'come on hamish. you can't say that. might be better if someone else tells you na na na. if you did something it would be better coming from you. though i can't imagine what you could have done that you didn't think you could tell me. god am i that scary?'
i could see hamish was weighing it up in his mind. it would have been so much better if he'd just denied he had something he felt i should know. hamish never was good at confessions.
hear my name
take a good look
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lie beside me
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I wasn't saying; "Na na na."
I don't want to tell you. In fact I came over to see you one last time before you would get so angry with me that you didn't want to see me no more.
Really leave it like this.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'oh you are so full of shit hamish. whatever, i don't care. i don't want to know. just say goodbye. don't follow me home okay?'
with that i left hamish standing. i didn't look back until i got to the door of my building. hamish was turning the corner. taking the stairs two at a time, i burst through the front door and nearly knocked freya over.
'oh shit. sorry. you going out?'
hear my name
take a good look
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hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Yes I am going out. I will be back round five. Shall I make dinner?
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
When are you gonna leave? I only ask so I know if I can get back inside. I don't want to bother you, but I hope we can still talk tonight. If it is not too much trouble, it would be very much appreciated.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'is this talk anything i need to be prepared for? daniel downstairs has spare keys so i'll get them back off him for you okay. that way you can come and go as you please. come to think of it davey has keys too. i'll have to get those from him. anyway, what? talk. yeah fine when you get back.'
hear my name
take a good look
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hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Well I'm going back to the clinic to talk and maybe with that information I can finally try and make up my mind on what it is I want to do. I would like some help from my sister. Sinse you know me and .... well... sinse you have been through .....
She didn't finish her sentence instead she said; "And might be able to tell me......" Again she didn't finish her sentence, but I knew what she was getting at. This wasn't going to be easy, if I could at all do what she asked of me. I wasn't even sure if I wanted to.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
after freya left our conversation was still floating around my head. i don't see how losing my child at six months was the same as having an abortion. but hey she's my sister. and she's asking for my help. i could do that, couldn't i?
i went and lay down on my bed for a quick nap. i'd not long woken up and yet i was tired again. or still. whatever.
when i woke up it was to someone baging on my door.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I got out of bed with my mind still asleep. I slowly walked to the door to open it wondering who it could be.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
Oh fuck what should I do? Maybe I could call someone? If only I hadn't told Hamish to go, at least I wouldn´t have been alone.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
right. i'm sick and tired of this neanderthal. i went to the door and pulled it open.
'she's not here vincent so fuck off.'
the smile on his face was one i'd seen before. opening the door had been a mistake. i tried to close it again, but vincent grabbed it and held it open. i stepped back as he stepped forward.
'she's not here. i told you.'
whether freya was here or not suddenly became irrelevant to vincent. he had me. alone.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Oh, but you're here and that makes Freya's absence a very good thing. Don't you think you horny little slut.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'you're a jerk vincent. i can't believe my sister has stayed with you for as long as she has.'
i turned my back to walk away. feeling vincent's hand on me made me shudder. i spun around to push him away but he grabbed both my shoulders. he was strong. too strong for me in the position i was in. exactly what he had in mind i didn't know and quite frankly i didn't want to find out. i was smarter than vincent. i could get out of this. i just had to let him think he was on control. i stopped struggling. and as soon as i did, he loosened his grip. i push him away and went for the door. as i reach it, he reached me. vincent grabbed my hair and pulled me back, letting me go so i hit the wall.
my head hit so hard it cracked the plaster. it stung so much that tears came to my eyes. vincent stood over me.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
excuse me we all woke up and it was saturday so..................
"If you remove the English army tomorrow and hoist the green flag over Dublin castle, unless you set about the organisation of the socialist republic then all of your efforts would have been in vain. England will still rule you through her capitalists ,landlords and commercial institutions"
'you're a jerk vincent. i can't believe my sister has stayed with you for as long as she has.'
i turned my back to walk away. feeling vincent's hand on me made me shudder. i spun around to push him away but he grabbed both my shoulders. he was strong. too strong for me in the position i was in. exactly what he had in mind i didn't know and quite frankly i didn't want to find out. i was smarter than vincent. i could get out of this. i just had to let him think he was on control. i stopped struggling. and as soon as i did, he loosened his grip. i push him away and went for the door. as i reach it, he reached me. vincent grabbed my hair and pulled me back, letting me go so i hit the wall.
my head hit so hard it cracked the plaster. it stung so much that tears came to my eyes. vincent stood over me.
Now lets see how tough you really are dear sweet Anna. He grabbed me by my ankles and dragged me further into my room away from the door. He tried to pull my legs apart as he lowered him self towards my body.
It seems that I will have you now you vindictive little bitch. Come on open up, you know you want it.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
part of me just wanted to let him do what he wanted so he would leave. but the rest of me couldn't let this animal beat me like this. with all the strength i had left i tried to keep him away. he had me pinned, one hand pressing down on my shoulder. it felt like it was being crushed into the floorboards. i scratched at his face until he hit me. and he hit me again and all i could do was laugh in his face.
'is this how you kept freya? treating her like she was a some whore you picked up on the street. telling her she was useless and that you loved her. and no one else would. you're pathetic vincent.'
he grabbed my throat and standing, lifted me to my feet. i had never seen such a look on a man's face. i thought he was going to squeeze the life right out of me. i closed my eyes, waiting. i felt his grip tighten and then release as he threw me on the bed. i tried to scramble off the other side but vincent grabbed my legs and pulled me back. his hand against the back of my head, pushing my face into the sheets as his knee pried my legs apart. i reached back and dug my nails into the skin of his arm. my cries were muffled but they felt like screaming in my head. i hoped i would choke before i felt him inside me. and then ...nothing.... i heard a crack and felt vincent fall off me. i turned to see freya standing at the edge of the bed holding one of my sculptures in her hand.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I pushed his body off my legs. Vincent fell on the floor and immediately blood started flowing. It didn't take that long before my carpet was blood soaked.
I froze and we both didn't speak for what seemed like five minutes. We could only stare at the body laying on the floor and at each other.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i made a move towards the door. it hurt for me to move. my head felt like it was splitting in two and my legs felt like jelly.
'we've got to call someone freya.'
as i walked past her, freya reached out and grabbed my arm. instinctly i pulled it away. i stared at her. i could see what she was thinking. but as much as i depised vincent, i didn't want him dying on my floor.
'i'm not having him die on my floor.'
in the hall i leant against the wall briefly to gain my composure. i wiped the snot from my upper lip with the back of my hand. i could feel the blood drying on my brow.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Maybe you should call Arlo first. Just to be sure. If you call an ablulance there will be questions.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i looked at freya. she still had the sculpture in her hand.
'and what the hell can arlo do? help us roll the body in a rug and dump it off the nearest bridge. no freya, he needs an ambulance.'
i turned my back on my sister and started towards the phone. i was running on auto pilot and i didn't want that pig dying on my floor. i could feel freya's presence as i dialled the numbers. i dropped onto the sofa and rested my head in my left hand. i cleared my throat when i heard a voice on the other end of the line.
'a man broke into my place and attacked me. he needs help.'
i gave the woman my address and then we waited. freya disappeared back into my bedroom. i stayed on the sofa.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I called out for my sister because for some reason I didn't trust her being alone in the other room. Freya can you hand me a pen please?
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
as i reached my bedroom door i could hear freya talking quietly to vincent. so obviously the bastard wasn't dead. i stood in the doorway not trusting myself to get any closer. vincent was sitting up, leaning against my bed. freya was kneeling beside him. with blood all over his face and shirt it looked worse than it was.
hear my name
take a good look
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Truth be told a big part of me was sorry for that. At least now I didn't have to explain having a dead body in my bedroom. I return to the phone to hear the weird mellow music on the other end was still playing.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
I regreted that I didn't do as Freya suggested. I would have liked Arlo here, or anyone with a clear head for that matter.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
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i could see hamish was weighing it up in his mind. it would have been so much better if he'd just denied he had something he felt i should know. hamish never was good at confessions.
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this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I don't want to tell you. In fact I came over to see you one last time before you would get so angry with me that you didn't want to see me no more.
Really leave it like this.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
with that i left hamish standing. i didn't look back until i got to the door of my building. hamish was turning the corner. taking the stairs two at a time, i burst through the front door and nearly knocked freya over.
'oh shit. sorry. you going out?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
"i haven't even had lunch yet. and you're thinking dinner. just leave it freya. i'm going out tonight so i don't know.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
She didn't finish her sentence instead she said; "And might be able to tell me......" Again she didn't finish her sentence, but I knew what she was getting at. This wasn't going to be easy, if I could at all do what she asked of me. I wasn't even sure if I wanted to.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i went and lay down on my bed for a quick nap. i'd not long woken up and yet i was tired again. or still. whatever.
when i woke up it was to someone baging on my door.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
fuck. it was vincent.
'come on baby we need to talk. you belong with me. open the door.'
maybe i could just ignore him. it sounded like he was going to break down the door.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'she's not here vincent so fuck off.'
the smile on his face was one i'd seen before. opening the door had been a mistake. i tried to close it again, but vincent grabbed it and held it open. i stepped back as he stepped forward.
'she's not here. i told you.'
whether freya was here or not suddenly became irrelevant to vincent. he had me. alone.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i turned my back to walk away. feeling vincent's hand on me made me shudder. i spun around to push him away but he grabbed both my shoulders. he was strong. too strong for me in the position i was in. exactly what he had in mind i didn't know and quite frankly i didn't want to find out. i was smarter than vincent. i could get out of this. i just had to let him think he was on control. i stopped struggling. and as soon as i did, he loosened his grip. i push him away and went for the door. as i reach it, he reached me. vincent grabbed my hair and pulled me back, letting me go so i hit the wall.
my head hit so hard it cracked the plaster. it stung so much that tears came to my eyes. vincent stood over me.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Now lets see how tough you really are dear sweet Anna. He grabbed me by my ankles and dragged me further into my room away from the door. He tried to pull my legs apart as he lowered him self towards my body.
It seems that I will have you now you vindictive little bitch. Come on open up, you know you want it.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'is this how you kept freya? treating her like she was a some whore you picked up on the street. telling her she was useless and that you loved her. and no one else would. you're pathetic vincent.'
he grabbed my throat and standing, lifted me to my feet. i had never seen such a look on a man's face. i thought he was going to squeeze the life right out of me. i closed my eyes, waiting. i felt his grip tighten and then release as he threw me on the bed. i tried to scramble off the other side but vincent grabbed my legs and pulled me back. his hand against the back of my head, pushing my face into the sheets as his knee pried my legs apart. i reached back and dug my nails into the skin of his arm. my cries were muffled but they felt like screaming in my head. i hoped i would choke before i felt him inside me. and then ...nothing.... i heard a crack and felt vincent fall off me. i turned to see freya standing at the edge of the bed holding one of my sculptures in her hand.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I froze and we both didn't speak for what seemed like five minutes. We could only stare at the body laying on the floor and at each other.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'we've got to call someone freya.'
as i walked past her, freya reached out and grabbed my arm. instinctly i pulled it away. i stared at her. i could see what she was thinking. but as much as i depised vincent, i didn't want him dying on my floor.
'i'm not having him die on my floor.'
in the hall i leant against the wall briefly to gain my composure. i wiped the snot from my upper lip with the back of my hand. i could feel the blood drying on my brow.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'and what the hell can arlo do? help us roll the body in a rug and dump it off the nearest bridge. no freya, he needs an ambulance.'
i turned my back on my sister and started towards the phone. i was running on auto pilot and i didn't want that pig dying on my floor. i could feel freya's presence as i dialled the numbers. i dropped onto the sofa and rested my head in my left hand. i cleared my throat when i heard a voice on the other end of the line.
'a man broke into my place and attacked me. he needs help.'
i gave the woman my address and then we waited. freya disappeared back into my bedroom. i stayed on the sofa.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i looked up to see two men walking through my door. i replaced the phone and stood up. behind them i could see a policeman.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i indicated which way that was. i started to follow them but the police stepped into my path.
take a good look
this could be the day
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i just need to say