RIP CHADWICK

F Me In The Brain

I would love that thread and think it is a great idea that you have!

eeriepadave

rollings said:

Hi everyone. Thank you so much. Your thoughts and kindness really do mean so much

. I just spent some time typing up a text to Mickey Rat in response to him asking how I was getting through this.  I don't think he would mind if I just copied it here to you all too.  Here goes:

"Hi. I'm ok.. it sucks. I've come to many realizations.like I will just have to live with some sadness in my heart from now on.  But there's beautiful things too.  Like he has sent me signs. I feel him all the time like right now. Whenever I am typing about him, he comes right in through my neck and elbows and makes me have cold elbows. He probably wants me to say hi to you from him. You may think i sound like a nut-bag, but I'm really not.  My days are very normal ... but also I feel still feel very connected to him and it's not my imagination ... I wanted to start a thread about him and just share some stuff about him..good funny stuff.  Not stories but like goofy stuff, totally Chad stuff . Pictures and what not of some his creations, collections, drawings,.  I think that would be a good idea because you Pearl jam people knew him well  (and loved) him. 

...and sometimes while going through stuff, I'll find something and be like wtf! And i want to share the funny uniqueness of it and I think you all would appreciate it and "get it" the most. "

So that's how I'm doing ... Sadness but beauty too. And I think that a Chad thread would be great and I know he would like it too

OffSheGoes35

We would dig that the most!

mickeyrat

yep. EXACTLY what this joint needs. Continued Chadwickian insanity.......

Fifthelement

Chadwick.  Forever in our hearts and minds.

Glad that you are doing well @rollings and that Chadwick is still with you (and with us all)!

hedonist

Bring it, sister!

vogonpoetbythelake

YES PLEASE!!  thank you Rollings for continuing and contributing anything and everything your heart soul and mind can share....peace and love to you...

rollings

Peace and love to you too.

And thank you Wobbie

brianlux

rollings said:

Hi everyone. Thank you so much. Your thoughts and kindness really do mean so much

. I just spent some time typing up a text to Mickey Rat in response to him asking how I was getting through this.  I don't think he would mind if I just copied it here to you all too.  Here goes:

"Hi. I'm ok.. it sucks. I've come to many realizations.like I will just have to live with some sadness in my heart from now on.  But there's beautiful things too.  Like he has sent me signs. I feel him all the time like right now. Whenever I am typing about him, he comes right in through my neck and elbows and makes me have cold elbows. He probably wants me to say hi to you from him. You may think i sound like a nut-bag, but I'm really not.  My days are very normal ... but also I feel still feel very connected to him and it's not my imagination ... I wanted to start a thread about him and just share some stuff about him..good funny stuff.  Not stories but like goofy stuff, totally Chad stuff . Pictures and what not of some his creations, collections, drawings,.  I think that would be a good idea because you Pearl jam people knew him well  (and loved) him. 

...and sometimes while going through stuff, I'll find something and be like wtf! And i want to share the funny uniqueness of it and I think you all would appreciate it and "get it" the most. "

So that's how I'm doing ... Sadness but beauty too. And I think that a Chad thread would be great and I know he would like it too

I totally believe that, Rollings, that's so cool.  I've experienced something quite similar- especially with both my parents- and it's a beautiful thing.  Very cool. 

evsgjamm

*deepest breaths*
Chadwick.... I had no idea... sometimes things just slip through the cracks.... I was oblivious until minutes ago about your passing. My heart sheds salty tears.

I feel like writing a poem for you as you and I shared some pretty whacky thoughts over the years on here.

6 months plus days
Where the fuck is this haze?
It's dark and smoky please go aways
Fuck shit fuck shit, pain please stop
Ass balls glass throws, break me on top
My mountain of anger
my stream of sugar not sweet
The salty ....
The malty....
Oh fuck it the down right faulty
I am so sorry
I did not now
I do not pay attention.
...
Give it time please
Throw away the judge
I have the keys
There's no fucking grudge.

You were my friend for some time
And we passed our words by from time to time
Picked right up where we left off?
I guess not
It's ok, you're in my thoughts. 


I also didn't know about the love you shared with Chadwick @rollings.  My hands tremble at the keys. I am crying. 
Love you all
Rogan

evsgjamm

I sent him a message yesterday because I wanted to have some fun.... I had no idea. 

Spunkie

Evsgjamm... I feel ya. I looked for Chadwick first thing too. He always had something kind to say about my poetry.

decides2dream

OMG.  i am so, so, soooo late to this news but damn!  loved chadwick, he had such style and a total sweetheart.  such tragic news.

Steve Dunne

Damn.  I haven't been here in forever.  This wrecks me.  Chad was always so supportive in his encouragement for other people to express themselves through their writing in that poetry forum.  My best to his family...RIP friend...

oceaninmyeyes

omg, I had no idea. I haven't been here in some time and after looking at AMT, thought I would look at AET for some fun. This is the first thing I saw. I hoped it was a joke. Crushed. Love to rollings and his family.

ldent42

It's been a very long time since I've checked in here, I'm so sorry to hear this. 

brianlux

Wonderful to see the love for Chad and Rollins poured out here.  All your words bring tears to my eyes yet again. 

lastexitlondon

This thread is a great reminder to tell the people you love that you do. And never  be afraid to show love.

rollings

brianlux said:

Wonderful to see the love for Chad and Rollins poured out here.  All your words bring tears to my eyes yet again. 

Hi, me too. 

i read each post in this thread a few nights ago and wow, did I cry.  I wish I could hug all of you. 

I am grateful I had Chad in my life when I did.

His enthusiasm for just about everything is so missed.

hedonist

to you, Diane.