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lastexitlondon

All very true

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lastexitlondon said:

All very true

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CROJAM95

lastexitlondon said:

I really wish I could type freely, on a public forum it's so difficult.
I've been sober 8 months and my physical health has petrified me with nowhere to hide and it's like my brain has gone off the chart. I'm due to see mental health professionals today. 
The days turned into the nights turn into today.
Thank you for replying so kindly and openly, I will be thinking of you and hoping you guide your ship to safely 

I hear ya, I went thru a 9 day hospital stay in September right after Philly pj show, was doing very well prior and it came out of nowhere … got a real nasty infection which puzzled my primary doctor due to the fact that the last few years prior my health numbers were the best they’ve been since I can remember. I was feeling great and optimistic on life. The whole thing felt like a cruel joke and if not for a few people helping me stay in the moment I would’ve easily broken…then up until a month ago I wasn’t cleared to resume my daily exercise routine cause I had to rehab and they pumped me full of the strongest antibiotics , which I administered myself at home …. It drained the shit out of me, I was strong and now felt the air come out…. Mentally it was a big challenge. The winter has been pretty bad this year in New York so I’m navigating that , and then as mentioned I’ve had a terrible family situation that reared its ugly head over the summer that fucked me up real bad… some people are not worth it but family stuff is hard to figure out. So now I’m gonna try and see where some good ol Therapy takes me. 

I totally get health things causing strife in our lives, year before that I had a major neck surgery… when I was a kid I almost died at 8 in Europe due to viral Menigitis… spent 2 weeks in a hospital… neck problem was related to that. So it’s been rough here n there… some dark days and not to mention some big bills $$…. All we can do is try our best.

thanks for the well wishes Rob, same to you!

lastexitlondon

CROJAM95 said:

lastexitlondon said:

I really wish I could type freely, on a public forum it's so difficult.
I've been sober 8 months and my physical health has petrified me with nowhere to hide and it's like my brain has gone off the chart. I'm due to see mental health professionals today. 
The days turned into the nights turn into today.
Thank you for replying so kindly and openly, I will be thinking of you and hoping you guide your ship to safely 

I hear ya, I went thru a 9 day hospital stay in September right after Philly pj show, was doing very well prior and it came out of nowhere … got a real nasty infection which puzzled my primary doctor due to the fact that the last few years prior my health numbers were the best they’ve been since I can remember. I was feeling great and optimistic on life. The whole thing felt like a cruel joke and if not for a few people helping me stay in the moment I would’ve easily broken…then up until a month ago I wasn’t cleared to resume my daily exercise routine cause I had to rehab and they pumped me full of the strongest antibiotics , which I administered myself at home …. It drained the shit out of me, I was strong and now felt the air come out…. Mentally it was a big challenge. The winter has been pretty bad this year in New York so I’m navigating that , and then as mentioned I’ve had a terrible family situation that reared its ugly head over the summer that fucked me up real bad… some people are not worth it but family stuff is hard to figure out. So now I’m gonna try and see where some good ol Therapy takes me. 

I totally get health things causing strife in our lives, year before that I had a major neck surgery… when I was a kid I almost died at 8 in Europe due to viral Menigitis… spent 2 weeks in a hospital… neck problem was related to that. So it’s been rough here n there… some dark days and not to mention some big bills $$…. All we can do is try our best.

thanks for the well wishes Rob, same to you!

Great to be able to talk to someone similar. Keep going my friend. Stay in touch

lastexitlondon

When people say " it will be fine" 

Loujoe

One of my best old friends told me the best thing one night. It's not ok and life really sucks sometimes. It's unfair. 
That was so nice to hear and helped me accecept being at the bottom IS OK. Oddly pulled me up. It's nice to have someone sit at the bottom with you a bit. Same friend played alive on the jukebox for me. ❤️ 

mickeyrat

lastexitlondon said:

When people say " it will be fine" 

left off the eventually part, eh?

lastexitlondon

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josevolution

I’ve never felt this anxious or depressed as I do right now it feels like a hollow feeling inside of me! My wife thinks I should see my primary doctor to get me on some medication but I’m not sure I want to, I’m def stopping caffeinated coffee and just going decaf or good tea even with caffeine tea doesn’t have the same effect on me 

lastexitlondon

That hollow feeling. The empty hole is exactly where I'm at jose. I'm up at 5 am walking in the woods crying every day. It won't leave me .
My advice is speak to as many people as possible. If you can identify anything that maybe making you feel sad or fear? 

lastexitlondon

On a side note I stopped meds 10 days ago. It's been murder but it's not for me. Too many reasons why. 
Some people benefit from meds .

josevolution

lastexitlondon said:

That hollow feeling. The empty hole is exactly where I'm at jose. I'm up at 5 am walking in the woods crying every day. It won't leave me .
My advice is speak to as many people as possible. If you can identify anything that maybe making you feel sad or fear? 

Yeah it’s like I’m always hungry but no appetite for eating just thoughts flying through my head the state of affairs here in the states is one of the factors, my son told me yesterday that he’s been having same symptoms and he’s relationship with his girlfriend is coming to an end that’s also affecting me as if I’m braking up instead of him ughh 

HughFreakingDillon

josevolution said:

lastexitlondon said:

That hollow feeling. The empty hole is exactly where I'm at jose. I'm up at 5 am walking in the woods crying every day. It won't leave me .
My advice is speak to as many people as possible. If you can identify anything that maybe making you feel sad or fear? 

Yeah it’s like I’m always hungry but no appetite for eating just thoughts flying through my head the state of affairs here in the states is one of the factors, my son told me yesterday that he’s been having same symptoms and he’s relationship with his girlfriend is coming to an end that’s also affecting me as if I’m braking up instead of him ughh 

I'm no doctor, but yours sounds more situational than clinical requiring meds. But def go see your doc. But be wary if he/she just throws a prescription at you. Therapy should always be the first go to unless it's an emergency. 

josevolution

HughFreakingDillon said:

josevolution said:

lastexitlondon said:

That hollow feeling. The empty hole is exactly where I'm at jose. I'm up at 5 am walking in the woods crying every day. It won't leave me .
My advice is speak to as many people as possible. If you can identify anything that maybe making you feel sad or fear? 

Yeah it’s like I’m always hungry but no appetite for eating just thoughts flying through my head the state of affairs here in the states is one of the factors, my son told me yesterday that he’s been having same symptoms and he’s relationship with his girlfriend is coming to an end that’s also affecting me as if I’m braking up instead of him ughh 

I'm no doctor, but yours sounds more situational than clinical requiring meds. But def go see your doc. But be wary if he/she just throws a prescription at you. Therapy should always be the first go to unless it's an emergency. 

Yep I agree 

lastexitlondon

That shared sorrow from your son sounds relatable. Empath , taking on the pain of close ones. Or even people you don't know can get you like that 

josevolution

lastexitlondon said:

That shared sorrow from your son sounds relatable. Empath , taking on the pain of close ones. Or even people you don't know can get you like that 

Yep it’s totally how I’m feeling I don’t want to see him hurting or his girlfriend either! Man I’m a mess 

lastexitlondon

It's like grief 

lastexitlondon

I'm so fucking done with this