"The more you make equals the loneliness you get"
I've seen this unfold in front of my eyes....and I no longer want to be a part of it... I AM no longer a part of it!
I have escaped a life that was sucking my soul dry...and all I have suffered was minor pain in retrospect.
Here I breathe...here I feel...here I am me...no more lies...no more pretending...just no more.
It is and will be hard, I will struggle and fail at times... But I CAN be ME and I CAN create my own happiness. I am free from the 'fake' life...the life of lies.
Now I breathe only TRUTH!
And in time I will see happiness again:)
I never thought I could be ok as me.... But I was giving in to the lies, once I lived truth I see its not so hard being me:)
"I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
"What are you waiting for?" Says a voice that believes things could be different.
Beyond these walls there are the ever changing tides that wish to bring you closer to that dream within your mind... the one where feelings are spared but hearts are free...oh, the hate you must have for me.
"I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
i know some folks that are already out standing in the lines for the sales today....they might just be bonkers....i can't stand the mall as it is...but to go stand outside in the cold for 2 hours before the stores even open with the crazed hoards in the hundreds/thousands....nope
however i am celebrating 'buy nothing day' a day early. in fact i may make 'buy nothing' into a three day weekend
Because of you I am done in my own skin
You have ruined me almost to the bone
To shed this nasty flesh I must become snake like to rebirth
Your actions have made me filthy and very angry inside
I loved you with my all
And you could care less
Fuck you mother fucker
I do not want to hear from you
I do not want to ever see you again
Do not ever think you are free, you are not
You crushed my spirit down with selfishness and bullshit
Cry you fuckin loser
That is what I have been doing for awhile now
See how you like it, see how it feels to be undone and disposed of
I am taking myself back
Fuck you
I am done
Because of you I am done in my own skin
You have ruined me almost to the bone
To shed this nasty flesh I must become snake like to rebirth
Your actions have made me filthy and very angry inside
I loved you with my all
And you could care less
Fuck you mother fucker
I do not want to hear from you
I do not want to ever see you again
Do not ever think you are free, you are not
You crushed my spirit down with selfishness and bullshit
Cry you fuckin loser
That is what I have been doing for awhile now
See how you like it, see how it feels to be undone and disposed of
I am taking myself back
Fuck you
I am done
Nice one Chad. I wish I could have written this a year ago. Now I don't need to
when words fail, something is clogged and choked up and overfilled and
needing a release that no human hand can provide
sometimes
damn straight somethings clogged.
and tis not from the word speaker
well not this one anyways
but trust me when i say
there is a human hand that could provide release
but its bound
and that is why words fail
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
damn straight somethings clogged.
and tis not from the word speaker
well not this one anyways
but trust me when i say
there is a human hand that could provide release
but its bound
and that is why words fail
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I've seen this unfold in front of my eyes....and I no longer want to be a part of it... I AM no longer a part of it!
I have escaped a life that was sucking my soul dry...and all I have suffered was minor pain in retrospect.
Here I breathe...here I feel...here I am me...no more lies...no more pretending...just no more.
It is and will be hard, I will struggle and fail at times... But I CAN be ME and I CAN create my own happiness. I am free from the 'fake' life...the life of lies.
Now I breathe only TRUTH!
And in time I will see happiness again:)
I never thought I could be ok as me.... But I was giving in to the lies, once I lived truth I see its not so hard being me:)
angels share laughter
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Wembley 18/06/07
If there was a reason, it was you.
O2 Arena 18/09/09
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Wembley 18/06/07
If there was a reason, it was you.
O2 Arena 18/09/09
Beyond these walls there are the ever changing tides that wish to bring you closer to that dream within your mind... the one where feelings are spared but hearts are free...oh, the hate you must have for me.
angels share laughter
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
however i am celebrating 'buy nothing day' a day early. in fact i may make 'buy nothing' into a three day weekend
angels share laughter
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
oh i can believe it.
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
You have ruined me almost to the bone
To shed this nasty flesh I must become snake like to rebirth
Your actions have made me filthy and very angry inside
I loved you with my all
And you could care less
Fuck you mother fucker
I do not want to hear from you
I do not want to ever see you again
Do not ever think you are free, you are not
You crushed my spirit down with selfishness and bullshit
Cry you fuckin loser
That is what I have been doing for awhile now
See how you like it, see how it feels to be undone and disposed of
I am taking myself back
Fuck you
I am done
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
Wembley 18/06/07
If there was a reason, it was you.
O2 Arena 18/09/09
and lighten a nightsky that was lit anyway
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
angels share laughter
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
it makes no sense and none will come
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
needing a release that no human hand can provide
sometimes
not sure what to think of you
I'll be alright
until the show is over
not to worry though,
there will be another one soon
- Antwerp '06, Nijmegen '07, Werchter '07
damn straight somethings clogged.
and tis not from the word speaker
well not this one anyways
but trust me when i say
there is a human hand that could provide release
but its bound
and that is why words fail
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
Yeah, that will do it.
yep..... it's Bullshit!
well... dont tread in it whatever you do.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say