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  • That does sound  like me
     I will investigate that thanks


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • Wow i just looked that up. That is me described 


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  • brianlux
    brianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 43,663
    Firstly, lastexitlondon, I want to give you kudos for courage to speak about you anxiety.  Anxiety and depression are really tough to deal with and they are both more prevalent than ever in this high stress world.  I'm tempted to say, "You're not alone," but I know better.  Each one of us who have anxiety (I do in spades) can only feel what we feel, not what someone else does.  But what we can do is reach out, share our experiences, lend each other support and empathy, and offer suggestions.

    I've had "clinical" anxiety for the better part of the last 25 years and probably have had anxiety to some degree much of my 66 years.  I went through a long period of time taking meds, changing meds and finally letting go of prescription meds all together.  During the late 90's I was hospitalized twice involuntarily and once voluntarily.  But somehow I kept working to get better and learned some decent coping methods.

    I'm not against meds, especially when they are needed in critical times but my own experience has been that learning ways of coping have been, for me, the most useful. I never found a really good counselor so I enrolled in a counseling training program and made an effort to learn as much as I could.  The program was based on the work of Carl Rogers and what he termed "client centered therapy".  It's really great and makes a lot of sense.  A lot of the focus is on taking action (DOING!) which is what you did by speaking out here. That was smart thinking.  Rogers' work avoids delving too much in the past but instead focuses on learning good coping skills.

    I find getting out and walking, keeping a good diet going, and keeping my alcohol consumption low has helped a lot.  I try to find things that break my "spin cycle" when anxiety hits be it (what Henry Rollins refers to as) "medicating with music", playing card games on my computer, watching a good movie and things like that to get through the most difficult periods.

    I don't know if this is available where you are but I'm currently doing some exploration into using cannabis with high percentage CBD and low percentage THC.  Many strains of cannabis are prone to making my anxiety worse but the high CBD/ low THC do the opposite for me.  So far, I'm very pleased with the results.  I can only speak for myself on this because like almost all meds, pharmaceutical or natural, we all react a bit different.  I can only suggest to proceed with caution.

    Most of all, I just want to say hang in there and definitely, best wishes.  These forums and the good people here have been a great help to each other.  You mentioned keyboard warriors and trolls (I've also heard the term "thread crapping") and on a public forum, that's somewhat inevitable.  But I find most folks here are really good souls who sincerely care.

    Keep us posted and beat wishes!
    "It's a sad and beautiful world"
    -Roberto Benigni

  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,903
    edited November 2017
    Thank you bri.
    I like nature and walking. Im in a tight spot at the moment where i see no future even though i have my 4th child a lovely little girl i look at her and cry. 
    I won't be here .
    My brain seems to sabotage happiness with physical symptoms. 
    Im damaged somehow. Be it life events or a sad soul. I feel love and i feel loved. But there must be a poison in me. 
    With the cannabis i had some years as a young man smoking all sorts and i did love it but sadly it didn't love me. Much the same as alcohol. I have an addictive personality.
    Drink/pot/sex/gambling/food anything you can imagine i can't just dabble. 
    There is this need in me to get"out of" my head. Which i resist mostly.
    Im 42 now. Ive believed i will die soon for the last 20 years approx. "Im still here" moaning and whining to people who love me fuck knows how.
    My only reason to stay alive is my children who are becoming adults and damn fine ones at that.....see now as i type the tears roll down my face at 5a.m ive been awake aince 2 am . I can't keep doing this. I have a new symptom that i believe is the end for me and i can't escape the intrusive thoughts. I kept busy yesterday helping others as that pleases me most. But i need to help myself. I go to a group and get homework. Which i have to keep reading but its like Chinese to me at these lonely a.m times. Im not suicidal . Just resided to my fate thats very hard to unthink. Sorry to go on and on. Its all very negative.small steps people say. But whilst im striding backwards at breakneck speed i can't find a step forwards no matter how i try.


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • You are good people


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • brianlux
    brianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 43,663
    Thank you bri.
    I like nature and walking. Im in a tight spot at the moment where i see no future even though i have my 4th child a lovely little girl i look at her and cry. 
    I won't be here .
    My brain seems to sabotage happiness with physical symptoms. 
    Im damaged somehow. Be it life events or a sad soul. I feel love and i feel loved. But there must be a poison in me. 
    With the cannabis i had some years as a young man smoking all sorts and i did love it but sadly it didn't love me. Much the same as alcohol. I have an addictive personality.
    Drink/pot/sex/gambling/food anything you can imagine i can't just dabble. 
    There is this need in me to get"out of" my head. Which i resist mostly.
    Im 42 now. Ive believed i will die soon for the last 20 years approx. "Im still here" moaning and whining to people who love me fuck knows how.
    My only reason to stay alive is my children who are becoming adults and damn fine ones at that.....see now as i type the tears roll down my face at 5a.m ive been awake aince 2 am . I can't keep doing this. I have a new symptom that i believe is the end for me and i can't escape the intrusive thoughts. I kept busy yesterday helping others as that pleases me most. But i need to help myself. I go to a group and get homework. Which i have to keep reading but its like Chinese to me at these lonely a.m times. Im not suicidal . Just resided to my fate thats very hard to unthink. Sorry to go on and on. Its all very negative.small steps people say. But whilst im striding backwards at breakneck speed i can't find a step forwards no matter how i try.
    "Drink/pot/sex/gambling/food anything you can imagine i can't just dabble." 

    You seem to know your limits well- a good thing to know.  Many of us (I do anyway) know what it's like when we get to far out of our limits/ tolerance levels.  That's always bites us in the butt.   And only you know your limits because I think they're different for everyone.  That seems like a good thing to focus on, the fact that you know your yourself that way.  Maybe let that self awareness be power over the things that bring you down.  Find your strengths and feed them.  And give yourself a break too.  You're a good guy.
    "It's a sad and beautiful world"
    -Roberto Benigni

  • RogueStoner
    RogueStoner Sunny AZ Posts: 1,716
    I suffer from extreme anxiety from time to time, which currently is almost every day. Today was a good day. I'd even dare to call it great. I'm so grateful for these rarities. I'd like to share what started my good day, and hopefully the laugh that followed. 

    My 9 y.o.'s latest assessment of her 6 y.o. brother, Avery....

    Lacey: Mom, I think Avery needs a therapist. 
    Me: Sweetie, I think we ALL need a therapist. 
    Lacey: Yeah, I guess you're right. But he goes first!

    What a bright and insightful child! :lol:
  • Kids do say some wonderful things


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • Its true brian i know my limits now and its out of fear i stay sober or drug free and eat well all these things i hoped would help. But leave me hollow and wanting an out


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  • Thoughts_Arrive
    Thoughts_Arrive Melbourne, Australia Posts: 15,165
    Hugs to you dude.
    Sad to hear there are idiots on here.
    Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,903
    edited November 2017
    Thanks for caring. This forum has been a place to come at night when nobody is awake here in England.yeah idiots is an understatement.
    I should rise above. But i think i will reply with love. Maybe give some free  stuff to them see how the mind of a troll works then! Kindness??? What is this phenomenon
    Post edited by lastexitlondon on


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  • josevolution
    josevolution Posts: 31,631
    I'm a parent of a daughter who suffers from anxiety I feel helpless at times I can only be there for her to talk , she's on meds and sees a Dr for counsel I'll see if I can get her to come here and read this thread ,thanks for starting it OP ..
    jesus greets me looks just like me ....
  • As a parent my daughters have and do suffer in fact one has come out the other sidw and i a strength to me. My other im actually on my way to take her to a charity called youth talk here in england. Started councilling 3 weeks ago and its going well so there is hope
     How old is she? 


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • @guacamolejoe you are welcome to express yourself here.


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • brianlux
    brianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 43,663
    I suffer from extreme anxiety from time to time, which currently is almost every day. Today was a good day. I'd even dare to call it great. I'm so grateful for these rarities. I'd like to share what started my good day, and hopefully the laugh that followed. 

    My 9 y.o.'s latest assessment of her 6 y.o. brother, Avery....

    Lacey: Mom, I think Avery needs a therapist. 
    Me: Sweetie, I think we ALL need a therapist. 
    Lacey: Yeah, I guess you're right. But he goes first!

    What a bright and insightful child! :lol:
    I laughed out loud!  Great story RS!
    "It's a sad and beautiful world"
    -Roberto Benigni

  • brianlux
    brianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 43,663
    Wishing us all an anxiety free day. 

    Good thread here, lastexitlondon, thanks for doing it!
    "It's a sad and beautiful world"
    -Roberto Benigni

  • josevolution
    josevolution Posts: 31,631
    As a parent my daughters have and do suffer in fact one has come out the other sidw and i a strength to me. My other im actually on my way to take her to a charity called youth talk here in england. Started councilling 3 weeks ago and its going well so there is hope
     How old is she? 
    She's 20 will turn 21 this coming february there was a time i really thought i was gonna lose her for good she's doing beter but still needs therapy and meds i'm really afraid of meds and side effect & mood swings but at least she's still fighting thru it ....
    jesus greets me looks just like me ....
  • josevolution
    josevolution Posts: 31,631
    i guess i'm anxiuos too specially away from her at work everytime she calls me my mind goes to the worst case scenarios she lives with me & my wife ..
    jesus greets me looks just like me ....
  • Being a parent is the hardesr job we all will face.
    I would rather suffer 10 times over rather than see my child in turmoil..
    My daughter as i type is sending me messages in a complete panic. Heart breaking i agree


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  • josevolution
    josevolution Posts: 31,631
    Being a parent is the hardesr job we all will face.
    I would rather suffer 10 times over rather than see my child in turmoil..
    My daughter as i type is sending me messages in a complete panic. Heart breaking i agree
    Being a parent is the hardesr job we all will face.
    I would rather suffer 10 times over rather than see my child in turmoil..
    My daughter as i type is sending me messages in a complete panic. Heart breaking i agree
    sorry to hear i know the feeling wish you both nothing but good vibes >>>>>>
    jesus greets me looks just like me ....