Thanks all. I am now truly down to deciding whether or not I should euthanize her on Monday. She's been back for more intravenous hydration today, and another antibiotic shot, and she has some real dental probs under the gums, at the roots, which is really causing her pain (I mentioned mouth pain to the vet before, but he didn't see anything, since it's below the gums, so assumed i was wrong until he checked more carefully today). And the vet confirmed that she has kidney disease. So I am heart broken. The vet I think would never suggest putting her down - he wants me to keep bringing her in daily for subcutaneous hydration and antibiotic shots, and then to do dental xrays on Tuesday, which would be a prelude to dental surgery. But before a surgery her kidneys need to flush out, hence the hydration. She is now on pain medication for the mouth pain, which is some comfort. She is eating very little. Considering her age, I think maybe the best thing to do is to let her go now, and not put her through any more of this crap. And it seems just a bit illogical to get major dental surgery for a nearly-17 year old cat with kidney disease.... but my vet is all for it. I don't know if he actually thinks she can have a decent quality of life for an extended period of time with all this and that the process is really worth it for Sid, or if he"s more of an extortionist. Either way, this is horrible. I haven't slept in 2 days, as Sid needs nearly around the clock monitoring (IMO anyway... I feel like I need to know exactly when and how much she drinks and eats and everything, and how much pain she might be in at any given time). Trying to make this decision is devastating for me. I think I know what the smart and reasonable thing to do is... but my vet insisting that all these xrays and ongoing treatment for her is making me feel horribly guilty just considering euthanasia, like I am just not willing to do what it takes to make her better., which really just may be true, which is why I am hesitating. And I'm not going to lie, money is also a factor here....... And friends are taking me out for my bday in only a couple hours. That should be fun. I can't stop crying... or couldn't until I wrote this- I guess I needed the distraction!I know I need to just do what I think is best, but I am genuinely curious to know what others would do under all the same circumstances.....
I echo the sentiments to PJ_Soul. It is so tuff but I do think the bad outweighs the good in continuing treatment in this situation.Hope Kali gets feeling better quickly, dave.Cute grey kitty, Jason. We had a grey kitten just like that for a while (got adopted out).
Thank you all for your well wishes. It's definitely tough, and I'm a bit overwhelmed by grief still - it's strange, the way my emotions are cycling like a pinwheel, almost from minute to minute - it's enough to make a person feel like a mental case. But time heals. And I'm back at work today, and very very very busy, so that helps keep my mind off of it.