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lastexitlondon said:Im stuck with symptoms again.I cant not have symptoms for even a week. Ive obsessively purchased so may vitamins. Amino acids and pro biotics plus more. Im making life miserable for my partner and added pressure of her 18 year old who has a 5 month old who is alone and not behaving properly to make me feel in more danger. I am sober and hate it. I want out0
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She does i tell her everyday how much i love her and how im so sorry i feel like such a burden. I take our 2 year old to my garden so she gets a break. And i make dinner lots. Without her i would be dead already.
Thank you all so much. To know people care means a great deal to me.
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
lastexitlondon said:She does i tell her everyday how much i love her and how im so sorry i feel like such a burden. I take our 2 year old to my garden so she gets a break. And i make dinner lots. Without her i would be dead already.
Thank you all so much. To know people care means a great deal to me.Rob you are such a strong person , I had a break down this weekend , my wife sat me down and let me know I was so shorted fused I was becoming mean and taking it out on her.
Sadly after focusing on this for a little while I realized she was correct , too much news , too much weed , too much stress , just too much.
Had a tele med appointment with my Dr today and going back to therapy , also this happened on Friday and it was a nice weekend here , there is a community college right down the road from me so its a giant empty parking lot so one lap around the whole thing is one mile. I used to talk about moving and running and how much it helps and the past couple of months I have shut down on all of it.
Saturday - 10.6 miles
Sunday - 10.8 miles
Monday - 8.2 miles
This was huge as well , sun on my face , 29 miles over three days , talking to my doctor , getting set up with new therapy.
Rob my thoughts are with you , I think I just hit rock bottom on Friday and am now coming out the hole that all of us have been in for the past 2-3 months. Love to you and your family.
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Matts3221 said:lastexitlondon said:She does i tell her everyday how much i love her and how im so sorry i feel like such a burden. I take our 2 year old to my garden so she gets a break. And i make dinner lots. Without her i would be dead already.
Thank you all so much. To know people care means a great deal to me.Rob you are such a strong person , I had a break down this weekend , my wife sat me down and let me know I was so shorted fused I was becoming mean and taking it out on her.
Sadly after focusing on this for a little while I realized she was correct , too much news , too much weed , too much stress , just too much.
Had a tele med appointment with my Dr today and going back to therapy , also this happened on Friday and it was a nice weekend here , there is a community college right down the road from me so its a giant empty parking lot so one lap around the whole thing is one mile. I used to talk about moving and running and how much it helps and the past couple of months I have shut down on all of it.
Saturday - 10.6 miles
Sunday - 10.8 miles
Monday - 8.2 miles
This was huge as well , sun on my face , 29 miles over three days , talking to my doctor , getting set up with new therapy.
Rob my thoughts are with you , I think I just hit rock bottom on Friday and am now coming out the hole that all of us have been in for the past 2-3 months. Love to you and your family.
stay safe everyone0 -
JPPJ84 said:Matts3221 said:lastexitlondon said:She does i tell her everyday how much i love her and how im so sorry i feel like such a burden. I take our 2 year old to my garden so she gets a break. And i make dinner lots. Without her i would be dead already.
Thank you all so much. To know people care means a great deal to me.Rob you are such a strong person , I had a break down this weekend , my wife sat me down and let me know I was so shorted fused I was becoming mean and taking it out on her.
Sadly after focusing on this for a little while I realized she was correct , too much news , too much weed , too much stress , just too much.
Had a tele med appointment with my Dr today and going back to therapy , also this happened on Friday and it was a nice weekend here , there is a community college right down the road from me so its a giant empty parking lot so one lap around the whole thing is one mile. I used to talk about moving and running and how much it helps and the past couple of months I have shut down on all of it.
Saturday - 10.6 miles
Sunday - 10.8 miles
Monday - 8.2 miles
This was huge as well , sun on my face , 29 miles over three days , talking to my doctor , getting set up with new therapy.
Rob my thoughts are with you , I think I just hit rock bottom on Friday and am now coming out the hole that all of us have been in for the past 2-3 months. Love to you and your family.
stay safe everyone
Thank you , there is always light at the end of the tunnel sometimes we just have our blinders up for a while and cannot see it.Tuesday 5.6 miles
Wednesday - 7.4 milesI honestly was just blinded with depression and anxiety , even when I thought I was holding it together I realize now I was not.
On my Monday walk I listen to PJ live show were they played No Code front to back, I started crying when Present Tense came on because these words mean so much to me right now." You can spend your time alone , redigesting past regrets
Or you can come to terms and realize
Your the only one who can't forgive yourself
Makes much more sense to live in the present tense"0 -
I listened to that the other morning and felt similarly. I also love how the chaos of Lukin transcends to the clarity and (self)peace of PT.0
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Whoa, weird day. Started out with anxiety over having to go get checked out for skin cancer related problems. Normally routine stuff, but I haven't really been anywhere for two months and so that was weird enough right there plus it was one of those, "Yeah, you really should come in and get it checked out" things. Ah, shit, alright. And then I'm told that the surgeon who does the Mohs surgery for basal cell carcinomas can't get up here to do it for a while. But my regular skin doctor said she could do a Curettage and electrodesiccation. I'll spare the details, but it's a nasty procedure when done to the side of the nose with all those nerve ending there. If it had been an arm or a knee, no big deal, but on the face? Getouttahere! So I'm walking around in face pain the rest of the day and next thing I know, my ears start roaring in my head. The ringing is one thing, but the roaring sounds are ominous and rattle my cage BIG time. So I tried to dull it all with alcohol but I couldn't get past a beer and a half a shot of tequila (my body isn't real cool with alcohol), and the little green smoke I had made me a bit too paranoid. But shit, no way am I taking those pills ever again. No freakin' way. Benzodiazepines and antidepressants are like my legal form of Steppenwolf's "God damn the pusher man." No freakin' way.Sorry for whining. I'll hack it. In the long run, I'm hackin', not packin'."It's a sad and beautiful world"-Roberto Benigni0
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Sending strength and love your way brian. Hold on tight and you are good at riding these episodes out with a positive outlook. Also my shit aside im thinking of matt also and i read all these amd often dont want to add my stuff to other people in times of despair.
I found a whole day alone in my allotment garden in the sun a release. But woke awake to go down hill for no reason.
On a side note last night glen Hansard did a live gig from a library. Well worth a watch. Other voices on you tube. Its just moving if you are a fan of his. The man is a gift
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
JPPJ84 said:Matts3221 said:lastexitlondon said:She does i tell her everyday how much i love her and how im so sorry i feel like such a burden. I take our 2 year old to my garden so she gets a break. And i make dinner lots. Without her i would be dead already.
Thank you all so much. To know people care means a great deal to me.Rob you are such a strong person , I had a break down this weekend , my wife sat me down and let me know I was so shorted fused I was becoming mean and taking it out on her.
Sadly after focusing on this for a little while I realized she was correct , too much news , too much weed , too much stress , just too much.
Had a tele med appointment with my Dr today and going back to therapy , also this happened on Friday and it was a nice weekend here , there is a community college right down the road from me so its a giant empty parking lot so one lap around the whole thing is one mile. I used to talk about moving and running and how much it helps and the past couple of months I have shut down on all of it.
Saturday - 10.6 miles
Sunday - 10.8 miles
Monday - 8.2 miles
This was huge as well , sun on my face , 29 miles over three days , talking to my doctor , getting set up with new therapy.
Rob my thoughts are with you , I think I just hit rock bottom on Friday and am now coming out the hole that all of us have been in for the past 2-3 months. Love to you and your family.
stay safe everyone
Yeah can I give a big shout out to all of our husband / wives / partners who are there for us and help us thru our rough times. There is so much love with my wife but she is a saint for the times I fall off the deep end. I am always there for here when she hits hard times but the people in our lives who help us are true heros.0 -
lastexitlondon said:Sending strength and love your way brian. Hold on tight and you are good at riding these episodes out with a positive outlook. Also my shit aside im thinking of matt also and i read all these amd often dont want to add my stuff to other people in times of despair.
I found a whole day alone in my allotment garden in the sun a release. But woke awake to go down hill for no reason.
On a side note last night glen Hansard did a live gig from a library. Well worth a watch. Other voices on you tube. Its just moving if you are a fan of his. The man is a giftThanks, my friend, you hang in there too. A little time in the garden and sun sounds nice.Yeah, I love it that some of our favorite musicians are posting performances on the internet. One of my favorites, Steve Wynn has done some cool stuff from his home in NYC.Stay safe and well, all."It's a sad and beautiful world"-Roberto Benigni0 -
Thinking about everyone here. I hope your all managing to get through your days relatively unscathed. Each of you are amazing! Much love❤️"What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0
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What a lovely message. I need that today i am at my wits end.
I need an out . Im doing everything right but it maybe time for some kind of vice.
Im losing the point of living
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Fifthelement said:Thinking about everyone here. I hope your all managing to get through your days relatively unscathed. Each of you are amazing! Much love❤️
What a nice thing to say! Thank you!
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Has anyone here ever phoned the Samaritans?
I only ask because i need to get help and its a pandemic and today is the lowest ive felt i know the damage i am causeing and i know my death would hurt a lot of people but over the last 3 days i cant stop thoughts and i can see the harm someone like me puts on loved ones. I want it to stop but it never will.
I lost one family and didn't see the harm being me had caused until after.
My partner said i should call someone but who.
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
Hi Rob,
definitely call someone. Here are two numbers in the UK, the second specifically for men. You can also chat to them.
Talk it all off your chest!
Thinking of you
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Thank you very much. Im feeling scared to make a call but i want to. So i will put the number on my phone and if i go to my car i will sit and try
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
lastexitlondon said:Thank you very much. Im feeling scared to make a call but i want to. So i will put the number on my phone and if i go to my car i will sit and try0
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lastexitlondon said:Has anyone here ever phoned the Samaritans?
I only ask because i need to get help and its a pandemic and today is the lowest ive felt i know the damage i am causeing and i know my death would hurt a lot of people but over the last 3 days i cant stop thoughts and i can see the harm someone like me puts on loved ones. I want it to stop but it never will.
I lost one family and didn't see the harm being me had caused until after.
My partner said i should call someone but who.Athens 2006. Dusseldorf 2007. Berlin 2009. Venice 2010. Amsterdam 1 2012. Amsterdam 1+2 2014. Buenos Aires 2015.
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EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..0 -
lastexitlondon said:Thank you very much. Im feeling scared to make a call but i want to. So i will put the number on my phone and if i go to my car i will sit and try
Thinking of you today my friend , stay strong please , don't be afraid to reach out or to just rant on here if you like. Feel free to post as much as you want.0 -
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Rob, you are in my heart and thoughts. I hope that you were, are, able to reach out for help. It’s the strongest you will ever have to be. Your PJ family is here to support you if and when needed. You are loved!"What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0
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