A safe place for anxiety sufferers to share.

lastexitlondon · November 2017

Also you know with health anxiety(H.A) the search for certainty and definate are a never ending curse.
Acceptance is what we struggle with.
I just can't get any peace or time or freedom to feel. Red alert every damn second. I even dream of illness.
See now i have a new symptom to add to my many. I feel like the boy who cried wolf. Nobody cares or listens anymore.Its always just wait and see. Dr s heart must just sink when he sees me sitting there waiting to come in.AGAIN. even now its 5.45 been up hours tried a valium . Nothing happened.
What is it i don't get?
Why can't i just except if im ill and die,i die?

Thoughts_Arrive · November 2017

lastexitlondon said:

Also you know with health anxiety(H.A) the search for certainty and definate are a never ending curse.
Acceptance is what we struggle with.
I just can't get any peace or time or freedom to feel. Red alert every damn second. I even dream of illness.
See now i have a new symptom to add to my many. I feel like the boy who cried wolf. Nobody cares or listens anymore.Its always just wait and see. Dr s heart must just sink when he sees me sitting there waiting to come in.AGAIN. even now its 5.45 been up hours tried a valium . Nothing happened.
What is it i don't get?
Why can't i just except if im ill and die,i die?

Hey,
Have you ever been diagnosed with somatic symptom disorder or illness anxiety disorder by a psychologist?
I study psychology and these two disorders sound like they fit with what you've described.
Valium won't address your health concerns. Cognitive behaviour therapy, Exposure therapy, SSRI medication, and health/symptom education are known treatments for these disorders.

Annafalk · November 2017

Many years ago I was working on a hospital ward as a nurse. I was new at the work, was stressing not walking but almost running around.
We had a patient there he was homeless he didn’t have much in this world. He told me this old saying;
“You cannot keep birds from flying over your head but you can keep them from building a nest in your hair”
Some day later I was stressing again, he looked at me and said that I wasn’t thinking about what he’d said. I told him I would try.
So sometimes it comes back to me and I try to get calmer since I normally am a calm person.
I understand that this is nothing compared to living with heavy anxiety but I thought about this for some reason.

lastexitlondon · November 2017

Thoughts_Arrive said:

lastexitlondon said:

Also you know with health anxiety(H.A) the search for certainty and definate are a never ending curse.
Acceptance is what we struggle with.
I just can't get any peace or time or freedom to feel. Red alert every damn second. I even dream of illness.
See now i have a new symptom to add to my many. I feel like the boy who cried wolf. Nobody cares or listens anymore.Its always just wait and see. Dr s heart must just sink when he sees me sitting there waiting to come in.AGAIN. even now its 5.45 been up hours tried a valium . Nothing happened.
What is it i don't get?
Why can't i just except if im ill and die,i die?

Hey,
Have you ever been diagnosed with somatic symptom disorder or illness anxiety disorder by a psychologist?
I study psychology and these two disorders sound like they fit with what you've described.
Valium won't address your health concerns. Cognitive behaviour therapy, Exposure therapy, SSRI medication, and health/symptom education are known treatments for these disorders.

Yeah i have been under a psychologist and psychiatric for a few years on and off ssri's i always seem to get side effects that cause symptoms. I have been diagnosed with health anxiety and generalised anxiety. I went through c.b.t and some talking therapy. Im currently attending a group for persistent symptoms run by a lovely psychologist very experienced.
I only take valium if i really need a time out/rest from my brain. Like once a fortnight if that. Ive recently stopped drinking alcohol 6 days a week . So only sunday i may drink. It was my (unhelpful) release.

lastexitlondon · November 2017

Annafalk said:

Many years ago I was working on a hospital ward as a nurse. I was new at the work, was stressing not walking but almost running around.
We had a patient there he was homeless he didn’t have much in this world. He told me this old saying;
“You cannot keep birds from flying over your head but you can keep them from building a nest in your hair”
Some day later I was stressing again, he looked at me and said that I wasn’t thinking about what he’d said. I told him I would try.
So sometimes it comes back to me and I try to get calmer since I normally am a calm person.
I understand that this is nothing compared to living with heavy anxiety but I thought about this for some reason.

I like the bird quote. I will think of it when i can. Thank you all so far. Its good to talk

Malroth · November 2017

bootlegger10 said:

I wish we could help somehow. Just know that there are probably millions out there struggling with the same things. The brain reacts how it wants and can be tough/slow to change. Not your fault.

We all think the friend, coworker, or celebrity has it all figured out, but chances are they are struggling with their own issues that they hide.

I have always liked the EV lyric from Amongst the Waves:

"It's rare when there is nothing wrong. Survived and you're amongst the fittest."

I just heard on the radio a doctor saying one in eight people suffer from some form of anxiety.

lastexitlondon · November 2017

Im sure its probably more because men especially are scared to speak up. Hence biggest killer of young men is suicide. Always best to talk and reach out. Anywhere but reach out.

PJ_Soul · November 2017

lastexitlondon said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

lastexitlondon said:

Also you know with health anxiety(H.A) the search for certainty and definate are a never ending curse.
Acceptance is what we struggle with.
I just can't get any peace or time or freedom to feel. Red alert every damn second. I even dream of illness.
See now i have a new symptom to add to my many. I feel like the boy who cried wolf. Nobody cares or listens anymore.Its always just wait and see. Dr s heart must just sink when he sees me sitting there waiting to come in.AGAIN. even now its 5.45 been up hours tried a valium . Nothing happened.
What is it i don't get?
Why can't i just except if im ill and die,i die?

Hey,
Have you ever been diagnosed with somatic symptom disorder or illness anxiety disorder by a psychologist?
I study psychology and these two disorders sound like they fit with what you've described.
Valium won't address your health concerns. Cognitive behaviour therapy, Exposure therapy, SSRI medication, and health/symptom education are known treatments for these disorders.

Yeah i have been under a psychologist and psychiatric for a few years on and off ssri's i always seem to get side effects that cause symptoms. I have been diagnosed with health anxiety and generalised anxiety. I went through c.b.t and some talking therapy. Im currently attending a group for persistent symptoms run by a lovely psychologist very experienced.
I only take valium if i really need a time out/rest from my brain. Like once a fortnight if that. Ive recently stopped drinking alcohol 6 days a week . So only sunday i may drink. It was my (unhelpful) release.

You probably have, but just in case... have you tried ativan instead of valium on these rare occasions? I feel like ativan is more effective for this purpose.

lastexitlondon · November 2017

I haven't no. I wonder if thats available here in the uk.
Thats the one chris cornell was on ?

PJ_Soul · November 2017

lastexitlondon said:

I haven't no. I wonder if thats available here in the uk.
Thats the one chris cornell was on ?

They are definitely available in the UK.
Well, yes, that is the one Chris was on, but please don't let that dissuade you. Ativan is not any more dangerous than valium assuming you don't abuse them. Given that you only need this kind of thing on occasion it should not be an issue (if you abuse them they can become addictive). The thing about Ativan is that they are very effective for calming you down and quickly reducing your anxiety when it flares, but it doesn't have as much of a "knock out" effect as Valium. I.e. you can take Ativan because it calms you down (which is why it is sometimes used for sleep problems - calms you down enough to sleep), but it doesn't specifically make you very sleepy, so you can take them when you need to keep functioning well too. Say you have an anxiety attack at work - you could take Ativan and perhaps get back to work if necessary, instead of taking a nap.

lastexitlondon · November 2017

Ok i will ask my dr next week. Worth a try

Thoughts_Arrive · November 2017

If the SSRI you are on is causing you side effects, can you try another drug in the SSRI class of drugs?
I am on Escitalopram (Lexapro) and have not had any side effects. But then again, what works for me might not work for you.

lastexitlondon · November 2017

Its kind of personal but all ssri can cause sexual dysfunction.
This wasn't a problem 5 years ago because i was in a relationship where that was dead anyhow.
Now im with my new partner just had a baby and its the part of life and closeness and togetherness i always missed and I can't loose that bond.
Also some ive been on i put weight on like rapid. I have other physical issues that stop me doing vigorous excersise so couldn't shift it.
I am considering prozac again.
Ive had zoloft many years mirtazapine that had weight gain and sleeping. I seem to react to all.

Thoughts_Arrive · November 2017

lastexitlondon said:

Its kind of personal but all ssri can cause sexual disfunction.
This wasn't a problem 5 years ago because i was in a relationship where that was dead anyhow.
Now im with my new partner just had a baby and its the part of life and closeness and togetherness i always missed and I can't loose that bond.
Also some ive been on i put weight on like rapid. I have other physical issues that stop me doing vigorous excersise so couldn't shift it.
I am considering prozac again.
Ive had zoloft many years mirtazapine that had weight gain and sleeping. I seem to react to all.

Have you tried Lexapro? It's the most well tolerated SSRI.

lastexitlondon · November 2017

No but i will ask about it now thank you

Shyner · November 2017

It seems to me that people like me for instance who don't seem to be well liked get the brush off for instance a hotline number or a see a doctor type comment.

I am honest to say that I'm going down my own way and sometimes i want help from someone but it never seems to be the help i need.

Sometimes I'm all there but not now i wish i had so that i could wisdomize for ones who suffer as i do from unbearable anxiety.

Although in my case i couldn't say it i will say to others. " you are not alone"

lastexitlondon · November 2017

Keep walking the long road and never stop reaching out .

Thoughts_Arrive · November 2017

lastexitlondon said:

No but i will ask about it now thank you

No problem. Let me know how you go on that.

lastexitlondon · November 2017

I totally despair with some keyboard warriors on these forum boards.
Whats the deal with just trolling my threads to derail them. I thought all pj fans were of a decent ilk.
My anxiety of course starts to blame myself and assume i am wrong again it always points inwards and attacks me instead of being able to give back the poison to where it came.
I know be strong,rise above,take no notice.
But recently in this journey of life living we fear and anxiety anger is finding a home in such a peaceful and generous soul.
Do you know yesterday i spent my day doing for others as i often do. We have a friend who is house bound due to a stroke at a youngish age. We go help clean do shopping ,postage. Well her dear cat went missing only to be found dead.
I went to collect his body from the vets mortuary and i respectfully dug him a grave in her garden amd buried him for her. She was distraught ,her cats are her company and her family. It made me sad but warm knowing i was making it a little easier for her. She can't afford a cremation or anything. Whilst i was digging ahe told me her dad is terminal. With health anxiety its like im a magnet for terrible illness "news". Then i come on here in the middle of the night and get morons comment on my legitimate posts in lost dogs to try and cause me pain and trouble. Questioning my integrity. I was upset then angry that someone can get to me so easily. Ive given away more than most have ever collected. Sad people . Upset me.

SmallestOceans · November 2017

lastexitlondon said:

I totally despair with some keyboard warriors on these forum boards.
Whats the deal with just trolling my threads to derail them. I thought all pj fans were of a decent ilk.
My anxiety of course starts to blame myself and assume i am wrong again it always points inwards and attacks me instead of being able to give back the poison to where it came.
I know be strong,rise above,take no notice.
But recently in this journey of life living we fear and anxiety anger is finding a home in such a peaceful and generous soul.
Do you know yesterday i spent my day doing for others as i often do. We have a friend who is house bound due to a stroke at a youngish age. We go help clean do shopping ,postage. Well her dear cat went missing only to be found dead.
I went to collect his body from the vets mortuary and i respectfully dug him a grave in her garden amd buried him for her. She was distraught ,her cats are her company and her family. It made me sad but warm knowing i was making it a little easier for her. She can't afford a cremation or anything. Whilst i was digging ahe told me her dad is terminal. With health anxiety its like im a magnet for terrible illness "news". Then i come on here in the middle of the night and get morons comment on my legitimate posts in lost dogs to try and cause me pain and trouble. Questioning my integrity. I was upset then angry that someone can get to me so easily. Ive given away more than most have ever collected. Sad people . Upset me.

Sorry to hear about what you are going through. It WILL work itself out in time. Maybe you are an intuitive empath? Look into it. It means you are extremely tuned in to what others are feeling. You can feel a person's pain just from their energy. If you are not aware of how to manage it, it could lead to anxiety, feeling drained, and even feeling that your body is not functioning properly.

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