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  • OffSheGoes35
    OffSheGoes35 Posts: 3,517
    edited July 2021
    You're trying to find ways to help yourself...picking flowers and veggies...staying off the internet. That's a good sign. Keep it going! 
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  • Matts3221
    Matts3221 Posts: 658

    Yes I have to say staying off the internet may help ( always feel free to post here ) I disable my phone at this point from Social Media and news during the day. Its so easy to catch a headline and then go down a rabbit hole of doom scrolling.

    I know we always say baby steps but you got this , so much love for you out there Rob.  

  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,917
    Im convinced im dying. And i cant unhook from it. 


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • Gern Blansten
    Gern Blansten Mar-A-Lago Posts: 22,274
    lastexitlondon said:
    Im convinced im dying. And i cant unhook from it. 
    do you have a pet? 
    Remember the Thomas Nine !! (10/02/2018)
    The Golden Age is 2 months away. And guess what….. you’re gonna love it! (teskeinc 11.19.24)

    1998: Noblesville; 2003: Noblesville; 2009: EV Nashville, Chicago, Chicago
    2010: St Louis, Columbus, Noblesville; 2011: EV Chicago, East Troy, East Troy
    2013: London ON, Wrigley; 2014: Cincy, St Louis, Moline (NO CODE)
    2016: Lexington, Wrigley #1; 2018: Wrigley, Wrigley, Boston, Boston
    2020: Oakland, Oakland:  2021: EV Ohana, Ohana, Ohana, Ohana
    2022: Oakland, Oakland, Nashville, Louisville; 2023: Chicago, Chicago, Noblesville
    2024: Noblesville, Wrigley, Wrigley, Ohana, Ohana; 2025: Pitt1, Pitt2
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,917
    No just kids. Haha


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • Gern Blansten
    Gern Blansten Mar-A-Lago Posts: 22,274
    lastexitlondon said:
    No just kids. Haha
    not sure if it would fit your situation but a companion animal might help you tremendously
    Remember the Thomas Nine !! (10/02/2018)
    The Golden Age is 2 months away. And guess what….. you’re gonna love it! (teskeinc 11.19.24)

    1998: Noblesville; 2003: Noblesville; 2009: EV Nashville, Chicago, Chicago
    2010: St Louis, Columbus, Noblesville; 2011: EV Chicago, East Troy, East Troy
    2013: London ON, Wrigley; 2014: Cincy, St Louis, Moline (NO CODE)
    2016: Lexington, Wrigley #1; 2018: Wrigley, Wrigley, Boston, Boston
    2020: Oakland, Oakland:  2021: EV Ohana, Ohana, Ohana, Ohana
    2022: Oakland, Oakland, Nashville, Louisville; 2023: Chicago, Chicago, Noblesville
    2024: Noblesville, Wrigley, Wrigley, Ohana, Ohana; 2025: Pitt1, Pitt2
  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,570
    lastexitlondon said:
    Im convinced im dying. And i cant unhook from it. 
    you know that I had this as well. Obviously not as bad as you (from what you describe), but think about this: how long have you been feeling you've been dying, but you're still here? feelings of impending doom and dying are hallmarks of anxiety. 

    I know it's not this easy. I'm having a fucking panic attack as I type this LOL, but once you rationally realize that you've been convinced of the worst for so long, if it were true, you'd be dead already, you might be able to start living again. 
    By The Time They Figure Out What Went Wrong, We'll Be Sitting On A Beach, Earning Twenty Percent.




  • HughFreakingDillon
    HughFreakingDillon Winnipeg Posts: 39,570
    Gern Blansten said:
    lastexitlondon said:
    No just kids. Haha
    not sure if it would fit your situation but a companion animal might help you tremendously
    that's a top notch suggestion. 
    By The Time They Figure Out What Went Wrong, We'll Be Sitting On A Beach, Earning Twenty Percent.




  • NEweather
    NEweather Posts: 555
    could you consider going outside into the garden, with (bare) feet touching the ground / earth and maybe fingers in the soil? ( if appropriate weather/natural light of day ) even if only 10-15 minutes?  Thinking of & hoping for you. Hoping everyone who needs relief from "...thoughts he(they) can't help thinkin' ... ", receives what they need
  • Matts3221
    Matts3221 Posts: 658
    HughFreakingDillon said:
    lastexitlondon said:
    Im convinced im dying. And i cant unhook from it. 
    you know that I had this as well. Obviously not as bad as you (from what you describe), but think about this: how long have you been feeling you've been dying, but you're still here? feelings of impending doom and dying are hallmarks of anxiety. 

    I know it's not this easy. I'm having a fucking panic attack as I type this LOL, but once you rationally realize that you've been convinced of the worst for so long, if it were true, you'd be dead already, you might be able to start living again. 


    I find this to be very on point. I would never say I know what you are going thru Rob. I have had heavy depression and anxiety  pretty much from my teen years until today.

    I too would not even be able to count the 100's of times I think I am dying and there is no going back. Panic is the worst thing , those who don't understand typical make it worse with blanket statements of just take a deep breath.

    It is true thought that I will sometimes realize all the times I thing I am dying since I was 15 and I am almost 43 that it has never happened. Although when in the midist (sp) of a panic attack good luck convincing yourself that.

    I know we have spoken about meds before , do you take anything for anxiety ? I take 1mg of Clonazepam before I leave for work in the morning and that does help.

    If I get home and feel like I am going to climb up a wall with anxiety , I will take 2mg of it when I get home and do yoga for 30 mins by time yoga or a long walk is over between the medication and exercise my breathing levels come down , heart rate drops , just a sort of calm that takes over.

    This may not work for you but please reach out if you need to talk. 

  • OffSheGoes35
    OffSheGoes35 Posts: 3,517
    NEweather said:
    could you consider going outside into the garden, with (bare) feet touching the ground / earth and maybe fingers in the soil? ( if appropriate weather/natural light of day ) even if only 10-15 minutes?  Thinking of & hoping for you. Hoping everyone who needs relief from "...thoughts he(they) can't help thinkin' ... ", receives what they need
    I don't know that we should rule out bare feet in mud. :pensive:
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,917
    Thanks everyone.  Symptoms  always drive this  and my lack of belief.


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  • OffSheGoes35
    OffSheGoes35 Posts: 3,517
    lastexitlondon said:
    Thanks everyone.  Symptoms  always drive this  and my lack of belief.
    How so? 
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,917
    OffSheGoes35 said:
    lastexitlondon said:
    Thanks everyone.  Symptoms  always drive this  and my lack of belief.
    How so? 
    The trust  in the  medical  people against my belief  . It sounds  pathetic.  
    My diagnosis  mentally is ocd/chronic health anxiety 
    So i must trust i don't  think straight,but when i get symptoms  i am 100% believing myself 


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • OffSheGoes35
    OffSheGoes35 Posts: 3,517
    It doesn't sound pathetic, it sounds Difficult. It sounds like you would have to go against your nature, your instincts, and that would be hard for anyone.
    Wouldn't it be nice to take a vacation from our illnesses? I have uncontrolled diabetes that I'm working to control right now...but I would give just about anything to have a break from the worry and the doctors. 

  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,917
    I would love that too.  So much. I feel for you. Illness is so difficult,you end up yearning for the past. For the day you  were really alive and free and knowing its never coming back.
    The diabetes- do you  eat a carb free diet. I dont have diabetes but i had inflammation issues and cut carbs and ate one meal a day . I cut 3 stone in under a year and helped. I know you probably know all of that though.


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,917
    It is exactly that going against that instinct and voice inside that ive lived by. I had many traumas  i listed them and its over 10 and they say thats  why im like it


    this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
  • OffSheGoes35
    OffSheGoes35 Posts: 3,517
    lastexitlondon said:
    I would love that too.  So much. I feel for you. Illness is so difficult,you end up yearning for the past. For the day you  were really alive and free and knowing its never coming back.
    The diabetes- do you  eat a carb free diet. I dont have diabetes but i had inflammation issues and cut carbs and ate one meal a day . I cut 3 stone in under a year and helped. I know you probably know all of that though.
    That's some amazing willpower you got there! I have never done one meal a day, two yes. Right now, I've been instructed to keep my carbs within a certain range for every meal. And I feel like that is doable. I'm not being asked to do anything that is beyond my reach at this point, so that is less of a worry. The worry is that I'm going to kick into hyper organizational mode and then wear myself out and avoid the doctors. That's what I've done in the past.
    If I can just stay the course and go at the pace my doctor has set so far, I can get better. Feel better.

    I feel for you too. And I wish I could grant you a vacation from memories and worry. Has there ever been a period, since your illness began, in which you felt like it was something you could work with?


  • OffSheGoes35
    OffSheGoes35 Posts: 3,517
    edited July 2021
    It was nice talking to you, Rob. 
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  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    edited July 2021
    Illness for sure plays a part. The fun procedures themselves, along with waiting for results. The worry. The ever-present symptoms.  And knowing nothing will really change; just keep it from getting worse.

    In a way we all do that — ride the waves, falter sometimes, keep your head above water, sink a bit, and rise again. Always rise again. 

    Life ain’t easy, that’s for sure. It’s also what makes us who we are. Navigating those obstacles whether grand or inconsequential…it’s a part of us.

    Hang in there, Rob. You’ve done it, you CAN do it. Remember to breathe. 

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