Watching as these so called saints begin, to march,
again...
Watching as these so called saints begin, to march,
right in...
Raising of arms into the sky,
to say they're blessed...
selected holy men/
To justify...the means...
no end
What the hell have we done to one another.
What ever happened to to helping,
to loving in one another.
What the hell have we done to one another.
What ever happened to words of forever.
Thought we cried at Lennon's words;
Promised to be shared between one another.
Tell me again how that story goes...
remember the middle,
can't look past the end...
Can't say we've tried our best.
Now can...we, my so...called friend
It's tried
it's tested
it's true
can't get out of this alive when it's all done and through
I'm tried
I'm tested
I'm through
sure can't stare back blankly at what's been discovered here
I see them marching down the street...
again
I sense we'll meet in the middle, despite
regrets...
Holding faith in ones we hurt,
the ones who did...
the same.
Bare your arms,
mount our...
defense.
And when we're out of breath,
we'll hold no more in
Crashing, thrashing they'll make us bleed.
Strong willed,
we can't
concede
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
Stop
holding hand in hand in hand
bent to see a crimson sky
letting passion slip on by
given traits just don't subside
Stop
placing me within another world
or perched atop a pedestal
Go
just never let your feelings show
to take your time
but never know
to hold your own
to trust no one
or leap on in
the pain to feel
that your not yourself
none of this is real
and what's been told
will all all unfold
to our naked eyes
contempt revealed
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
look
take a glance
sense just what we can see
to touch the hands that reach for me
outstretched
here for some comforting
we've got this plight
a righteous feel
and when it hurts this much
that's our appeal
to hold on tight
and not let go
I cleanse myself
within the lives he doesn't hold
and I take my place
to beat the lines
See
there's never a point in comforting
handing out what people want
holding back on what the really need
tides of change might take suffering
the price we pay
do we really seek point B to be
can't stand this site
sight so hard to see
so I take my steps
and I beg to feel
need something to hold
and if it hurts too much
then I must reveal
don't want your grace
hey i might concede
I'm not here for comforting
I don't need your comforting
I don't seek your comforting
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
look
take another little glance
sense now just what we can see
to touch the hands that reach for me
outstretched
here to convey some sympathy
we've got this plight
yeah a righteous feel
and when it hurts this much
that's our appeal
to hold too tight
to not let go
I cleanse myself
within lives he does not hold
and I take my place
to beat the lines
See
there's never a point in comforting
handing out when people plead
holding back what's really the need
tides of change are wet with grief
the price we pay
to seek point B
can't stand this site
sight so hard to see
so I take my steps
and I beg to feel
well I yearn to hold
and if it hurts too much
well I'll stand my ground
and see this ship down
as it fades away
yeah I must reveal
I don't want your grace
hey i must concede
I'm not here for comforting
I don't need your comforting
I don't seek your comforting
wait
the comfort is insecurity
sympathy is smothering
it drives me mad
and it warps my will
it clouds my mind
as it sinks on in
got this crazy urge to kill
and I take these steps
to set me free
but I hold on tight
to how the world feels
cuz I can't go back
if it's all revealed
so I'll dig this hole
as I concave
and it's so complex
to show just how I feel
but I'll let go
once I've built this room
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
Stopping to see a view
bewildered
a little bit more confused
stopping to set self renewed
so humbled
left bitter, battered and bruised
fall from the mountain top
back to you pedestal
so enter the fire
lord
so so much higher
no
I can show me
can you show you
I can reveal
and revel in another to
can you ponder
can you believe
have you searched
I have low to high
no
I see nothing to
in this dim light
bleaching moonlight
stars have crumbled
leaving a crimsoned view
in this dim light
the crest is broken
leaving dankened
promising vigor renewed
sever your ties
lust of promise
to find yourself fulfilled
so much for freewill
unto whom's accord
surrender passions
they lead to confusion
feed that monster
suppressing that's good
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
Wandering
I pace the streets alone
I can't blame you
it's all on me
this is my own shame
the day's sweet air surrounds me
still I feel so frigid...
bitter, broken...
shivering right to the bone
begging for one touch
a simple grace for me to memorize
a pleasant thought to grasp a hold to
track my path to the exiting
one last night, before I disappear
this one prayer will last forever
no nothing can spin this undone
healing prayers that hold me to the light
ease the aching,
providing hope,
perhaps my warmth can be rekindled one more time
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
Really hurt myself this time
I climbed up high
Oh how I hit the ground
Passing forth in misconceiving games
To stand my place
Love to use the cheating plays
This it seems
The only way
To try so hard
To meet the grave
This it seems
The way it’s played
To face the world
Crumble in your own way
To step the steps that it might take
Go seek the way
Seek your own way out
Seems to me some grand design
I failed again
What’s one more time
I’ll disconnect
I will recline
This it seems
The only way
To try so hard
To meet the grave
This it seems
The way it’s played
To face the world
Crumble in your own way
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
yes I am leaving
no sitting
no waiting
humbled throughout
digging my own damn grave
three feet deep
think I'll be all finished today
yes I am leaving
I don't have a need
I have my reasons
haven't any need to explain
you see
you hear me say
I am feeling
the way I feel every day
yes I am leaving
but I've already been missing
longer that I prefer to say
yes I am leaving
so miss me
hay hay hay
will it be noticed
what will they say
am I afraid
to defy her
to go away
gotta find out
am I afraid
I cry
cry like a baby
can not refrain
you see
not like before
I'm excited
it is cited
free is power
so I can't stay
don't want
can't stay obeying
am I afraid
to hear the words
the Priestess prays
and I'm devoured
yes I am leaving
but I've already been missing
longer that I prefer to say
yes I am leaving
I'm going I'm going
am I disdained
you go and
you fire me right away
giving way to something less special
holding on to what is not precious
you go
and you let go
hold on to nothing
but that's just you
it's just your way
and I drive
and I'm searching
but there's nothing here I care to save
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
Hey hey
I was waiting
I had
hey hey
I had a feeling
yeah I was waiting
hey hey
missing the meaning
passing all that they say
so I've been flaking
get on my knees
I get on my knees to pray
hey hey hey hey
one last chance
well I continue begging
I beg your pardon
yeah you are claiming
but hey hey hey
I've been here one time before
go on now
go on
go on
yeah just to claim your serving
hide that soul
that inner serpent
which claims your will
that keeps you hurting
one last chance
but it's just not working
nay nay nay hey
I can't I can't I can't
but to help obeying
have you heard all that
has this haunted here before
I can't I can't no I can't
but to stand
feel hate in
what once I waved that flag for
briefest meaning
oh well they do say
life's for breathing
expressions free wheeling
Hey hey hey hey
life without dreaming
one in the same
exist without reaching
struggle's the game
mmm
hold on to something
make it worth feeling
Hey hey hey hey
express your flower
spreading wings
to live in a moment
repeating that dreaming
again to reach
worth more than breathing
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
Am I refined
are you my
my one sweet lady
I cry
made up just like a baby
tonight
I sing my song
and scream and maybe
try to recognize
what I have seen
what's passed of me before
I swim
I sink
just like a stone
and it drives me
it makes me go crazy
just like a mime
standing within a silence
no not a word
no more
nay hey hey hey
briefly saying
what's passing on
mmm I do know
briefly praying
what is wrong
what's up
what is on my mind
hey hey hey
I don't want
please hey, no maybe
for I hold disdain
the same kind
we dreaded from before
inside of me
internally
you see
hey hey hey hey
please give power
inside of me
we empower
can't take no more
nay nay hey hey
maybe timid
intimidated
not weaker now
than I was before
a hidden strength
I know how to soar
yay yay hey hey
I hate
see my disdain
a greater power
than once showed
I won't crumble
threw crutch away
hey hey yay yay
you see
I've been
somewhere I can't explain
you see
not me
not the same as I was before
hey hey hey hey
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
Darkness creeps in, gloom settles in
morbid in it's own special little way
Light shines through, beams of desperation
begging to light the path of another day.
Heavy contemplation and endless fears
That total lack of knowledge
only to know anew is here
you take your steps
the steps you hate
hate to love
but sense the fate
for what will come
it won't last long
it tears your seams
it frustrates to the end
Luminous doorways waving
calling you in
with shadows engulfing
begging for sin
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
I can feel the hands upon
how they go
go and now sabotaging
makes me feel too low
makes me take a little more in
and
there's a feeling
it's back around so near again
sense a resurging
resurgance within
it tingles, it's here
it's under my skin
I can feel you now
criticizing
and I
feel it diving
feel it diving
say what you want
say what you will
its all indifferent
its nothing on me
I'll test upon my freewill
serpents may rise
providing a thrill
its all cheap
and
only provoking a slight chill
fell it turning
spinning right round
sense a resurging
resurgance within
it's here, it burns
it's under the skin
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
Can't just can't wait
for this feeling that I hate
providing me delivery
try try your will
does it still bring a little thrill
holding dear to the song
the won that tricks you all along
feel the beating in you heart
know nobody ever really won
escape
to bitter seasons of sun
we wait
for sensibility to come our way
deep hate
for everything that has become unfun
sacrificing all responsibility
can't just can't hate
when I'm slipping at the last of faith
does it make feel all better
to try try your will
does it still bring a little thrill
holding dear to the song
when inside you know its wrong
feel the beating in you heart
know nobody ever really won
equate
nothing seems to calculate
with fate
we need a method to translate
and faith
shivering through another season in the sun
sacrificing all responsibility
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
I denounce your temporal plane
Transgressions and faults require at least one day
I close eyes to the Unions ritual Decree
Why cant you just tell us all
That we should live free
Don’t portray false messages
From the unbirthed Ghost
Thoughts of Temporal lashings
Hurt the most
Evil lurks behind those pure eyes
Why repent sins against son of man
While Spirit defaced throws away the lamb
Is this His discipline
Or a controlling façade
Eating bread
From sweat of brow
Do all before Him
Be condemned by God
This might be
A mortal sin
Seems so venial
At best
Deep within
Free your body
Mind and soul
Drink the blood
Ass you grow old
Before my living
Can commence
Holy Eucharist Sacrament
But when you kneel
And then repent
If you die you’ll stay above
But without feast
Will He show His love
this piece is about Purgatory and a child's place within it. I have never wanted to divulge that for 2 reason. A – I thought it might hurt people to hear that, and if it does I do greatly apologize...believe me the very thought hurts me to...explained by B – a number of years ago I was with a girl who ended up losing a newborn. This was all obviously very painful...the rage, discontent, sadness, bitterness and gloom was rather all-consuming and was the single biggest factor in shaping the rest of my life (a close second was a bad car accident in which I had to hold a dying friend on the side of the road and ended up being the only survivor...i have posted that somewhere here before).
As I have mentioned before, I converted to Catholicism...and well, it was to be with this very girl. I was extremely lost and confused, and because I had just went through the process of converting, the teachings were very fresh in my mind (this particular priest was old school...made you study and what not to convert...the way it was historically supposed to be achieved). I turned to the priest to discuss the matter and confessed that I was confused what would happen to the child as they had never completed sacrament of reconciliation, and Catholic Doctrine stated that confession was a requirement for access to heaven. I said it did not make a lot of sense to me, because surely the child had never sinned, apart from the fact that it had never been afforded the opportunity to meet the conditions of God's grace. I asked if this would be considered a sin...more specifically I asked if it would be a mortal sin. He said that it would not be a Mortal Sin, but would 'obviously' be Venial. This sent me irate! I asked what that meant...the child had not practiced reconciliation, and had Venial Sins, so this would mean Purgatory....he agreed. So this meant that this innocent child would need to go to Purgatory for Temporal cleansing!
Now, Purgatory is a temporal plane somewhere between heaven and hell. Some souls go straight to Heaven (very few), some go straight to Hell (ei Mortal Sinners), and some are simply deemed to not yet be pure enough to pass through the pearly gates. They therefore go to Purgatory to be lashed free of their sins. This is an indeterminate amount of time...some may be there for eternity attempting to be cleansed, some a very brief stay...it is all dependent on the sins, quantity of and the soul's ability to truly repent.
So, this child had apparently never sinned greatly enough to go to Hell, but was not allowed access to Heaven...this leaves Purgatory for eternity. Now, oddly enough, in the past couple years the Catholic Church (Vatican) set forth to give better definition of Purgatory, but I am not sure if that redefinition was ever completed or released...I know I have not read it, and don't think I ever will.
Anyways, that is the really really really quick overview of where this all came from....thought I would break it all apart a bit now.
I denounce your temporal plane
--- I think Purgatory is bullshit /flawed / unjust
Transgressions and faults require at least one day
--- The sins that place one in Purgatory surely can not be acquired at birth, even though I do realise that technically confession must take place
I close eyes to the Unions ritual Decree
--- The ritual decree of Batism, Confrimation and Eucharist are requirements to gain God's grace...I call it a union, because there a few...so union = group
Why cant you just tell us all
That we should live free
--- just kind of saying you give us free will, even though we do not have it. Free will does not have conditions bound to it.
Don’t portray false messages
--- touching on the fact that his teachings tell us that if we don't sin and we stay pure that heaven awaits, that if we idolize Him and try to live in His all pure image that we get in...again, this is not free will...it is do as you are told or else.
From the unbirthed Ghost
--- unbirthed Ghost = Holy Ghost...it was never really “born” per say
Thoughts of Temporal lashings
Hurt the most
--- Purgatory is supposedly a Temporal plane of existence where transgressions are beaten and burned out of your soul
Evil lurks behind those pure eyes
--- God's is the purist form (viewing from behind pure eyes), and for aforementioned reasons, I see don't agree with Purgatory in its entirety...almost evil
Why repent sins against son of man
--- we are supposed to confess/repent our sins, venial sins are what need cleansing in Purgatory
While Spirit defaced throws away the lamb
--- It is like God feels smited because the sacraments were not done, and now he is going to toss away one of his children/lamb because of it. I also often envision/associate a lamb with babies/youth. I also kinda see God as viewing us as his sheep...his heard to follow him
Is this His discipline
Or a controlling façade
--- Is this really all him, or is it made up bs from someone trying to give depth to the faith. Purgatory, from what I have read, has only been a part of the Catholic doctrine for around 1000 years.
Eating bread
From sweat of brow
Do all before Him
Be condemned by God
--- Eucharist is like accesses to Catholic Christianity...it is viewed as “the” big sacrament so to speak...Holy Communion...2nd sacrament of the 7 (Baptism, Eucharist, Reconciliation, Confirmation, Marriage, Holy Orders/Ordination, Last Rites). Part of the Eucharist/Communion process that many are familiar with is the breaking and distribution of sacramental bread at the alter...the bread representing the resurrection of Christ, and the breaking and sharing of the bread symbolizes unity. So, back to the whole thing that if you don't partake in the sacraments, First Communion being but one of them, that God is condemning you...could be Hell, in this case Purgatory. Bread of course being from the last supper.
This might be
A mortal sin
Seems so venial
At best
Deep within
--- Mortal sins are sins that are severe, done knowingly and deliberately via the sinner...reference the 10 commandments...plus faith, hope and charity. “You shall have no other gods before me ”... the First Commandment...or maybe the third...”You shall not take the name of the Lord your God in vain, for the Lord will not hold him guiltless who takes His name in vain” my very words would be viewed as a Mortal Sin. By saying that they seem venial it is a shot a god, as venial sins are forgivable. So, it is trivializing my so called mortal sin. 'Seems so trivial, at best, deep within' is saying me denouncing you over Purgatory may be a mortal sin, but can you really blame me in this situation? Yeah, I know...it is a test...I am supposed to say it is a part of God's greater plan, that I am supposed to have blind faith in this situation and pray to him for guidance in this time of despair. Guess I failed Him and his test huh.
Free your body
Mind and soul
Drink the blood
Ass you grow old
--- the act of attending Mass and taking Communion/ Eucharist...just using that as a generalization that we are to continue worshiping Him and only Him to gain access (remember, not doing so is a Mortal sin...so don't take that chance boys and girls). I guess I see that you essentially freeing body, mind and soul via Eucharist and confession. You are cleansing your venial sins if you truly are repenting (saving some pain in Purgatory)...the blood is a representation of the wine at communion, which is a representation the wine from the last supper and also Jesus' blood (you know...the whole thing about Christ saying he is of pure vine (his soul is pure because he is one in the same...a piece...of god), he therefore turns water to wine because the bread and wine were made from a piece of him...so it transforms his body to bread and his blood transforms water to wine and he feasts with the disciples).
Before my living
Can commence
Holy Eucharist Sacrament
--- in other words be careful to do shit before you take communion
But when you kneel
And then repent
If you die you’ll stay above
--- and do it often because it will help you ass out in purgatory.
But without feast
Will He show His love
--- so basically if you don't take communion, and follow structured sacraments, the Catholic Church is saying God kinda looks at you as a lamb for the slaughtering. Many other religions state that you are to keep Him in your heart, and that showing up at the church is not always a requirement...that you can worship him from anywhere...I mean hey, the 4th commandment says to “Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy. Six days you shall labor and do all your work, but the seventh day is the Sabbath of the Lord your God. In it you shall do no work: you, nor your son, nor your daughter, nor your manservant, nor your maidservant, nor your cattle, nor your stranger who is within your gates. For in six days the Lord made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, and rested the seventh day. Therefore the Lord blessed the Sabbath day and hallowed it.” it says nothing about having to go to a church to for Eucharist...but you don't make money if the flock is not there now do you? The Catholic Church is, in my eyes, abusive of it authority on so many levels. I have no issues with religion per say, but follow the scripture you preach from.
I obviously have issues with the Catholic Church and its doctrines. I don't agree with their definition of most things, nor how they do little things like tricking you into having to come for communion to repent, just to get you in the door so to speak. I am all for the 5th commandment on, but the first 4...not how the Catholic Church spins them.
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
JESUS BLESSES LITTLE CHILDREN
Some people brought children to Jesus for him to place his hands on them, but the disciples scolded the people. When Jesus noticed this, he was angry and said to his disciples, "Let the children come to me, and do not stop them, because the Kingdom of God belongs to such as these. I assure you that whoever does not receive the Kingdom of God like a child will never enter it." Then he took the children in his arms, placed his hands on each of them, and blessed them.
P.S. You've had some really difficult things to deal with in your life. I am wishing you healing and happiness.
OK, so I read all that, but I thought I would edit it here because I just wanted to ask you a quick question, and I'm sure you remember your own history.
Where are you at now with your beliefs? I would be very interested to know. I have always just 'felt' Christian, but in the last couple of years I have really started to questions things (not that I haven't questioned things all along, but I have never questioned my belief in God). Yet I still know that deep down I must believe, because, when it felt like there was nothing, I prayed.
I believe in basic Christian fundamentals, but, when it comes down to it the only thing I really truly 100% believe in from the testaments is Matthew 7:12.
I actively follow no religion. I am one with science, and thus my religion is reasoning which can be substantiated.
I believe that inner peace comes from a self controlled balance and the ability to separate one's self from a situation and look at said situation through observers eyes. In other words, if you were a bystander seeing a given situation, how would you look upon it.
I believe that everything in life requires balance, just as in nature. If you build a house from wood, nature must be restored. If you hurt someone, you must make amends. If you see someone in need, extend a hand. If you see someone who over indulges (greed) do not idolize. Thus, I believe the world is out of balance in a negative manner...not saying it is a bad place, just out of balance. If someone does something terribly bad, balance can only be restored by someone doing something terribly good.
I believe wisdom comes from not only seeing you negatives, but balancing them. In doing so, your balance makes the world and the people around you better...more balanced.
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
I whisper
To you my single everything
Explore that world
In constant astonishment
To hold in hands
Life so preciously
To search my mind
Bound with limp vitality
I scream to skies
To seek some remorse
I pray within
I try to release
I need this more
Than I’ve ever needed anything
I beg for you
Take me in place of thee
I pray some more
With my tearful symphony
Please grant for me
In clasping hands
Hedging so incomplete
Your place for sure
Breath life
Confirm vitality
I scream to skies
Is there a reward
I pray within
I search trough the stars
I need this more
Than life even means to me
I need this more
Without is there anything
probably your most moving writing ever. So little words to convey so much. Yet another one that I am unwilling to write 'beautiful' for.
really...hmmm....thanks
Probably obvious what it is about, but is about a man sitting at a hospital bed watching his wife passing, and praying/pleading to God to take him in her place...that he would swap places in a heartbeat...that he loves her so much that he would sacrifice everything if it could save her
The only thing I enjoy is having no feelings....being numb rocks!
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
Comments
but now I am confused
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
again...
Watching as these so called saints begin, to march,
right in...
Raising of arms into the sky,
to say they're blessed...
selected holy men/
To justify...the means...
no end
What the hell have we done to one another.
What ever happened to to helping,
to loving in one another.
What the hell have we done to one another.
What ever happened to words of forever.
Thought we cried at Lennon's words;
Promised to be shared between one another.
Tell me again how that story goes...
remember the middle,
can't look past the end...
Can't say we've tried our best.
Now can...we, my so...called friend
It's tried
it's tested
it's true
can't get out of this alive when it's all done and through
I'm tried
I'm tested
I'm through
sure can't stare back blankly at what's been discovered here
I see them marching down the street...
again
I sense we'll meet in the middle, despite
regrets...
Holding faith in ones we hurt,
the ones who did...
the same.
Bare your arms,
mount our...
defense.
And when we're out of breath,
we'll hold no more in
Crashing, thrashing they'll make us bleed.
Strong willed,
we can't
concede
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
'Cause a holy man approaches.
Says he is the truth and we...
Listen.
Told of what is going on
By men who haven't heard.
Told to beleive in this...
Bullshit.
holding hand in hand in hand
bent to see a crimson sky
letting passion slip on by
given traits just don't subside
Stop
placing me within another world
or perched atop a pedestal
Go
just never let your feelings show
to take your time
but never know
to hold your own
to trust no one
or leap on in
the pain to feel
that your not yourself
none of this is real
and what's been told
will all all unfold
to our naked eyes
contempt revealed
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
take a glance
sense just what we can see
to touch the hands that reach for me
outstretched
here for some comforting
we've got this plight
a righteous feel
and when it hurts this much
that's our appeal
to hold on tight
and not let go
I cleanse myself
within the lives he doesn't hold
and I take my place
to beat the lines
See
there's never a point in comforting
handing out what people want
holding back on what the really need
tides of change might take suffering
the price we pay
do we really seek point B to be
can't stand this site
sight so hard to see
so I take my steps
and I beg to feel
need something to hold
and if it hurts too much
then I must reveal
don't want your grace
hey i might concede
I'm not here for comforting
I don't need your comforting
I don't seek your comforting
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
look
take another little glance
sense now just what we can see
to touch the hands that reach for me
outstretched
here to convey some sympathy
we've got this plight
yeah a righteous feel
and when it hurts this much
that's our appeal
to hold too tight
to not let go
I cleanse myself
within lives he does not hold
and I take my place
to beat the lines
See
there's never a point in comforting
handing out when people plead
holding back what's really the need
tides of change are wet with grief
the price we pay
to seek point B
can't stand this site
sight so hard to see
so I take my steps
and I beg to feel
well I yearn to hold
and if it hurts too much
well I'll stand my ground
and see this ship down
as it fades away
yeah I must reveal
I don't want your grace
hey i must concede
I'm not here for comforting
I don't need your comforting
I don't seek your comforting
wait
the comfort is insecurity
sympathy is smothering
it drives me mad
and it warps my will
it clouds my mind
as it sinks on in
got this crazy urge to kill
and I take these steps
to set me free
but I hold on tight
to how the world feels
cuz I can't go back
if it's all revealed
so I'll dig this hole
as I concave
and it's so complex
to show just how I feel
but I'll let go
once I've built this room
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
bewildered
a little bit more confused
stopping to set self renewed
so humbled
left bitter, battered and bruised
fall from the mountain top
back to you pedestal
so enter the fire
lord
so so much higher
no
I can show me
can you show you
I can reveal
and revel in another to
can you ponder
can you believe
have you searched
I have low to high
no
I see nothing to
in this dim light
bleaching moonlight
stars have crumbled
leaving a crimsoned view
in this dim light
the crest is broken
leaving dankened
promising vigor renewed
sever your ties
lust of promise
to find yourself fulfilled
so much for freewill
unto whom's accord
surrender passions
they lead to confusion
feed that monster
suppressing that's good
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
I pace the streets alone
I can't blame you
it's all on me
this is my own shame
the day's sweet air surrounds me
still I feel so frigid...
bitter, broken...
shivering right to the bone
begging for one touch
a simple grace for me to memorize
a pleasant thought to grasp a hold to
track my path to the exiting
one last night, before I disappear
this one prayer will last forever
no nothing can spin this undone
healing prayers that hold me to the light
ease the aching,
providing hope,
perhaps my warmth can be rekindled one more time
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
I climbed up high
Oh how I hit the ground
Passing forth in misconceiving games
To stand my place
Love to use the cheating plays
This it seems
The only way
To try so hard
To meet the grave
This it seems
The way it’s played
To face the world
Crumble in your own way
To step the steps that it might take
Go seek the way
Seek your own way out
Seems to me some grand design
I failed again
What’s one more time
I’ll disconnect
I will recline
This it seems
The only way
To try so hard
To meet the grave
This it seems
The way it’s played
To face the world
Crumble in your own way
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
no sitting
no waiting
humbled throughout
digging my own damn grave
three feet deep
think I'll be all finished today
yes I am leaving
I don't have a need
I have my reasons
haven't any need to explain
you see
you hear me say
I am feeling
the way I feel every day
yes I am leaving
but I've already been missing
longer that I prefer to say
yes I am leaving
so miss me
hay hay hay
will it be noticed
what will they say
am I afraid
to defy her
to go away
gotta find out
am I afraid
I cry
cry like a baby
can not refrain
you see
not like before
I'm excited
it is cited
free is power
so I can't stay
don't want
can't stay obeying
am I afraid
to hear the words
the Priestess prays
and I'm devoured
yes I am leaving
but I've already been missing
longer that I prefer to say
yes I am leaving
I'm going I'm going
am I disdained
you go and
you fire me right away
giving way to something less special
holding on to what is not precious
you go
and you let go
hold on to nothing
but that's just you
it's just your way
and I drive
and I'm searching
but there's nothing here I care to save
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
I was waiting
I had
hey hey
I had a feeling
yeah I was waiting
hey hey
missing the meaning
passing all that they say
so I've been flaking
get on my knees
I get on my knees to pray
hey hey hey hey
one last chance
well I continue begging
I beg your pardon
yeah you are claiming
but hey hey hey
I've been here one time before
go on now
go on
go on
yeah just to claim your serving
hide that soul
that inner serpent
which claims your will
that keeps you hurting
one last chance
but it's just not working
nay nay nay hey
I can't I can't I can't
but to help obeying
have you heard all that
has this haunted here before
I can't I can't no I can't
but to stand
feel hate in
what once I waved that flag for
briefest meaning
oh well they do say
life's for breathing
expressions free wheeling
Hey hey hey hey
life without dreaming
one in the same
exist without reaching
struggle's the game
mmm
hold on to something
make it worth feeling
Hey hey hey hey
express your flower
spreading wings
to live in a moment
repeating that dreaming
again to reach
worth more than breathing
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
are you my
my one sweet lady
I cry
made up just like a baby
tonight
I sing my song
and scream and maybe
try to recognize
what I have seen
what's passed of me before
I swim
I sink
just like a stone
and it drives me
it makes me go crazy
just like a mime
standing within a silence
no not a word
no more
nay hey hey hey
briefly saying
what's passing on
mmm I do know
briefly praying
what is wrong
what's up
what is on my mind
hey hey hey
I don't want
please hey, no maybe
for I hold disdain
the same kind
we dreaded from before
inside of me
internally
you see
hey hey hey hey
please give power
inside of me
we empower
can't take no more
nay nay hey hey
maybe timid
intimidated
not weaker now
than I was before
a hidden strength
I know how to soar
yay yay hey hey
I hate
see my disdain
a greater power
than once showed
I won't crumble
threw crutch away
hey hey yay yay
you see
I've been
somewhere I can't explain
you see
not me
not the same as I was before
hey hey hey hey
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
morbid in it's own special little way
Light shines through, beams of desperation
begging to light the path of another day.
Heavy contemplation and endless fears
That total lack of knowledge
only to know anew is here
you take your steps
the steps you hate
hate to love
but sense the fate
for what will come
it won't last long
it tears your seams
it frustrates to the end
Luminous doorways waving
calling you in
with shadows engulfing
begging for sin
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
how they go
go and now sabotaging
makes me feel too low
makes me take a little more in
and
there's a feeling
it's back around so near again
sense a resurging
resurgance within
it tingles, it's here
it's under my skin
I can feel you now
criticizing
and I
feel it diving
feel it diving
say what you want
say what you will
its all indifferent
its nothing on me
I'll test upon my freewill
serpents may rise
providing a thrill
its all cheap
and
only provoking a slight chill
fell it turning
spinning right round
sense a resurging
resurgance within
it's here, it burns
it's under the skin
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
Good to see the recent stuff connecting with the old.......
Send my credentials to the house of detention
Can't just can't wait
for this feeling that I hate
providing me delivery
try try your will
does it still bring a little thrill
holding dear to the song
the won that tricks you all along
feel the beating in you heart
know nobody ever really won
escape
to bitter seasons of sun
we wait
for sensibility to come our way
deep hate
for everything that has become unfun
sacrificing all responsibility
can't just can't hate
when I'm slipping at the last of faith
does it make feel all better
to try try your will
does it still bring a little thrill
holding dear to the song
when inside you know its wrong
feel the beating in you heart
know nobody ever really won
equate
nothing seems to calculate
with fate
we need a method to translate
and faith
shivering through another season in the sun
sacrificing all responsibility
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
this piece is about Purgatory and a child's place within it. I have never wanted to divulge that for 2 reason. A – I thought it might hurt people to hear that, and if it does I do greatly apologize...believe me the very thought hurts me to...explained by B – a number of years ago I was with a girl who ended up losing a newborn. This was all obviously very painful...the rage, discontent, sadness, bitterness and gloom was rather all-consuming and was the single biggest factor in shaping the rest of my life (a close second was a bad car accident in which I had to hold a dying friend on the side of the road and ended up being the only survivor...i have posted that somewhere here before).
As I have mentioned before, I converted to Catholicism...and well, it was to be with this very girl. I was extremely lost and confused, and because I had just went through the process of converting, the teachings were very fresh in my mind (this particular priest was old school...made you study and what not to convert...the way it was historically supposed to be achieved). I turned to the priest to discuss the matter and confessed that I was confused what would happen to the child as they had never completed sacrament of reconciliation, and Catholic Doctrine stated that confession was a requirement for access to heaven. I said it did not make a lot of sense to me, because surely the child had never sinned, apart from the fact that it had never been afforded the opportunity to meet the conditions of God's grace. I asked if this would be considered a sin...more specifically I asked if it would be a mortal sin. He said that it would not be a Mortal Sin, but would 'obviously' be Venial. This sent me irate! I asked what that meant...the child had not practiced reconciliation, and had Venial Sins, so this would mean Purgatory....he agreed. So this meant that this innocent child would need to go to Purgatory for Temporal cleansing!
Now, Purgatory is a temporal plane somewhere between heaven and hell. Some souls go straight to Heaven (very few), some go straight to Hell (ei Mortal Sinners), and some are simply deemed to not yet be pure enough to pass through the pearly gates. They therefore go to Purgatory to be lashed free of their sins. This is an indeterminate amount of time...some may be there for eternity attempting to be cleansed, some a very brief stay...it is all dependent on the sins, quantity of and the soul's ability to truly repent.
So, this child had apparently never sinned greatly enough to go to Hell, but was not allowed access to Heaven...this leaves Purgatory for eternity. Now, oddly enough, in the past couple years the Catholic Church (Vatican) set forth to give better definition of Purgatory, but I am not sure if that redefinition was ever completed or released...I know I have not read it, and don't think I ever will.
Anyways, that is the really really really quick overview of where this all came from....thought I would break it all apart a bit now.
I denounce your temporal plane
--- I think Purgatory is bullshit /flawed / unjust
Transgressions and faults require at least one day
--- The sins that place one in Purgatory surely can not be acquired at birth, even though I do realise that technically confession must take place
I close eyes to the Unions ritual Decree
--- The ritual decree of Batism, Confrimation and Eucharist are requirements to gain God's grace...I call it a union, because there a few...so union = group
Why cant you just tell us all
That we should live free
--- just kind of saying you give us free will, even though we do not have it. Free will does not have conditions bound to it.
Don’t portray false messages
--- touching on the fact that his teachings tell us that if we don't sin and we stay pure that heaven awaits, that if we idolize Him and try to live in His all pure image that we get in...again, this is not free will...it is do as you are told or else.
From the unbirthed Ghost
--- unbirthed Ghost = Holy Ghost...it was never really “born” per say
Thoughts of Temporal lashings
Hurt the most
--- Purgatory is supposedly a Temporal plane of existence where transgressions are beaten and burned out of your soul
Evil lurks behind those pure eyes
--- God's is the purist form (viewing from behind pure eyes), and for aforementioned reasons, I see don't agree with Purgatory in its entirety...almost evil
Why repent sins against son of man
--- we are supposed to confess/repent our sins, venial sins are what need cleansing in Purgatory
While Spirit defaced throws away the lamb
--- It is like God feels smited because the sacraments were not done, and now he is going to toss away one of his children/lamb because of it. I also often envision/associate a lamb with babies/youth. I also kinda see God as viewing us as his sheep...his heard to follow him
Is this His discipline
Or a controlling façade
--- Is this really all him, or is it made up bs from someone trying to give depth to the faith. Purgatory, from what I have read, has only been a part of the Catholic doctrine for around 1000 years.
Eating bread
From sweat of brow
Do all before Him
Be condemned by God
--- Eucharist is like accesses to Catholic Christianity...it is viewed as “the” big sacrament so to speak...Holy Communion...2nd sacrament of the 7 (Baptism, Eucharist, Reconciliation, Confirmation, Marriage, Holy Orders/Ordination, Last Rites). Part of the Eucharist/Communion process that many are familiar with is the breaking and distribution of sacramental bread at the alter...the bread representing the resurrection of Christ, and the breaking and sharing of the bread symbolizes unity. So, back to the whole thing that if you don't partake in the sacraments, First Communion being but one of them, that God is condemning you...could be Hell, in this case Purgatory. Bread of course being from the last supper.
This might be
A mortal sin
Seems so venial
At best
Deep within
--- Mortal sins are sins that are severe, done knowingly and deliberately via the sinner...reference the 10 commandments...plus faith, hope and charity. “You shall have no other gods before me ”... the First Commandment...or maybe the third...”You shall not take the name of the Lord your God in vain, for the Lord will not hold him guiltless who takes His name in vain” my very words would be viewed as a Mortal Sin. By saying that they seem venial it is a shot a god, as venial sins are forgivable. So, it is trivializing my so called mortal sin. 'Seems so trivial, at best, deep within' is saying me denouncing you over Purgatory may be a mortal sin, but can you really blame me in this situation? Yeah, I know...it is a test...I am supposed to say it is a part of God's greater plan, that I am supposed to have blind faith in this situation and pray to him for guidance in this time of despair. Guess I failed Him and his test huh.
Free your body
Mind and soul
Drink the blood
Ass you grow old
--- the act of attending Mass and taking Communion/ Eucharist...just using that as a generalization that we are to continue worshiping Him and only Him to gain access (remember, not doing so is a Mortal sin...so don't take that chance boys and girls). I guess I see that you essentially freeing body, mind and soul via Eucharist and confession. You are cleansing your venial sins if you truly are repenting (saving some pain in Purgatory)...the blood is a representation of the wine at communion, which is a representation the wine from the last supper and also Jesus' blood (you know...the whole thing about Christ saying he is of pure vine (his soul is pure because he is one in the same...a piece...of god), he therefore turns water to wine because the bread and wine were made from a piece of him...so it transforms his body to bread and his blood transforms water to wine and he feasts with the disciples).
Before my living
Can commence
Holy Eucharist Sacrament
--- in other words be careful to do shit before you take communion
But when you kneel
And then repent
If you die you’ll stay above
--- and do it often because it will help you ass out in purgatory.
But without feast
Will He show His love
--- so basically if you don't take communion, and follow structured sacraments, the Catholic Church is saying God kinda looks at you as a lamb for the slaughtering. Many other religions state that you are to keep Him in your heart, and that showing up at the church is not always a requirement...that you can worship him from anywhere...I mean hey, the 4th commandment says to “Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy. Six days you shall labor and do all your work, but the seventh day is the Sabbath of the Lord your God. In it you shall do no work: you, nor your son, nor your daughter, nor your manservant, nor your maidservant, nor your cattle, nor your stranger who is within your gates. For in six days the Lord made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, and rested the seventh day. Therefore the Lord blessed the Sabbath day and hallowed it.” it says nothing about having to go to a church to for Eucharist...but you don't make money if the flock is not there now do you? The Catholic Church is, in my eyes, abusive of it authority on so many levels. I have no issues with religion per say, but follow the scripture you preach from.
I obviously have issues with the Catholic Church and its doctrines. I don't agree with their definition of most things, nor how they do little things like tricking you into having to come for communion to repent, just to get you in the door so to speak. I am all for the 5th commandment on, but the first 4...not how the Catholic Church spins them.
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?se ... ersion=GNT
Mark 10:13-16 (Good News Translation)
JESUS BLESSES LITTLE CHILDREN
Some people brought children to Jesus for him to place his hands on them, but the disciples scolded the people. When Jesus noticed this, he was angry and said to his disciples, "Let the children come to me, and do not stop them, because the Kingdom of God belongs to such as these. I assure you that whoever does not receive the Kingdom of God like a child will never enter it." Then he took the children in his arms, placed his hands on each of them, and blessed them.
P.S. You've had some really difficult things to deal with in your life. I am wishing you healing and happiness.
-pacifier
I believe in basic Christian fundamentals, but, when it comes down to it the only thing I really truly 100% believe in from the testaments is Matthew 7:12.
I actively follow no religion. I am one with science, and thus my religion is reasoning which can be substantiated.
I believe that inner peace comes from a self controlled balance and the ability to separate one's self from a situation and look at said situation through observers eyes. In other words, if you were a bystander seeing a given situation, how would you look upon it.
I believe that everything in life requires balance, just as in nature. If you build a house from wood, nature must be restored. If you hurt someone, you must make amends. If you see someone in need, extend a hand. If you see someone who over indulges (greed) do not idolize. Thus, I believe the world is out of balance in a negative manner...not saying it is a bad place, just out of balance. If someone does something terribly bad, balance can only be restored by someone doing something terribly good.
I believe wisdom comes from not only seeing you negatives, but balancing them. In doing so, your balance makes the world and the people around you better...more balanced.
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
Perhaps I should make it a Hallmark card
haha
I am glad to hear you liked it.
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key
really...hmmm....thanks
Probably obvious what it is about, but is about a man sitting at a hospital bed watching his wife passing, and praying/pleading to God to take him in her place...that he would swap places in a heartbeat...that he loves her so much that he would sacrifice everything if it could save her
And I won't make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes
(And function)
Function is the key