PJ fans in 12 step Recovery
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mickeyrat said:HughFreakingDillon said:that's it. I've had it.
-the amount of money that I spend on it
-the health factor. not just booze. but it inevitably leads to poor eating choices. bags of chips, fast food. just garbage. and my weight has ballooned out of control as a result.
-my wife hates it. it has taken a toll on our marriage.
-i don't want my kids growing up only knowing their dad getting loaded on weekends. my 13 year old has made the odd comment, and I don't like it.
-sometimes if I'm hung over, I'm not enjoying the day. I am wishing it over with. I can't wait to just "get through". the odd weekends where I am not hung over have felt like another world.
I just don't have an off switch. Never have. I just drink until it's gone, or I've gone way overboard.
I spoke to my GP about this some time ago. When I told him how much I drank (usually a 26 of rye per weekend) he told me, "well, that's about average, you're just doing it in two sittings, where most people do it in 7".
But this past weekend I blasted through a 40, a 26, a 2 litre of wine, and a few beers. that's NOT normal for me. So that's it. I can't have it getting any worse than that.
I don't know how I'm alive after all that.
I just want to go back to being a normal person that gets up at a normal hour on a saturday morning and doesn't have to "get through" the day.Hugh Freaking Dillon is currently out of the office, returning sometime in the fall0 -
HughFreakingDillon said:mickeyrat said:HughFreakingDillon said:that's it. I've had it.
-the amount of money that I spend on it
-the health factor. not just booze. but it inevitably leads to poor eating choices. bags of chips, fast food. just garbage. and my weight has ballooned out of control as a result.
-my wife hates it. it has taken a toll on our marriage.
-i don't want my kids growing up only knowing their dad getting loaded on weekends. my 13 year old has made the odd comment, and I don't like it.
-sometimes if I'm hung over, I'm not enjoying the day. I am wishing it over with. I can't wait to just "get through". the odd weekends where I am not hung over have felt like another world.
I just don't have an off switch. Never have. I just drink until it's gone, or I've gone way overboard.
I spoke to my GP about this some time ago. When I told him how much I drank (usually a 26 of rye per weekend) he told me, "well, that's about average, you're just doing it in two sittings, where most people do it in 7".
But this past weekend I blasted through a 40, a 26, a 2 litre of wine, and a few beers. that's NOT normal for me. So that's it. I can't have it getting any worse than that.
I don't know how I'm alive after all that.
I just want to go back to being a normal person that gets up at a normal hour on a saturday morning and doesn't have to "get through" the day.I kinda like your GP......so, according to the AA book, you would classify as either a heavy drinker, able to stop or moderate with sufficient reason to do so. Or an alcoholic who is compelled to drink regardless of effort at stopping, one who may be able to stop or moderate for a time but generally returns to drinking for any or no reason at all.I sincerely hope its the former for you. In either case, there is support to be had. Here of course and elsewhere as well from a variety of sources, AA being one of them if an alcoholic.whatever the course you take, the desired result is the same. To go to bed sober on a daily basis. One day at a time._____________________________________SIGNATURE________________________________________________
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '140 -
Great dialogue really appreciate all of you and your honesty...thank you...be well!0
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mickeyrat said:HughFreakingDillon said:mickeyrat said:HughFreakingDillon said:that's it. I've had it.
-the amount of money that I spend on it
-the health factor. not just booze. but it inevitably leads to poor eating choices. bags of chips, fast food. just garbage. and my weight has ballooned out of control as a result.
-my wife hates it. it has taken a toll on our marriage.
-i don't want my kids growing up only knowing their dad getting loaded on weekends. my 13 year old has made the odd comment, and I don't like it.
-sometimes if I'm hung over, I'm not enjoying the day. I am wishing it over with. I can't wait to just "get through". the odd weekends where I am not hung over have felt like another world.
I just don't have an off switch. Never have. I just drink until it's gone, or I've gone way overboard.
I spoke to my GP about this some time ago. When I told him how much I drank (usually a 26 of rye per weekend) he told me, "well, that's about average, you're just doing it in two sittings, where most people do it in 7".
But this past weekend I blasted through a 40, a 26, a 2 litre of wine, and a few beers. that's NOT normal for me. So that's it. I can't have it getting any worse than that.
I don't know how I'm alive after all that.
I just want to go back to being a normal person that gets up at a normal hour on a saturday morning and doesn't have to "get through" the day.I kinda like your GP......so, according to the AA book, you would classify as either a heavy drinker, able to stop or moderate with sufficient reason to do so. Or an alcoholic who is compelled to drink regardless of effort at stopping, one who may be able to stop or moderate for a time but generally returns to drinking for any or no reason at all.I sincerely hope its the former for you. In either case, there is support to be had. Here of course and elsewhere as well from a variety of sources, AA being one of them if an alcoholic.whatever the course you take, the desired result is the same. To go to bed sober on a daily basis. One day at a time.Hugh Freaking Dillon is currently out of the office, returning sometime in the fall0 -
More power to you. Im still wishing from a far that i could stop.
I hope you can do what you need. And i believe you are not in too deep .
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
good luck, Hugh!
Thanksgiving may or may not be a challenge for me....it’s always been my favorite boozy holiday.If I had known then what I know now...
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Haha....every holiday was my favorite boozy holiday. In fact, who needed the holidays for a reason to begin with?
Challenges, whether conquering them or even trying to, have served my liberation well.
...but not so much my liver-ation0 -
hedonist said:Haha....every holiday was my favorite boozy holiday. In fact, who needed the holidays for a reason to begin with?
Challenges, whether conquering them or even trying to, have served my liberation well.
...but not so much my liver-ation
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Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '140 -
Prayers please for my former wife Deanna and her husband Tim. Deanna's mom Lecia passed this morning.
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Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '140 -
mickeyrat said:Prayers please for my former wife Deanna and her husband Tim. Deanna's mom Lecia passed this morning."What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0
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I'm sorry, mickey.0
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So very sorry to hear about the loss, M.
2014: Cincinnati
2016: Lexington and Wrigley 10 -
it's noon. on any other Thanksgiving, I'd be well on my way!
If I had known then what I know now...
Vegas 93, Vegas 98, Vegas 00 (10 year show), Vegas 03, Vegas 06
VIC 07
EV LA1 08
Seattle1 09, Seattle2 09, Salt Lake 09, LA4 09
Columbus 10
EV LA 11
Vancouver 11
Missoula 12
Portland 13, Spokane 13
St. Paul 14, Denver 14Philly I & II, 16Denver 220 -
gotta admit, I'm not looking forward to this weekend. it's not even a holiday weekend here. but I don't know what I'll do with myself., I have a usual routine, and I'll be honest, I do it because I like it, not as any type of escape. weekends are going to be fucking boring now.Hugh Freaking Dillon is currently out of the office, returning sometime in the fall0
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some of my reasons for quitting are the same as Hugh’s; some not...
money wasn’t an issue, nor were kids (I don’t have any)....I do kind of wonder about my BIL, tho....he’s a happy drunk but his kids see him drinking all the time. as far as the wife, my drinking was only a problem maybe 5% of the time (if that).
my main reasons were hangovers, leading to wasted days, and memory blackouts of the “night before,”
hang in there, Hugh....your life will be better w/o booze.If I had known then what I know now...
Vegas 93, Vegas 98, Vegas 00 (10 year show), Vegas 03, Vegas 06
VIC 07
EV LA1 08
Seattle1 09, Seattle2 09, Salt Lake 09, LA4 09
Columbus 10
EV LA 11
Vancouver 11
Missoula 12
Portland 13, Spokane 13
St. Paul 14, Denver 14Philly I & II, 16Denver 220 -
Eighteen months ago I was in ICU, fresh off a blood transfusion. Detoxed physically, though unaware. Overwhelming fear in moments of (silent) lucidity...thinking of the grim fucking reaper...how will I ever adjust to living without alcohol...a goddamn weakling at 91 pounds.
I feel so much stronger, mentally, than before. More in control, more free, and most importantly, honest with myself - even when the my truth hurts.
I'll always be as proud of this achievement as much as I am, and probably always will be, cognizant of the fact that much of this is by my own doing. I was quite angry and disappointed with myself for awhile...some of it still lingers.
Still, I am alcohol-free0 -
hedonist said:Eighteen months ago I was in ICU, fresh off a blood transfusion. Detoxed physically, though unaware. Overwhelming fear in moments of (silent) lucidity...thinking of the grim fucking reaper...how will I ever adjust to living without alcohol...a goddamn weakling at 91 pounds.
I feel so much stronger, mentally, than before. More in control, more free, and most importantly, honest with myself - even when the my truth hurts.
I'll always be as proud of this achievement as much as I am, and probably always will be, cognizant of the fact that much of this is by my own doing. I was quite angry and disappointed with myself for awhile...some of it still lingers.
Still, I am alcohol-free, and overflowing with love and humour
You are a miracle, hedo.
my small self... like a book amongst the many on a shelf0 -
Thank you for being among my beloveds who were and are there for me0
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Hedonist,FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC......truth denied is the killer. truth acknowledged helps us grow...._____________________________________SIGNATURE________________________________________________
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '140
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