Cancer, and me.

hedonist

Yeah, it ain’t easy, tempo!

My first treatment was ho-hum; much like chemo in that they take blood/run labs prior, then an IV for half an hour. So far no effects!

hedonist

And I hear you on avoiding bad news. It’s best for some folks, for whatever reason. 

Hell, my own stepfather is a huge asshole, but even he couldn’t muster the balls to acknowledge it. It’s good, in a way — lets me know who not to waste time or energy on. 

GlowGirl

hedonist said:

Yeah, it ain’t easy, tempo!

My first treatment was ho-hum; much like chemo in that they take blood/run labs prior, then an IV for half an hour. So far no effects!

I am glad there are no bad effects. Let’s hope it stays that way and there will only be good effects of this treatment - such as kicking cancer’s ass. 

hedonist

GlowGirl said:

hedonist said:

Yeah, it ain’t easy, tempo!

My first treatment was ho-hum; much like chemo in that they take blood/run labs prior, then an IV for half an hour. So far no effects!

I am glad there are no bad effects. Let’s hope it stays that way and there will only be good effects of this treatment - such as kicking cancer’s ass. 

I sure as hell hope so, though my understanding is that the treatment is more to prolong my life vs eradicating the cancer itself. Fucker’s inoperable! Just gotta make the most of, well…everything 🙂

(They say side effects typically kick in after a couple months so we’ll see by my next session!)

tempo_n_groove

hedonist said:

GlowGirl said:

hedonist said:

Yeah, it ain’t easy, tempo!

My first treatment was ho-hum; much like chemo in that they take blood/run labs prior, then an IV for half an hour. So far no effects!

I am glad there are no bad effects. Let’s hope it stays that way and there will only be good effects of this treatment - such as kicking cancer’s ass. 

I sure as hell hope so, though my understanding is that the treatment is more to prolong my life vs eradicating the cancer itself. Fucker’s inoperable! Just gotta make the most of, well…everything 🙂

(They say side effects typically kick in after a couple months so we’ll see by my next session!)

Maybe you'll be a ball of joy from it? /S  Sarcastic, lol?!?

I want to say that your strength in this is something else and I applaud that.

hedonist

tempo_n_groove said:

hedonist said:

GlowGirl said:

hedonist said:

Yeah, it ain’t easy, tempo!

My first treatment was ho-hum; much like chemo in that they take blood/run labs prior, then an IV for half an hour. So far no effects!

I am glad there are no bad effects. Let’s hope it stays that way and there will only be good effects of this treatment - such as kicking cancer’s ass. 

I sure as hell hope so, though my understanding is that the treatment is more to prolong my life vs eradicating the cancer itself. Fucker’s inoperable! Just gotta make the most of, well…everything 🙂

(They say side effects typically kick in after a couple months so we’ll see by my next session!)

Maybe you'll be a ball of joy from it? /S  Sarcastic, lol?!?

I want to say that your strength in this is something else and I applaud that.

Ha. I’ve definitely had my moments and I’m sure many will follow.  But, I’ve been mindful of keeping it mostly to myself.

Once I’m really at death’s door I may be wailing a different tune 😂

josevolution

hedonist said:

tempo_n_groove said:

hedonist said:

GlowGirl said:

hedonist said:

Yeah, it ain’t easy, tempo!

My first treatment was ho-hum; much like chemo in that they take blood/run labs prior, then an IV for half an hour. So far no effects!

I am glad there are no bad effects. Let’s hope it stays that way and there will only be good effects of this treatment - such as kicking cancer’s ass. 

I sure as hell hope so, though my understanding is that the treatment is more to prolong my life vs eradicating the cancer itself. Fucker’s inoperable! Just gotta make the most of, well…everything 🙂

(They say side effects typically kick in after a couple months so we’ll see by my next session!)

Maybe you'll be a ball of joy from it? /S  Sarcastic, lol?!?

I want to say that your strength in this is something else and I applaud that.

Ha. I’ve definitely had my moments and I’m sure many will follow.  But, I’ve been mindful of keeping it mostly to myself.

Once I’m really at death’s door I may be wailing a different tune 😂

Oh my dear friend I can say you are truly courageous and know you can always reach out to me, I’ll be praying to the skies for better days for you! 🥲

hedonist

josevolution said:

hedonist said:

tempo_n_groove said:

hedonist said:

GlowGirl said:

hedonist said:

Yeah, it ain’t easy, tempo!

My first treatment was ho-hum; much like chemo in that they take blood/run labs prior, then an IV for half an hour. So far no effects!

I am glad there are no bad effects. Let’s hope it stays that way and there will only be good effects of this treatment - such as kicking cancer’s ass. 

I sure as hell hope so, though my understanding is that the treatment is more to prolong my life vs eradicating the cancer itself. Fucker’s inoperable! Just gotta make the most of, well…everything 🙂

(They say side effects typically kick in after a couple months so we’ll see by my next session!)

Maybe you'll be a ball of joy from it? /S  Sarcastic, lol?!?

I want to say that your strength in this is something else and I applaud that.

Ha. I’ve definitely had my moments and I’m sure many will follow.  But, I’ve been mindful of keeping it mostly to myself.

Once I’m really at death’s door I may be wailing a different tune 😂

Oh my dear friend I can say you are truly courageous and know you can always reach out to me, I’ll be praying to the skies for better days for you! 🥲

jose, thank you, bud 😘

hedonist

Has anyone done an advanced health care form? I’m finding it to be fairly daunting.

It also reminds me of that Seinfeld when Kramer has to decide if they should do lifesaving procedures on him or *BAM* just pull the plug 😛

mickeyrat

hedonist said:

Has anyone done an advanced health care form? I’m finding it to be fairly daunting.

It also reminds me of that Seinfeld when Kramer has to decide if they should do lifesaving procedures on him or *BAM* just pull the plug 😛

save the answers somehow for future, if needed...

hedonist

mickeyrat said:

hedonist said:

Has anyone done an advanced health care form? I’m finding it to be fairly daunting.

It also reminds me of that Seinfeld when Kramer has to decide if they should do lifesaving procedures on him or *BAM* just pull the plug 😛

save the answers somehow for future, if needed...

That’s what it’ll be used for — down the road and hopefully not for a while! But I need to have that all in place anyway, not just due to the cancer but also the possibility of my AVM (brain vein fuckup) deciding to get busy. 

Or, life just being life, in all its magnificence and unfairness  

mickeyrat

hedonist said:

mickeyrat said:

hedonist said:

Has anyone done an advanced health care form? I’m finding it to be fairly daunting.

It also reminds me of that Seinfeld when Kramer has to decide if they should do lifesaving procedures on him or *BAM* just pull the plug 😛

save the answers somehow for future, if needed...

That’s what it’ll be used for — down the road and hopefully not for a while! But I need to have that all in place anyway, not just due to the cancer but also the possibility of my AVM (brain vein fuckup) deciding to get busy. 

Or, life just being life, in all its magnificence and unfairness  

chaotic adventure you mean?

hedonist

That’s life, right? 😛

Renfield

Hedo- I’ve been avoiding this thread since the beginning… Most of the time the topic frightens the crap out of me. November will be 21 years for me.

Reading through the thread tonight… my apologies for not reaching out sooner.  My heart aches for you, I hope this therapy is favorable and gives you continued hope.xxx Carol

hedonist

Renfield said:

Hedo- I’ve been avoiding this thread since the beginning… Most of the time the topic frightens the crap out of me. November will be 21 years for me.

Reading through the thread tonight… my apologies for not reaching out sooner.  My heart aches for you, I hope this therapy is favorable and gives you continued hope.xxx Carol

Carol, thank you so much. And 21 years! I hope to achieve even a portion of that.

PS — I understand the avoidance; done it myself so absolutely no need to apologize. Continued good health to you  

OffSheGoes35

It's a really brave thing you're doing sharing your experiences with us, hedo. Hopefully, we can all learn to open up about this, because cancer is scary to us all, unless we're in complete denial.

I'll admit the post about the advanced health care form made me pause. I was writing responses and backspacing like crazy. Is it something you would rather work through with another person or would you rather do it by yourself?

hedonist

I’m happy to go through it with another person. I’ve been getting guidance from my cousin, who’s riddled with cancer (does that fucker leave anyone alone?) and has done this form.

And really, I’m happy to answer or talk about anything related to this. Other perspectives help and maybe it’ll lessen the fear a bit for someone else.

It’s really empowering to face a fear head-on. It has been for me, anyway. Maybe because I lived a life of avoidance and it was SO burdensome. That’s a valuable thing that has come out of all this…freedom  

mickeyrat

hedonist said:

I’m happy to go through it with another person. I’ve been getting guidance from my cousin, who’s riddled with cancer (does that fucker leave anyone alone?) and has done this form.

And really, I’m happy to answer or talk about anything related to this. Other perspectives help and maybe it’ll lessen the fear a bit for someone else.

It’s really empowering to face a fear head-on. It has been for me, anyway. Maybe because I lived a life of avoidance and it was SO burdensome. That’s a valuable thing that has come out of all this…freedom  

no shit....... burdensome is inadequate imo to descibe that

Spunkie

Happy thoughts of you and your kind sweetnesses! Hugs with love.

hedonist

tish said:

Happy thoughts of you and your kind sweetnesses! Hugs with love.

Thanks, tish ♥️