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HughFreakingDillon said:jhager79 said:It's taken me a long time, but I finally realize that it's ok that I'm not ok.
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Lockdown has made me safer than ive ever been. Ocd means im the best to do lots of the jobs that now require military precision and im thriving. I lost 1 stone in weight. I cook fresh everyday . (I was most days anyway).I excersise 30mins every morning at 9am. I am the one who does the trip out to shop for 2 families. I have a routine with cleaning down the shopping and myself.. ive moved my veg growing stuff to a piece of grass behind my flat and started with my 2 year old to get that going . Only thing is i cant sleep and im getting angry at night.
I just wanted to say out of adversity and now not only the fear for my life but my childrens ive driven on to be the boss of this situation.
Do i still have all my previous problems?yes.
Am i completely clean?yes.
Do i want to drink or smoke weed .? Yes everyday. And my trouble will come when they say its ok to go out again because i wont. But my family will want to. Thats where my life will be not ever ok.
I guess im saying if this is my last hurrah then im going down fighting. Much love to my brothers and sisters here. Stay safe and stay home. Oh and i dont look at any phone or internet except for once a day i watch dr.campbell a retired dr who only does fact for that day. Cutting the media out has saved my life at this time. Well worth doing for us with health anxiety or anxiety at all.
There is a quote my mum sent me. And i will try post it.
The words are the exact words i said to her the week before this one.
Be pro active and control the controllable.
Rob.
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
Sending what little strength i have left at 2.15a.m to you if you need it.
Listen to the new album and think of me.
Whoever said.
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Rob, I’m happy you’ve got a sense of control over what you can right now. That you’re finding - and creating - your own routine and way to some peace through this.I hope good sleep finds you soon. And, that the anger dissipates some. Totally understandable, though.0
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Thank you . I will try again for some sleep now. Stay safe at home . This is only the start. Hold on as tight as you can.
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
Sleep - ah, yes, I kind of remember you.
Yesterday I was awake for the day at 2:45. This morning was somewhat better. On the bright side, I get lots of reading done in the night, and then get several things accomplished before work if I get up at 5:00.
It's an ill wind that blows nobody any good.my small self... like a book amongst the many on a shelf0 -
lastexitlondon said:Lockdown has made me safer than ive ever been. Ocd means im the best to do lots of the jobs that now require military precision and im thriving. I lost 1 stone in weight. I cook fresh everyday . (I was most days anyway).I excersise 30mins every morning at 9am. I am the one who does the trip out to shop for 2 families. I have a routine with cleaning down the shopping and myself.. ive moved my veg growing stuff to a piece of grass behind my flat and started with my 2 year old to get that going . Only thing is i cant sleep and im getting angry at night.
I just wanted to say out of adversity and now not only the fear for my life but my childrens ive driven on to be the boss of this situation.
Do i still have all my previous problems?yes.
Am i completely clean?yes.
Do i want to drink or smoke weed .? Yes everyday. And my trouble will come when they say its ok to go out again because i wont. But my family will want to. Thats where my life will be not ever ok.
I guess im saying if this is my last hurrah then im going down fighting. Much love to my brothers and sisters here. Stay safe and stay home. Oh and i dont look at any phone or internet except for once a day i watch dr.campbell a retired dr who only does fact for that day. Cutting the media out has saved my life at this time. Well worth doing for us with health anxiety or anxiety at all.
There is a quote my mum sent me. And i will try post it.
The words are the exact words i said to her the week before this one.
Be pro active and control the controllable.
Rob.
Good luck with the sleep. That can take a toll after a while, so I hope you find some peace at night soon.0 -
Nobody likes me and I'm feeling down.
People at university don't seem friendly.
People on here are all against me.
I don't know anymore.Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/20140 -
how has the new record been taken by everyone?
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Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '140 -
mickeyrat said:how has the new record been taken by everyone?Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/20140
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Being ghosted sucks hard. There is no way to make amends.Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/20140
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Trying not to cry and I have a Zoom meeting soon for university.Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/20140
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mickeyrat said:how has the new record been taken by everyone?
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
Sorry you’re struggling M. I hope your meeting went well. Sending (((hugs))) your way."What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0
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lastexitlondon said:mickeyrat said:how has the new record been taken by everyone?that is for sure a weird one.can do without who ever said and swbm. back half are the gems for me. that trifecta to close it out, man......_____________________________________SIGNATURE________________________________________________
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '140 -
mickeyrat said:lastexitlondon said:mickeyrat said:how has the new record been taken by everyone?that is for sure a weird one.can do without who ever said and swbm. back half are the gems for me. that trifecta to close it out, man......
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
Fifthelement said:Sorry you’re struggling M. I hope your meeting went well. Sending (((hugs))) your way.
It went well. Long but well.
More of them to come seeing everything is online now due to covid-19. Zoom is great.Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/20140 -
I still haven't had the chance to listen to the new album.Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/20140
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Thoughts_Arrive said:Being ghosted sucks hard. There is no way to make amends.
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Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '140
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