A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

Love and strength to all of you!  

((((Hugs)))) and ❤️❤️❤️❤️ to you all.  Working retail can be a challenge at the best of times never mind during a pandemic.  Enjoy your walks.  I like to let my mind wander and daydream during my walks. 

lastexitlondon said:

I need to share . 
I have a 3 year old . We live in a 2 bed flat and there  are 4 of us.
I cannot cope at all. She is super intelligent  and needs constant  stimulating. 
She talks at me non stop and won't  accept  my answers.  I feel myself being rude or abrupt and I hate myself.  Now I'm back in a pattern  of addiction. We don't leave our flat much only to walk around very local.
I hate what I've become.  I don't have brain capacity  to be better everything  just confuses the fuck out of me. 
I've got nothing  left in the tank at all. I feel my blood boiling so easily

That must be really hard Rob.  Are you able to arrange it so that each of the adults can share both engagement time with your daughter as well as alone time?  It must be very hard for your little one as well.  She’s unable to meet and play with children her own age. Do you guys have a scheduled exercise, quiet time, or reading time?  Might be a good time to start a yoga routine lol

I want to just throw the towel in , I never would and know I will get past this but the last few months have been the hardest I have had in a long time.

I find myself withdrawn from everything , not caring , taking naps a lot , going to bed super early , my stomach has been killing me for weeks and today I finally called my doctor and they did some xrays today along with blood work and urine just to make sure I don't have any type of infection or something else that may be causing these pains ( other than stress and anxiety ) honestly just finally going to the doctors already has me feeling a little better.

Two weeks ago I walked into the grocery story and was maksed up and saw everyone with mask and it just hit me so hard " I want this over with " and I just started to cry , left the store and just wept in my car.

Winters are rough , cold weather , sun going down early , no were to go at all , its coming up on a year of hugging someone in my family. I know collectively we are all going thru this and that is what makes it harder for me to post something like this.

I don't think anyone would judge me but I feel like " everyone is going thru this , at least you still have a job and a house and your wife and health who am I to complain" but it just feels like the walls closing in at times.

Most of this was just to vent , if I raised anyone's anxiety from this my apologizes and love to you all.

lastexitlondon said:

Thanks  rgambs you are someone I really respect and look up to.  I find myself agreeing with lots you say. A good soul.

Thanks!  
For what it's worth, and I know I'm not the first to say it, you don't come across as someone who is having trouble with cognition...you seem about 10x more on top of things than the average shitwit I deal with in a normal day.

Fifthelement said:

@Matts3221

(((Hugs))) I hope that your tests all come back negative. Sounds like your sliding in to a depression. I hope you’re able to get what you need.  

btw, just because everyone is “going through it” doesn’t mean that you’re not allowed to feel what you feel just because you’re not in a worse position than others. 

Just try to get through one day at a time.  Maybe do some laugh therapy. Put some comedies on the tube: “O Brother” always makes me laugh and is eminently quotable. Everything’s me me or my husband says “damn” the other always responds, “we’re in a tight spot.” Stand in front of the mirror and laugh, Think of a silly thing a pet of your did / does. Allow yourself to let go and just laugh.  Also, if you have a UV light, some light therapy might help.  Thinking of you and cheering you on.  I know you’ve worked really hard to get to a good spot in your life, it’s frustrating that things beyond your control are threatening your mental health.  Just keep reaching out, we’re here for you.  We are all, at some level, going through the shit right now, so know that you are not alone.

S xx

Thank you for the kind words. I’m definitely slipping into depression and that was why I made the doctors appointment today.

my wife is helping me find a new therapist and I do have a SAD lamp and I just need to use it.

exercise got me Thur most of this but my place is too small for a treadmill and i just can’t go out when it is 15-20 degrees outside to run.

My hope is baby steps , I’m hopeful all test come back ok and they tell me it’s my nerves getting the best of me , started eating better last night as stomach pains are not good for shitty food. March is just around the corner , get those temps up to 50 and I can get back out there.

everything just sucks and thank you for letting me realize it’s fine for me to complain. I know I have not posted on here much this winter but I may use it as a tool as well to keep myself on track and talk to you all a little more.

going have some soup and try to relax for the night

rgambs said:

lastexitlondon said:

Thanks  rgambs you are someone I really respect and look up to.  I find myself agreeing with lots you say. A good soul.

Thanks!  
For what it's worth, and I know I'm not the first to say it, you don't come across as someone who is having trouble with cognition...you seem about 10x more on top of things than the average shitwit I deal with in a normal day.

agreed

hedonist said:

Had a tough patch earlier - not quite an anxiety thing, but not quite not.

How’d it pass? A few muffled guttural screams, some tears, and time. Still feel the after-effects though; kinda like a migraine, it lingers quietly. 

Man, I hate this shit. Thankful it hasn’t happened in a while. Good riddance, motherfucker. 

(((Hugs))) Thinking of you Hedo.  Keep breathing.