I would certainly choose to notice things at the time instead of later if I had a choice. However, I seem to be emotionally playing catch-up much of the time.
Ah, fuck. I sometimes play gigs for my local pub as a favour to them for, er, I forget what. But now they're begging me to be the support act for some clapped out old failed third-division boyband member whom the manager's girlfriend still fancies and has booked as her dream gig ever. There's no fucking way I am being the support act in a small local pub to a shite karaoke act, favour or no favour. I don't care if I go to hell for this and make Baby Jesus cry. I have my cred to think of. Plus, I doubt all those divorced, knicker-throwing fangirls like twenty-minute avant-garde guitar jazzathons.
Why must we grow old and have everything change around us. I don't know if the 18 year old me would like what he saw in the 28 year old me. I think he would kick my ass. But I'm not really sure, maybe he would be happy to be in a better place mentally, or maybe not. Makes me sad to think of such things.
It bothers me that the world has so many people in it that individuals are always replaceable. I want to be irreplaceable, but I guess no one is. No one is, no one is, no one is. Everyone is replaceable. There are so many people ready to fill the void.
Why must we grow old and have everything change around us. I don't know if the 18 year old me would like what he saw in the 28 year old me. I think he would kick my ass. But I'm not really sure, maybe he would be happy to be in a better place mentally, or maybe not. Makes me sad to think of such things.
Yea, you don't know how many times I wish to kick the shit out of the 21*-year-old version of me.
*Insert any certain stages between 16-25.
The part that gets me is sometimes, I make the same mistakes! :x
It bothers me that the world has so many people in it that individuals are always replaceable. I want to be irreplaceable, but I guess no one is. No one is, no one is, no one is. Everyone is replaceable. There are so many people ready to fill the void.
To me, that feels horrible.
Yeah, we keep thinking to ourselves that we're different from everybody else, that we're our own individual.
But I highly doubt everybody else sees you that way.
Maybe not, but at the same time, it seems to me that if someone says they love you, they shouldn't be doing things that they know will hurt you either.
Maybe not, but at the same time, it seems to me that if someone says they love you, they shouldn't be doing things that they know will hurt you either.
DING, DING, DING..... tell her what she's won Bob...
"I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
Maybe not, but at the same time, it seems to me that if someone says they love you, they shouldn't be doing things that they know will hurt you either.
DING, DING, DING..... tell her what she's won Bob...
You lit the fire and walked away while it burnt... Now I'm left here to sift through the ashes alone. Sometimes I wish I had the guts to burn it all down myself!
"I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
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It smells like rain
To me, that feels horrible.
*Insert any certain stages between 16-25.
The part that gets me is sometimes, I make the same mistakes! :x
EV- 08/09,10/2008.06/08,09/2009
But I highly doubt everybody else sees you that way.
EV- 08/09,10/2008.06/08,09/2009
What have you been doing?
I think I'd remember if I caught you, or was involved with the alleged canoodling!!!
In a game of tic-tac-toe!!!!
Maybe not, but at the same time, it seems to me that if someone says they love you, they shouldn't be doing things that they know will hurt you either.
Lol!
(Nothin', I won nothin"...(sadly...))