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lastexitlondon said:

Thank you very much. Im feeling  scared  to make a call but  i want to. So i will put the number  on my phone and if i go to my car i will sit and try 

I hope you reached out or found clarity on your own. It's hard to take the first step but then when it's over you wonder why you were so scared. Thinking of you and wishing you well

Matts3221

@lastexitlondon just checking in to see how you are doing. This is a safe place so post whatever you whenever you want. Thinking of you my friend.

hedonist

Good thoughts to you, Rob. I hope you were able to find some concrete assistance. It’s there for you; just take that difficult first step. Doing that in itself can be liberating. 

lastexitlondon

I phoned my dr and he told me to take pills.  I tried  half and it knocked me out and i just woke feel like ive been in  a car accident. This  cant be the way. He recognised i was in agony. His words.  And said for now  take pills . Quitiapine . Man they are too strong i will never be awake  and my garden plot will all die.

Fifthelement

Check with the doc/pharmacist and see if there is another way.  Can you start on a half dose and work up?  You know as well as we do, meds take time.  Don’t give up on treatment.

Wishing all the best for you Rob.

lastexitlondon

Yeah i took only half. He said 2 a day. He is agood guy. Spoke to me for a while and said call back tues. 
I dont like  to post depressing shit here so much. But i really am left with very little choice or hope  . Im better off drinking  and thats sad. The truth is . Its better than this. 
I still am very sure im not for this  world at all anymore. Im trying  to control the uncontrollable  and thats not just this virus its the  people  i love  ,who i cant  make like me and would  never want that.
But for example  my partner has no obligation to me. We have a daughter but i get the impression  its ruined.

mickeyrat

lastexitlondon said:

I phoned my dr and he told me to take pills.  I tried  half and it knocked me out and i just woke feel like ive been in  a car accident. This  cant be the way. He recognised i was in agony. His words.  And said for now  take pills . Quitiapine . Man they are too strong i will never be awake  and my garden plot will all die.

explain thay will you? feel like you've been in a car accident.

what was sleep like before?

have specific reason for asking. will share why after your answer.

lastexitlondon

The tablets i mean being too strong. I only took half and my arms and legs were so heavy in my sleep i struggled  to get them moving when drifting in and out. I slept so much.

mickeyrat

lastexitlondon said:

The tablets i mean being too strong. I only took half and my arms and legs were so heavy in my sleep i struggled  to get them moving when drifting in and out. I slept so much.

but were you rested on awakening? describe the first half hour.

what was sleep like without this med?

lastexitlondon

Without i woke at 4 a.m having been asleep and  maybe i woke once or twice moving around.  I have tennis  elbow bad so it wakes me.. when i woke today i felt like a zombie for an hour. But ok now.

JPPJ84

I‘m no expert but that sounds ok?! Hang in there Rob, trust the doctor. And if you need to talk something off your chest you can still call those hotlines 

mickeyrat

lastexitlondon said:

Without i woke at 4 a.m having been asleep and  maybe i woke once or twice moving around.  I have tennis  elbow bad so it wakes me.. when i woke today i felt like a zombie for an hour. But ok now.

see what half of half does for you?

how many hours per night is usual for you?

lastexitlondon

I only took a quater of what  he said. So its a 25 pill . He said 2 a day. I took half a pill.  So toady i dont want to go back to sleep. Im ok. So i may take half after dinner . I know as soon as i take one in the day time im asleep. So cant. Also cant drive to my garden . 
So i may try that. Or take half a pill when times are very bad

lastexitlondon

JPPJ84 said:

I‘m no expert but that sounds ok?! Hang in there Rob, trust the doctor. And if you need to talk something off your chest you can still call those hotlines 

Thank you 

lastexitlondon

mickeyrat said:

lastexitlondon said:

Without i woke at 4 a.m having been asleep and  maybe i woke once or twice moving around.  I have tennis  elbow bad so it wakes me.. when i woke today i felt like a zombie for an hour. But ok now.

see what half of half does for you?

how many hours per night is usual for you?

Thanks mickey.  Normal for me is about 8hrs.

mickeyrat

Is anyone in contact with njnancy outside of here?

pm'd her on Apr 20. no response and it had been a minute before that I last saw her here....

Fifthelement

mickeyrat said:

Is anyone in contact with njnancy outside of here?

pm'd her on Apr 20. no response and it had been a minute before that I last saw her here....

Unfortunately no, I’m not.  I hope @njnancy is doing okay.  I know she was going through some shit a few months ago and said she needed a break.  She’s in my thoughts.

Fifthelement

lastexitlondon said:

I only took a quater of what  he said. So its a 25 pill . He said 2 a day. I took half a pill.  So toady i dont want to go back to sleep. Im ok. So i may take half after dinner . I know as soon as i take one in the day time im asleep. So cant. Also cant drive to my garden . 
So i may try that. Or take half a pill when times are very bad

Rob, I’m sure that you know this, and I apologise if I sound preachy, but in order for any medication to be effective you need to take it consistently, not just when time’s are bad.  Side effects may be uncomfortable, but should only last a short while.  It will never be effective at changing your health outcome if you pick when and where to use it.  I really want for you to be in a place where you don’t think you’re better off not being here.  (((Hugs)))

what dreams

JPPJ84 said:

I‘m no expert but that sounds ok?! Hang in there Rob, trust the doctor. And if you need to talk something off your chest you can still call those hotlines 

Agreed. I always feel like a zombie the morning after I take a Xanax to sleep. I love that feeling compared to the anxiety that keeps me awake worrying. 

@lastexitlondon, maybe just keep taking the half at night at bed time until your body adjusts and your sleep returns to a normal schedule?

Just please stop believing you don't belong on this earth. You are here to garden and love your family and enjoy all the little things you can. You can do this!

lastexitlondon

Thanks all for this great  advice
 Im under the impression  these  and the valium are prn. So to be used as and when. These strong ones he said take for a few days and call him Tues.  I dont think they are a permanent  thing.