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Request: Setting Sun in Manchester in memory of my Big Brother

Batty Cat WomanBatty Cat Woman Posts: 13
edited May 24 in The Porch
I am seeing you for the 1st and probably the last time in Manchester UK (sectio 112). The day I got the message from 10C saying I'd won tickets I cried (and panicked), then 2hrs later I got a call that broke my heart and made me cry again... my big brother Nicky had died. What to do... what do you do ... cry..hide... become haunted. Now Nicky won't like me telling you this, he hated anyone knowing what we suffered. My Father tortured, raped, abused us... that's how I found you PJ, you saved me... Daughter made me feel less alone. Nicky was never saved, he carried that torture. He would have taken his own life if it wasn't for our amazing Mum. The past caused him PTSD which lead to Epilepsy (2 types) which led to many medical issues. He refused to release the past. Eventually he had a heart attack 4wks before his 60th Birthday.  The Universe took my brother, but gave me PJ tickets... would I trade that? Of course I would, but he wouldn't want to come back.Then I heard Setting Sun... everyday I watch the sunset and sing "If you could see what I see now, You'd find a way to stay somehow " and I sob.
I know there will be tears for me at the show, but if you could see your way to give some love out to my Big Brother Nicky who tried all his life to protect us from evil and blamed himself for so much...just a little  love for him. He didn't fail me...it wasn't him that failed us. I miss him.
Thank you Pearl Jam, thank you for helping me survive and now helping me to grieve.
Claire 
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  • RS65573RS65573 Posts: 2,483
    This is beautifully written, I'm so sorry for your loss Claire.
  • Gern BlanstenGern Blansten Posts: 20,275
    So very sorry...stay strong
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  • cincybearcatcincybearcat Posts: 16,445
    Batty Cat Woman said:
    I am seeing you for the 1st and probably the last time in Manchester UK (sectio 112). The day I got the message from 10C saying I'd won tickets I cried (and panicked), then 2hrs later I got a call that broke my heart and made me cry again... my big brother Nicky had died. What to do... what do you do ... cry..hide... become haunted. Now Nicky won't like me telling you this, he hated anyone knowing what we suffered. My Father tortured, raped, abused us... that's how I found you PJ, you saved me... Daughter made me feel less alone. Nicky was never saved, he carried that torture. He would have taken his own life if it wasn't for our amazing Mum. The past caused him PTSD which lead to Epilepsy (2 types) which led to many medical issues. He refused to release the past. Eventually he had a heart attack 4wks before his 60th Birthday.  The Universe took my brother, but gave me PJ tickets... would I trade that? Of course I would, but he wouldn't want to come back.Then I heard Setting Sun... everyday I watch the sunset and sing "If you could see what I see now, You'd find a way to stay somehow " and I sob.
    I know there will be tears for me at the show, but if you could see your way to give some love out to my Big Brother Nicky who tried all his life to protect us from evil and blamed himself for so much...just a little  love for him. He didn't fail me...it wasn't him that failed us. I miss him.
    Thank you Pearl Jam, thank you for helping me survive and now helping me to grieve.
    Claire 
    Very sorry for your loss.  Lost my brother almost a year ago at the age of 51.  It is still hard almost every day.  The music helps.  

    Celebrate his life and yours at PJ.  Take care
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  • Merkin BallerMerkin Baller Posts: 11,451
    edited May 24

    I'm so sorry for what you've gone through and continue to go through. Thank you for sharing your grief with us. I'll be at Manchester w/ my wife and hope to hear a shout out for Nicky. 

    @Sea @Kat - I know you don't take requests & whatnot, but maybe you know someone who does......
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  • Batty Cat WomanBatty Cat Woman Posts: 13
    Thank you my amazing PJ family. Always beautiful, caring folks. 💜💙. 
  • deb1211deb1211 Posts: 1,601
    Sending all the love. I hope they hear your request for Nicky 
  • lastexitlondonlastexitlondon Posts: 13,869
    Let's hope this gets to where it needs to be
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  • deb1211deb1211 Posts: 1,601
    Happy Sunday bump
  • Batty Cat WomanBatty Cat Woman Posts: 13
    @Merkin Baller If you wonder about I have got blue and purple hair! Can't miss me. I have made Dark Matter bracelets to take if you want one
  • Merkin BallerMerkin Baller Posts: 11,451
    Batty Cat Woman said:
    @Merkin Baller If you wonder about I have got blue and purple hair! Can't miss me. I have made Dark Matter bracelets to take if you want one
    Will keep an eye out & say hello if we see you! 
    We’ll be over from the states, working in a couple shows around seeing family. 
  • pdalowskypdalowsky Posts: 15,074
    fingers crossed they keep the setlists similar to the states tour

    Its closed pretty much every show, and I sure hope we get it at Manchester for you
  • Planet of SoundPlanet of Sound Posts: 628
    Yeah hope they keep it as a closer across Europe and beyond.
  • Batty Cat WomanBatty Cat Woman Posts: 13
    Thanks folks. There are so many songs that mean so much to many of us. I hope we all get what we hope for. 🫶🏻🫶🏻
  • Batty Cat WomanBatty Cat Woman Posts: 13
    Oh my goodness only 20 more sleeps...
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  • WreckageWreckage Posts: 56
    Sorry for your loss.  Hope you get it, and hope you find some semblance of peace.
  • Batty Cat WomanBatty Cat Woman Posts: 13
    @Wreckage thank you 💙💜
  • WreckageWreckage Posts: 56
    Bumpity bump.
  • Batty Cat WomanBatty Cat Woman Posts: 13
    @Wreckage thank you ❤️
  • Batty Cat WomanBatty Cat Woman Posts: 13
    This is going to be such an emotional roller coaster for so many of us. There is a week to go and my heart is already beating out of my chest. I played Brother the Cloud to my Mum and she fell apart. 
  • Batty Cat WomanBatty Cat Woman Posts: 13
    Only 3 more sleeps. 
  • Batty Cat WomanBatty Cat Woman Posts: 13
    Is anyone else here going to Sound of Seattle pre and post party in Manchester? It's a charity fund raiser at Hard Rock Cafe
  • Batty Cat WomanBatty Cat Woman Posts: 13
    I keep commenting on my own post! 
    OMFG we are seeing Pearl Jam tomorrow! Part of me feels like I traded my brother for PJ tickets. My heart is broken, my anxiety is through the roof.
  • deb1211deb1211 Posts: 1,601
    It will be a healing experience Sister..take him with you in your heart 
  • Batty Cat WomanBatty Cat Woman Posts: 13
    @deb1211 🫶🏻
  • Merkin BallerMerkin Baller Posts: 11,451
    One more sleep folks… my wife & I hit the train from Liverpool to Manchester mid-day - hope we can rival the energy from Dublin on Saturday… the band was in great form, I’m looking forward to another great night! 
  • Micheyb21Micheyb21 Posts: 328
    Please play this for this lovely lady. Sending you my thoughts 

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  • demetriosdemetrios Posts: 92,507
    Micheyb21 said:
    Please play this for this lovely lady. Sending you my thoughts 


  • BF25394BF25394 Posts: 4,503
    Oof, for this to be the first show where they didn't play this. I feel for you, Claire.
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  • Batty Cat WomanBatty Cat Woman Posts: 13
    Thanks guys. Ed was sick so guessing he picked songs he could get his voice around. It was awesome and Given to Fly was a great trade! I was on my feet singing and dancing, but others in seated areas seemed subdued.  I was just elated EV didn't give up 
  • pdalowskypdalowsky Posts: 15,074
    Batty Cat Woman said:
    Thanks guys. Ed was sick so guessing he picked songs he could get his voice around. It was awesome and Given to Fly was a great trade! I was on my feet singing and dancing, but others in seated areas seemed subdued.  I was just elated EV didn't give up 
    Really hope we get it in London instead :)
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