chadwickchadwick November 2012 and so the harpsichords played sounding like butterflies and desperate hands of silk the fluttering so gentle the chaos so simple the sounds so delightful yet dangerous and simply out of tune rather quickly
the notes lost alongside each piece of pain as if insane to the wolves challenging moonlight or raindrops and again this is her sounding ride she will take all of me inside of her as if the lake ancient and drowning her and i
ages have flew cages have sunk beneath this our love locked lips our goals our glooming city of no name the titleless environment still beautiful in sound one's ears have a chance to escape run away or simply stay put ride the shadow of stillness empty your minds and explore the foundation of plenty through empty
and so when the daily newspaper print many vacancies the sound heard will be bach & handel water music on choirs against every altar with blasting rituals some with blood & bones horns & collective clovers from the nearby wood
here some tiny mushrooms gather in great numbers taking over as if a stump of hickory or oak sometimes barbwire feels like rubbing me down in laughter again without ability to movement & have i am torn to bits as pleasure fills with sound old and new fingers age and the end youth & the maze of life the ear blood the surprise the again the picture the free & the desperate coin begging to be spent the eaten bread soup cold and ready
sound sound harpsichord sound lost sound wilderness pain & sun filled blankets cover each stool present or void of serpent the hungry worm rotten apple tree & rainbow of a homeward bound trail
somehow our meeting of a sexual nature was spoiled to the core yet as beautiful as personalized envelopes struggle for our opening yours with mine inside sword to the wound blood to the brace uplifted hips to my lips cups of tea the musical taste of following love simple honeybees gathered next to harpsichords out in the wilds the fragrant pillows they spoke here said were our skin spoken were our souls the next daisies were up all the colors budding to the sounds each piece was at peace your lips my ending where i died your mouth that took my very life no safety net holding us tight and in this picture old men collected our senses at the foot of this insane instrument the mind of its own the wizard of sound the ride of carnival and of each one a lover to the other all of you and all of me between the miles compressed into a few solid inches warmed by a furnance of earth, stones, twigs, light & ash and in this unseeded garden you can only imagine the chances of glorious rides touch and taste and the feeling of sound
Fucking a.
The love he receives is the love that is saved
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I'm reposting this from the lounge on AMT, I believe its appropriate here...
This song is from RUSH though retired is my all time favorite rock band. It goes out there to where ever he is our PJ brother CHADWICK. From his posts here and elsewhere I'm sure he's starting conversations with Pandora, rest peacefully my brother rest peacefully......
From the album: Grace Under Pressure
AFTERIMAGE
Suddenly, you were gone From all the lives you left your mark upon
I remember How we talked and drank into the misty dawn I hear the voices
We ran by the water on the wet summer lawn I see the footprints I remember
I feel the way you would I feel the way you would
Tried to believe but you know it's no good This is something that just can't be understood
I remember The shouts of joy, skiing fast through the woods I hear the echoes
I learned your love for life I feel the way that you would I feel your presence I remember
*We CAN bomb the World to pieces, but we CAN'T bomb it into PEACE*...Michael Franti
*MUSIC IS the expression of EMOTION.....and that POLITICS IS merely the DECOY of PERCEPTION*
.....song_Music & Politics....Michael Franti
*The scientists of today think deeply instead of clearly. One must be sane to think clearly, but one can think deeply and be quite INSANE*....Nikola Tesla(a man who shaped our world of electricity with his futuristic inventions)
(Robert Hunter being the "wordsmith" for most of the Grateful Dead's songs)
August 1995
.... Now that the singer is gone, where shall I go for the song?
Without your melody and taste to lend an attitude of grace a lyric is an orphan thing, a hive with neither honey's taste nor power to truly sting.
What choice have I but to dare and call your muse who thought to rest out of the thin blue air that out of the field of shared time, a line or two might chance to shine --
As ever when we called, in hope if not in words, the muse descends.
How should she desert us now? Scars of battle on her brow, bedraggled feathers on her wings, and yet she sings, she sings!
May she bear thee to thy rest, the ancient bower of flowers beyond the solitude of days, the tyranny of hours-- the wreath of shining laurel lie upon your shaggy head bestowing power to play the lyre to legions of the dead
If some part of that music is heard in deepest dream, or on some breeze of Summer a snatch of golden theme, we'll know you live inside us with love that never parts our good old Jack O'Diamonds become the King of Hearts.
I feel your silent laughter at sentiments so bold that dare to step across the line to tell what must be told, so I'll just say I love you, which I never said before and let it go at that old friend the rest you may ignore.
Jerry Garcia and Robert Hunter, Grateful Dead
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hedonist
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weirdly ironic and appropriate I guess, no words for the wordsmith.......
Was he really from Denmark (the country)?
Iowa....
soooooo......he became a viking in denmark (pop. 423), IOWA? that’s kinda priceless.
RIP, good sir.
If I had known then what I know now...
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Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
@ rollings I am terribly sorry for your loss. I did not really know Chadwick and we do not know each other, but it breaks my heart because I know what you're going through right now. I find it amazing that you have the power to speak so openly here. I admire that very much!
It's just wonderful to feel all the love and how many people here like Chadwick and now miss him painfully. Some people influence our lives so much that we keep them in our hearts forever. I hope you can draw strength from this love for yourself and your children. You are also in my heart and mind at this difficult time.
Well fuck. Haven't been on here for 2 weeks whilst on vacation and just came back on today and found this. What terribly sad news. Deepest condolences to rollings and Chad's family & friends.
There is no such thing as leftover pizza. There is now pizza and later pizza. - anonymous The risk I took was calculated, but man, am I bad at math - The Mincing Mockingbird
I wanted to bump this because while life goes on for the rest of us, I’m sure rollings is still “dealing” with her loss. I have not met her but I’m told she’s awesome. Never met Chad either but I know he was a great dude. I hope those who knew Chad are making some sense of his passing.
If I had known then what I know now...
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You are so right Wobbie, time goes on for most of us, but the grieving continues for those closest. Sending love and light to Chadwick’s nearest and dearest. I hope that your days are getting better.
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For sure, good thoughts Wobbie
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Thank you Wobbie.
Big thumbs up for sending out love to Rollings and our sorely missed Chadwick.
“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man [or woman] who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.”
Hi everyone. Thank you so much. Your thoughts and kindness really do mean so much
. I just spent some time typing up a text to Mickey Rat in response to him asking how I was getting through this. I don't think he would mind if I just copied it here to you all too. Here goes:
"Hi. I'm ok.. it sucks. I've come to many realizations.like I will just have to live with some sadness in my heart from now on. But there's beautiful things too. Like he has sent me signs. I feel him all the time like right now. Whenever I am typing about him, he comes right in through my neck and elbows and makes me have cold elbows. He probably wants me to say hi to you from him. You may think i sound like a nut-bag, but I'm really not. My days are very normal ... but also I feel still feel very connected to him and it's not my imagination ... I wanted to start a thread about him and just share some stuff about him..good funny stuff. Not stories but like goofy stuff, totally Chad stuff . Pictures and what not of some his creations, collections, drawings,. I think that would be a good idea because you Pearl jam people knew him well (and loved) him.
...and sometimes while going through stuff, I'll find something and be like wtf! And i want to share the funny uniqueness of it and I think you all would appreciate it and "get it" the most. "
So that's how I'm doing ... Sadness but beauty too. And I think that a Chad thread would be great and I know he would like it too
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I would love that thread and think it is a great idea that you have!
Hi everyone. Thank you so much. Your thoughts and kindness really do mean so much
. I just spent some time typing up a text to Mickey Rat in response to him asking how I was getting through this. I don't think he would mind if I just copied it here to you all too. Here goes:
"Hi. I'm ok.. it sucks. I've come to many realizations.like I will just have to live with some sadness in my heart from now on. But there's beautiful things too. Like he has sent me signs. I feel him all the time like right now. Whenever I am typing about him, he comes right in through my neck and elbows and makes me have cold elbows. He probably wants me to say hi to you from him. You may think i sound like a nut-bag, but I'm really not. My days are very normal ... but also I feel still feel very connected to him and it's not my imagination ... I wanted to start a thread about him and just share some stuff about him..good funny stuff. Not stories but like goofy stuff, totally Chad stuff . Pictures and what not of some his creations, collections, drawings,. I think that would be a good idea because you Pearl jam people knew him well (and loved) him.
...and sometimes while going through stuff, I'll find something and be like wtf! And i want to share the funny uniqueness of it and I think you all would appreciate it and "get it" the most. "
So that's how I'm doing ... Sadness but beauty too. And I think that a Chad thread would be great and I know he would like it too
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5/21/10- NYC
9/2/12- Philly, PA
7/19/13- Wrigley
10/19/13- Brooklyn, NY
10/21/13- Philly, PA
10/22/13- Philly, PA
10/27/13- Baltimore, MD
Tres Mts.- 3/23/11- Philly
Eddie Vedder- 6/25/11- Philly
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Hi everyone. Thank you so much. Your thoughts and kindness really do mean so much
. I just spent some time typing up a text to Mickey Rat in response to him asking how I was getting through this. I don't think he would mind if I just copied it here to you all too. Here goes:
"Hi. I'm ok.. it sucks. I've come to many realizations.like I will just have to live with some sadness in my heart from now on. But there's beautiful things too. Like he has sent me signs. I feel him all the time like right now. Whenever I am typing about him, he comes right in through my neck and elbows and makes me have cold elbows. He probably wants me to say hi to you from him. You may think i sound like a nut-bag, but I'm really not. My days are very normal ... but also I feel still feel very connected to him and it's not my imagination ... I wanted to start a thread about him and just share some stuff about him..good funny stuff. Not stories but like goofy stuff, totally Chad stuff . Pictures and what not of some his creations, collections, drawings,. I think that would be a good idea because you Pearl jam people knew him well (and loved) him.
...and sometimes while going through stuff, I'll find something and be like wtf! And i want to share the funny uniqueness of it and I think you all would appreciate it and "get it" the most. "
So that's how I'm doing ... Sadness but beauty too. And I think that a Chad thread would be great and I know he would like it too
I totally believe that, Rollings, that's so cool. I've experienced something quite similar- especially with both my parents- and it's a beautiful thing. Very cool.
“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man [or woman] who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.”
*deepest breaths* Chadwick.... I had no idea... sometimes things just slip through the cracks.... I was oblivious until minutes ago about your passing. My heart sheds salty tears.
I feel like writing a poem for you as you and I shared some pretty whacky thoughts over the years on here.
6 months plus days Where the fuck is this haze? It's dark and smoky please go aways Fuck shit fuck shit, pain please stop Ass balls glass throws, break me on top My mountain of anger my stream of sugar not sweet The salty .... The malty.... Oh fuck it the down right faulty I am so sorry I did not now I do not pay attention. ... Give it time please Throw away the judge I have the keys There's no fucking grudge.
You were my friend for some time And we passed our words by from time to time Picked right up where we left off? I guess not It's ok, you're in my thoughts.
I also didn't know about the love you shared with Chadwick @rollings. My hands tremble at the keys. I am crying. Love you all Rogan
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From the album: Grace Under Pressure
AFTERIMAGE
Suddenly, you were gone
From all the lives you left your mark upon
How we talked and drank into the misty dawn
I hear the voices
I see the footprints
I remember
I feel the way you would
This is something that just can't be understood
The shouts of joy, skiing fast through the woods
I hear the echoes
I feel the way that you would
I feel your presence
I remember
Peace
*MUSIC IS the expression of EMOTION.....and that POLITICS IS merely the DECOY of PERCEPTION*
.....song_Music & Politics....Michael Franti
*The scientists of today think deeply instead of clearly. One must be sane to think clearly, but one can think deeply and be quite INSANE*....Nikola Tesla(a man who shaped our world of electricity with his futuristic inventions)
From Robert Hunter's eulogy for Jerry Garcia
(Robert Hunter being the "wordsmith" for most of the Grateful Dead's songs)
August 1995
....
Now that the singer is gone,
where shall I go for the song?
Without your melody and taste
to lend an attitude of grace
a lyric is an orphan thing,
a hive with neither honey's taste
nor power to truly sting.
What choice have I but to dare and
call your muse who thought to rest
out of the thin blue air
that out of the field of shared time,
a line or two might chance to shine --
As ever when we called,
in hope if not in words,
the muse descends.
How should she desert us now?
Scars of battle on her brow,
bedraggled feathers on her wings,
and yet she sings, she sings!
May she bear thee to thy rest,
the ancient bower of flowers
beyond the solitude of days,
the tyranny of hours--
the wreath of shining laurel lie
upon your shaggy head
bestowing power to play the lyre
to legions of the dead
If some part of that music
is heard in deepest dream,
or on some breeze of Summer
a snatch of golden theme,
we'll know you live inside us
with love that never parts
our good old Jack O'Diamonds
become the King of Hearts.
I feel your silent laughter
at sentiments so bold
that dare to step across the line
to tell what must be told,
so I'll just say I love you,
which I never said before
and let it go at that old friend
the rest you may ignore.
Jerry Garcia and Robert Hunter, Grateful Dead
soooooo......he became a viking in denmark (pop. 423), IOWA? that’s kinda priceless.
RIP, good sir.
Vegas 93, Vegas 98, Vegas 00 (10 year show), Vegas 03, Vegas 06
VIC 07
EV LA1 08
Seattle1 09, Seattle2 09, Salt Lake 09, LA4 09
Columbus 10
EV LA 11
Vancouver 11
Missoula 12
Portland 13, Spokane 13
St. Paul 14, Denver 14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
From left to right: Ryan, Dustin ("Dut" or as F me calls him"Dudd", and Chad
Thanks for sharing.
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this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
I am terribly sorry for your loss.
I did not really know Chadwick and we do not know each other, but it breaks my heart because I know what you're going through right now. I find it amazing that you have the power to speak so openly here. I admire that very much!
It's just wonderful to feel all the love and how many people here like Chadwick and now miss him painfully.
Some people influence our lives so much that we keep them in our hearts forever.
I hope you can draw strength from this love for yourself and your children. You are also in my heart and mind at this difficult time.
Haven't been on here for 2 weeks whilst on vacation and just came back on today and found this.
What terribly sad news. Deepest condolences to rollings and Chad's family & friends.
The risk I took was calculated, but man, am I bad at math - The Mincing Mockingbird
Vegas 93, Vegas 98, Vegas 00 (10 year show), Vegas 03, Vegas 06
VIC 07
EV LA1 08
Seattle1 09, Seattle2 09, Salt Lake 09, LA4 09
Columbus 10
EV LA 11
Vancouver 11
Missoula 12
Portland 13, Spokane 13
St. Paul 14, Denver 14
I hope rollings is doing okay.
. I just spent some time typing up a text to Mickey Rat in response to him asking how I was getting through this. I don't think he would mind if I just copied it here to you all too. Here goes:
"Hi. I'm ok.. it sucks. I've come to many realizations.like I will just have to live with some sadness in my heart from now on. But there's beautiful things too. Like he has sent me signs. I feel him all the time like right now. Whenever I am typing about him, he comes right in through my neck and elbows and makes me have cold elbows. He probably wants me to say hi to you from him. You may think i sound like a nut-bag, but I'm really not. My days are very normal ... but also I feel still feel very connected to him and it's not my imagination ... I wanted to start a thread about him and just share some stuff about him..good funny stuff. Not stories but like goofy stuff, totally Chad stuff . Pictures and what not of some his creations, collections, drawings,. I think that would be a good idea because you Pearl jam people knew him well (and loved) him.
...and sometimes while going through stuff, I'll find something and be like wtf! And i want to share the funny uniqueness of it and I think you all would appreciate it and "get it" the most. "
So that's how I'm doing ... Sadness but beauty too. And I think that a Chad thread would be great and I know he would like it too
8/28/98- Camden, NJ
10/31/09- Philly
5/21/10- NYC
9/2/12- Philly, PA
7/19/13- Wrigley
10/19/13- Brooklyn, NY
10/21/13- Philly, PA
10/22/13- Philly, PA
10/27/13- Baltimore, MD
Tres Mts.- 3/23/11- Philly
Eddie Vedder- 6/25/11- Philly
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Glad that you are doing well @rollings and that Chadwick is still with you (and with us all)!
And thank you Wobbie
Chadwick.... I had no idea... sometimes things just slip through the cracks.... I was oblivious until minutes ago about your passing. My heart sheds salty tears.
I feel like writing a poem for you as you and I shared some pretty whacky thoughts over the years on here.
6 months plus days
Where the fuck is this haze?
It's dark and smoky please go aways
Fuck shit fuck shit, pain please stop
Ass balls glass throws, break me on top
My mountain of anger
my stream of sugar not sweet
The salty ....
The malty....
Oh fuck it the down right faulty
I am so sorry
I did not now
I do not pay attention.
...
Give it time please
Throw away the judge
I have the keys
There's no fucking grudge.
You were my friend for some time
And we passed our words by from time to time
Picked right up where we left off?
I guess not
It's ok, you're in my thoughts.
I also didn't know about the love you shared with Chadwick @rollings. My hands tremble at the keys. I am crying.
Love you all
Rogan
2010 WATCH IT GO TO FIRE!!