A Collective...

Being Enlightened

Empty spaces
Fill the places
Where you once stood

Inside this heart
And filling the
Mind, body, soul

There is a void
So black
It's blinding

Feel around
And seek
Find nothing

Hurl myself into it
Seeing nothing
Feeling nothing

Nothing, but you

Being Enlightened

Walked along the lake shore
Sat on the rocks
Watched the tide roll in, out, in, out...
Sort of hypnotized
Enjoyed the darkness
The coldness of the oncoming winter
The silence
The lack of people
I think I was the only one out there at that late hour
I started to wonder what would happen
If I just dove in
Clothes, shoes and all
And swam
Until I could swim no more
Until I was tired and numb and sore
Until the water went in my eyes, my ears, my nose, my mouth
And filled up my lungs
And covered my head
And I went down, down, down...

It would be like I was never here at all

Being Enlightened

Your mistakes like a polluted lake
Flowing through your veins
Pumped by a black heart
So the cavernous thoughts
Carry over the line to her ear
And infect her mind
Which in turn taints
The beautiful angel you both created
He keeps his sweet vigil by the door
Only to have his hopes dashed
By deceitful deceptions,
Devious deeds,
Demented dillusions,
Doors to depression,
You are the keeper of the key
He just turned five
Do you even care that he's alive?

Being Enlightened

Sometimes my thoughts are too much to bear
Sometimes my feelings too hard to share
Then I remember the lonely street kids at Christams
And Simon, the resident glue sniffed chasm
And all the sad, sad souls
And the unwanted children
And that in 100 years the snow capped
mountains of Kilamanjaro will be melted
And that 1 in 7 people are malnourished
And that HIV is an epidemic
And that so many think money is king
And that I can be so fucking selfish
And I don't understand why
And that love can really hurt sometimes
And I could go on but I won't
Sometimes my thoughts are too much to bear
Sometimes my feelings too much to share

Being Enlightened

feel the air
full of stale thoughts
and monitors
losing the feelings
that once were dear
feeling the nothing feeling here
falsified, stagnant, phoney smiles
flash before my face
taunting me
haunting me
flaunting there tempting emptiness
devoid of anything
offering only false promise
shushing me
pushing me
flushing their wasteland through my veins

Being Enlightened

I will try to behave myself tomorrow
I will try to only do my work
I will try to ignore sexual innuendos
I will try to be a good girl
I will try to be "all they want me to be"
I will try to behave myself
I will try
I will try
I hope it's not a lie

CranMalReign

Originally posted by Being Enlightened
I used to go walking in the rain
It was always something I enjoyed
I'd just let it pour on me
I'd ponder
I'd wander
Until I was soaked
And chilled to the bone
And my head hurt
And my feet hurt
And my heart hurt
And I was too tired to go on
Then I'd return home
Only then did your embrace almost feel warm

This is pro'ly my favorite of those I hadn't already read from you. The ending is biting and out of nowhere. At least it caught me by surprise.

I would just like to say that it's completely different seeing all of these works by you put together. I've seen a lot of them already, and appreciated each for it's value and voice... but seeing them all next to each other gives me quite a respect for who you are and what you do as a writer. You have some remarkable talent and a wide pallet of styles. It makes me want to give you a present.

Check your PMs. Your present will be waiting! Thank you so much for sharing!

Being Enlightened

Originally posted by CranMalReign
This is pro'ly my favorite of those I hadn't already read from you. The ending is biting and out of nowhere. At least it caught me by surprise.

I would just like to say that it's completely different seeing all of these works by you put together. I've seen a lot of them already, and appreciated each for it's value and voice... but seeing them all next to each other gives me quite a respect for who you are and what you do as a writer. You have some remarkable talent and a wide pallet of styles. It makes me want to give you a present.

Check your PMs. Your present will be waiting! Thank you so much for sharing!

I'm all choked up CMR! You honour me with your kindness!

I LOVE my present!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANK-YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love,
B.E.

Being Enlightened

There are days
When you wake up
After too little sleep
Too much red wine
Feeling somber, melancholy
And the rain is falling
And it isn't helping
And you're feeling so down
And someone confirms those feelings
So it makes it that much worse
But then a little light breaks through
Then it floods in encompasing you
Lifts you up so high from the depths
It comes from the kindness of friendly strangers
And hits you like a sweet arrow through the heart
And warms you from the inside out
And reminds you that goodness exists
And makes you glow with happiness
Brightens your soul
So you feel you shine
Helps you believe in selfless love
Makes you kinder yourself
Kinder to others





To all my friends here (you know who you are)---I LOVE YOU ALL!

CranMalReign

Originally posted by Being Enlightened
There are days
When you wake up
After too little sleep
Too much red wine
Feeling somber, melancholy
And the rain is falling
And it isn't helping
And you're feeling so down
And someone confirms those feelings
So it makes it that much worse
But then a little light breaks through
Then it floods in encompasing you
Lifts you up so high from the depths
It comes from the kindness of friendly strangers
And hits you like a sweet arrow through the heart
And warms you from the inside out
And reminds you that goodness exists
And makes you glow with happiness
Brightens your soul
So you feel you shine
Helps you believe in selfless love
Makes you kinder yourself
Kinder to others





To all my friends here (you know who you are)---I LOVE YOU ALL!

Kindness makes me feel good.

Being Enlightened

Originally posted by CranMalReign
Kindness makes me feel good.

ME TOO! Guess what! That means YOU make me feel good!

Being Enlightened

A vicious cycle
A vivious circle
Bruises the body
Bruises the mind
See those faces
The ones behind the numbers
Staggering to think
That human beings
Would cause such suffering
On such little babies
No matter what their story
Let's not forget them

coleen

its been too many days without being enlightened.

now please don't think that i don't appreciate a thread dedicated to the mistress of the poetry hut because i think there should be temples built in your honor. but the thought that you felt that you had to confine yourself and your joy and sunshine to just one thread is ridiculous. i hope this doesn't mean an end to our fun and frolic.

that being said, i'm exhausted after the weekend and it is almost a blessing to find many of your lovelies in one place....don't think i won't go looking for the other little beauties you've no doubt scattered about the place because they are certainly worth the read.

Being Enlightened

Originally posted by coleen
its been too many days without being enlightened.

now please don't think that i don't appreciate a thread dedicated to the mistress of the poetry hut because i think there should be temples built in your honor. but the thought that you felt that you had to confine yourself and your joy and sunshine to just one thread is ridiculous. i hope this doesn't mean an end to our fun and frolic.

that being said, i'm exhausted after the weekend and it is almost a blessing to find many of your lovelies in one place....don't think i won't go looking for the other little beauties you've no doubt scattered about the place because they are certainly worth the read.

I'm still up for some frolicing baby!

And thank you my little sweet pea!

Being Enlightened

Friday night
Red wine
Imported pints
Quite a few joints
Your girl friends buzz in
We all have some laughs
A few too many more beers
A few too many more joints
They head off to a party
You head off to bed
I try to concentrate on T.V.
But I just can't
So I lie on my stomach
On the hard wood floor
Head propt up on a pillow
Writing this bunch of nonsense





It seemed much more exciting while I was getting drunk and high!
Then left alone with nothing but my thoughts, well, I had to do something to keep from thinking about things I didn't want to think about.

Being Enlightened

I'm adding some more old stuff I found in the recesses of the board's memory banks now. This is fun!

Being Enlightened

How can you look me in the eye
And try to sell me the lie
As the world continues to die
Will you be the one to cry

Your thoughts have been
so clearly concocted
You deliver them with
such egotism and ease

Your suit looks so sharp
it cuts to the touch
Just like your words
through their brains

Selling thoughts of
freedom and love
Through fucking wars
and children's blood

Work that hatred
Teach it in your history books
Hand it down and hand it down
Generation upon generation

Tradition and religion are so important
They only want the shit
that you say is dipped
in the finest of gold

Sell your soul to the infantry
They really believe you care
Think they may get a better education
Then their country fucking rapes them

"Manufacture of consent"
by your god & government
Media fraud and false statements
The truth is latent

Being Enlightened

Try to live my life undaunted
Haunted tho I am
Stories to fill the pages
Engages my thoughts

A child born of children
Filled them too full
Pressure just too much
Such pain has visited me

I try to overcome
Become someone I may not be
Unsure of the path
Hath I have no home

I have been the rock
Block out the past
It has it's ways
Lays it's head on my shoulder

Some things become obession
Repression of reality
Questions unanswered still
Pills don't make it go away

Where is the good
Should I be so bold
I need to feel it
A bit, just a bit

Emotions prickling my skin
Again I push away
Been pushed so many times
Crimes of love

Being Enlightened

I alone
find myself here
I'm drawn back
again and again

I alone
see all the thoughts
left here for all
to look and feel

I alone
walk these halls
I like the silence
it calls my name

I alone
want to absorb
all that you are
and feel whole once more

Being Enlightened

I listened to you
call my name
Your beauty astounds me
I am speechless
I close my eyes
Your waves crashed
in my ears
Oh to taste you
would be so sweet
A drink of the divine
My tongue is parched
with such desires
There are nights
when I know
you want to consume me
You're so alluring
Sometimes I want
to be one with you
To drink you
into my lungs
let you devour me
But something keeps me
on your shores
I have touched you
as you have me
Each of us
a part of eachother
Our time may be drawing near
but it has yet to come
Farewell my sweet
I leave you for now
But I shall return