it's noon. on any other Thanksgiving, I'd be well on my way!
If I had known then what I know now...
Vegas 93, Vegas 98, Vegas 00 (10 year show), Vegas 03, Vegas 06
VIC 07
EV LA1 08
Seattle1 09, Seattle2 09, Salt Lake 09, LA4 09
Columbus 10
EV LA 11
Vancouver 11
Missoula 12
Portland 13, Spokane 13
St. Paul 14, Denver 14
gotta admit, I'm not looking forward to this weekend. it's not even a holiday weekend here. but I don't know what I'll do with myself., I have a usual routine, and I'll be honest, I do it because I like it, not as any type of escape. weekends are going to be fucking boring now.
"Oh Canada...you're beautiful when you're drunk" -EV 8/14/93
some of my reasons for quitting are the same as Hugh’s; some not...
money wasn’t an issue, nor were kids (I don’t have any)....I do kind of wonder about my BIL, tho....he’s a happy drunk but his kids see him drinking all the time. as far as the wife, my drinking was only a problem maybe 5% of the time (if that).
my main reasons were hangovers, leading to wasted days, and memory blackouts of the “night before,”
hang in there, Hugh....your life will be better w/o booze.
If I had known then what I know now...
Vegas 93, Vegas 98, Vegas 00 (10 year show), Vegas 03, Vegas 06
VIC 07
EV LA1 08
Seattle1 09, Seattle2 09, Salt Lake 09, LA4 09
Columbus 10
EV LA 11
Vancouver 11
Missoula 12
Portland 13, Spokane 13
St. Paul 14, Denver 14
Eighteen months ago I was in ICU, fresh off a blood transfusion. Detoxed physically, though unaware. Overwhelming fear in moments of (silent) lucidity...thinking of the grim fucking reaper...how will I ever adjust to living without alcohol...a goddamn weakling at 91 pounds.
I feel so much stronger, mentally, than before. More in control, more free, and most importantly, honest with myself - even when the my truth hurts.
I'll always be as proud of this achievement as much as I am, and probably always will be, cognizant of the fact that much of this is by my own doing. I was quite angry and disappointed with myself for awhile...some of it still lingers.
Eighteen months ago I was in ICU, fresh off a blood transfusion. Detoxed physically, though unaware. Overwhelming fear in moments of (silent) lucidity...thinking of the grim fucking reaper...how will I ever adjust to living without alcohol...a goddamn weakling at 91 pounds.
I feel so much stronger, mentally, than before. More in control, more free, and most importantly, honest with myself - even when the my truth hurts.
I'll always be as proud of this achievement as much as I am, and probably always will be, cognizant of the fact that much of this is by my own doing. I was quite angry and disappointed with myself for awhile...some of it still lingers.
Still, I am alcohol-free
Alcohol-free but still full of spirit , and overflowing with love and humour You are a miracle, hedo.
my small self... like a book amongst the many on a shelf
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Eighteen months ago I was in ICU, fresh off a blood transfusion. Detoxed physically, though unaware. Overwhelming fear in moments of (silent) lucidity...thinking of the grim fucking reaper...how will I ever adjust to living without alcohol...a goddamn weakling at 91 pounds.
I feel so much stronger, mentally, than before. More in control, more free, and most importantly, honest with myself - even when the my truth hurts.
I'll always be as proud of this achievement as much as I am, and probably always will be, cognizant of the fact that much of this is by my own doing. I was quite angry and disappointed with myself for awhile...some of it still lingers.
Eighteen months ago I was in ICU, fresh off a blood transfusion. Detoxed physically, though unaware. Overwhelming fear in moments of (silent) lucidity...thinking of the grim fucking reaper...how will I ever adjust to living without alcohol...a goddamn weakling at 91 pounds.
I feel so much stronger, mentally, than before. More in control, more free, and most importantly, honest with myself - even when the my truth hurts.
I'll always be as proud of this achievement as much as I am, and probably always will be, cognizant of the fact that much of this is by my own doing. I was quite angry and disappointed with myself for awhile...some of it still lingers.
Still, I am alcohol-free
Congrats Hedo. That there ^^^ is everything! I wish you continued healing (((hugs))).
"What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop
Eighteen months ago I was in ICU, fresh off a blood transfusion. Detoxed physically, though unaware. Overwhelming fear in moments of (silent) lucidity...thinking of the grim fucking reaper...how will I ever adjust to living without alcohol...a goddamn weakling at 91 pounds.
I feel so much stronger, mentally, than before. More in control, more free, and most importantly, honest with myself - even when the my truth hurts.
I'll always be as proud of this achievement as much as I am, and probably always will be, cognizant of the fact that much of this is by my own doing. I was quite angry and disappointed with myself for awhile...some of it still lingers.
I need some good vibes/prayers sent for my buddy Rob. Best friend from High School. Recently reconnected after like 20 years. He has struggled over the years with addiction and alcoholism.
Currently he is sitting in county jail with 3 felony charges.
He feels done with the drugs. Easy to say when you are locked up. Trust me, I know.
But I am there with him in spirit. Hes a good dude who makes some fucked up choices.
So please, whatever you can put out in the universe I and he would greatly appreciate.
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
I need some good vibes/prayers sent for my buddy Rob. Best friend from High School. Recently reconnected after like 20 years. He has struggled over the years with addiction and alcoholism.
Currently he is sitting in county jail with 3 felony charges.
He feels done with the drugs. Easy to say when you are locked up. Trust me, I know.
But I am there with him in spirit. Hes a good dude who makes some fucked up choices.
So please, whatever you can put out in the universe I and he would greatly appreciate.
thanks.
Thinking of him and you and you sending good vibes out there.
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Back in September, after a weekend long bender, I started to experience terrible pains in my side. I thought it was a kidney stone. Turns out my liver was inflamed and the doctor found fat deposits on it. I had been slowly cutting back on drinking prior to that, but years of regular, heavy drinking had taken a toll. The doctor advised me to stop drinking immediately, so I did.
So far, it hasn’t been that bad. I have my moments though. I feel better, I sleep better, and lost 15 pounds. I’m lucky that my wife is super supportive. I know not everyone has someone in their corner.
I want to use my voice as an advocate for those who suffer the unbearable pain that addiction brings into life. I want to shout out against the stigma. I want to help people understand that addiction is not the result of lack of character, and recovery is not simply a matter of willpower. I want to stand up and stand by those that are making it and show that this can be done. Tell those who will listen to forget what you have heard: people DO recover.
A lil excerpt from Marc that I wished when my brother was deep in his addiction, he would have been able to read.
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Very sorry to hear this news.
2016: Lexington and Wrigley 1
Vegas 93, Vegas 98, Vegas 00 (10 year show), Vegas 03, Vegas 06
VIC 07
EV LA1 08
Seattle1 09, Seattle2 09, Salt Lake 09, LA4 09
Columbus 10
EV LA 11
Vancouver 11
Missoula 12
Portland 13, Spokane 13
St. Paul 14, Denver 14
-EV 8/14/93
money wasn’t an issue, nor were kids (I don’t have any)....I do kind of wonder about my BIL, tho....he’s a happy drunk but his kids see him drinking all the time. as far as the wife, my drinking was only a problem maybe 5% of the time (if that).
my main reasons were hangovers, leading to wasted days, and memory blackouts of the “night before,”
hang in there, Hugh....your life will be better w/o booze.
Vegas 93, Vegas 98, Vegas 00 (10 year show), Vegas 03, Vegas 06
VIC 07
EV LA1 08
Seattle1 09, Seattle2 09, Salt Lake 09, LA4 09
Columbus 10
EV LA 11
Vancouver 11
Missoula 12
Portland 13, Spokane 13
St. Paul 14, Denver 14
I feel so much stronger, mentally, than before. More in control, more free, and most importantly, honest with myself - even when the my truth hurts.
I'll always be as proud of this achievement as much as I am, and probably always will be, cognizant of the fact that much of this is by my own doing. I was quite angry and disappointed with myself for awhile...some of it still lingers.
Still, I am alcohol-free
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
2016: Lexington and Wrigley 1
astoria 06
albany 06
hartford 06
reading 06
barcelona 06
paris 06
wembley 07
dusseldorf 07
nijmegen 07
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Thinking of him and you and you sending good vibes out there.
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
astoria 06
albany 06
hartford 06
reading 06
barcelona 06
paris 06
wembley 07
dusseldorf 07
nijmegen 07
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
Yesterday marked 14 weeks since I’ve had a drink.
Back in September, after a weekend long bender, I started to experience terrible pains in my side. I thought it was a kidney stone. Turns out my liver was inflamed and the doctor found fat deposits on it. I had been slowly cutting back on drinking prior to that, but years of regular, heavy drinking had taken a toll. The doctor advised me to stop drinking immediately, so I did.
So far, it hasn’t been that bad. I have my moments though. I feel better, I sleep better, and lost 15 pounds. I’m lucky that my wife is super supportive. I know not everyone has someone in their corner.
Keep it up everyone. Take it day to day.
Be proud of those 14
https://thedevilstrip.com/sober-chronicles-new-frames/
- I want to use my voice as an advocate for those who suffer the unbearable pain that addiction brings into life. I want to shout out against the stigma. I want to help people understand that addiction is not the result of lack of character, and recovery is not simply a matter of willpower. I want to stand up and stand by those that are making it and show that this can be done. Tell those who will listen to forget what you have heard: people DO recover.
A lil excerpt from Marc that I wished when my brother was deep in his addiction, he would have been able to read.2016: Lexington and Wrigley 1