Seems the more I try and explain myself, the further from understanding I stray. It's my curse really, never been able to understand even the simplest aspects of the human condition, not in any real sense anyway.
I seek only to be understood, if only by one person. I'm sure I'll never find that in this life.
And funnily enough, I do watch Dexter. The thing is I've felt this way for many years and the reason I watch and enjoy the show is because I relate to Dexter in very particular ways. I don't feel this way just because I watch Dexter and have some sick delusion to be like him. Besides, he's a fictional character. There is very little grounding in real life. Just had to make that clear.
And anyway, I said tracking evil, not killing evil. I'm no killer. I may think like one sometimes, but I'm not one.
no, the problem is you don't even make an attempt to explain yourself.
no, the problem is you don't even make an attempt to explain yourself.
Scarily enough, this is me explaining myself.
"this one, anytime I say love if you wanna say love, uh, say it, and if you say it you might as well say it loud, and if you don't feel like sayin' it, don't say it, but if you feel it, certainly say it..."
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That is sad that you came here looking for support and I had to read through about 3 pages of extremely bad jokes and completely disrespectful responses to you just to catch up with the thread...
But from your posts it seems maybe you don't know what you're looking for, and if you don't know, how can you ever find it? (I know I am assuming here, and it is a harsh assumption) I know you make attempts to explain it but it still seems very vague, and that makes it a tough situation to really find answers on.
Even if the things in this world that give you a spirit aren't what people are used to, I am sure that taking what you love to do and finding people with like minded interests that way would definitely bring you a like minded person and would help you narrow this search. There is someone out there for EVERYBODY!
I am not dark or anything close to dark, but I do feel I have trouble finding a woman who shares the same values and that I could see myself spending all of my time with and being happy, and it is a disheartening process.
Sorry for the long read but I just wanted to get it out there. Just keep being yourself and someone will find you and love you for whomever you are, and don't lose hope!
I think it's a shame that people can't be themselves without being mocked and teased incessantly by people who, because they have no understanding of the situation, choose to make themselves feel "better" by bashing what they do not know.
When life gives you lemons, throw them at somebody.
I think it's a shame that people can't be themselves without being mocked and teased incessantly by people who, because they have no understanding of the situation, choose to make themselves feel "better" by bashing what they do not know.
oh get over yourself. the guy is being very vague, and somewhat freaky.
the whole im not a killer though i sometimes think like one is just an example of what im talking about.
people like myselft and C22 tried to get him to explain more, and he became more and more vague. i for one think that was by design.
whatever.
Peace, Love.
"To question your government is not unpatriotic --
to not question your government is unpatriotic."
-- Sen. Chuck Hagel
we all need a friendly ear to bounce things off on occasion to help figure out who we are, regardless of age.
This is true....... but it would make more sense if the person in question was a 15 yr old angst ridden boy, as opposed to a 35 yr old bloke who occasionally relates to serial killers.
oh get over yourself. the guy is being very vague, and somewhat freaky.
the whole im not a killer though i sometimes think like one is just an example of what im talking about.
people like myselft and C22 tried to get him to explain more, and he became more and more vague. i for one think that was by design.
whatever.
well im not a killer and i do think like one, but sometimes during phases of what i like to call socially acceptable insanity i think like you. some people call it sane, i call it inane.
as for C22 we all know his modus is pushing peoples buttons and i also suspect there are more people on this board who know exactly what Perceptual is talking about yet choose to feign ignorance so they themselves dont look psychotic.
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This is true....... but it would make more sense if the person in question was a 15 yr old angst ridden boy, as opposed to a 35 yr old bloke who occasionally relates to serial killers.
why would it make more sense?
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oh get over yourself. the guy is being very vague, and somewhat freaky.
the whole im not a killer though i sometimes think like one is just an example of what im talking about.
people like myselft and C22 tried to get him to explain more, and he became more and more vague. i for one think that was by design.
whatever.
You made someone is obviously feeling alienated feel more alienated, and continue to make fun of him in other threads with names like serial killer, etc.
If I were to post a thread and then open another thread to see people were mocking me and making fun of me would probably not be the best feeling.
I mean dude come on I can understand if this was your friend or someone you know and are exchanging insults with but don't you feel any compassion whatsoever as you are typing up insults about him knowing full well he might read them?
Because generally speaking, a 15 yr old kid is in the midst of mental, physical and emotional development and are trying to sort through the chaos of what's expected of them. At 35, again generally speaking, people have figured themselves out somewhat, accepted who they are and position themselves in such a way as to surround themselves with like-minded people. These of course are generalizations and there are always exceptions to the rule. It's a simple enough question though really, to wonder how old this guy is.
ive seen the show. and if he is just a poser then ill quite happily drain his blood and hang him out to dry. of course that is after ive amused myself fully with him.
jesus christ you people are weirder than he is. life wasnt meant to always be lived in the light.
if he was really like Dexter you'd have to be content with just the kill...cause i'd already have drained him dry amusing myself with him before you could get at him
what are you talkin 'bout? everyone should always be completely light and sunny 24/7....now if you'll excuse me...
Because generally speaking, a 15 yr old kid is in the midst of mental, physical and emotional development and are trying to sort through the chaos of what's expected of them. At 35, again generally speaking, people have figured themselves out somewhat, accepted who they are and position themselves in such a way as to surround themselves with like-minded people. These of course are generalizations and there are always exceptions to the rule. It's a simple enough question though really, to wonder how old this guy is.
and by doing so you(generally speaking) make the assumptions that were all the same in relation to our age. these are socially constructed parameters in which we are all pigeonholed rather than being taken on an individual basis. i can assure you there are times, quite often in fact, when i do not relate to my so called demographic. and again quite often i am thankful for that.
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if he was really like Dexter you'd have to be content with just the kill...cause i'd already have drained him dry amusing myself with him before you could get at him
...
who are you, the ice truck killer?
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and by doing so you(generally speaking) make the assumptions that were all the same in relation to our age. these are socially constructed parameters in which we are all pigeonholed rather than being taken on an individual basis. i can assure you there are times, quite often in fact, when i do not relate to my so called demographic. and again quite often i am thankful for that.
Are you not making assumptions about me and my intention to know how old this person is? I can assure you also, there are times where I don't relate to my so called demographic either. But in trying to understand a little of where this guy is coming from, it's handy to know a little more about him, including his age. This really isn't as big a deal as you seem to want to make it.
Are you not making assumptions about me and my intention to know how old this person is? I can assure you also, there are times where I don't relate to my so called demographic either. But in trying to understand a little of where this guy is coming from, it's handy to know a little more about him, including his age. This really isn't as big a deal as you seem to want to make it.
i was just asking. you asked how old he was so i asked why it was a factor. i was trying to determine your intent. youve now told me why and so big deal or not i am satisfied....for now.
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You made someone is obviously feeling alienated feel more alienated, and continue to make fun of him in other threads with names like serial killer, etc.
If I were to post a thread and then open another thread to see people were mocking me and making fun of me would probably not be the best feeling.
I mean dude come on I can understand if this was your friend or someone you know and are exchanging insults with but don't you feel any compassion whatsoever as you are typing up insults about him knowing full well he might read them?
I can't really comprehend that.
okay, when im wrong i will say so, and i should not have said that in the other thread.
with that being said, if you really read this whole thread, you would see that i started off just joking, then said i understood the whole dark thing. ask anyone here that really knows me, and they will tell you im a pretty dark person. but i dont go around saying "im so dark, i dont even know myself because im so dark. im not a killer nor could i never be one, but i sometimes think like one, cause im soooooo dark"
a few of us asked serious questions to which we recieved very vague cryptic replies, so to that i say......... we tried to understand and we tried to talk to him. he chose to remain "dark" and vague. so what do you want from us?
Peace, Love.
"To question your government is not unpatriotic --
to not question your government is unpatriotic."
-- Sen. Chuck Hagel
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aha...*nods and slowly backs away*... an accident you say. i was 4.
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They all were!!!
no, the problem is you don't even make an attempt to explain yourself.
what evil are you tracking, and how?
yes of course they were... and just look at my lovely vest and coonskin hat thats really bunny fur.
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Scarily enough, this is me explaining myself.
NOTE: Everything I write in the P,P&M section are intended to be songs, not poetry.
See my vest, see my vest, made from real gorilla chest!
See my sweater, there's no better, than authentic Irish Setter!
see this hat twas my cat
my evening wear vampire bat
these white slippers are albino
african endangered rhino.
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That is sad that you came here looking for support and I had to read through about 3 pages of extremely bad jokes and completely disrespectful responses to you just to catch up with the thread...
But from your posts it seems maybe you don't know what you're looking for, and if you don't know, how can you ever find it? (I know I am assuming here, and it is a harsh assumption) I know you make attempts to explain it but it still seems very vague, and that makes it a tough situation to really find answers on.
Even if the things in this world that give you a spirit aren't what people are used to, I am sure that taking what you love to do and finding people with like minded interests that way would definitely bring you a like minded person and would help you narrow this search. There is someone out there for EVERYBODY!
I am not dark or anything close to dark, but I do feel I have trouble finding a woman who shares the same values and that I could see myself spending all of my time with and being happy, and it is a disheartening process.
Sorry for the long read but I just wanted to get it out there. Just keep being yourself and someone will find you and love you for whomever you are, and don't lose hope!
I mean this very literally, PEACE.
How old are you?..... not a trick question, just curious.
so not being able to articulate to an socially acceptabe mundane level is an age thing then is it? not a trick question... just curious you know.
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No, just wondering if this is a young guy tryin to figure out who he is...... or an adult needing a friendly ear........ or well I dunno.
oh get over yourself. the guy is being very vague, and somewhat freaky.
the whole im not a killer though i sometimes think like one is just an example of what im talking about.
people like myselft and C22 tried to get him to explain more, and he became more and more vague. i for one think that was by design.
whatever.
"To question your government is not unpatriotic --
to not question your government is unpatriotic."
-- Sen. Chuck Hagel
we all need a friendly ear to bounce things off on occasion to help figure out who we are, regardless of age.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
This is true....... but it would make more sense if the person in question was a 15 yr old angst ridden boy, as opposed to a 35 yr old bloke who occasionally relates to serial killers.
well im not a killer and i do think like one, but sometimes during phases of what i like to call socially acceptable insanity i think like you. some people call it sane, i call it inane.
as for C22 we all know his modus is pushing peoples buttons and i also suspect there are more people on this board who know exactly what Perceptual is talking about yet choose to feign ignorance so they themselves dont look psychotic.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
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why would it make more sense?
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
You made someone is obviously feeling alienated feel more alienated, and continue to make fun of him in other threads with names like serial killer, etc.
If I were to post a thread and then open another thread to see people were mocking me and making fun of me would probably not be the best feeling.
I mean dude come on I can understand if this was your friend or someone you know and are exchanging insults with but don't you feel any compassion whatsoever as you are typing up insults about him knowing full well he might read them?
I can't really comprehend that.
Because generally speaking, a 15 yr old kid is in the midst of mental, physical and emotional development and are trying to sort through the chaos of what's expected of them. At 35, again generally speaking, people have figured themselves out somewhat, accepted who they are and position themselves in such a way as to surround themselves with like-minded people. These of course are generalizations and there are always exceptions to the rule. It's a simple enough question though really, to wonder how old this guy is.
if he was really like Dexter you'd have to be content with just the kill...cause i'd already have drained him dry amusing myself with him before you could get at him
what are you talkin 'bout? everyone should always be completely light and sunny 24/7....now if you'll excuse me...
*cranks NIN up even louder*
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and by doing so you(generally speaking) make the assumptions that were all the same in relation to our age. these are socially constructed parameters in which we are all pigeonholed rather than being taken on an individual basis. i can assure you there are times, quite often in fact, when i do not relate to my so called demographic. and again quite often i am thankful for that.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
who are you, the ice truck killer?
take a good look
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hold my hand
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i just need to say
Are you not making assumptions about me and my intention to know how old this person is? I can assure you also, there are times where I don't relate to my so called demographic either. But in trying to understand a little of where this guy is coming from, it's handy to know a little more about him, including his age. This really isn't as big a deal as you seem to want to make it.
i was just asking. you asked how old he was so i asked why it was a factor. i was trying to determine your intent. youve now told me why and so big deal or not i am satisfied....for now.
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Onya
shhh....be quiet and i'll let you play with my mutilated barbies
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okay, when im wrong i will say so, and i should not have said that in the other thread.
with that being said, if you really read this whole thread, you would see that i started off just joking, then said i understood the whole dark thing. ask anyone here that really knows me, and they will tell you im a pretty dark person. but i dont go around saying "im so dark, i dont even know myself because im so dark. im not a killer nor could i never be one, but i sometimes think like one, cause im soooooo dark"
a few of us asked serious questions to which we recieved very vague cryptic replies, so to that i say......... we tried to understand and we tried to talk to him. he chose to remain "dark" and vague. so what do you want from us?
"To question your government is not unpatriotic --
to not question your government is unpatriotic."
-- Sen. Chuck Hagel
always the best kind.
he aint heavy... hes my brother
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