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  • RKCNDY
    RKCNDY Posts: 31,013
    chadwick said:

    can you cut a ambien in half? the hangover from a sleep aid medication is absolutely horrible. i won't take that stuff, i have & i wont ever again

    yes, I did that at first to make sure I wouldn't get the hangover
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  • ldent42
    ldent42 NYC Posts: 7,859
    Yea unfortunately when I cut them in half they have zero effect.
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  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    Ambien is the scariest shit on the planet!! Took it once and tried to kill my sister in my sleep! No shit!! Was horrible horrible shit! So I'll NEVER take that again! EVER.. Do you know how scary it is to wake up
    In jail, and hear that you tried to stab someone? And not remember any of it??
  • PJ_Soul
    PJ_Soul Vancouver, BC Posts: 50,662
    :-w
    With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy. ~ Desiderata
  • RKCNDY
    RKCNDY Posts: 31,013
    I just want to sleep! I finally was able to not fall asleep after dinner, and now I can't sleep!
    Well, yesterday I fell asleep around 9pm and slept for an hour, th en couldn't sleep I till 8am, and then woke up at noon.

    I should be some sort of rock star or something, sleep in the day, party all night...though I only get a few hours of sleep here and there.
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  • ldent42
    ldent42 NYC Posts: 7,859
    Ambien high!!!!!!!!!!
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  • ldent42
    ldent42 NYC Posts: 7,859
    ldent42 said:

    Ambien high!!!!!!!!!!

    Wow. I have no recollection of posting that. I took half a pill that night and it knocked me out for 12 hours. So I can't even use the pills anymore. I was doing alright for about a week but this week the insomnia came back. Boooo.
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  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    ldent42 said:

    ldent42 said:

    Ambien high!!!!!!!!!!

    Wow. I have no recollection of posting that. I took half a pill that night and it knocked me out for 12 hours. So I can't even use the pills anymore. I was doing alright for about a week but this week the insomnia came back. Boooo.
    Yeah that stuff is scary!
  • ldent42
    ldent42 NYC Posts: 7,859
    Wh, I don't have sisters so it's safer for me anyway :-P

    Still upset about the waste though. And since it's a high stress day I think I'll be struggling tonight too.
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  • PJSiren
    PJSiren Salem, OR Posts: 5,863
    Been having some insomnia again...partly I think because of the warmer nights, it was freezing and then it warmed up again...and partly since we put Tabby down, so from the depression of losing her...it's been a rough few nights...
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  • RKCNDY
    RKCNDY Posts: 31,013
    Damn you altitude sickness!
    The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.

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  • ldent42
    ldent42 NYC Posts: 7,859
    What I really don't understand is the inconsistency. The last time I took half an ambien I slept for 12 hours and couldn't shake the zombie fog for hours when I woke up. I took a quarter of a pill 3 hours ago and now I feel like the guy in the a clockwork Orange movie.
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  • PJSiren
    PJSiren Salem, OR Posts: 5,863
    edited December 2014
    For some reason I've been amped today and it's continued into tonight and I can't sleep so here I am...rawr!!!
    Music is my Religion and Pearl Jam, my Savior!
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  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    PJSiren said:

    For some reason I've been amped today and it's continued into tonight and I can't sleep so here I am...rawr!!!

    Same here.. So I've been writing all night!
  • PJSiren
    PJSiren Salem, OR Posts: 5,863
    whispering hands said:

    PJSiren said:

    For some reason I've been amped today and it's continued into tonight and I can't sleep so here I am...rawr!!!

    Same here.. So I've been writing all night!
    Nothin' wrong with that! I can't wait to read it later after work!!! :-p
    Music is my Religion and Pearl Jam, my Savior!
    Tattooed Dissident!
  • njnancy
    njnancy Posts: 5,096
    I wish I'd found this thread sooner. I have insomnia constantly, & sometimes I just stay awake but feel like jumping out of my skin cause my brain's in anxiety mode. Just don't feel 'normal'.
    I also will fall asleep sometimes just as the rest of the world is waking up & I fall in to those 'bad' sleeps where I want to wake up but I keep getting sucked back under, & it's not restful & I finally have to fight to wake up & I'm left feeling guilty for not getting done all the things that are overdue because the world is not open at 3am.
    I have ambien in varying strengths , melatonin, valerian root, lunesta, but hardly use them because once I realize I should have taken something it's too late. I'm 18 years sober, so alcohol, etc. are out. And I take klonopin for panic disorder, so it doesn't make me sleepy or high, just ratchets down the free floating panic about nothing specific, but almost anything of which I can think. I'm bipolar too, the depression mostly kind. So it's a vicious circle of insomnia causing depression & anxiety causing insomnia & throw in a three day migraine here & there. Good times.

    I used to wake up at 6am everyday, drink herbal tea, have the noise machines, etc. but I haven't done that in quite some time. It's also exacerbated but a succession of extremely stressful situations. So I'm behind on everything, feel bad about my life most of the time & my clock is completely broken.

    So now I know where to come in about 7 hours. And it's nice to know that there are others who do this on a daily basis. Not that i'm glad you all are insomniacs too. I used to get night terrors & sleep paralysis creeps on occassin, they are both terrifying. And when I do sleep, it's very lucid, like a movie. I have always had recurring dreams that have changed as my life has changed. And I am aware that I am asleep in my dreams almost always, I used to do this arm movement in my dreams and it would wake me up ( I later saw it in a Talking Heads video which freaked me the fuck out).

    Okay, I need to bookmark this thread, I wasn't here for most of November, I missed youse guys. :)>-
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    PJSiren said:

    whispering hands said:

    PJSiren said:

    For some reason I've been amped today and it's continued into tonight and I can't sleep so here I am...rawr!!!

    Same here.. So I've been writing all night!
    Nothin' wrong with that! I can't wait to read it later after work!!! :-p
    Oh it got GOOOD! Lol I have to go take a cool down break. Maybe not sleeping is working itself out! Lol I hope!
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    njnancy said:

    I wish I'd found this thread sooner. I have insomnia constantly, & sometimes I just stay awake but feel like jumping out of my skin cause my brain's in anxiety mode. Just don't feel 'normal'.
    I also will fall asleep sometimes just as the rest of the world is waking up & I fall in to those 'bad' sleeps where I want to wake up but I keep getting sucked back under, & it's not restful & I finally have to fight to wake up & I'm left feeling guilty for not getting done all the things that are overdue because the world is not open at 3am.
    I have ambien in varying strengths , melatonin, valerian root, lunesta, but hardly use them because once I realize I should have taken something it's too late. I'm 18 years sober, so alcohol, etc. are out. And I take klonopin for panic disorder, so it doesn't make me sleepy or high, just ratchets down the free floating panic about nothing specific, but almost anything of which I can think. I'm bipolar too, the depression mostly kind. So it's a vicious circle of insomnia causing depression & anxiety causing insomnia & throw in a three day migraine here & there. Good times.

    I used to wake up at 6am everyday, drink herbal tea, have the noise machines, etc. but I haven't done that in quite some time. It's also exacerbated but a succession of extremely stressful situations. So I'm behind on everything, feel bad about my life most of the time & my clock is completely broken.

    So now I know where to come in about 7 hours. And it's nice to know that there are others who do this on a daily basis. Not that i'm glad you all are insomniacs too. I used to get night terrors & sleep paralysis creeps on occassin, they are both terrifying. And when I do sleep, it's very lucid, like a movie. I have always had recurring dreams that have changed as my life has changed. And I am aware that I am asleep in my dreams almost always, I used to do this arm movement in my dreams and it would wake me up ( I later saw it in a Talking Heads video which freaked me the fuck out).

    Okay, I need to bookmark this thread, I wasn't here for most of November, I missed youse guys. :)>-

    I was wondering where the hell you WENT?!?! Believe me.. We all here in this thread know your pain! And we all try our best to
    Help and support one another! And congrats on the 18 years! I just made 6 mo.s yesterday! If you ever need an ear, feel free to PM me. I'm almost always awake at retarded hours of the night! ;-)
  • PJSiren
    PJSiren Salem, OR Posts: 5,863
    whispering hands said:

    PJSiren said:

    whispering hands said:

    PJSiren said:

    For some reason I've been amped today and it's continued into tonight and I can't sleep so here I am...rawr!!!

    Same here.. So I've been writing all night!
    Nothin' wrong with that! I can't wait to read it later after work!!! :-p
    Oh it got GOOOD! Lol I have to go take a cool down break. Maybe not sleeping is working itself out! Lol I hope!
    Omg...you tease me! LOL
    Music is my Religion and Pearl Jam, my Savior!
    Tattooed Dissident!
  • njnancy
    njnancy Posts: 5,096
    whispering hands said:



    I was wondering where the hell you WENT?!?! Believe me.. We all here in this thread know your pain! And we all try our best to
    Help and support one another! And congrats on the 18 years! I just made 6 mo.s yesterday! If you ever need an ear, feel free to PM me. I'm almost always awake at retarded hours of the night! ;-)

    Thank you - and congratulations on the 6 months - no easy feat - took me 3 years to get it to stick. Good for you and not sleeping when you first get sober is normal, but I'm sure you've been told that before. And your sleeping problems started before this, just saying it's a common thing. Proud of you!!!

    I didn't get to attend my first live Pearl Jam show, I had it planned, Denver, tickets, hotel, ticket buddy, only thing left was airfare. and then my son came back after being gone for a year, so things got serious and money got tight and I didn't get to see Pearl Jam and then he ran away to his father's again (after I missed the damn concert). He was gone two weeks and caused all kinds of trouble for me; meanwhile, there was a huge fire and the house across the street burned to the ground (from embers from the original explosion!), so my mother and I and 2 dogs were told to 'LEAVE NOW' by a fireman axing in our front door. I packed mindless things and went out into black smoke with two dogs by the collar - the ground was frozen from the water (they were hosing down our house) and i soon lost my mom in the smoke - i couldn't breathe and my mom couldn't walk - i sent a fireman her way (notice I did not bring the leashes for the dogs, but i did pack a crossword puzzle, no pen, toothpaste, no toothbrush, a corkscrew (don't ask) and a bunch of blankets which we actually used for the dogs). The red cross evacuated us and I was sure we would lose the house - the last thing i saw was the flames crossing over the street towards my bedroom on the second floor. Thankfully, we did not lose the house - no damage, except for debris everywhere and broken out windows and stuff from the firefighters. We had no heat for two weeks prior to this and were unable to function because it was 30 degrees in the house - one day of heat and then that night was the explosion which wound its way to across the street to the apartment building. Scary shit.
    Tanner, my son, came home the night after the fire, of his own accord (and if he leaves again, he can stay gone, but he has been himself, so..). The following morning i got a call from his school that there was an incident. He had been in a fight, they said and I had to get there ASAP. Winds up he had a broken nose, 2 broken bones in his right eye socket - one next to the nasal canal, and two other bones in his face - a bleeding hematoma on the back of his head from his head snapping back and hitting the bathroom wall after one of many blows to his face. He had two swollen shut eyes, blood all over him and they are talking to me about him being suspended and bad choices. Fuck you please, can i take my son to the hospital now???
    He is still out of school - had his eye checked for damage - that was okay, but he still has symptoms of a concussion and cannot go back till he is symptom free - can't do anything that involves looking at a screen or thinking - which is a nightmare and a losing battle. Next check is Tuesday. The school did not call police or medical aid for him (fight was about 10 minutes long, i don't think Tanner connected once) about 10 different guys filmed it and I tried to watch one of the video but i couldn't. The school was having people delete it which methinks is not legally correct - it's just compounding and the county police are involved cause someone reported it in their town and it's a county school so it went from their town to my town and then county. Detective told me that it was an aggravated assault and would I like to press charges. Never been through this cause Tanner (evidently) has never been in fights, but the officer seemed to be pushing me towards yes so I pressed charges and good thing with the ramifications of this asshole's actions. The school completely dropped the ball by not calling the police (are you shitting me?) and not getting medical aid for him. And other crap they've done afterwards. So I'm gonna have to get a lawyer which I need advice on, as well as concussions. May do a thread for advice from people who have had experience in such things. .
    Sorry - I will try to be more concise in the future - I just start typing and 20 minutes later I have a novella. But it has been a jam-packed month. Tanner walked away from the asshole once and said he wasn't going to fight and then people started calling him a pussy and the asshole walked up to him, rubbed his fist on his cheek and called him his bitch.I felt like I was hearing about an episode of Lockup for crying out loud??? The vice principal told him if he had just laid there and taken the beating he wouldn't be suspended. I would like to say some things to him but I am being good till I have legal counsel.
    Anyway, that was November, you can't make this shit up. And it's 2am, so I'm completely alert and ready to take on the world; unfortunately people i need to interact with are sleeping.

    Maybe you all are sleeping right now - if so - sweet dreams!

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