PJ fans in 12 step Recovery
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i shit and i stink wrote:I'm so excited by this that I wanna write it here. We set up an English speaking meeting here 15 months ago with 4 of us... then there were 3... sometimes 2...
I really thought it was running it's course but today we had 14 people (and two regulars were missing!). Our first time in double figures. The message is spreading and people want what we have. I'm so excited by the amount of strength in the room today.0 -
I posted this poem on the Poetry forum like several years ago.. but it's quite appropriate for here..
This is called "360 Degrees"
A life full of lies,
A notion surreal,
As I wind further down
The bartender's reel.
Secret ambitions,
A malevolent scene,
Buried in liquor,
On a shot glass I lean.
Party is dull,
Need more Royal Crown,
The night's never over,
Til I hit the ground.
Replacing my memories,
With Jack D and Jim Beam,
Tequila kills pain,
As down it streams.
Sordid convulsions,
In bathrooms so "mod",
Nothing new in bowing,
To the porcelin God.
Headache to kill me,
To my hangover, succumb,
I desperately search,
For anything that numbs.
Saved by a dollar,
To the bar stumbles me,
To find the hair of the dog,
That always bites me.
Money on counter,
A shot; liquid sin,
My vicious circle,
Has begun once again.
Drown all these sorrows,
Take them from me,
Real are my fears,
And these nightmares I see.
And so I pray..
Now I pass out, worthless this sleep..
Once I am out, may I never wake.
Not much of my soul that's worthy to keep..
But what little is left I pray God will take.
Tree Tomsen0 -
just not feelin the love today. road trip meeting tonight. not sure how far. we'll see. Could be just what the doctor ordered. My mood is not fair to my S.O.
Then theres this concert business. Was given the chance last minute. Dumbass that I am, said no. Couldnt jusify going into debt for this.Didnt seem wise to me. Still doesnt , but......... :twisted:
Take a breath and chill out. Thats the advice I'm trying to take._____________________________________SIGNATURE________________________________________________
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mickeyrat wrote:just not feelin the love today. road trip meeting tonight. not sure how far. we'll see. Could be just what the doctor ordered. My mood is not fair to my S.O.
Then theres this concert business. Was given the chance last minute. Dumbass that I am, said no. Couldnt jusify going into debt for this.Didnt seem wise to me. Still doesnt , but......... :twisted:
Take a breath and chill out. Thats the advice I'm trying to take.0 -
2 years.
I never would have believed that such a thing was possible.
Thanks to everyone on this thread.we're all going to the same place...0 -
i shit and i stink wrote:2 years.
I never would have believed that such a thing was possible.
Thanks to everyone on this thread.
Can you remember when?
Think how far we've come these past two years.
Wow. Just WOW._____________________________________SIGNATURE________________________________________________
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '140 -
i shit and i stink wrote:2 years.
I never would have believed that such a thing was possible.
Thanks to everyone on this thread.0 -
i shit and i stink wrote:2 years.
I never would have believed that such a thing was possible.
Thanks to everyone on this thread.
Congratulations! That is wonderful!Lots of love, light and hugs to you all!0 -
Thanks for the kind words. I'm sure I've posted it a hundred times before but repeating the same old stories is par for the course in our world, isn't it?!
I got into the 12 step program through this board. I was reading the posts of you good people here and I just felt that you all had something I wanted. I could identify on the level of being an addict but also that we were into the same music, etc. I thought "these people are just like me" and so I fired a PM to one of the members here and I've had 730 really great days since then. Two years ago I was a lousy father, now I'm adequate and on my good days I'm better than that. 2 years ago my business was looking at falling apart, now I'm in the process of buying a house knowing that it is healthy and will continue to be for a while. And a million other unquantifiable things have gotten better in my life. And that wouldn't have happened for me and those in my life if I hadn't read this thread. So, when I say "thanks" to you all, I'm not being facile, I mean it from the very core of my being.Post edited by i shit and i stink onwe're all going to the same place...0 -
i shit and i stink wrote:Thanks for the kind words. I'm sure I've posted it a hundred times before but repeating the same old stories is par for the course in our world, isn't it?!
I got into the 12 step program through this board. I was reading the posts of you good people here and I just felt that you all had something I wanted. I could identify on the level of being an addict but also that we were into the same music, etc. I thought "these people are just like me" and so I fired a PM to one of the members here and I've had 730 really great days since then. Two years ago I was a lousy father, now I'm adequate and on my good days I'm better than that. 2 years ago my business was looking at falling apart, now I'm in the process of buying a house knowing that it is healthy and will continue to be for a while. And a million other unquantifiable things have gotten better in my life. And that wouldn't have happened for me and those in my life if I hadn't read this thread. So, when I say "thanks" to you all, I'm not you being facile, I mean it from the very core of my being.0 -
i shit and i stink wrote:2 years.
I never would have believed that such a thing was possible.
Thanks to everyone on this thread.Save room for dessert!0 -
The Dead used to have the Wharf Rats. Was a place all dead heads could meet and discuss recovery and enjoy a dead show at the same time. Addiction was tough being a dead head. Wouldn't even know where to start as a very new Pearl Jam Fan. I think it would be very cool to start.0
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Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '140 -
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someone sweet just introduced me to this thread
, so I'd just like to give it a nice morning bump, and say hello.....
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MAS wrote:someone sweet just introduced me to this thread
, so I'd just like to give it a nice morning bump, and say hello.....
Welcome!!!
The coffee's in your kitchen. Feel free to put your feet up on your coffee table. We dont mind._____________________________________SIGNATURE________________________________________________
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '140 -
mickeyrat wrote:MAS wrote:someone sweet just introduced me to this thread
, so I'd just like to give it a nice morning bump, and say hello.....
Welcome!!!
The coffee's in your kitchen. Feel free to put your feet up on your coffee table. We dont mind.
Yes, welcome!! The coffee here is actually better than what you'll find at most meetings because you make it yourself0 -
Okay I am back! 11 years clean, then a relapse for several years, and now I have over 90 days clean!!
I went into treatment this time. The time I got 11 years clean I did it with just meetings.
Wow...talk about things being right where you left off...or even worse. I ended up way worse than the first time around. I THOUGHT I hit a bottom that time. It was no where near where this relapse took me.Cunning, baffling and powerful!!Save room for dessert!0 -
i shit and i stink wrote:Thanks for the kind words. I'm sure I've posted it a hundred times before but repeating the same old stories is par for the course in our world, isn't it?!
I got into the 12 step program through this board. I was reading the posts of you good people here and I just felt that you all had something I wanted. I could identify on the level of being an addict but also that we were into the same music, etc. I thought "these people are just like me" and so I fired a PM to one of the members here and I've had 730 really great days since then. Two years ago I was a lousy father, now I'm adequate and on my good days I'm better than that. 2 years ago my business was looking at falling apart, now I'm in the process of buying a house knowing that it is healthy and will continue to be for a while. And a million other unquantifiable things have gotten better in my life. And that wouldn't have happened for me and those in my life if I hadn't read this thread. So, when I say "thanks" to you all, I'm not being facile, I mean it from the very core of my being.
Congratulations and good job."What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0 -
Heatherj43 wrote:Okay I am back! 11 years clean, then a relapse for several years, and now I have over 90 days clean!!
I went into treatment this time. The time I got 11 years clean I did it with just meetings.
Wow...talk about things being right where you left off...or even worse. I ended up way worse than the first time around. I THOUGHT I hit a bottom that time. It was no where near where this relapse took me.Cunning, baffling and powerful!!
Good for you too"What the CANUCK happened?!? - Esquimalt Barber Shop0
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