oh-and I am also more nervous about skiing than I usually am because I have never skied with this much weight. I'm afraid that my center of gravity is going to be all off and I'll just turn into this rolly polly ball tumbling down the mountain to my death.
oh please don't think like that. I think you are stronger than that!
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8/08 - Ed solo in DC, 6/09 Ed in B'more,
10/10 - Brad in B'more
Hey, I'm not trying to say otherwise. I told you I went off men for a while... but I could still see that, when people were trying to set me up, they were being nice and thinking they were doing a good thing. A lot of people SAY they're off men when they're not really so if your friends don't really believe you it's hardly anything to be insulted over.
well, they should believe me. I told them several times I am not attracted to men and I am not interested in relationships or sex. these are the words I have used, not "I am off men." If I told them that I thought I was gay they wouldn't be trying to set me up with men, why is this any different?
Hey, I'm not trying to say otherwise. I told you I went off men for a while... but I could still see that, when people were trying to set me up, they were being nice and thinking they were doing a good thing. A lot of people SAY they're off men when they're not really so if your friends don't really believe you it's hardly anything to be insulted over.
Plus a lack of interest in sex can be a sign of depression.
oh please don't think like that. I think you are stronger than that!
well I know how hard it has been for me to continue with my other physical activities- activities I'm much better at than skiing! Sometimes I feel like I'm going to fall over when I just running, kind of like a weeble. I used to always do this exercise when you jump up onto a block or bench with both legs together. After I gained weight, I couldn't do it anymore- I fell pretty hard at one point. It's like really hard for me to move my legs the way I used to- they are just too heavy. And because I weigh over 200lbs, I'm going to have to ski on REALLY long skis, even though I'm only 5'3" and that's just HARD.
well I know how hard it has been for me to continue with my other physical activities- activities I'm much better at than skiing! Sometimes I feel like I'm going to fall over when I just running, kind of like a weeble. I used to always do this exercise when you jump up onto a block or bench with both legs together. After I gained weight, I couldn't do it anymore- I fell pretty hard at one point.
take it easy! we don't want you to break anything. I quit working out and I feel it when I walk upstairs. I wish I could spot reduce (thighs). That's where so much of my weight is.
9/98, 9/00 - DC, 4/03 - Pitt., 7/03 - Bristow, 10/04 - Reading, 10/05 - Philly, 5/06 - DC, 6/06 - Pitt., 6/08 - Va Beach, 6/08 - DC, 5/10 - Bristow, 10/13 B'more
8/08 - Ed solo in DC, 6/09 Ed in B'more,
10/10 - Brad in B'more
I hope it won't be ignored. do they allow you to walk around in private ski resort mountains? since I have to spend the whole two days skiing, I won't have time to do full-on hiking snowshoeing or xcountry skiing, so it would have to be just a wandering around thing.
You don't HAVE to do anything you don't want to! Of course you can take a walk somewhere. It's a free country. Couldn't you borrow a car and drive somewhere to walk? You need to stand up to your friends or find some new ones... when did you pay for this? why did you say yes in the first place? You seem like a 'RE-act-or' and not an 'act-or'... something you're probably not even aware of.
Maybe the place has an exercise room? Maybe you will have a hot-tottie and ski the best you ever have?
re:your rolly polly comment and getting hurt-- with all of your extra padding, you'll probably bounce!
one more thing-- you should really go to a health spa for a few days. Get your facials, massages and eat healthy, cleansing food. If you can't find anyone to go with and you don't want to go alone, I'll go with you!
this really upsets me...I don't want to get laid, I am not attracted to men and I am not interested in sex...these are the kind of comments that are stressing me out! I found a web site that said that asexuality is real sexual orientation! I don't know if it's me though because I didn't used to feel asexual and I don't know if you can suddenly switch sexual orientations, that would be something you're born with.
plus my health STARTED this whole downhill trend when I could get laid anytime I wanted (I had a boyfriend). Having sex didn't do anything to make me feel better, it just makes me feel worse.
Sorry if I offended you, But on a serious note,
You don't get aroused?
Honestly, never ever?
Get em a Body Bag Yeeeeeaaaaa!
Sweep the Leg Johnny.
You don't HAVE to do anything you don't want to! Of course you can take a walk somewhere. It's a free country. Couldn't you borrow a car and drive somewhere to walk? You need to stand up to your friends or find some new ones... when did you pay for this? why did you say yes in the first place? You seem like a 'RE-act-or' and not an 'act-or'... something you're probably not even aware of.
Maybe the place has an exercise room? Maybe you will have a hot-tottie and ski the best you ever have?
re:your rolly polly comment and getting hurt-- with all of your extra padding, you'll probably bounce!
one more thing-- you should really go to a health spa for a few days. Get your facials, massages and eat healthy, cleansing food. If you can't find anyone to go with and you don't want to go alone, I'll go with you!
Really good advice... probably futile here but very good advice just the same
Well GTD probably can't take the advice about the i-pod because she doesn't have one.... or it's broken... or she lent it to someone.... or her friends won't let her go for walks... or there is no where to walk...
New advice bring a portable CD player and the Into the Wild soundtrack.
AND GO!!!!
Take back some control over yourself, your life, your decisions, your mental well-being, your own thoughts, and your body. Breathe that fresh air in DEEP. Haven't I read that you love this cold crisp weather?
You don't HAVE to do anything you don't want to! Of course you can take a walk somewhere. It's a free country. Couldn't you borrow a car and drive somewhere to walk? You need to stand up to your friends or find some new ones... when did you pay for this? why did you say yes in the first place? You seem like a 'RE-act-or' and not an 'act-or'... something you're probably not even aware of.
Maybe the place has an exercise room? Maybe you will have a hot-tottie and ski the best you ever have?
re:your rolly polly comment and getting hurt-- with all of your extra padding, you'll probably bounce!
one more thing-- you should really go to a health spa for a few days. Get your facials, massages and eat healthy, cleansing food. If you can't find anyone to go with and you don't want to go alone, I'll go with you!
well I have to ski because I already bought lift tickets. I told my friends I would go on the trip and gave the deposit for the room, planning to do alternative activities (xcountry) and maybe just a little bit of downhill skiing if I was up for it. then I found out that I *had* to buy lift tickets as part of the package. because I have not skied in a long long tme, I had to also spend money on a jacket, pants, and gloves, and I will have to take a lesson, which costs $50.
also, my whole life I have hated skiing, except for a few really good days, but you have to do it. everyone loves to ski. if people are planning a ski trip and you don't go, you are considered some kind of wuss who hates the cold and physical activity (none of which is true for me) and more importantly, you're considered completely off your rocker. In the winter in new england, all social life revolves around skiing. if you don't go you'll miss out on everything, and your friends and/or family will be pissed.
I hope it won't be ignored. do they allow you to walk around in private ski resort mountains? since I have to spend the whole two days skiing, I won't have time to do full-on hiking snowshoeing or xcountry skiing, so it would have to be just a wandering around thing.
I just saw this.
Oh well.
YES!! WANDER THE F AROUND!!!!!!!
(and WHY IN GODS NAME do you "have to spend the whole two days skiing"? Are the ski police going to bust you if you don't???)
Well GTD probably can't take the advice about the i-pod because she doesn't have one.... or it's broken... or she lent it to someone.... or her friends won't let her go for walks... or there is no where to walk...
sorry gtd but that's funny!
Besides apres ski doesn't have to be APRES ski... does it?
you can always tell your friends 'I'm staying in the bar' and if they argue well then they really are bullies
The Astoria??? Orgazmic!
Verona??? it's all surmountable
Dublin 23.08.06 "The beauty of Ireland, right there!"
Wembley? We all believe!
Copenhagen?? your light made us stars
Chicago 07? And love
What a different life
Had I not found this love with you
Really good advice... probably futile here but very good advice just the same
Thanks. I just realized that the OP has been talking about this stuff for YEARS. I remember reading something about asexuality... jeez, back in 2004? 5?
well I have to ski because I already bought lift tickets. I told my friends I would go on the trip and gave the deposit for the room, planning to do alternative activities (xcountry) and maybe just a little bit of downhill skiing if I was up for it. then I found out that I *had* to buy lift tickets as part of the package. because I have not skied in a long long tme, I had to also spend money on a jacket, pants, and gloves, and I will have to take a lesson, which costs $50.
also, my whole life I have hated skiing, except for a few really good days, but you have to do it. everyone loves to ski. if people are planning a ski trip and you don't go, you are considered some kind of wuss who hates the cold and physical activity (none of which is true for me) and more importantly, you're considered completely off your rocker. In the winter in new england, all social life revolves around skiing. if you don't go you'll miss out on everything, and your friends and/or family will be pissed.
Just because you bought lift tickets means what?
OMG. You really do have all the answers.
I'm done.
Good luck being miserable this weekend. You really don't want to NOT be miserable so enjoy it and wallow in it. At least then you are getting what you want.
well I have to ski because I already bought lift tickets. I told my friends I would go on the trip and gave the deposit for the room, planning to do alternative activities (xcountry) and maybe just a little bit of downhill skiing if I was up for it. then I found out that I *had* to buy lift tickets as part of the package. because I have not skied in a long long tme, I had to also spend money on a jacket, pants, and gloves, and I will have to take a lesson, which costs $50.
also, my whole life I have hated skiing, except for a few really good days, but you have to do it. everyone loves to ski. if people are planning a ski trip and you don't go, you are considered some kind of wuss who hates the cold and physical activity (none of which is true for me) and more importantly, you're considered completely off your rocker. In the winter in new england, all social life revolves around skiing. if you don't go you'll miss out on everything, and your friends and/or family will be pissed.
I live in Calgary where "everybody" skis. I just moved here and I can tell you there is still plenty to do without skiing. I have gone for hikes.. you can snowshoe. If I am still here next winter I will some lessons and give it a whirl. But if you don't like it.. don't do IT!!! Does everything have to be so difficult? !!
Sorry if I offended you, But on a serious note,
You don't get aroused?
Honestly, never ever?
I used to a lot (though I have never really cared one way or the other for actual-actual sex-sex). and I used to like guys. It's hard to say when I stopped caring about men and sex altogether because it was sometime when I was with my boyfriend so I was probably just going through the motions after some point. I know that when I started dating him in dec 2006 I felt weird because I wasn't really excited about the prospect of dating at all, which was weird for me. I stopped caring about relationships first I think, and then stopped feeling any sexual needs after.
Thanks. I just realized that the OP has been talking about this stuff for YEARS. I remember reading something about asexuality... jeez, back in 2004? 5?
I used to a lot (though I have never really cared one way or the other for actual-actual sex-sex). and I used to like guys. It's hard to say when I stopped caring about men and sex altogether because it was sometime when I was with my boyfriend so I was probably just going through the motions after some point. I know that when I started dating him in dec 2006 I felt weird because I wasn't really excited about the prospect of dating at all, which was weird for me. I stopped caring about relationships first I think, and then stopped feeling any sexual needs after.
Well I love actual-actual sex-sex.....I think.....yea I do
Get em a Body Bag Yeeeeeaaaaa!
Sweep the Leg Johnny.
I used to a lot (though I have never really cared one way or the other for actual-actual sex-sex). and I used to like guys. It's hard to say when I stopped caring about men and sex altogether because it was sometime when I was with my boyfriend so I was probably just going through the motions after some point. I know that when I started dating him in dec 2006 I felt weird because I wasn't really excited about the prospect of dating at all, which was weird for me. I stopped caring about relationships first I think, and then stopped feeling any sexual needs after.
To echo what a few others have said...this is actually a symptom of depression.
Get mad a me all you want, but i really think you like being a marter.
You need to have problems and frustration in your life.
We are all wired differently and this is how you function.
IMO.
And if i am wrong and you want to change, then you most certianly need to see a doctor.
a martyr?
I hate having problems and difficulty and for a long long time I had absolutely no problems or difficulty-my health just went to hell in a hand basket in like the blink of an eye, the whole thing is really catching up with me.
honestly, how can I get "help" when I don't even know and can't even describe what the hell I am experiencing?
I used to a lot (though I have never really cared one way or the other for actual-actual sex-sex). and I used to like guys. It's hard to say when I stopped caring about men and sex altogether because it was sometime when I was with my boyfriend so I was probably just going through the motions after some point. I know that when I started dating him in dec 2006 I felt weird because I wasn't really excited about the prospect of dating at all, which was weird for me. I stopped caring about relationships first I think, and then stopped feeling any sexual needs after.
I have said it before.. a lack of interest can be a sign of depression and if you aren't comfortable with your body than perhaps you don't want be intimate with someone. Nobody's body is perfect but that is what makes them beautiful.
I think the time has come to piss or get off the pot.
To echo what a few others have said...this is actually a symptom of depression.
as is everything else she's going through :(
The Astoria??? Orgazmic!
Verona??? it's all surmountable
Dublin 23.08.06 "The beauty of Ireland, right there!"
Wembley? We all believe!
Copenhagen?? your light made us stars
Chicago 07? And love
What a different life
Had I not found this love with you
a martyr?
I hate having problems and difficulty and for a long long time I had absolutely no problems or difficulty-my health just went to hell in a hand basket in like the blink of an eye, the whole thing is really catching up with me.
honestly, how can I get "help" when I don't even know and can't even describe what the hell I am experiencing?
that's WHY you get help... to find OUT what's wrong with ya. Not everyone knows exactly why they're feeling what they're feeling... actually very few... especially when it's depression, you're often the last person to know/accept what it is.
The Astoria??? Orgazmic!
Verona??? it's all surmountable
Dublin 23.08.06 "The beauty of Ireland, right there!"
Wembley? We all believe!
Copenhagen?? your light made us stars
Chicago 07? And love
What a different life
Had I not found this love with you
a martyr?
I hate having problems and difficulty and for a long long time I had absolutely no problems or difficulty-my health just went to hell in a hand basket in like the blink of an eye, the whole thing is really catching up with me.
honestly, how can I get "help" when I don't even know and can't even describe what the hell I am experiencing?
Go to a shrink, they will know exactly what is up with you.
You are a smart woman, you already know this GTD.
Those doctors can do wonders.
Get em a Body Bag Yeeeeeaaaaa!
Sweep the Leg Johnny.
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oh please don't think like that. I think you are stronger than that!
8/08 - Ed solo in DC, 6/09 Ed in B'more,
10/10 - Brad in B'more
well, they should believe me. I told them several times I am not attracted to men and I am not interested in relationships or sex. these are the words I have used, not "I am off men." If I told them that I thought I was gay they wouldn't be trying to set me up with men, why is this any different?
Plus a lack of interest in sex can be a sign of depression.
well I know how hard it has been for me to continue with my other physical activities- activities I'm much better at than skiing! Sometimes I feel like I'm going to fall over when I just running, kind of like a weeble. I used to always do this exercise when you jump up onto a block or bench with both legs together. After I gained weight, I couldn't do it anymore- I fell pretty hard at one point. It's like really hard for me to move my legs the way I used to- they are just too heavy. And because I weigh over 200lbs, I'm going to have to ski on REALLY long skis, even though I'm only 5'3" and that's just HARD.
take it easy! we don't want you to break anything. I quit working out and I feel it when I walk upstairs. I wish I could spot reduce (thighs). That's where so much of my weight is.
8/08 - Ed solo in DC, 6/09 Ed in B'more,
10/10 - Brad in B'more
Mmmmm it sounded like you were a little self conscious about they way you look....read your post.
Anyway....I hope you feel better.
You don't HAVE to do anything you don't want to! Of course you can take a walk somewhere. It's a free country. Couldn't you borrow a car and drive somewhere to walk? You need to stand up to your friends or find some new ones... when did you pay for this? why did you say yes in the first place? You seem like a 'RE-act-or' and not an 'act-or'... something you're probably not even aware of.
Maybe the place has an exercise room? Maybe you will have a hot-tottie and ski the best you ever have?
re:your rolly polly comment and getting hurt-- with all of your extra padding, you'll probably bounce!
one more thing-- you should really go to a health spa for a few days. Get your facials, massages and eat healthy, cleansing food. If you can't find anyone to go with and you don't want to go alone, I'll go with you!
Sorry if I offended you, But on a serious note,
You don't get aroused?
Honestly, never ever?
Sweep the Leg Johnny.
Really good advice... probably futile here but very good advice just the same
Well GTD probably can't take the advice about the i-pod because she doesn't have one.... or it's broken... or she lent it to someone.... or her friends won't let her go for walks... or there is no where to walk...
New advice bring a portable CD player and the Into the Wild soundtrack.
AND GO!!!!
Take back some control over yourself, your life, your decisions, your mental well-being, your own thoughts, and your body. Breathe that fresh air in DEEP. Haven't I read that you love this cold crisp weather?
well I have to ski because I already bought lift tickets. I told my friends I would go on the trip and gave the deposit for the room, planning to do alternative activities (xcountry) and maybe just a little bit of downhill skiing if I was up for it. then I found out that I *had* to buy lift tickets as part of the package. because I have not skied in a long long tme, I had to also spend money on a jacket, pants, and gloves, and I will have to take a lesson, which costs $50.
also, my whole life I have hated skiing, except for a few really good days, but you have to do it. everyone loves to ski. if people are planning a ski trip and you don't go, you are considered some kind of wuss who hates the cold and physical activity (none of which is true for me) and more importantly, you're considered completely off your rocker. In the winter in new england, all social life revolves around skiing. if you don't go you'll miss out on everything, and your friends and/or family will be pissed.
I just saw this.
Oh well.
YES!! WANDER THE F AROUND!!!!!!!
(and WHY IN GODS NAME do you "have to spend the whole two days skiing"? Are the ski police going to bust you if you don't???)
Besides apres ski doesn't have to be APRES ski... does it?
you can always tell your friends 'I'm staying in the bar' and if they argue well then they really are bullies
Verona??? it's all surmountable
Dublin 23.08.06 "The beauty of Ireland, right there!"
Wembley? We all believe!
Copenhagen?? your light made us stars
Chicago 07? And love
What a different life
Had I not found this love with you
Thanks. I just realized that the OP has been talking about this stuff for YEARS. I remember reading something about asexuality... jeez, back in 2004? 5?
Yep, futile! and again, very sad.
Just because you bought lift tickets means what?
OMG. You really do have all the answers.
I'm done.
Good luck being miserable this weekend. You really don't want to NOT be miserable so enjoy it and wallow in it. At least then you are getting what you want.
I live in Calgary where "everybody" skis. I just moved here and I can tell you there is still plenty to do without skiing. I have gone for hikes.. you can snowshoe. If I am still here next winter I will some lessons and give it a whirl. But if you don't like it.. don't do IT!!! Does everything have to be so difficult? !!
suppafreak.. thanks for that
I used to a lot (though I have never really cared one way or the other for actual-actual sex-sex). and I used to like guys. It's hard to say when I stopped caring about men and sex altogether because it was sometime when I was with my boyfriend so I was probably just going through the motions after some point. I know that when I started dating him in dec 2006 I felt weird because I wasn't really excited about the prospect of dating at all, which was weird for me. I stopped caring about relationships first I think, and then stopped feeling any sexual needs after.
You need to have problems and frustration in your life.
We are all wired differently and this is how you function.
IMO.
And if i am wrong and you want to change, then you most certianly need to see a doctor.
Sweep the Leg Johnny.
it cost me like over $200...
Very sad.
Well I love actual-actual sex-sex.....I think.....yea I do
Sweep the Leg Johnny.
To echo what a few others have said...this is actually a symptom of depression.
a martyr?
I hate having problems and difficulty and for a long long time I had absolutely no problems or difficulty-my health just went to hell in a hand basket in like the blink of an eye, the whole thing is really catching up with me.
honestly, how can I get "help" when I don't even know and can't even describe what the hell I am experiencing?
I have said it before.. a lack of interest can be a sign of depression and if you aren't comfortable with your body than perhaps you don't want be intimate with someone. Nobody's body is perfect but that is what makes them beautiful.
I think the time has come to piss or get off the pot.
Verona??? it's all surmountable
Dublin 23.08.06 "The beauty of Ireland, right there!"
Wembley? We all believe!
Copenhagen?? your light made us stars
Chicago 07? And love
What a different life
Had I not found this love with you
So now that you have spent over $200 do you want to have spent over $200 and had a shitty time or over $200 and have a good time?
If you do some skiing and you hate it abandon the ski thing and move on.
Verona??? it's all surmountable
Dublin 23.08.06 "The beauty of Ireland, right there!"
Wembley? We all believe!
Copenhagen?? your light made us stars
Chicago 07? And love
What a different life
Had I not found this love with you
Doesn't everyone?
Go to a shrink, they will know exactly what is up with you.
You are a smart woman, you already know this GTD.
Those doctors can do wonders.
Sweep the Leg Johnny.
I just feel like I can't be depressed though because I was on the medication for depression the whole time...