no. its good thing im too weak to kill myself. despite some peoples opinion that i should just do it if i want to do it.
but when it comes down to your life or death other people's opinion's don't matter. except for your kids...and remember that if you kill yourself they will never, ever get over it
but when it comes down to your life or death other people's opinion's don't matter. except for your kids...and remember that if you kill yourself they will never, ever get over it
and i will never ever get over living.
hear my name
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but when it comes down to your life or death other people's opinion's don't matter. except for your kids...and remember that if you kill yourself they will never, ever get over it
I also think consideration for your children should be the real brake on such thoughts cate.
I also think consideration for your children should be the real brake on such thoughts cate.
and that is why im still here. the thought that one of my children would be the one to find my body breaks me more than you will ever know. i hate what i am. i hate what i feel. i hate that i am alive. but i love my children more. and i hate that.
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and that is why im still here. the thought that one of my children would be the one to find my body breaks me more than you will ever know. i hate what i am. i hate what i feel. i hate that i am alive. but i love my children more. and i hate that.
Sweet cate, I have the feeling that loving your children more than yourself will actually save YOU in the long run.
Sweet cate, I have the feeling that loving your children more than yourself will actually save YOU in the long run.
it has so far.
but even more than them, my grand daughter breathes life into my lungs. if i were a christian i would fall to my knees and thank God for her very being. but as i am not, i hold tight to the fact that i have a shred of strength left as being enough for now to outweigh my want to cease to exist. and that want is so very strong.
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it has so far.
but even more than them, my grand daughter breathes life into my lungs. if i were a christian i would fall to my knees and thank God for her very being. but as i am not, i hold tight to the fact that i have a shred of strength left as being enough for now to outweigh my want to cease to exist. and that want is so very strong.
That's how I felt when my second son was born. I was at such a low point with the other son's autism and he was little an angel to me. I felt like someone, somewhere loved me for giving him to me.
heart plus mind minus body is worthless
head minus ears plus mouth is normal
plant your feet, square your roots
throw from the shoulder not the hip
i'll tell you how you'll fail us all
shaking in cold breezes
lips chapping hands clapping
you wanted my opinion and i'll give it to you
for the record
to stop playing
would be a mistake
spinning round upon this planet,
so it goes,
dammit!!!
janet!!!
you spilled the beans,
and tossed the salsa,
crushed to chips
squished me rawsa!
hey, now,
let's do it again..
hay,
naw,
lest is in the straw
Down the street you can hear her scream youre a disgrace
As she slams the door in his drunken face
And now he stands outside
And all the neighbours start to gossip and drool
He cries oh, girl you must be mad,
What happened to the sweet love you and me had?
Against the door he leans and starts a scene,
And his tears fall and burn the garden green
you know that feeling behind the eyes before you cry?
have you ever tried to talk at that point?
it's like there's a roadblock on the highway with traffic sooo backed up behind
so you can't go forward or back
no lanes have been cleared yet
or maybe it's like a twisted hose?
or a clogged drain?
it's unpleasant and the water is temporarily stuck
Comments
tomorrow I'll sleep on my own.
Goodbye house....
Goodnight moon.
angels share laughter
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no. i do not.
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i get the idea that you're not alone on that :(
angels share laughter
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i am always alone.
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me too....so in at least in one fucked-up way you're not alone
angels share laughter
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no. we are alone separately. that is still alone. it sux but it is the truth.
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you're right
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id rather be dead than be right.
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good thing that you got your kids to remind you that you're always wrong
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no. its good thing im too weak to kill myself. despite some peoples opinion that i should just do it if i want to do it.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
but when it comes down to your life or death other people's opinion's don't matter. except for your kids...and remember that if you kill yourself they will never, ever get over it
angels share laughter
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
and i will never ever get over living.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
I also think consideration for your children should be the real brake on such thoughts cate.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
and that is why im still here. the thought that one of my children would be the one to find my body breaks me more than you will ever know. i hate what i am. i hate what i feel. i hate that i am alive. but i love my children more. and i hate that.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Sweet cate, I have the feeling that loving your children more than yourself will actually save YOU in the long run.
it has so far.
but even more than them, my grand daughter breathes life into my lungs. if i were a christian i would fall to my knees and thank God for her very being. but as i am not, i hold tight to the fact that i have a shred of strength left as being enough for now to outweigh my want to cease to exist. and that want is so very strong.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
That's how I felt when my second son was born. I was at such a low point with the other son's autism and he was little an angel to me. I felt like someone, somewhere loved me for giving him to me.
"he was like an angel to me"
head minus ears plus mouth is normal
plant your feet, square your roots
throw from the shoulder not the hip
i'll tell you how you'll fail us all
shaking in cold breezes
lips chapping hands clapping
you wanted my opinion and i'll give it to you
for the record
to stop playing
would be a mistake
Ready? 1...2...3.....close ur eyes:) I'll see you on the flipside, Goodnight!
so it goes,
dammit!!!
janet!!!
you spilled the beans,
and tossed the salsa,
crushed to chips
squished me rawsa!
hey, now,
let's do it again..
hay,
naw,
lest is in the straw
As she slams the door in his drunken face
And now he stands outside
And all the neighbours start to gossip and drool
He cries oh, girl you must be mad,
What happened to the sweet love you and me had?
Against the door he leans and starts a scene,
And his tears fall and burn the garden green
have you ever tried to talk at that point?
it's like there's a roadblock on the highway with traffic sooo backed up behind
so you can't go forward or back
no lanes have been cleared yet
or maybe it's like a twisted hose?
or a clogged drain?
it's unpleasant and the water is temporarily stuck
Cheese sammich
Cheese sammich
Zen
Cheese sammich
Wembley 18/06/07
If there was a reason, it was you.
O2 Arena 18/09/09
take a good look
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lie beside me
i just need to say
indeed it can be
angels share laughter
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can you see the forest?
can you see the time were living on is borrowed?
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say