PJ fans in 12 step Recovery

mickeyrat

swets are a replacement for the sugar that alcohol turns into in the body. dont sweat it
 but do keep a watch on it.

not drinking is a one day at a time thing.

Hobbes

Great job on three weeks. Keep it up! You may feel as if you are doing this by yourself, but just remember you are not alone.

oftenreading

lastexitlondon said:

Yes all by my self
 I don't see many other people so at the moment its ok but still hard. This sunday marks 3 weeks but i have a family dinner at which my brother and step dad both of  which drink heavily will be drinking. But i am determined so far. 
 Still feeling confused so its probably not the drink. Im struggling with bordem and eating so much sweet stuff. But still going

Getting sober is hard and stressful. The physical changes will continue on for quite some time yet, but even more important are the mental and emotional changes. Don't assume that the feeling of confusion is not related to this process. It might take months for things to be on a more even keel. Keep on with "still going" and you'll get there. 

lastexitlondon

Its hard today. but. I will not loose my faith its an inside job today. Thank you all i come here to read your kind words that remind me  going this path for the good of my life

hauntingfamiliar

Moving is breathing and breathing is life
Stopping is dying 
You'll be alright

lastexitlondon

Great song. Rowing so true

hauntingfamiliar

^ Right on

lastexitlondon

Well im pushed to my limit. Things keep going so wrong yet i resist. I can't take much  more going wrong.  

mickeyrat

its a hard thing to watch and wait for. My dog of 15 yrs seems to be on her way out.
slipping in and out of consciousness.

lastexitlondon

Im sorry to hear about your dog that is really sad to watch. I hope its peaceful at very least. Love to you 

rollings

Psalm 130

A song of ascents.

1Out of the depths I cry to you, Lord;
2Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.
3If you, Lord, kept a record of sins,
Lord, who could stand?
4But with you there is forgiveness,
so that we can, with reverence, serve you.
5I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
6I wait for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.
7Israel, put your hope in the Lord,
for with the Lord is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
8He himself will redeem Israel
from all their sins.

rollings

I have no idea why the above was in my storage bin on this thread but there it is accosted en nombres

rollings

Anyway, I think I'm an alcoholic as I can't go one day without it, it seems. If I try to not have alcohol, I just can't survive the day without it. And I dont. ,I don't remember one day in the last year that I've not had one drink.

I admire the three-week withouter so much. 

To me, right now, that seems almost laughably impossible.

If I were to even imagine myself not having  one drink tomorrow, I am not sure that this could ever go to day #2. 
...and I am a person who does most things I set my mind to....How fun ked up is this ?

rollings

I'm sorry about your dog, mickey

lastexitlondon

You can do it. Try 1 day if you can. Start there if you truly want to. Good luck and please love yourself if you can

lastexitlondon

I still feel like im failing my admiration is for the peaceful ones who live and love and laugh with a free spirit and mind. 

oftenreading

lastexitlondon said:

I still feel like im failing my admiration is for the peaceful ones who live and love and laugh with a free spirit and mind. 

Do any of us really have a free spirit and mind? Much of what we think we know about others is an illusion.

lastexitlondon

There are many who seem to me are coasting along rolling withthe punches feeling all the good parts. 

lastexitlondon

Im into week 4 now its my sons 19th birthday. Yesterday i ruined our early xmas dinner bec my tooth broke and i left my mums house upset leaving my children there.my mum put so much effort in and i left before it even begun. I upset everyone including myself. Previously i would have got very drunk
 I didn't . And as you all posted before "to feel" is painful. I feel it now. Pain. Guilt. Sorrow. Im trying so hard but i wanted to smash my face against a wall and hurt myself. Now its the next early morning i feel so much sorrow and i am desperate to survive with a hollow space where i feel like my life is soon to end. Sorry for this but its all honest

Fifthelement

I'm so sorry to hear that you are@lastexitlondon.  If you are feeling the need to end things than I urge you to seek help.  You are not alone.  You are loved.  You are worthy and worth saving.

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