PJ fans in 12 step Recovery

mickeyrat

@wobbie ,

how was this first for you?

deadendp

hedonist said:

Eighteen months ago I was in ICU, fresh off a blood transfusion.  Detoxed physically, though unaware.  Overwhelming fear in moments of (silent) lucidity...thinking of the grim fucking reaper...how will I ever adjust to living without alcohol...a goddamn weakling at 91 pounds.

I feel so much stronger, mentally, than before.  More in control, more free, and most importantly, honest with myself - even when the my truth hurts.

I'll always be as proud of this achievement as much as I am, and probably always will be, cognizant of the fact that much of this is by my own doing.  I was quite angry and disappointed with myself for awhile...some of it still lingers.

Still, I am alcohol-free

Jedi, Much love to you.  

Fifthelement

hedonist said:

Eighteen months ago I was in ICU, fresh off a blood transfusion.  Detoxed physically, though unaware.  Overwhelming fear in moments of (silent) lucidity...thinking of the grim fucking reaper...how will I ever adjust to living without alcohol...a goddamn weakling at 91 pounds.

I feel so much stronger, mentally, than before.  More in control, more free, and most importantly, honest with myself - even when the my truth hurts.

I'll always be as proud of this achievement as much as I am, and probably always will be, cognizant of the fact that much of this is by my own doing.  I was quite angry and disappointed with myself for awhile...some of it still lingers.

Still, I am alcohol-free

Congrats Hedo.  That there ^^^ is everything! I wish you continued healing (((hugs))).

lastexitlondon

Great brave people i strive to be like  you.

SD48277

hedonist said:

Eighteen months ago I was in ICU, fresh off a blood transfusion.  Detoxed physically, though unaware.  Overwhelming fear in moments of (silent) lucidity...thinking of the grim fucking reaper...how will I ever adjust to living without alcohol...a goddamn weakling at 91 pounds.

I feel so much stronger, mentally, than before.  More in control, more free, and most importantly, honest with myself - even when the my truth hurts.

I'll always be as proud of this achievement as much as I am, and probably always will be, cognizant of the fact that much of this is by my own doing.  I was quite angry and disappointed with myself for awhile...some of it still lingers.

Still, I am alcohol-free

You are awesome!

mickeyrat

I need some good vibes/prayers sent for my buddy Rob. Best friend from High School. Recently reconnected after like 20 years.  He has struggled over the years with addiction and alcoholism.

Currently he is sitting in county jail with 3 felony charges. 

He feels done with the drugs. Easy to say when you are locked up. Trust me, I know.

But I am there with him in spirit. Hes a good dude who makes some fucked up choices.

So please, whatever you can put out in the universe I and he would greatly appreciate.

thanks.

Matts3221

mickeyrat said:

I need some good vibes/prayers sent for my buddy Rob. Best friend from High School. Recently reconnected after like 20 years.  He has struggled over the years with addiction and alcoholism.

Currently he is sitting in county jail with 3 felony charges. 

He feels done with the drugs. Easy to say when you are locked up. Trust me, I know.

But I am there with him in spirit. Hes a good dude who makes some fucked up choices.

So please, whatever you can put out in the universe I and he would greatly appreciate.

thanks.

Thinking of him and you and you sending good vibes out there.

hedonist

Good thoughts, mickey.  I hope he gets the help he needs (sometimes rock bottom isn't even close to rock bottom).

Hobbes

3 felonies? Shit. Hopefully this is his wake up call. Good thoughts, mick.

mickeyrat

Hobbes said:

3 felonies? Shit. Hopefully this is his wake up call. Good thoughts, mick.

not his first either.....this latest is one act charged three ways.

Fifthelement

sending healing thoughts Rob’s way.

hedonist

Bump for those who may struggle this evening

lastexitlondon

Im here  after 3 days sober . Its a start and im getting  support now.

hedonist

Good on ya, Rob! Each minute at a time...

jerparker20

I’ve been lurking on this thread for a bit.

Yesterday marked 14 weeks since I’ve had a drink.

Back in September, after a weekend long bender, I started to experience terrible pains in my side. I thought it was a kidney stone. Turns out my liver was inflamed and the doctor found fat deposits on it. I had been slowly cutting back on drinking prior to that, but years of regular, heavy drinking had taken a toll.  The doctor advised me to stop drinking immediately, so I did.

So far, it hasn’t been that bad. I have my moments though. I feel better, I sleep better, and lost 15 pounds. I’m lucky that my wife is super supportive. I know not everyone has someone in their corner.

Keep it up everyone. Take it day to day.

hedonist

Good on ya! I too was “forced” to quit...a bit too late, but still. 

I wish you and your liver well!

Be proud of those 14

2-feign-reluctance

I don't think people cheer on those living in recovery enough, so here I am. My very best to you all.

deadendp

Found this in The Devil Strip. Sharing. Read through was interesting. Hopefully helpful for some here:
https://thedevilstrip.com/sober-chronicles-new-frames/

• I want to use my voice as an advocate for those who suffer the unbearable pain that addiction brings into life. I want to shout out against the stigma. I want to help people understand that addiction is not the result of lack of character, and recovery is not simply a matter of willpower. I want to stand up and stand by those that are making it and show that this can be done. Tell those who will listen to forget what you have heard: people DO recover. 

A lil excerpt from Marc that I wished when my brother was deep in his addiction, he would have been able to read. 

hedonist

The whole thing was a good read. Thank you, my friend. 

Hobbes

Thanks for the share. Good read.