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I have always held this fear
Of loosing all that I hold dear
Watching for that mournful day
When everything just slips away
Not to see my joys again
Loosing all right from my hands

I spend my time
I will defend
I will not submit
Fight out to the bitter end
I search for answers
I look within
I pray to him
This is not an equal fight
This is fixed, I can not win
This is not an equal fight
How can a defeat the Beasts within

I feel so cold
Bitter numb inside
I take my joys
Plead for them to hide
They stand by close
They too hold me dear
I wish they'd run,
I want them near
Having them so close..
Plays into my ultimate fear

#X. wrote:

I looked temporal up in the dictionary, good word!
Curious of pure eyes, who? #X.

thanks...I imagine there are a few definitions for temporal huh? I meant in in a biblical sense...that may be a bit harder to find an easy definition to than one first thinks



as for 'pure eyes,' it also is a biblical reference. It is used several times(like 4 or 5 that I can think of) in the new testament, and several in the old testaments and a few other doctrines. I don't recall the passages, but Jobs has a few I believe. Habakkuk 1:13 I definitely recall...and I believe Proverbs has a mention of it to. Its really all over in the writings. Perhaps not exactly as "pure eyes", but the more I think about it there are at least 15 or 20 mentioning that come to mind!

Wow, i am just doing some flipping and yeah...Proverbs, Psalms...it really is used a lot.

There are 2 basic trees of how it is used...how one views himself in God's eyes (basically one's own opinion of himself and how he/she believes God will view them), and how He views things...Now, the one wishes to keep 'their doctrines pure in His eyes,' obviously, but as close to His words that one may travel, no one is is ever as pure as He/God. So when he looks down upon us in judgment, he looks through 'pure eyes;' He is essentially the standard (an unmatchable one at that...but I ain't even gunna touch the whole persecution / crucification thing now...thats a whole thing in itself). In other words, when God passed his word down to others to spread (bible), he stated that He is pure, He is righteous, His way is correct, etc. Now, keep in mind that one of our primary functions as a part of His creation is essentially to idolize him. God gave us life and in return we are to follow Him and His word. So, when one passes, His final judgment is based on how one followed the aforementioned.

That is the REALLY short version of it...it goes way beyond that though. Soo...'pure eyes' is basically His view on things in this piece.


back to 'temporal lashings'...if you can figure out the meaning of that, I believe that the whole writing will fall into place. It should make you view the whole thing in a WAY different manner.

hope some of those ramblings made sense!

Oh all of this frustration
Sinking in to find a home
Think of new litigations
Ways to set thing right
Search in my soul
Maybe find a way to breathe new life

Wave my fist to almighty heavens
Wave in anger and mystification
Uncertainty is a bitter plight

So maybe it a validation
That I really seek tonight
Not just a case of vindication
Nor urge to split wrong and right
Maybe a new creation
Generation of a clearer sight

Wave my fist to almighty heavens
Wave in anger and mystification
Uncertainty is a bitter plight

Atermoyer




Feelings that melt inside me
Leave me numb
Rethinking over and over
Life is mine
I can’t get hold of
Can’t see
Outside my shadows
Can’t feel
It will roll me over

Pray through
An empty window
Skewed view
Of what’s not to follow
Live through
Pain of indecision
Go through
Not on singular motion
Lacklustre
And lack of devotion

deadnote wrote:

you just cant leave your kids behind

anyone who preaches that is just way confused

a book or your spirit

but now I am confused

look
take a glance
sense just what we can see
to touch the hands that reach for me
outstretched
here for some comforting

we've got this plight
a righteous feel
and when it hurts this much
that's our appeal
to hold on tight
and not let go
I cleanse myself
within the lives he doesn't hold
and I take my place
to beat the lines

See
there's never a point in comforting
handing out what people want
holding back on what the really need
tides of change might take suffering
the price we pay
do we really seek point B to be

can't stand this site
sight so hard to see
so I take my steps
and I beg to feel
need something to hold
and if it hurts too much
then I must reveal
don't want your grace
hey i might concede
I'm not here for comforting
I don't need your comforting
I don't seek your comforting

Stopping to see a view
bewildered
a little bit more confused
stopping to set self renewed
so humbled
left bitter, battered and bruised
fall from the mountain top
back to you pedestal

so enter the fire
lord
so so much higher
no
I can show me
can you show you
I can reveal
and revel in another to
can you ponder
can you believe
have you searched
I have low to high
no
I see nothing to

in this dim light
bleaching moonlight
stars have crumbled
leaving a crimsoned view
in this dim light
the crest is broken
leaving dankened
promising vigor renewed

sever your ties
lust of promise
to find yourself fulfilled
so much for freewill
unto whom's accord
surrender passions
they lead to confusion
feed that monster
suppressing that's good

Really hurt myself this time
I climbed up high
Oh how I hit the ground
Passing forth in misconceiving games
To stand my place
Love to use the cheating plays

This it seems
The only way
To try so hard
To meet the grave
This it seems
The way it’s played
To face the world
Crumble in your own way

To step the steps that it might take
Go seek the way
Seek your own way out
Seems to me some grand design
I failed again
What’s one more time
I’ll disconnect
I will recline

This it seems
The only way
To try so hard
To meet the grave
This it seems
The way it’s played
To face the world
Crumble in your own way