We all make mistakes, it's our fault each of us, admitting that is half the battle. The other half is forgiving ourselves.
Rest your heart Mikalina it is a true heart
....
and to get laid again...and again ....oh and i hope your ex gets crabs...and herpes....and a broken heart :twisted:
yessss!~ and THAT,...and that..and that...and again :thumbup: :wave: :think: :crazy:
you got it
crabs, herpes, AND a broken heart...that's not hardly good enough for the louse
how about beaten, robbed, and lied to by someone he loves
getting closer
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
losses all his friends his job....becomes erectile disfuctional and gets acne...oh and a strange dog pees on his leg
hahhaaaaaaaa....that's good for starters
i'm not bitter or anything....
really, i'm not (seriously)
i really don't care one way or another what happens to him and i don't want to know anything about him
he's an arse
but he DOES deserve whatever karma comes his way for the way he treated his children more than how he treated me
He has already lost the respect, and I guess even the love of his children...that would kill me if it was me....but he just doesn't seem to care at all. Personally, I can't imagine a worse punishment than that.
Instead of trying to have some sort of dialogue, apologize to them or whatever, he just cut off all contact with them, turned off the cell phone he was still paying for our youngest...and poof!
Moved in with another woman. (There's a long story here...suffice it to say that he was leading a double life right under our noses.....) :shock:
You might ask how could I (all of us really) not know....well, it's complicated...he was away a LOT for work...and I had a lot of trust. I'm not an idiot. Not a stupid person at all. But I guess I trust naively. I used to think trust was a good thing. I guess that's probably royally screwed up for a while yet. But maybe not.I try not to carry baggage...not to become one of those women that's damaged goods. I try to see people for what they are...and see the good in everyone and everything...but it sneaks up on you...ya know?
hahahaaaa...and come to think of it, the dog probably wouldn't even WANT to pee on his leg either. :roll: he'd have to get too close in order to do that.
Well....geez....why don't i just tell the whole world my problems, eh? Geez...oh well, I'm gonna post it anyway.
Thanks for listening Dan, Dan, my Blenderman
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
stay focused and stay strong my friend....never loose your faith in people or yourself....just keep your eyes open...love goggles are like beer goggels take them off and you say..what the fuck was i thinking :?
stay focused and stay strong my friend....never loose your faith in people or yourself....just keep your eyes open...love goggles are like beer goggels take them off and you say..what the fuck was i thinking :?
ya right?
wtf WAS i thinking?
god only knows...if even
Thanks Dan..you're a good friend
xoxoxoxoxo
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
don't you ever get tired from all the dick dancing you do?
??
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
don't you ever get tired from all the dick dancing you do?
??
you're just fine.
was just an instant thought....not at all meant towards you
well that's good because i hate when I'm doing something and i don't know that I'm doing it
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
how about just forgive and move forward with your life and enjoy it as it unfolds.
Godfather.
If you're referring to me..Godfather..?
I'm assuming here...and you know what that means,
BUT...if you're referring to me,
THAT is exactly what I'm doing.
As I said in my long, long, long rambling (as usual) post,
I don't know, don't care, don't want to know, what goes on now
I'm feeling freer than I have in over 20 years
I just feel really really really horribly bad for my kids
And I hope they come through with flying colors
It's not about the woman, or even the double life thingy, its about Trust
And also about how they were treated
I'm past it, but I'm also not his child
It's them I feel for
Hope you understand
That being said...I am Sooooooooooooooooo excited to be resuming my life
getting back to being able to be the real me
or even better, the new and improved ME
Thanks for the advice Godfather
(if you were talking to me that is...hahahaaaaa)
If not...well, it's great advice just the same
Peace
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
what was i thinking
i knew i would never remember
dreaming..waking...tomorrow
its gone...gone away
fans and sleeping babies
drinking in whole bowls
starving excuses
inexcusable objectives sold
profit tables turned
continue to work the scars
war wounds emaciated
discharged attractive conditions
exhausting any chance of surviving
nothing's changed
bone dry compliance
no water for years now
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
oh to breathe
to spread my arms
and fly free
never matter
why or where
as long as
i can just
be
me
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
confessions
do you know what you're up against
way too long
every effort is made for comfort
while we remove
its a delicate
and painful procedure
not in this lifetime
the true extent now seen
undermined the hard
part of the soul
the life force
deep inside the soul
walking a thousand years
any chance of surviving?
finally the opening statement
one of cruelty or abandonment?
close down the greeters
the evidence
an immensely powerful animal
delivers the conviction
who's to blame for that?
endured for so long
the bowl has deteriorated
keep your distance
it could be dangerous
make your way there now
swollen more than seized
you can go now
you're excused
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
sign up for this world
its unlimited you know
gently encouraged to leave
i can only imagine the pain
but do you know
what you're fighting for
we're not here
because we're weak of heart
severely damaged
a bleak picture
difficult to watch
obviously in extreme pain
a whole new soul
growing up under the need
shouldn't be able to do this
this is going off as well
here we are to correct this
or stuff that aside
is it worth it?
an uncertain future
save the dogs if you could
one of the lucky ones
more will be revealed
given another chance
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
the surviving
place their bets
for a happy future
protection
give me both
a dog's life
a whole new episode
for the rest
what about a
compromise
a prime candidate
a little hope
for the first time through
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
don't you ever get tired from all the dick dancing you do?
??
you're just fine.
was just an instant thought....not at all meant towards you
OH and prism....that is a gorgeous photo
absolutely beautiful out there!
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
im wondering
im waiting
im dying,
as usual
deep inside
not sure i can live with you
definitely know i cant live without
but still that doesnt stop
you coming and going
with self centred impunity
im wondering
im waiting
definitely knowing
im waiting
for the end
again.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
im wondering
im waiting
im dying,
as usual
deep inside
not sure i can live with you
definitely know i cant live without
but still that doesnt stop
you coming and going
with self centred impunity
im wondering
im waiting
definitely knowing
im waiting
for the end
again.
stay strong
it's never easy
love gets in the way
good vibes and all good things coming your way
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
im wondering
im waiting
im dying,
as usual
deep inside
not sure i can live with you
definitely know i cant live without
but still that doesnt stop
you coming and going
with self centred impunity
im wondering
im waiting
definitely knowing
im waiting
for the end
again.
stay strong
it's never easy
love gets in the way
good vibes and all good things coming your way
you know i could have marky mark flexing in front me wishing me all the good vibes in the world and still it wouldnt be enough.
hear my name
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
im wondering
im waiting
im dying,
as usual
deep inside
not sure i can live with you
definitely know i cant live without
but still that doesnt stop
you coming and going
with self centred impunity
im wondering
im waiting
definitely knowing
im waiting
for the end
again.
stay strong
it's never easy
love gets in the way
good vibes and all good things coming your way
you know i could have marky mark flexing in front me wishing me all the good vibes in the world and still it wouldnt be enough.
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
Comments
+1
Godfather.
want to be enlightened"
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
i'm not bitter or anything....
really, i'm not (seriously)
i really don't care one way or another what happens to him and i don't want to know anything about him
he's an arse
but he DOES deserve whatever karma comes his way for the way he treated his children more than how he treated me
He has already lost the respect, and I guess even the love of his children...that would kill me if it was me....but he just doesn't seem to care at all. Personally, I can't imagine a worse punishment than that.
Instead of trying to have some sort of dialogue, apologize to them or whatever, he just cut off all contact with them, turned off the cell phone he was still paying for our youngest...and poof!
Moved in with another woman. (There's a long story here...suffice it to say that he was leading a double life right under our noses.....) :shock:
You might ask how could I (all of us really) not know....well, it's complicated...he was away a LOT for work...and I had a lot of trust. I'm not an idiot. Not a stupid person at all. But I guess I trust naively. I used to think trust was a good thing. I guess that's probably royally screwed up for a while yet. But maybe not.I try not to carry baggage...not to become one of those women that's damaged goods. I try to see people for what they are...and see the good in everyone and everything...but it sneaks up on you...ya know?
hahahaaaa...and come to think of it, the dog probably wouldn't even WANT to pee on his leg either. :roll: he'd have to get too close in order to do that.
Well....geez....why don't i just tell the whole world my problems, eh? Geez...oh well, I'm gonna post it anyway.
Thanks for listening Dan, Dan, my Blenderman
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
wtf WAS i thinking?
god only knows...if even
Thanks Dan..you're a good friend
xoxoxoxoxo
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
angels share laughter
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
you're just fine.
was just an instant thought....not at all meant towards you
angels share laughter
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
hahaha...too funny
the dick dancer knows just what i mean...
actually him pretending not to understand, is just a part of his routine dick dancing routine
angels share laughter
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Godfather.
If you're referring to me..Godfather..?
I'm assuming here...and you know what that means,
BUT...if you're referring to me,
THAT is exactly what I'm doing.
As I said in my long, long, long rambling (as usual) post,
I don't know, don't care, don't want to know, what goes on now
I'm feeling freer than I have in over 20 years
I just feel really really really horribly bad for my kids
And I hope they come through with flying colors
It's not about the woman, or even the double life thingy, its about Trust
And also about how they were treated
I'm past it, but I'm also not his child
It's them I feel for
Hope you understand
That being said...I am Sooooooooooooooooo excited to be resuming my life
getting back to being able to be the real me
or even better, the new and improved ME
Thanks for the advice Godfather
(if you were talking to me that is...hahahaaaaa)
If not...well, it's great advice just the same
Peace
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
i knew i would never remember
dreaming..waking...tomorrow
its gone...gone away
fans and sleeping babies
drinking in whole bowls
starving excuses
inexcusable objectives sold
profit tables turned
continue to work the scars
war wounds emaciated
discharged attractive conditions
exhausting any chance of surviving
nothing's changed
bone dry compliance
no water for years now
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
to spread my arms
and fly free
never matter
why or where
as long as
i can just
be
me
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
do you know what you're up against
way too long
every effort is made for comfort
while we remove
its a delicate
and painful procedure
not in this lifetime
the true extent now seen
undermined the hard
part of the soul
the life force
deep inside the soul
walking a thousand years
any chance of surviving?
finally the opening statement
one of cruelty or abandonment?
close down the greeters
the evidence
an immensely powerful animal
delivers the conviction
who's to blame for that?
endured for so long
the bowl has deteriorated
keep your distance
it could be dangerous
make your way there now
swollen more than seized
you can go now
you're excused
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
its unlimited you know
gently encouraged to leave
i can only imagine the pain
but do you know
what you're fighting for
we're not here
because we're weak of heart
severely damaged
a bleak picture
difficult to watch
obviously in extreme pain
a whole new soul
growing up under the need
shouldn't be able to do this
this is going off as well
here we are to correct this
or stuff that aside
is it worth it?
an uncertain future
save the dogs if you could
one of the lucky ones
more will be revealed
given another chance
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
place their bets
for a happy future
protection
give me both
a dog's life
a whole new episode
for the rest
what about a
compromise
a prime candidate
a little hope
for the first time through
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
OH and prism....that is a gorgeous photo
absolutely beautiful out there!
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
How very true, it's best to forgive and then move on.... good words.
I'm good at forgiving,... I can do it almost instantly. Its the forgetting that I have trouble with.
"To question your government is not unpatriotic --
to not question your government is unpatriotic."
-- Sen. Chuck Hagel
I need to remember to have patience too.
want to be enlightened"
im waiting
im dying,
as usual
deep inside
not sure i can live with you
definitely know i cant live without
but still that doesnt stop
you coming and going
with self centred impunity
im wondering
im waiting
definitely knowing
im waiting
for the end
again.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
stay strong
it's never easy
love gets in the way
good vibes and all good things coming your way
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
you know i could have marky mark flexing in front me wishing me all the good vibes in the world and still it wouldnt be enough.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~