or watch tv anymore
Sorry my friends  here. Remember this live . Live loud. Love. Love plenty. And truth. Always tell the truth  it's liberating.  See you on the flip side. 

I just read this thread... Keep on keeping on. Be honest with people who are trying to help, they won't take the baby but they might be able to help you. I hope I get to meet you in London or Krakow and give you a squeeze, life sounds very tough.

Thoughts_Arrive

Lastexit, how are you?

PJ_Soul

Thoughts_Arrive said:

Lastexit, how are you?

He said he was walking away from this thread and the internet in general. I don't know if you should expect a response... Which is of course unsettling, given some of the latest posts. If he is reading it... Hope you're doing okay, and an very quick update would be great if you can, so everyone knows you're hanging in there!

Thoughts_Arrive

PJ_Soul said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

Lastexit, how are you?

He said he was walking away from this thread and the internet in general. I don't know if you should expect a response... Which is of course unsettling, given some of the latest posts. If he is reading it... Hope you're doing okay, and an very quick update would be great if you can, so everyone knows you're hanging in there!

Sorry, I didn't see that he said that.

mickeyrat

when you tire, say the word. Then hand me your oar........

https://youtu.be/6anTpe1WGAA

PJ_Soul

Does anyone know of a way to check on lastexitlondon, outside of this thread? I'm worried about his well being.

mickeyrat

PJ_Soul said:

Does anyone know of a way to check on lastexitlondon, outside of this thread? I'm worried about his well being.

you could try a pm.

he sent me a message saturday to let me know he received the TOOL Lateralus cd I had sent to him. He said he was going for a 2 hr drive to listen.

Had hoped to hear his thoughts on it. No such luck.

PJ_Soul

Glad to hear he's still around.

Thoughts_Arrive

Likewise, I've been thinking about his welfare lately. 

lastexitlondon

Hello everyone sorry  for my absence  . The last thing I wanted  is for anybody to worry. I'm not doing well and I decided  to not post . I was getting  lost and I can't talk about symptoms  with anybody. I'm walking nearly all day most days . I reached  out for help and so far it's 3 weeks since I saw the mental health crisis  team. Nothing has materialized.  I'm sorry. I got freaked out . I still am.  Love each Other that's all we can do. Thanks again Mickey  for reaching beyond. I'm still absorbing the music as it's all new to me.

mickeyrat

lastexitlondon said:

Hello everyone sorry  for my absence  . The last thing I wanted  is for anybody to worry. I'm not doing well and I decided  to not post . I was getting  lost and I can't talk about symptoms  with anybody. I'm walking nearly all day most days . I reached  out for help and so far it's 3 weeks since I saw the mental health crisis  team. Nothing has materialized.  I'm sorry. I got freaked out . I still am.  Love each Other that's all we can do. Thanks again Mickey  for reaching beyond. I'm still absorbing the music as it's all new to me.

good to hear an open mind to it.

keep on keeping on.....

PJ_Soul

lastexitlondon said:

Hello everyone sorry  for my absence  . The last thing I wanted  is for anybody to worry. I'm not doing well and I decided  to not post . I was getting  lost and I can't talk about symptoms  with anybody. I'm walking nearly all day most days . I reached  out for help and so far it's 3 weeks since I saw the mental health crisis  team. Nothing has materialized.  I'm sorry. I got freaked out . I still am.  Love each Other that's all we can do. Thanks again Mickey  for reaching beyond. I'm still absorbing the music as it's all new to me.

Glad to know you're okay - I was just worried because of your last posts before you took a break. I understand needing the break completely. Hang in there - one hour at a time I guess, eh?

lastexitlondon

Yes 1 hr at a time. I'm fucked but I'm doing everything  possible  to be active and busy. I guess my fate is my fate. You are all good people.  But some upset me so I decide to stay away

Thoughts_Arrive

Glad to hear from you.
If you feel a need for a break from here then don't feel bad about it.

camsjam

Relieved to hear you're hanging on. Sorry you're having such a rough time. Best thoughts going out to you....

brianlux

Today I realized, "Fvck!  In less than a week I have to leave for 7 days because of roofing work."  I love day trips but it's gotten to where staying away from home even one night is hard.  A week may prove to be nearly overwhelming.  I know I have to do it, probably nothing bad will happen, but I'm already majorly stressing over having to leave for that long.  I have poor auditory discrimination so when I'm gone at night, my brain engages and zooms in on every freakin' sound trying to identify it so as to know where I am is secure.  Strange places are a war zone of sounds.  Next week will be a huge challenge for me.  Gotta get through it.

rgambs

brianlux said:

Today I realized, "Fvck!  In less than a week I have to leave for 7 days because of roofing work."  I love day trips but it's gotten to where staying away from home even one night is hard.  A week may prove to be nearly overwhelming.  I know I have to do it, probably nothing bad will happen, but I'm already majorly stressing over having to leave for that long.  I have poor auditory discrimination so when I'm gone at night, my brain engages and zooms in on every freakin' sound trying to identify it so as to know where I am is secure.  Strange places are a war zone of sounds.  Next week will be a huge challenge for me.  Gotta get through it.

Can you just wear headphones and listen to groovy tunes the whole time?