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PJ fans in 12 step Recovery

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  • tishtish taking the looooooong way,...Posts: 3,351
    I did it for love.

    Sitting on the sidewalk piss
    Telling me his wish
    Can't will to life

    Sitting on the sidewalk piss
    Pissing in a cup
    So he doesn't walk away on life

    Sitting on the sidewalk piss
    Digging deep in the abyss
    The lost life

    Sitting on the sidewalk piss
    Eyes beautiful and blue 
    Choosing life

    *Congrats Nancy. My big sis just hit the big 2 0, as well. She's a year and half ahead of me for both birthdays!




  • njnancynjnancy Northern New JerseyPosts: 5,096
    Thanks guys, & congrats to all of you for being sober right now. Moment to moment, day to day... doing our best...during a challenging year & now the holidays. We can all do it, ODAAT.

    @hedonist You are exceptionally lucky to have a firewalker, I am so happy for you,  it must be a special journey. 😘

    My bottom was on going & I was living a 'normal ' life while slowly falling apart. I couldn't do it anymore,  none of it, my career, my marriage, my responsibilities,  I was suddenly terrified to live my life.   I was dealing with the onset of depression & panic, which I then had no name for except AHH!!  And at the same time my increasingly constant drunkenness. 

    That's part of my story, as deep as I wish to go right now. But it was an incredibly crucial change of my entire life. Wow, that was the beginning of two years of hell.

    I've been dealing with fear a lot & it brings me back to when panic creeped into my life. Thank God I'm not using because that is one seriously ugly mix. I don't want to use, but outing my fear is important. Thanks for letting me tell on myself!

    I did not go for my scan. I know I need to but COVID is bad here & I've been at home since March. I'm scared. I'll let you know when I actually go. Thanks for being my cyber home group. 

    Love to you all....and comfort & joy! ✌
  • tishtish taking the looooooong way,...Posts: 3,351
    First comes awareness then action.
  • hedonisthedonist standing on the edge of foreverPosts: 22,817
    njnancy said:
    Thanks guys, & congrats to all of you for being sober right now. Moment to moment, day to day... doing our best...during a challenging year & now the holidays. We can all do it, ODAAT.

    @hedonist You are exceptionally lucky to have a firewalker, I am so happy for you,  it must be a special journey. 😘

    My bottom was on going & I was living a 'normal ' life while slowly falling apart. I couldn't do it anymore,  none of it, my career, my marriage, my responsibilities,  I was suddenly terrified to live my life.   I was dealing with the onset of depression & panic, which I then had no name for except AHH!!  And at the same time my increasingly constant drunkenness. 

    That's part of my story, as deep as I wish to go right now. But it was an incredibly crucial change of my entire life. Wow, that was the beginning of two years of hell.

    I've been dealing with fear a lot & it brings me back to when panic creeped into my life. Thank God I'm not using because that is one seriously ugly mix. I don't want to use, but outing my fear is important. Thanks for letting me tell on myself!

    I did not go for my scan. I know I need to but COVID is bad here & I've been at home since March. I'm scared. I'll let you know when I actually go. Thanks for being my cyber home group. 

    Love to you all....and comfort & joy! ✌
    You’ll get there, Nancy. I know all about prolonging the necessary out of fear. That we’ve kept sober through all this is a testament to our will, even if getting there takes a while, or a few tries. 

    Be well :hug:
  • mickeyratmickeyrat Posts: 20,158
    so today marks 1 year for my HS best friend OB. he's been in and mostly out of AA for 35 years.

    Its been my absolute honor and joy  to serve him as sponsor. Which I was reluctant to do but he insisted......
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • tishtish taking the looooooong way,...Posts: 3,351
    You must really need him.  :) 
  • mickeyratmickeyrat Posts: 20,158
    tish said:
    You must really need him.  :) 

    to be able to do this for someone that close(although we hadnt seen each other for a long long time before reconnecting yr and half ago) is special to me.
    I work with one other guy, a former board member here. A Brit living in Poland.

    Each of these trip me out how they came to be and their significance to my sobriety.

    humbling and awe inspiring.

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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • hedonisthedonist standing on the edge of foreverPosts: 22,817
    mickeyrat said: pop
    tish said:
    You must really need him.  :) 

    to be able to do this for someone that close(although we hadnt seen each other for a long long time before reconnecting yr and half ago) is special to me.
    I work with one other guy, a former board member here. A Brit living in Poland.

    Each of these trip me out how they came to be and their significance to my sobriety.

    humbling and awe inspiring.

    Nothing like a strong shot of humility. Good for the soul. 

    Bravo to your friend. 
  • mickeyratmickeyrat Posts: 20,158
    So my childhood friend Dennis( a Pastor without a church) has a podcast as part of his ministry. "From The War Room" this series is titled "Uncommon Spirituality" . I am episode 5. It appears there will be more with me here inn the future.


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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • hedonisthedonist standing on the edge of foreverPosts: 22,817
    “Addiction begins and ends with pain.”

    Ain’t it the truth...
  • Ernie VedderErnie Vedder Bell Gardens, CAPosts: 2,156

    4 years by the Grace of God. 
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  • mickeyratmickeyrat Posts: 20,158

    4 years by the Grace of God. 

    Rock on.....
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • PoncierPoncier Posts: 11,925

    4 years by the Grace of God. 
    Well done.
    If the Dodgers didn't drive you to drink (for both frustration and celebration reasons) over the past 4 years, you can handle anything.
    This weekend we rock Portland
  • hedonisthedonist standing on the edge of foreverPosts: 22,817

    4 years by the Grace of God. 
    By your grace too - don't discount the work you put in.  Congratulations.
  • HobbesHobbes Pacific NorthwestPosts: 4,641

    4 years by the Grace of God. 
    Congrats!
  • Ernie VedderErnie Vedder Bell Gardens, CAPosts: 2,156
    Hobbes said:

    4 years by the Grace of God. 
    Congrats!
    TY
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  • mickeyratmickeyrat Posts: 20,158
    edited February 28
    well done. watch to the credits...

    Body Brokers



    _____________________________________SIGNATURE________________________________________________

    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
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