Since I became ill, music hasn't felt the same for me. It's almost a bigger sense of loss than saying goodbye to alcohol. So, I've turned back to music at least during my daily prescribed walk around the block (to all you workout buffs - roll your eyes at me and I'll cut ya!).
I started off with Missio (I'm an alcoholic, middle fingers in the air), then Fixing a Hole which was perfection (I'm taking the time for a number of things that weren't important yesterday), and finished off with Comfortably Numb.
These baby steps suck. Gotta do it and everyone says it'll hurt before it starts to gets better so I am, with resoluteness.
Since I became ill, music hasn't felt the same for me. It's almost a bigger sense of loss than saying goodbye to alcohol. So, I've turned back to music at least during my daily prescribed walk around the block (to all you workout buffs - roll your eyes at me and I'll cut ya!).
I started off with Missio (I'm an alcoholic, middle fingers in the air), then Fixing a Hole which was perfection (I'm taking the time for a number of things that weren't important yesterday), and finished off with Comfortably Numb.
These baby steps suck. Gotta do it and everyone says it'll hurt before it starts to gets better so I am, with resoluteness.
Seventh day and waiting!
I feel you on music. Ive been so unwell and im ashamed to say ive been feeling close to ending it all. I know there are so much many worse off and all that stuff. But i envy your strength and power. Your comment on music not being the same i totally get you. I went to metallica with my brother who is a functioning alc. And im a mess. I felt nothing. Not a thing. It should have been a good feeling. But no matter what i do i feel so close to just walking in front of a train. Ive become a stranger to myself
brixton 93
astoria 06
albany 06
hartford 06
reading 06
barcelona 06
paris 06
wembley 07
dusseldorf 07
nijmegen 07
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
Since I became ill, music hasn't felt the same for me. It's almost a bigger sense of loss than saying goodbye to alcohol. So, I've turned back to music at least during my daily prescribed walk around the block (to all you workout buffs - roll your eyes at me and I'll cut ya!).
I started off with Missio (I'm an alcoholic, middle fingers in the air), then Fixing a Hole which was perfection (I'm taking the time for a number of things that weren't important yesterday), and finished off with Comfortably Numb.
These baby steps suck. Gotta do it and everyone says it'll hurt before it starts to gets better so I am, with resoluteness.
Seventh day and waiting!
I feel you on music. Ive been so unwell and im ashamed to say ive been feeling close to ending it all. I know there are so much many worse off and all that stuff. But i envy your strength and power. Your comment on music not being the same i totally get you. I went to metallica with my brother who is a functioning alc. And im a mess. I felt nothing. Not a thing. It should have been a good feeling. But no matter what i do i feel so close to just walking in front of a train. Ive become a stranger to myself
Don't be ashamed for how you feel - let it propel you toward something positive for YOURSELF. No matter how seemingly trivial. It takes time, a long time; hell, I'm trying every day and it's so damn difficult. Reach out for help, professional help, if you need to. Let it out here too, but know you likely need more than that to steer clear of the fucking trains.
Today, July 9, is my late sister's birthday. I quit smoking on her birthday so I'd have something to bring joy to a day I know would make me sad and I want my big sis to be proud of me.
I'm 2 years cigarette free. I never thought I'd quit, I've been smoking since my teens. But my doc told me to use the vapes and after doing both for awhile - I just didn't buy cigarettes one day and was done with them on her birthday. And I've had my first lung scan. Go every 6 months for now. Consequences. Prevention. But I don't smoke anymore so that is something.
My sis is gone 6 years. - she went to the hospital on her birthday in 2013 and was gone by September. I miss her so much. Love you Patty, hope you are proud of me.
Today, July 9, is my late sister's birthday. I quit smoking on her birthday so I'd have something to bring joy to a day I know would make me sad and I want my big sis to be proud of me.
I'm 2 years cigarette free. I never thought I'd quit, I've been smoking since my teens. But my doc told me to use the vapes and after doing both for awhile - I just didn't buy cigarettes one day and was done with them on her birthday. And I've had my first lung scan. Go every 6 months for now. Consequences. Prevention. But I don't smoke anymore so that is something.
My sis is gone 6 years. - she went to the hospital on her birthday in 2013 and was gone by September. I miss her so much. Love you Patty, hope you are proud of me.
Congrats on two years cigarette-free. I think your sister would be very proud of you. Picking this day honours you both. May her memory bring you comfort.
I’m nine days in, again. (. . . And again . . . And again. I’ll keep quitting, till I quit!)
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Today, July 9, is my late sister's birthday. I quit smoking on her birthday so I'd have something to bring joy to a day I know would make me sad and I want my big sis to be proud of me.
I'm 2 years cigarette free. I never thought I'd quit, I've been smoking since my teens. But my doc told me to use the vapes and after doing both for awhile - I just didn't buy cigarettes one day and was done with them on her birthday. And I've had my first lung scan. Go every 6 months for now. Consequences. Prevention. But I don't smoke anymore so that is something.
My sis is gone 6 years. - she went to the hospital on her birthday in 2013 and was gone by September. I miss her so much. Love you Patty, hope you are proud of me.
Congrats on two years cigarette-free. I think your sister would be very proud of you. Picking this day honours you both. May her memory bring you comfort.
I’m nine days in, again. (. . . And again . . . And again. I’ll keep quitting, till I quit!)
Thank you, that is very kind.
Nine days is excellent! I know how hard it is, I tried everything for decades. Using the vape is still giving me some nicotine, but I'm not setting a cigarette (which contains a load of bad stuff) on fire, which is what ignites the carcinogens. I went for a year and a half doing both and it was the first thing that finally worked. I had almost given up, which scared me. I'll be scared for the rest of my life every time I go for a lung scan, but at least I'm reducing my risk of heart and other cancers.
I am almost 23 years sober and that was damn difficult, but quitting smoking was the hardest thing I've ever done - so I understand your struggle. You're trying and you will do it - I believe in you. If I could do it, you can do it. Keep the faith!!
Today, July 9, is my late sister's birthday. I quit smoking on her birthday so I'd have something to bring joy to a day I know would make me sad and I want my big sis to be proud of me.
I'm 2 years cigarette free. I never thought I'd quit, I've been smoking since my teens. But my doc told me to use the vapes and after doing both for awhile - I just didn't buy cigarettes one day and was done with them on her birthday. And I've had my first lung scan. Go every 6 months for now. Consequences. Prevention. But I don't smoke anymore so that is something.
My sis is gone 6 years. - she went to the hospital on her birthday in 2013 and was gone by September. I miss her so much. Love you Patty, hope you are proud of me.
Pretty sure she is so pround for you Nancy..
Athens 2006. Dusseldorf 2007. Berlin 2009. Venice 2010. Amsterdam 1 2012. Amsterdam 1+2 2014. Buenos Aires 2015. Prague Krakow Berlin 2018. Berlin 2022 EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
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Prague Krakow Berlin 2018. Berlin 2022
EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
I started off with Missio (I'm an alcoholic, middle fingers in the air), then Fixing a Hole which was perfection (I'm taking the time for a number of things that weren't important yesterday), and finished off with Comfortably Numb.
These baby steps suck. Gotta do it and everyone says it'll hurt before it starts to gets better so I am, with resoluteness.
Seventh day and waiting!
Ive been so unwell and im ashamed to say ive been feeling close to ending it all. I know there are so much many worse off and all that stuff.
But i envy your strength and power.
Your comment on music not being the same i totally get you. I went to metallica with my brother who is a functioning alc. And im a mess.
I felt nothing. Not a thing. It should have been a good feeling. But no matter what i do i feel so close to just walking in front of a train. Ive become a stranger to myself
astoria 06
albany 06
hartford 06
reading 06
barcelona 06
paris 06
wembley 07
dusseldorf 07
nijmegen 07
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
astoria 06
albany 06
hartford 06
reading 06
barcelona 06
paris 06
wembley 07
dusseldorf 07
nijmegen 07
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
I wish you well.
astoria 06
albany 06
hartford 06
reading 06
barcelona 06
paris 06
wembley 07
dusseldorf 07
nijmegen 07
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -
Prague Krakow Berlin 2018. Berlin 2022
EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
Prague Krakow Berlin 2018. Berlin 2022
EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
Prague Krakow Berlin 2018. Berlin 2022
EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
Prague Krakow Berlin 2018. Berlin 2022
EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
I'm 2 years cigarette free. I never thought I'd quit, I've been smoking since my teens. But my doc told me to use the vapes and after doing both for awhile - I just didn't buy cigarettes one day and was done with them on her birthday. And I've had my first lung scan. Go every 6 months for now. Consequences. Prevention. But I don't smoke anymore so that is something.
My sis is gone 6 years. - she went to the hospital on her birthday in 2013 and was gone by September. I miss her so much. Love you Patty, hope you are proud of me.
I’m nine days in, again. (. . . And again . . . And again. I’ll keep quitting, till I quit!)
Nine days is excellent! I know how hard it is, I tried everything for decades. Using the vape is still giving me some nicotine, but I'm not setting a cigarette (which contains a load of bad stuff) on fire, which is what ignites the carcinogens. I went for a year and a half doing both and it was the first thing that finally worked. I had almost given up, which scared me. I'll be scared for the rest of my life every time I go for a lung scan, but at least I'm reducing my risk of heart and other cancers.
I am almost 23 years sober and that was damn difficult, but quitting smoking was the hardest thing I've ever done - so I understand your struggle. You're trying and you will do it - I believe in you. If I could do it, you can do it. Keep the faith!!
Prague Krakow Berlin 2018. Berlin 2022
EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
Prague Krakow Berlin 2018. Berlin 2022
EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
Prague Krakow Berlin 2018. Berlin 2022
EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
Good job, Fats! I'll have to check out the covers album.
(and I love that scene)
Prague Krakow Berlin 2018. Berlin 2022
EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
Prague Krakow Berlin 2018. Berlin 2022
EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
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You said it.