'i'm not talking about this thing with vincent. i'm talking about all the shit i've put you and davey through all these years. you coming to me has made me realise what a burden i must have been. what a burden i still am. i've got this feeling that quite frankly i've never felt before. i think it's responsibility or something, i don't know. but whatever it is, it's making me consider what you're going through. last week i wouldn't have cared. i just can't believe you and davey stood by me as long as you did. and that you didn't just give up. now that i'm actually needed i don't want to let you down.'
wow i think that's more than i've said to freya for years. quite possibly ever. but i did mean it. i could say that most of what i did was out of my control, but that'd be denying responsibility for my actions. i know there were times when i could've gone one way but decided writing myself off was a better option. an easier option.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
She just stared at me for a few seconds without saying anything. When she spoke she couldn't hold back the tears that had only just dried up.
I don't really know what to say Anna. I would like to be happy. And really I am, but I don't dare to be. My gut says not to trust what you just said. And I feel bad for that, I don’t mean to be this harsh.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
well freya's response is not much of a surprise. dr. mcintyre warned me that making amends to the people around me might not be welcomed with hearts and flowers. he said their scepticism should be expected. considering all the years i had to atone for, just getting them to listen would be a victory for me.
'i understand that freya. your trust is something i'll have to earn. but i am sincere in wanting to make amends.'
i stood up and then bent down to hug my sister. i brushed the hair from her face and kissed her forehead.
'you gonna be okay? i think we both could do with some sleep right about now'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I could yes, but maybe some wine instead of this tea you have would help.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i walked over to the fridge to check. opening the door, i pulled an already open bottle out of the doorshelf. i grabbed a glass out of the cupboard and placed both on the table in front of freya.
'knock yourself out. i'll see you in the morning.'
with that, i left my sister to her own devices and went back to bed. i hoped arlo was still awake.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
hamish didn't feel so good. he'd spent the night drinking with friends and was nowhere close to recovery. he looked at beth through half closed eyes. he said nothing but left the door open for beth. she took this as an invitation.
when she found hamish he was curled up on the sofa.
'jeez you look like shit. what'd you get up to last night?'
just then a girl beth didn't know walked into the room. she and beth looked at each other. beth could see the girl was trying to gauge whether she was a threat.
'hello. i'm beth.'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
hamish had to be kidding right? was it possible that this was the same tania davey cheated on anna with? beth looked at hamish and then back at the girl.
'have we met before? you look like someone i should know.'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
beth's suspicious tone awoke hamish from his alcohol induced stupor. it was too late of course, but he realised what a mistake it had been to let beth into his home. he stood up and came to beth grabbing her arm more roughly than he should have.
'can i talk with you in the kitchen please beth?'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
Well I might if you stop twisting my arm. He stood there with a foolish grin on his face that was supposed to state he thought it was a clever answer.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
That is no excuse Hamish. You traitor. Fuck it Hamish how could you do this?
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
It is about respect. Jeez Hamish don't you have a soul or are you hoping to sell it to satan. Fuck it Hamish they almost broke up over this girl.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'yeah well from where i'm standing it doesn't seemed to have worked out for davey and anna anyway has is? anna screwed it upon her own. and i don't need you coming into my home and berating me like a child beth. now get out before one of us says something we really regret.'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
hamish loooked at tanya. he could see this situation blowing right up in his face. tanya had no idea what she was in the middle of. hamish walked to tanya and ushered her out of the kitchen.
'no. it's nothing. just a difference of opinion between friends. beth was just leaving. weren't you beth?'
hamish looked back at beth hoping she'd take the hint.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Sure I'll leave and let you bath in your own ignorance. Or is it better explained as selfishness?
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'who i choose to sleep with is not your business beth.'
beth was almost through the door when she heard tanya say something. it was almost a whisper. but one of those whispers where the person says it loud enough for the other to hear but quiet enough to deny having said anything of consequence at all.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
with beth in her face, tanya suddenly felt less valorous. she didn't know beth and so didn't know what she was capable of. but still she wasn't one to back down from any challenge. she looked beth right in the eye.
'i called you a bitch.'
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Well you should know what that is. So you might be right. I'll take your expert opinion on that, if there is one woman who has personal knowledge on being a bitch it is you.
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
Whatever. Maybe Hamish wants to paint the picture for you. Goodbye!
« One man's glory is another man's hell.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
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wow i think that's more than i've said to freya for years. quite possibly ever. but i did mean it. i could say that most of what i did was out of my control, but that'd be denying responsibility for my actions. i know there were times when i could've gone one way but decided writing myself off was a better option. an easier option.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I don't really know what to say Anna. I would like to be happy. And really I am, but I don't dare to be. My gut says not to trust what you just said. And I feel bad for that, I don’t mean to be this harsh.
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'i understand that freya. your trust is something i'll have to earn. but i am sincere in wanting to make amends.'
i stood up and then bent down to hug my sister. i brushed the hair from her face and kissed her forehead.
'you gonna be okay? i think we both could do with some sleep right about now'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
i walked over to the fridge to check. opening the door, i pulled an already open bottle out of the doorshelf. i grabbed a glass out of the cupboard and placed both on the table in front of freya.
'knock yourself out. i'll see you in the morning.'
with that, i left my sister to her own devices and went back to bed. i hoped arlo was still awake.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
when she found hamish he was curled up on the sofa.
'jeez you look like shit. what'd you get up to last night?'
just then a girl beth didn't know walked into the room. she and beth looked at each other. beth could see the girl was trying to gauge whether she was a threat.
'hello. i'm beth.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'have we met before? you look like someone i should know.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'can i talk with you in the kitchen please beth?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'what the hell are you thinking being with that girl? i'm just gonna go ahead and assume you know who she us.'
beth was livid.
'what is wrong with you hamish?'
hamish was opening his mouth but it was difficult to get a word in with beth at the moment.
'well aren't you going say anything?'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'i was drunk?'
still hamish couldn't help trying to be funny.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'just leave beth. please just go.'
just then tanya appeared in the doorway.
'not now tanya.'
tanya didn't move. she stared at beth almost daring her to say something. she must have overheard the conversation. how could she not?
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'no. it's nothing. just a difference of opinion between friends. beth was just leaving. weren't you beth?'
hamish looked back at beth hoping she'd take the hint.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
beth was almost through the door when she heard tanya say something. it was almost a whisper. but one of those whispers where the person says it loud enough for the other to hear but quiet enough to deny having said anything of consequence at all.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'i called you a bitch.'
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»
'i'm missing something here, i know i am. why am i such a threat to you?
hamish sighed. he almost had beth out the door and now he had a situation that was fast getting beyond his control.
'am i invading some sort of sacred turf here. is it that have a thing for hamish and can't imagine him wanting to be with anyone else? tell me. what?
tanya defiantly folded her arms across her chest.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You’re on the outside, never bound by such a spell.
Together in the darkness, alone in the light.
I took it upon me to be yours, Timmy,
I’ll lead your angels and demons at play tonight......»