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  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    standing at the kitchen sink, her gloved arms halfway to the elbow deep in suds, the perfume of jasmine wafts through the open window. its a clear blue late winters day... almost spring. the warmth envelopes her and she knows this is the turn of the seasons. the days are longer, the sun brighter, her mood lifting. she cant wait to be out there amongst it. documenting what catches her eye. watching the toddlermonster as she nears her first day of school. in a few weeks itll be 5 years since she arrived and the pleasure of watching this little person grow is endless. she has spirit and spunk and the words to express everything around her in her child wonder. everything is rainbows and polarbears and unicorns. her boundless enthusiasm for the life around her sometimes has her lost for the words to express the thoughts crowding her little head. she wants to be heard. she wants to be seen. she wants to sing and to dance and be given and to give squeezy hugs. her name is piper and she is my grand daughter.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • rollingsrollings unknownPosts: 6,629
    .......a dagger
    against my skin...
    ... and i cant breathe

    holy

    I know that feeling,
    that is the description of it

    and your descrition of your granddaughter (never'd've thunk it )
    was very fun to read
    piper is an awesome name I think. never heard of it before
    How's the view from the fence?
  • tremorstremors Posts: 8,051
    standing at the kitchen sink, her gloved arms halfway to the elbow deep in suds, the perfume of jasmine wafts through the open window. its a clear blue late winters day... almost spring. the warmth envelopes her and she knows this is the turn of the seasons. the days are longer, the sun brighter, her mood lifting. she cant wait to be out there amongst it. documenting what catches her eye. watching the toddlermonster as she nears her first day of school. in a few weeks itll be 5 years since she arrived and the pleasure of watching this little person grow is endless. she has spirit and spunk and the words to express everything around her in her child wonder. everything is rainbows and polarbears and unicorns. her boundless enthusiasm for the life around her sometimes has her lost for the words to express the thoughts crowding her little head. she wants to be heard. she wants to be seen. she wants to sing and to dance and be given and to give squeezy hugs. her name is piper and she is my grand daughter.


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  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    thanx dang. thanx tremors.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • justamjustam Posts: 20,950
    standing at the kitchen sink, her gloved arms halfway to the elbow deep in suds, the perfume of jasmine wafts through the open window. its a clear blue late winters day... almost spring. the warmth envelopes her and she knows this is the turn of the seasons. the days are longer, the sun brighter, her mood lifting. she cant wait to be out there amongst it. documenting what catches her eye. watching the toddlermonster as she nears her first day of school. in a few weeks itll be 5 years since she arrived and the pleasure of watching this little person grow is endless. she has spirit and spunk and the words to express everything around her in her child wonder. everything is rainbows and polarbears and unicorns. her boundless enthusiasm for the life around her sometimes has her lost for the words to express the thoughts crowding her little head. she wants to be heard. she wants to be seen. she wants to sing and to dance and be given and to give squeezy hugs. her name is piper and she is my grand daughter.

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  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    i hate that youre inside my head
    i hate that youre not here
    i hate that i feel what i do
    i hate the need to distract me with others
    i hate a desire so strong
    i hate all the anger built up
    i hate that i hate all of the above
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    when he asked she said
    its what she always did
    looking him straight in the eye
    with not so much as a twitch
    or hesitation to question

    when she asked he said
    its as he expected
    getting to know her as he was
    sometimes he forgot
    but then she smiled
    and he knew it was beyond her

    deception was a weakness
    but it wasnt her weakness

    he had to admit
    sometimes her truth made it difficult
    but again...
    that was his weakness,
    not hers.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    i can always tell
    when its time for bed
    my thoughts wander to you
    and ive run out of booze
    to drown the noise
    but just cause its time for bed
    doesnt mean ill be getting any sleep
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    i need to go home
    to find out if
    what im feeling is real
    or if its just
    the distance weighing
    heavy on me.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    he watches them from a distance
    the easy laughter and gentle touches
    the way she looks when theyre together
    this is the one, she tells him all the time
    but when she is alone he knows
    what she refuses to admit to herself

    the wind glues her dress against her body
    and breath he does not have catches in his throat
    her hair out of control as she fights to regain it
    the man reaches out drawing her close
    brushes the hair from her face
    kisses her lips and speaks

    he knows what is being said
    and she never wants to hear it
    she clings to the man willing him to stay
    he cant he tells her, she knows better
    tears fill her eyes and she loses her strength

    he sighs a slight smile
    he knows the man has faults, but
    just like she says, he is the one
    and she will never let go of that
    even when she lets him go

    he looks up at the sky
    it grows darker and the clouds close in
    the first drops see him indoors
    and just like her, he will wait.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • chadwickchadwick up my assPosts: 20,893
    you are a gift, cate
    i am grateful that you are who you are and share your poetry with us. i also enjoy your works outside these poetic walls here in the creative writing area.

    be well.
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    I am tired; my heart is
    sick and sad. From where
    the sun stands I will fight
    no more forever."

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  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    thanks chad.. i havent been feeling much like writing lately.. but i think the time has come to push past the mental lethargy. i need to be more disciplined.. and thats not really my thing.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • justamjustam Posts: 20,950
    We like to read what you put up cate. Does that help? :geek:
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  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    justam wrote:
    We like to read what you put up cate. Does that help? :geek:

    no... its an internal thing. and thank you.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    edited May 2012
    so.. did she trash talk me to you as well????
    cause im kinda wondering
    how far the deceit goes
    did she tell you im not to be trusted?
    that im a bit of whore and kind of a bitch?
    that i did things of which she didnt approve?
    did she laugh at my expense?
    did it all sound right to you?
    did you think she told the truth?
    as she boosted your ego tell me..
    .. did she trash talk me to you too?
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    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    she hides in the chapel
    the sacred place for her fears
    down on her knees
    her head in her hands
    she mouths the words
    that only she can hear

    she feels her strength seep
    into the floor of cold stone
    the lies in her head
    the scars within and without
    she mouths the words
    to promises that keep her alone

    she sighs when shes done
    puts her forehead to her knees
    a smile forms on her lips
    the realisation hardens her soul
    that when she walks into the light
    her first flight will be her release
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    i see you around
    and i wonder.
    i keep my hands
    in my pockets
    so i dont reach out
    but i smile and still
    cant help but wonder...
    what if youd stayed closer
    than just around?
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    do you say what you mean when you mean to say it
    or do you keep it bottled up tight inside?

    do you stand to the side and watch as love walks right by you
    or do you step in its path so it sighs?

    do you squeeze his hand just that little much tighter so he remembers youre beside him
    or do you allow him the room to take flight?

    do you smile in your sleep at the dreams that youre having
    or do you hope just to wake in the morn?

    did you tell her you loved her with all the pride you could muster
    or was the tone of her voice enough to keep you quiet?

    do you still listen to her music hoping thats where youll find her
    or do you now know she wont ever be found?

    do you think of them so often it feels like yours inside are being eaten
    or are you too full on your life now to take a bite?
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    sometimes i think ive gone insane the way people come to me as if their slate is clean. have you thought about what youve done? did i somehow express that betrayal was okay by me? ive not heard from you in who the fuck knows how long and somehow im suppose to make room for you? i do want to be okay with me and that means you cant be in my life. i cant pretend what you did didnt hurt. i cant pretend he meant nothing to me. i told you what he meant to me.... i told you everything i felt.. nothing has changed. he is deep inside me.... yet absent. so now id appreciate it if you backed the fuck off cause i dont want to deal with you
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    she captures his soul with every breath... every move she makes stops him... every touch energises him
    she smiles and he sighs... his perfect world on this perfect day... every day. then she lies and tells him shell always be by his side.. that she wont ever leave him... he believes it all... in total ignorance he wraps himself in her.. she reaches out to another and starts to weave... and starts to believe the lies....
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    the sun sets pink between the tall trees
    a cockatoo calls solo into the waning day
    he sits, an ankle resting on his knee, his baby daughter sleeping unaware,
    with the gentle rocking and the warm heartbeat of her father.
    he watches as she turns the soil tending plants, each keeping the other alive
    for now, and he waits for her to come back from further than the field she tends...
    ...and hopes that she will.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • justamjustam Posts: 20,950
    This ^^^ is a sweet picture cate. :)
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  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    justam wrote:
    This ^^^ is a sweet picture cate. :)

    thank you.

    that one came to me while i was walking home from the shops yesterday and as i walked i kept repeating the lines so i wouldnt forget them.. when i walked through the front door i dumped the groceries and told the kids to shush cause i had some words in my head i had to get out... then they could talk to me. i was thinking it maybe part of something bigger but im not sure now.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • justamjustam Posts: 20,950
    I could certainly see it as something bigger.

    It seems warm with orange light on their skin to me. Tropical. With dark brown dirt! :)
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  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    justam wrote:
    I could certainly see it as something bigger.

    It seems warm with orange light on their skin to me. Tropical. With dark brown dirt! :)

    maybe sub tropical... and the dirt is red.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    do you ever stop and wonder whats inside my head?
    do you ever think what if our thoughts match
    do you ever think to reach out, then stop not wanting to look the fool?
    do you ever feel the silence in between is just too much to bear?

    or do you just sit there quietly and wish i wasnt there?
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    she stood on the bank above the river her brow furrowed her face a quizzical mask. her shoulder barely touching his. is that it? she asked. yeah. what were you expecting? something more. i thought itd be bigger.. more majestic somehow. he sighed. thats your problem girl, you always expect something more. why shouldnt i? cause its not how it works. well it should. its just a river you know. hmm thought wed gotten on to something else there he kept his mouth shut. she was expert at getting him to talk about stuff at times he didnt want to. and he didnt want to do so now.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    in my shoes i hate to be
    id rather be in my bare feet

    id rather not hear your voice
    or see the light of another dawn

    id rather someone kill me now
    than wait and wonder where and how

    make it quick sneak up from behind
    such joyful silence will then be mine
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    they came to see her smile... they shouldntve wasted their time. she stood there waiting... watching from behind tired eyes. she had nothing to say and clearly they didnt either. they stood there waiting... and waiting.. they talked quietly amongst themselves and didnt notice that when one of them yawned she smiled.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,836
    his voice scratches as he sings
    stretched across his broken heart
    something goin' on inside
    but they all dont see it
    his deep sad is what they like
    yeah they see that alright

    falling down trying to get up
    he takes his leave
    through the back door
    heavy metal in his hand

    seen from behind walking
    his head down, his mind dark
    rests a while, his back against a decaying fence
    life comes down to moments they say
    and this is one of them
    his body expels a heavy sigh
    as a dark night descends upon his soul
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
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