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  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    I'm so excited by this that I wanna write it here. We set up an English speaking meeting here 15 months ago with 4 of us... then there were 3... sometimes 2...

    I really thought it was running it's course but today we had 14 people (and two regulars were missing!). Our first time in double figures. The message is spreading and people want what we have. I'm so excited by the amount of strength in the room today.
    Sweet!! Keep it up!!
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    I posted this poem on the Poetry forum like several years ago.. but it's quite appropriate for here..
    This is called "360 Degrees"
    A life full of lies,
    A notion surreal,
    As I wind further down
    The bartender's reel.

    Secret ambitions,
    A malevolent scene,
    Buried in liquor,
    On a shot glass I lean.

    Party is dull,
    Need more Royal Crown,
    The night's never over,
    Til I hit the ground.

    Replacing my memories,
    With Jack D and Jim Beam,
    Tequila kills pain,
    As down it streams.

    Sordid convulsions,
    In bathrooms so "mod",
    Nothing new in bowing,
    To the porcelin God.

    Headache to kill me,
    To my hangover, succumb,
    I desperately search,
    For anything that numbs.

    Saved by a dollar,
    To the bar stumbles me,
    To find the hair of the dog,
    That always bites me.

    Money on counter,
    A shot; liquid sin,
    My vicious circle,
    Has begun once again.

    Drown all these sorrows,
    Take them from me,
    Real are my fears,
    And these nightmares I see.

    And so I pray..
    Now I pass out, worthless this sleep..
    Once I am out, may I never wake.
    Not much of my soul that's worthy to keep..
    But what little is left I pray God will take.

    Tree Tomsen
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,337
    just not feelin the love today. road trip meeting tonight. not sure how far. we'll see. Could be just what the doctor ordered. My mood is not fair to my S.O.


    Then theres this concert business. Was given the chance last minute. Dumbass that I am, said no. Couldnt jusify going into debt for this.Didnt seem wise to me. Still doesnt , but......... :twisted:

    Take a breath and chill out. Thats the advice I'm trying to take.
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    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    mickeyrat wrote:
    just not feelin the love today. road trip meeting tonight. not sure how far. we'll see. Could be just what the doctor ordered. My mood is not fair to my S.O.


    Then theres this concert business. Was given the chance last minute. Dumbass that I am, said no. Couldnt jusify going into debt for this.Didnt seem wise to me. Still doesnt , but......... :twisted:

    Take a breath and chill out. Thats the advice I'm trying to take.
    Have a great meeting and rock out to PJ on the way.. that'll make ANYONE feel better.. and you did the right thing now getting yourself into trouble..I seriously contemplated losing my job to go too.. but decided better against it..
  • 2 years.

    I never would have believed that such a thing was possible.

    Thanks to everyone on this thread.
    we're all going to the same place...
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,337
    2 years.

    I never would have believed that such a thing was possible.

    Thanks to everyone on this thread.
    My how time flies.

    Can you remember when?
    Think how far we've come these past two years.

    Wow. Just WOW.
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    2 years.

    I never would have believed that such a thing was possible.

    Thanks to everyone on this thread.
    Congrats!! I can't wait til then!! It's going on four months for me on Sept.13th.. So awesome you've made it so far!!JUST AWESOME!!
  • 2 years.

    I never would have believed that such a thing was possible.

    Thanks to everyone on this thread.


    Congratulations! That is wonderful! :mrgreen:
    Lots of love, light and hugs to you all!
  • i shit and i stink
    i shit and i stink Posts: 1,122
    edited September 2011
    Thanks for the kind words. I'm sure I've posted it a hundred times before but repeating the same old stories is par for the course in our world, isn't it?! :lol:

    I got into the 12 step program through this board. I was reading the posts of you good people here and I just felt that you all had something I wanted. I could identify on the level of being an addict but also that we were into the same music, etc. I thought "these people are just like me" and so I fired a PM to one of the members here and I've had 730 really great days since then. Two years ago I was a lousy father, now I'm adequate and on my good days I'm better than that. 2 years ago my business was looking at falling apart, now I'm in the process of buying a house knowing that it is healthy and will continue to be for a while. And a million other unquantifiable things have gotten better in my life. And that wouldn't have happened for me and those in my life if I hadn't read this thread. So, when I say "thanks" to you all, I'm not being facile, I mean it from the very core of my being.
    Post edited by i shit and i stink on
    we're all going to the same place...
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    Thanks for the kind words. I'm sure I've posted it a hundred times before but repeating the same old stories is par for the course in our world, isn't it?! :lol:

    I got into the 12 step program through this board. I was reading the posts of you good people here and I just felt that you all had something I wanted. I could identify on the level of being an addict but also that we were into the same music, etc. I thought "these people are just like me" and so I fired a PM to one of the members here and I've had 730 really great days since then. Two years ago I was a lousy father, now I'm adequate and on my good days I'm better than that. 2 years ago my business was looking at falling apart, now I'm in the process of buying a house knowing that it is healthy and will continue to be for a while. And a million other unquantifiable things have gotten better in my life. And that wouldn't have happened for me and those in my life if I hadn't read this thread. So, when I say "thanks" to you all, I'm not you being facile, I mean it from the very core of my being.
    So glad you made it brother!!!
  • Heatherj43
    Heatherj43 Posts: 1,254
    2 years.

    I never would have believed that such a thing was possible.

    Thanks to everyone on this thread.
    Wow, 2 years already!! I remember when you first started this process of recovery! Congrats...keep doin' what you're doin'!
    Save room for dessert!
  • The Dead used to have the Wharf Rats. Was a place all dead heads could meet and discuss recovery and enjoy a dead show at the same time. Addiction was tough being a dead head. Wouldn't even know where to start as a very new Pearl Jam Fan. I think it would be very cool to start.
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,337
    you guys have to watch this. hehehehhe

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cekj-P8 ... r_embedded
    _____________________________________SIGNATURE________________________________________________

    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • oona left
    oona left Posts: 1,677
    mickeyrat wrote:
    you guys have to watch this. hehehehhe

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cekj-P8 ... r_embedded

    :lol::lol::lol:

    Fantastic.
  • MAS
    MAS Posts: 630
    someone sweet just introduced me to this thread ;) , so I'd just like to give it a nice morning bump, and say hello.....
  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,337
    MAS wrote:
    someone sweet just introduced me to this thread ;) , so I'd just like to give it a nice morning bump, and say hello.....
    Nice!!!

    Welcome!!!

    The coffee's in your kitchen. Feel free to put your feet up on your coffee table. We dont mind. ;)
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    Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
    you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
    memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
    another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
  • oona left
    oona left Posts: 1,677
    mickeyrat wrote:
    MAS wrote:
    someone sweet just introduced me to this thread ;) , so I'd just like to give it a nice morning bump, and say hello.....
    Nice!!!

    Welcome!!!

    The coffee's in your kitchen. Feel free to put your feet up on your coffee table. We dont mind. ;)


    Yes, welcome!! The coffee here is actually better than what you'll find at most meetings because you make it yourself :lol:
  • Heatherj43
    Heatherj43 Posts: 1,254
    Okay I am back! 11 years clean, then a relapse for several years, and now I have over 90 days clean!!
    I went into treatment this time. The time I got 11 years clean I did it with just meetings.
    Wow...talk about things being right where you left off...or even worse. I ended up way worse than the first time around. I THOUGHT I hit a bottom that time. It was no where near where this relapse took me.Cunning, baffling and powerful!!
    Save room for dessert!
  • Fifthelement
    Fifthelement Lotusland Posts: 6,965
    Thanks for the kind words. I'm sure I've posted it a hundred times before but repeating the same old stories is par for the course in our world, isn't it?! :lol:

    I got into the 12 step program through this board. I was reading the posts of you good people here and I just felt that you all had something I wanted. I could identify on the level of being an addict but also that we were into the same music, etc. I thought "these people are just like me" and so I fired a PM to one of the members here and I've had 730 really great days since then. Two years ago I was a lousy father, now I'm adequate and on my good days I'm better than that. 2 years ago my business was looking at falling apart, now I'm in the process of buying a house knowing that it is healthy and will continue to be for a while. And a million other unquantifiable things have gotten better in my life. And that wouldn't have happened for me and those in my life if I hadn't read this thread. So, when I say "thanks" to you all, I'm not being facile, I mean it from the very core of my being.

    Congratulations and good job.
    "What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop
  • Fifthelement
    Fifthelement Lotusland Posts: 6,965
    Heatherj43 wrote:
    Okay I am back! 11 years clean, then a relapse for several years, and now I have over 90 days clean!!
    I went into treatment this time. The time I got 11 years clean I did it with just meetings.
    Wow...talk about things being right where you left off...or even worse. I ended up way worse than the first time around. I THOUGHT I hit a bottom that time. It was no where near where this relapse took me.Cunning, baffling and powerful!!

    Good for you too :D
    "What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop