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  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    DinghyDog wrote:
    depopulationINC wrote:
    Where do I go
    When heavens not waiting for me
    What of my soul
    And all of these troublings
    Just need to know
    Where do I go
    God has forsaken me
    Thrown to the shore
    Due to my blasphemy
    Where do I go
    Where do I go

    I wander alone
    Waiting eternity
    The streets are so cold
    Oh so dead and lonely
    Where is my home
    Where do I go
    Where shall I roam
    When heavens not waiting for me

    wow. I want to say 'beautiful', but it is to sad and pain-filled to say 'beautiful'.

    This one is kinda really about thoughts that I often have. I don't believe in god, or at least in the Christian taking of it all. That being said, I know it could be possible that I am wrong. The fact that I have denounced God and what not would mean I would not be granted access to heaven (looking at the 10 commandments)...basically I have questioned the validity of the existence in God, and therefore he has no place for me in death...but I have been a relatively good person...I have made my sins, but have amended for those...so does that still mean hell, or would i be a lost soul?
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    JonnyPistachio wrote:
    Depop - Thanks for the breakdown. That is some heavy stuff. Amazing too.

    Thankyou kindly
    It took a long time before i was in a place to share the meaning of it all. Writing it and a lot of the other syuff in here was a big part of what brought me there.
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
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  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    DinghyDog wrote:
    Some of the most beautiful people I have ever met do not believe in God, but appear to follow the most important christians values. Where as I have met a number of christians who do things they believe are wrong and seem to think that going to church makes up for it, or something. I much prefer to be around honest people who know they are not perfect but do what they beleve is right, than to be around deceitful people who pretend they are perfect but are busy doing what they believe is wrong. And I find it hard to believe that if there is a God, that he would cast away so many truly good loving and kind people, whose deepest desires are love and peace.

    i follow this sentiment
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    Do you hate me just because I'm lazy
    what's unchanged
    what's come and gone
    all the little things
    they all drive me crazy

    when I'm resting
    when I drown
    can't take away sweet sorrow
    the one that reminds me of

    few steps can move me forward
    when I'm swirling inside of dreams
    all along I felt it here
    deep within yesterday's
    and yesterdays tomorrow
    deep in lingered souls
    chasing dreams I dare not follow

    I will I still
    feel grasp of that not hollow
    I will I still
    hold a soul that's become so shallow
    all in all these yesterdays
    lead me to where I don't know I head
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    In this life things are hazy
    live out loud and questioning
    right and wrong, we're all lead along

    wherever you heart roams
    wherever your head lies down
    know in me there is a home
    know in me there is comforting

    living loud and questioning
    right and wrong, we're all lead along
    moments come that remind of our place

    wherever you heart roams
    wherever your head lies down
    know in me there is a home
    know in me there's comforting

    right and wrong, we're all lead along
    moments come that remind of our place
    trust in me, what's troubling
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    hate hate
    it's all the rage
    wait weight
    it's more than I can take
    living as a brother in disguise

    wage rage
    it's on the way
    fake fate
    skinny dipping deep within
    soaking up sun and all the lies

    now
    go seed the lies
    plant the trees
    this forest will be our camouflage
    with a million tears
    shot full of poison
    meant to feed on fears
    aimed to gain, be prosperous
    all amassed fortunes couldn't lie

    shoot shoot
    gotta be this way
    intertwined in convolute
    wrapped in words that hypnotize
    it's all another deranged play

    scribed script
    it's here to stay
    with whit
    we're all delirious
    empowering to treat us this way
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    of dead presidents
    shining house, residency
    soundless in, their own regime
    swinging to a fence
    it's not mine
    who's can it really be
    crying out in name
    blinded, lacklustre through faith
    I might try to hard
    never did
    not like that pretence

    I sure see your stance
    don't agree
    no I never didn't
    indifferent in
    see the shining shores
    hold the light
    oh do we need one

    fantasy
    missing moments
    tainted within reality
    opaque gods, farfetched morality
    of the pain
    fools in passion
    inquisition, imposition, fucking with
    your own damned mind
    hatched thought mastered
    fools of passion
    lusting until they are blind
    light the path, where you overreacted
    bleaching away all that was fine
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    freedom woes
    stars and themes
    taking what
    we can never know

    Heaven knows
    heathen blows
    sent from us
    to see if we can burn our souls

    test free will
    search so far
    hold it close
    far from all

    in the night
    the light fades forevermore
    in the night
    dark wins out, shadows here for all the fears
    my way
    I know I know it goes away
    my tears
    I know I know it goes away
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    The leafs, I see
    fall to heaven, from these trees
    trampled beneath
    and there's a moment, relaxation
    more than one can believe
    lost in my moment
    a wing and a prayer
    fools only whimper
    holding to preciousest of time
    with a burden, white papers
    checkers on the stone
    freeing the tension
    the poisonous sound
    earth wind and fire
    a yearning compounds
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    I met my own disaster
    heaven's hell in my own heart
    making complete the kingdom
    with rage expelling into the air
    sometimes I want to slow down
    observe decaying scenes
    I know it comes with winter
    and what gets frozen faults in growth
    I want to get there faster
    my drug that I absorb

    whither away in the bitter
    air's ammonia setting in
    thinking will make it harder
    can't unsee what's already been
    for when the show is over
    nobody will remember
    just build over the tragedy
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    Here and there thereafter
    when we are lonely and getting bored
    I like to bend reality
    play with puppets in my head
    some I sing my songs to
    some I leave for dead
    every day is left a good day
    every day is shades of grey

    when I look at laughter
    there's still levels of my own dismay
    the pawns are left all toppled
    but for the one I feed disrepair
    life isn't always tranquil
    hate isn't always fair
    love can be so awkward
    don't interpret how I care

    you may not feel like that
    some people have no such luck
    trapped with endless feelings
    raging love and hate can't be ignored
    some days whistled are good tunes
    some days I don't give a fuck
    I end it all the same way
    knowing I'll return for more
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    wading in, misfortunes that come to be
    an instinct draws,
    precognitions
    misconceptions, and a soul obtuse
    look out to
    an empty world,
    but so prepared
    to make something
    to make anew

    I’m not prepared
    this all
    I could ever bring to fools
    whispered words,
    god's breath is just a death for folks like me and you
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • LongestRoad
    LongestRoad Posts: 477
    God's breath brings light and life and lessons.
  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    LongestRoad said:

    God's breath brings light and life and lessons.

    Does it? That is unilateral?
    "By the blast of God they perish, and by the breath of his nostrils are they consumed."
    "Yes, they shall not be planted; yes, they shall not be sown: yes, their stock shall not take root in the earth: and he shall also blow on them, and they shall wither, and the whirlwind shall take them away as stubble."
    "I will pour out My indignation on you; I will blow on you with the fire of My wrath, and I will give you into the hand of brutal men, skilled in destruction. "

    Does death automatically equate to physical mortality demising, or rather automatically relate to "living" itself?
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • LongestRoad
    LongestRoad Posts: 477
    Death equates to transition. If you believe, you die to live.
  • depopulationINC
    depopulationINC Posts: 2,074
    More things than life die.
    The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!

    And I won't make the same mistakes
    (Because I know)
    Because I know how much time that wastes
    (And function)
    Function is the key
  • LongestRoad
    LongestRoad Posts: 477
    Do you mean spirit? I hope things get better for you.

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