Request: Setting Sun in Manchester in memory of my Big Brother

Batty Cat Woman
Preesall, Lancashire UK Posts: 13
I am seeing you for the 1st and probably the last time in Manchester UK (sectio 112). The day I got the message from 10C saying I'd won tickets I cried (and panicked), then 2hrs later I got a call that broke my heart and made me cry again... my big brother Nicky had died. What to do... what do you do ... cry..hide... become haunted. Now Nicky won't like me telling you this, he hated anyone knowing what we suffered. My Father tortured, raped, abused us... that's how I found you PJ, you saved me... Daughter made me feel less alone. Nicky was never saved, he carried that torture. He would have taken his own life if it wasn't for our amazing Mum. The past caused him PTSD which lead to Epilepsy (2 types) which led to many medical issues. He refused to release the past. Eventually he had a heart attack 4wks before his 60th Birthday. The Universe took my brother, but gave me PJ tickets... would I trade that? Of course I would, but he wouldn't want to come back.Then I heard Setting Sun... everyday I watch the sunset and sing "If you could see what I see now, You'd find a way to stay somehow " and I sob.
I know there will be tears for me at the show, but if you could see your way to give some love out to my Big Brother Nicky who tried all his life to protect us from evil and blamed himself for so much...just a little love for him. He didn't fail me...it wasn't him that failed us. I miss him.
Thank you Pearl Jam, thank you for helping me survive and now helping me to grieve.
Claire
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This is beautifully written, I'm so sorry for your loss Claire.0
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Batty Cat Woman said:I am seeing you for the 1st and probably the last time in Manchester UK (sectio 112). The day I got the message from 10C saying I'd won tickets I cried (and panicked), then 2hrs later I got a call that broke my heart and made me cry again... my big brother Nicky had died. What to do... what do you do ... cry..hide... become haunted. Now Nicky won't like me telling you this, he hated anyone knowing what we suffered. My Father tortured, raped, abused us... that's how I found you PJ, you saved me... Daughter made me feel less alone. Nicky was never saved, he carried that torture. He would have taken his own life if it wasn't for our amazing Mum. The past caused him PTSD which lead to Epilepsy (2 types) which led to many medical issues. He refused to release the past. Eventually he had a heart attack 4wks before his 60th Birthday. The Universe took my brother, but gave me PJ tickets... would I trade that? Of course I would, but he wouldn't want to come back.Then I heard Setting Sun... everyday I watch the sunset and sing "If you could see what I see now, You'd find a way to stay somehow " and I sob.I know there will be tears for me at the show, but if you could see your way to give some love out to my Big Brother Nicky who tried all his life to protect us from evil and blamed himself for so much...just a little love for him. He didn't fail me...it wasn't him that failed us. I miss him.Thank you Pearl Jam, thank you for helping me survive and now helping me to grieve.Claire
Celebrate his life and yours at PJ. Take carehippiemom = goodness0 -
I'm so sorry for what you've gone through and continue to go through. Thank you for sharing your grief with us. I'll be at Manchester w/ my wife and hope to hear a shout out for Nicky.
@Sea @Kat - I know you don't take requests & whatnot, but maybe you know someone who does......Post edited by Merkin Baller on0 -
Thank you my amazing PJ family. Always beautiful, caring folks. 💜💙.0
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Sending all the love. I hope they hear your request for Nicky0
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Let's hope this gets to where it needs to be
this song is meant to be called i got shit,itshould be called i got shit tickets-hartford 06 -0 -
Happy Sunday bump0
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@Merkin Baller If you wonder about I have got blue and purple hair! Can't miss me. I have made Dark Matter bracelets to take if you want one0
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Batty Cat Woman said:@Merkin Baller If you wonder about I have got blue and purple hair! Can't miss me. I have made Dark Matter bracelets to take if you want oneWe’ll be over from the states, working in a couple shows around seeing family.0
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fingers crossed they keep the setlists similar to the states tour
Its closed pretty much every show, and I sure hope we get it at Manchester for you0 -
Yeah hope they keep it as a closer across Europe and beyond.0
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Thanks folks. There are so many songs that mean so much to many of us. I hope we all get what we hope for. 🫶🏻🫶🏻0
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Oh my goodness only 20 more sleeps...
"Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away"0 -
Sorry for your loss. Hope you get it, and hope you find some semblance of peace.0
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@Wreckage thank you 💙💜0
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Bumpity bump.0
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@Wreckage thank you ❤️0
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This is going to be such an emotional roller coaster for so many of us. There is a week to go and my heart is already beating out of my chest. I played Brother the Cloud to my Mum and she fell apart.0
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Only 3 more sleeps.0
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