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  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    Thanks Mickey. I agree.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • stuckinline
    stuckinline Posts: 3,406
    Feeling depressed this morning.
    I'll probably never be able to afford to buy another property. Looks like I'll be living in share houses for life as a single man.
    Try to look at the positive side of being single. You can eat what you want, go to bed when you want, you don't have to share the bathroom, etc, etc.....
    Life is dynamic, where you are now mentally and physically is a temporary situation.
    The most difficult step is the first step. 

  • Matts3221
    Matts3221 Posts: 658

    LastExit super glad to hear you are still on the path of soberness. That said I think it will be weeks before you start to see some better results. That said I truly wish you the best.

    Thoughts_Arrived - I know it is hard to make the first step , in fact it can be terrifying , humans are pretty much creatures of habit and when we are used to something even if we hate it , it can be hard to break. I think it is why so many people stay at jobs they don't like , they have security and a routine.

    I was just a little bummed this weekend to lose out on MSG tickets but I then realized what first world problems those are and got my ass to the gym and chiropractor.

    Love to you all.

  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,521
    mickeyrat said:
    mickeyrat said:
    I think some part of you deep down doesn't want to. As bad as your present thinking and feeling may be, its a comfort zone. A known thing to rely on. Removal of it presents a scary proposition. The great unknown.

    eventually a continuation of what was the uncomfortably comfortable existence became a greater fear than what was the unknown for me.

    Challenges to meet and walk through to be sure, but now I'm on a motherfucking adventure!!!!! And I wouldnt have it any other way.......
    "I miss the comfort in being sad"
    more like , I hate my present but am too afraid of what life could be without it.
    when I started to really get down and dirty with anxiety and depression, I finally understood what that lyric meant. I find that Kurt was so easily able to articulate the simplest and most complex depressive feelings in song. 
    By The Time They Figure Out What Went Wrong, We'll Be Sitting On A Beach, Earning Twenty Percent.




  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,533
    mickeyrat said:
    mickeyrat said:
    I think some part of you deep down doesn't want to. As bad as your present thinking and feeling may be, its a comfort zone. A known thing to rely on. Removal of it presents a scary proposition. The great unknown.

    eventually a continuation of what was the uncomfortably comfortable existence became a greater fear than what was the unknown for me.

    Challenges to meet and walk through to be sure, but now I'm on a motherfucking adventure!!!!! And I wouldnt have it any other way.......
    "I miss the comfort in being sad"
    more like , I hate my present but am too afraid of what life could be without it.
    when I started to really get down and dirty with anxiety and depression, I finally understood what that lyric meant. I find that Kurt was so easily able to articulate the simplest and most complex depressive feelings in song. 
    thank you. wasnt sure how to take that in. I didnt know the reference.

    and yes, I agree with your assessment, even with my limited knowledge of Nirvana. His voice furthered that as well. raw emotive vulnerable.....
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    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
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  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,521
    mickeyrat said:
    mickeyrat said:
    mickeyrat said:
    I think some part of you deep down doesn't want to. As bad as your present thinking and feeling may be, its a comfort zone. A known thing to rely on. Removal of it presents a scary proposition. The great unknown.

    eventually a continuation of what was the uncomfortably comfortable existence became a greater fear than what was the unknown for me.

    Challenges to meet and walk through to be sure, but now I'm on a motherfucking adventure!!!!! And I wouldnt have it any other way.......
    "I miss the comfort in being sad"
    more like , I hate my present but am too afraid of what life could be without it.
    when I started to really get down and dirty with anxiety and depression, I finally understood what that lyric meant. I find that Kurt was so easily able to articulate the simplest and most complex depressive feelings in song. 
    thank you. wasnt sure how to take that in. I didnt know the reference.

    and yes, I agree with your assessment, even with my limited knowledge of Nirvana. His voice furthered that as well. raw emotive vulnerable.....
    it is just so easy to do nothing. it's the hardest thing to go through, but the easiest to let happen. that's what that lyric means to me. as shitty as it was, there was a sort of wanting to be there, I think it made it easier to deal with if I thought that I wanted this, and it felt comfortable, instead of it being out of my control. 
    By The Time They Figure Out What Went Wrong, We'll Be Sitting On A Beach, Earning Twenty Percent.




  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,533
    mickeyrat said:
    mickeyrat said:
    mickeyrat said:
    I think some part of you deep down doesn't want to. As bad as your present thinking and feeling may be, its a comfort zone. A known thing to rely on. Removal of it presents a scary proposition. The great unknown.

    eventually a continuation of what was the uncomfortably comfortable existence became a greater fear than what was the unknown for me.

    Challenges to meet and walk through to be sure, but now I'm on a motherfucking adventure!!!!! And I wouldnt have it any other way.......
    "I miss the comfort in being sad"
    more like , I hate my present but am too afraid of what life could be without it.
    when I started to really get down and dirty with anxiety and depression, I finally understood what that lyric meant. I find that Kurt was so easily able to articulate the simplest and most complex depressive feelings in song. 
    thank you. wasnt sure how to take that in. I didnt know the reference.

    and yes, I agree with your assessment, even with my limited knowledge of Nirvana. His voice furthered that as well. raw emotive vulnerable.....
    it is just so easy to do nothing. it's the hardest thing to go through, but the easiest to let happen. that's what that lyric means to me. as shitty as it was, there was a sort of wanting to be there, I think it made it easier to deal with if I thought that I wanted this, and it felt comfortable, instead of it being out of my control. 
    exactly. the lies we tell ourselves, the worst being "maybe I deserve this life......"
    _____________________________________SIGNATURE________________________________________________

    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    It's also the hard decision of whether or not to continue with my university studies or just look for a full time job. My head is spinning.
    I don't know what to do and it's stressing me out.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,521
    It's also the hard decision of whether or not to continue with my university studies or just look for a full time job. My head is spinning.
    I don't know what to do and it's stressing me out.
    you know what to do. you just don't want to do it. 

    get a job
    move out
    move on with your life
    continue your studies part time as you can
    By The Time They Figure Out What Went Wrong, We'll Be Sitting On A Beach, Earning Twenty Percent.




  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    It's also the hard decision of whether or not to continue with my university studies or just look for a full time job. My head is spinning.
    I don't know what to do and it's stressing me out.
    you know what to do. you just don't want to do it. 

    get a job
    move out
    move on with your life
    continue your studies part time as you can
    The problem with trying to find a job is that in order to receive the dole I can only apply for full time jobs.
    If I apply for part time jobs I won't get my dole payments.
    I'd like to apply for part time jobs so I can study part time but it's not possible. 
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • JPPJ84
    JPPJ84 Hamburg, Germany Posts: 3,464
    It's also the hard decision of whether or not to continue with my university studies or just look for a full time job. My head is spinning.
    I don't know what to do and it's stressing me out.
    you know what to do. you just don't want to do it. 

    get a job
    move out
    move on with your life
    continue your studies part time as you can
    The problem with trying to find a job is that in order to receive the dole I can only apply for full time jobs.
    If I apply for part time jobs I won't get my dole payments.
    I'd like to apply for part time jobs so I can study part time but it's not possible. 
    I‘ve got colleagues working full time and finishing their degrees at the same time. It’s some sort of part-time uni program that allows them to do that. I’m sure you have those in Australia as well?
  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,521
    what's a dole?
    By The Time They Figure Out What Went Wrong, We'll Be Sitting On A Beach, Earning Twenty Percent.




  • JPPJ84
    JPPJ84 Hamburg, Germany Posts: 3,464
    edited January 2020
    what's a dole?
    Unemployment payment. That’s British English for you ;)
  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,521
    ok, but if you work part time you are still (likely) living with your parents. it's time get a job, and start enjoying life instead of down in a hole. cut the cord. 

    get a full time job. do your studies part time at your own pace. see the world. get outside. flip your mom the bird and walk on. 
    By The Time They Figure Out What Went Wrong, We'll Be Sitting On A Beach, Earning Twenty Percent.




  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    Forgot to say, I've been badly bullied in my last few jobs and been fired so going back to work fills me with anxiety. I don't want to go through being made fun of again
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • deadendp
    deadendp Northeast Ohio Posts: 10,434
    JPPJ84 said:
    what's a dole?
    Unemployment payment. That’s British English for you ;)
    Unemployment in the US means you have had a job, lost it (closed, wrongfully terminated..) or were laid off and unemployment is a benefit that isn't neverending.  It is finite. 

    Might sound like the US equivalent to be welfare. 

    T_A, Wouldn't it be uplifting to be self-supporting and to go without assistance? Many of us here worked 2-3 jobs during college (hand raised high here) or such to support families and whatnot. Sometimes you have to adjust goals to achieve the end prize. Just a thought. 
    2014: Cincinnati
    2016: Lexington and Wrigley 1
  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    I'd rather take my own life that be made to suffer at the hands of workplace bullies
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • JPPJ84
    JPPJ84 Hamburg, Germany Posts: 3,464
    I don’t know what kind of shithole company you worked for that they allowed bullying. All I know is that nowadays, most companies do take it seriously, having Codes of conduct, equality commissioners and what not. Do not for one second believe that what you experienced is the norm. Don’t let it define you and hold you back. And most definitely don’t let anyone ever bully you again. It’s not just about how people treat you but also how you let them treat you 
  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    I'd rather take my own life that be made to suffer at the hands of workplace bullies
    And to tack on to what JPP said, don't use that remote possibility as an excuse to continue as you are.
  • deadendp
    deadendp Northeast Ohio Posts: 10,434
    I'd rather take my own life that be made to suffer at the hands of workplace bullies
    I did not suggest that you needed to work amongst bullies, but dude-- you need to work. You need to trust that out there is a job or jobs that would fit well. You can't always go into it looking for failure. Some places are bad. Some people will not be lovely. No place will be perfect, but often you ignore some and gravitate toward others. You can let some eat you alive or you can let others uplift. A chunk of how it pans out is a matter of choices. Advocate for yourself. Choose good things for you and stop talking yourself out of it.

    Are you planning to work after you receive your degree? Are you interested in looking into counseling people or research? It's probably been covered but I cannot recall. 
    2014: Cincinnati
    2016: Lexington and Wrigley 1