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shits getting real around here

chadwickchadwick up my ass Posts: 21,157
edited June 2014 in All Encompassing Trip
yep fuck

pretty intense stuff going on around here. sometimes, (like yesterday & the recent yesterdays before yesterday) sometimes words escape me

sometime soon their will be an annoucement

http://youtu.be/_tXqCLR-lpM
















































................................................................ soon

look at this like swimming... calmness (be this)
sometimes all the time, every single cell in my being is on fire that builds into a tornado
i ask myself all the time, "how am i controlling this explosion"
fuck!
pace the house
writing saves me also
she herself saves me most

she herself saves me
this is nice
calming
& so i'm an asshole who has been tortured
i just want soft

just soft

an angel is mine
don't know how she found me
complete & utter darkness is not blackness
it gets alot deeper
more blank
the absence of self
care is a mystery

blood flows
oceans climb up
wakes bones for pain's drum
time is killing myself
spinning out of order

here she comes
a dandelion against grass
yellow so nice says the sun
just her now
i believe him & myself
faith is her footprints that i have in her
it's easy like this


http://youtu.be/7cGkp-twtm4

explain to me: engagement, wedded bliss, better 1/2, common law, tie knots, hitched up, bananas, homemade kites angels find, ADD/ADHD fuck, $$$, daydreaming, hair dryers & the constant hammering feeling & thoughts that beg to claw one's mind to pieces & war

& she just sits there nicely
doing her thing
just soft

(you will have a meeting today)
the angel invasion spoke






for poetry through the ceiling. ISBN: 1 4241 8840 7

"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
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    rollingsrollings unknown Posts: 7,124
    image
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    chadwickchadwick up my ass Posts: 21,157
    uh... no
    please not the frickin hair dryer
    not my favorite device in the world
    for poetry through the ceiling. ISBN: 1 4241 8840 7

    "Hear me, my chiefs!
    I am tired; my heart is
    sick and sad. From where
    the sun stands I will fight
    no more forever."
    Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
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    rollingsrollings unknown Posts: 7,124
    http://community.pearljam.com/discussion/comment/4846345#Comment_4846345
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    rollingsrollings unknown Posts: 7,124
    That's really a phone
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    chadwickchadwick up my ass Posts: 21,157
    if i tell you i will be swimming w/ a cinder block this morning, i will be swimming w/ a fucking cinder block this morning. i will do this until the cinder block kills me or i tear it apart.

    thank you for giving me stronger willpower.

    i am also being good & not with any women
    for poetry through the ceiling. ISBN: 1 4241 8840 7

    "Hear me, my chiefs!
    I am tired; my heart is
    sick and sad. From where
    the sun stands I will fight
    no more forever."
    Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
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    AnnafalkAnnafalk Sweden Posts: 4,004
    How are you Chadwick ?
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    chadwickchadwick up my ass Posts: 21,157
    pretty wonderful even when shitty
    how are you, annafalk?

    for poetry through the ceiling. ISBN: 1 4241 8840 7

    "Hear me, my chiefs!
    I am tired; my heart is
    sick and sad. From where
    the sun stands I will fight
    no more forever."
    Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
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    chadwickchadwick up my ass Posts: 21,157
    edited June 2014
    so let's just pretend i'm getting married someday

    is this ok???
    http://youtu.be/ITtmwRrD1es

    i'm close to this but messier
    shirts are trashed
    often i have to put up a cloth napkin into my shirt neck or the shirt im wearing is fucked
    the table is fucked
    the floor is not nice anymore

    ?why me

    so let's just pretend its, what, i don't know,,, thanksgiving or christmas at her family's house.
    i'm in trouble
    i'll just simply take my plate & got outside w/ the dog
    easy solved

    the beard also collects a lot of stuff on any given day
    i'm sure i'll be a hit w/ her mother... you know, pretending & all this stuff
    for poetry through the ceiling. ISBN: 1 4241 8840 7

    "Hear me, my chiefs!
    I am tired; my heart is
    sick and sad. From where
    the sun stands I will fight
    no more forever."
    Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
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    AnnafalkAnnafalk Sweden Posts: 4,004
    edited June 2014
    chadwick said:

    pretty wonderful even when shitty
    how are you, annafalk?

    Thank you I am well. :) The most important is that you take care of yourself!
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    oceaninmyeyesoceaninmyeyes Posts: 4,646
    Congratulations Chadwick. Yes? No? imageimageimage
    And the sun it may be shining . . . but there's an ocean in my eyes
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    chadwickchadwick up my ass Posts: 21,157
    i will not divulge much of what was doing or what is doing

    life is changing. soon life will be taking me away from here - 'the pj sanctuary'

    there are possibly bears to fight, trout to swim, psychic ghosts to play with, doors to open as doors close

    time is running out, yet building. how does this work? it's just time to go that's all




    for poetry through the ceiling. ISBN: 1 4241 8840 7

    "Hear me, my chiefs!
    I am tired; my heart is
    sick and sad. From where
    the sun stands I will fight
    no more forever."
    Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
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    AnnafalkAnnafalk Sweden Posts: 4,004
    edited June 2014
    :( Where are you going viking brother?
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    shortstackshortstack Posts: 2,339
    see, i told you that you're still a baby. it appears you will be beginning a new life, no?

    i hope you live contently ever after.

    ...and it's okay to say "love"
    did you see me? i saw you.
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    brianluxbrianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 40,757
    Chadwich, you're a man who lives hard, lives real, takes no prisoners.
    Long live Sir Chadwich.
    “The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man [or woman] who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.”
    Variously credited to Mark Twain or Edward Abbey.













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    JWPearlJWPearl Posts: 19,893
    Oh Chad your just adoreable even if you are a mans man, stay the viking you are..
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    SD48277SD48277 Woodstock, NY Posts: 12,242
    I'm not sure what is going on here, but I wish you all the best Chadwick.
    ELITIST FUK
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    chadwickchadwick up my ass Posts: 21,157
    edited June 2014
    oceaninmyeyes - ;)
    annafalk - sailing like a good little norse boy http://youtu.be/YrbY4hsNh64
    shortstack - you told me i'm still a baby beginning a new life?
    brianlux - brianlux - brianlux, you're a good guy
    jwpearl - well i'm also part jewish too, from on dad's side. don't know about the man's man bit
    sd48277 - what do you believe is going on here?

    & thank you
    Post edited by chadwick on
    for poetry through the ceiling. ISBN: 1 4241 8840 7

    "Hear me, my chiefs!
    I am tired; my heart is
    sick and sad. From where
    the sun stands I will fight
    no more forever."
    Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
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    AnnafalkAnnafalk Sweden Posts: 4,004
    edited June 2014
    Hahaha I've seen that movie...
    What about Bob ! It's a classic isn't it..
    Post edited by Annafalk on
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    shetellsherselfshetellsherself New Jersey Posts: 8,783
    If the shits not real it's not real shit. I like to keep it real.
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    JimmyVJimmyV Boston's MetroWest Posts: 18,930
    Unfortunately, in one way or another, the shit is always real.

    Best to you, Chadwick. You are among the brightest of bright spots on this board.
    ___________________________________________

    "...I changed by not changing at all..."
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    shortstackshortstack Posts: 2,339
    chadwick said:


    shortstack - you told me i'm still a baby beginning a new life?

    i said you were a baby somewhere in your opinion thread.

    are you getting married, or what?

    did you see me? i saw you.
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    chadwickchadwick up my ass Posts: 21,157
    edited June 2014
    http://youtu.be/0y8gXZOYmgs

    http://youtu.be/A5_KW90olhg

    zing & we're off
    my favorite dr. on the planet
    such a wonderful & brilliant man


    http://youtu.be/1mXJXpt7DpM
    Post edited by chadwick on
    for poetry through the ceiling. ISBN: 1 4241 8840 7

    "Hear me, my chiefs!
    I am tired; my heart is
    sick and sad. From where
    the sun stands I will fight
    no more forever."
    Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
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    badbrainsbadbrains Posts: 10,255
    Chadwick, my man, whatever the future holds for u, be it real or fake, I wish u nothing but the best, if u truly are leaving. Good luck sir, with everything life throws at u. Stay strong, battle those demons head on and take no fucken prisoners. And most importantly, go for a swim!!!!-BB
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    The JugglerThe Juggler Behind that bush over there. Posts: 47,312
    my shit is always real.
    chinese-happy.jpg
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    chadwickchadwick up my ass Posts: 21,157
    anyone tell me about when a man & woman live together? what happens?
    for poetry through the ceiling. ISBN: 1 4241 8840 7

    "Hear me, my chiefs!
    I am tired; my heart is
    sick and sad. From where
    the sun stands I will fight
    no more forever."
    Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
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    PoncierPoncier Posts: 16,240
    Put the toilet seat down and you'll be fine.
    This weekend we rock Portland
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    hedonisthedonist standing on the edge of forever Posts: 24,524
    Poncier said:

    Put the toilet seat down and you'll be fine.

    :D
    We always keep the lid down since our cats are the overly-curious type. It works well for us too - no going to pee in the middle of the night and almost falling in.

    As to living together - compromise happens...letting petty shit go happens...needing your own space/time happens...blinders come off (this is a good thing; maybe one of the best - to love and be loved despite or maybe because of our quirks and imperfections. Be prepared to see and be seen in your best, worst, and so-so lights)...intimacy happens in ways so beyond sex and the physical...getting through hard times, whether related to health, loss, finances, or just relationship adjustments...funny and heavy conversations in the dark when going to sleep...setting your routines and traditions together...plus finding spontaneity in the midst of the day-to-day.

    With the right person, it's FUN.

    If that's the direction you and your lady are headed, I wish you both all those things and more, chadwick.

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    chadwickchadwick up my ass Posts: 21,157
    plant flowers
    for poetry through the ceiling. ISBN: 1 4241 8840 7

    "Hear me, my chiefs!
    I am tired; my heart is
    sick and sad. From where
    the sun stands I will fight
    no more forever."
    Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
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    hedonisthedonist standing on the edge of forever Posts: 24,524
    Alrighty then!
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    chadwickchadwick up my ass Posts: 21,157
    plants & all that stuff are tranquil for me & so calming sets in & i've come to discover ladies like this stuff, not all but many like flowering. i like flowers & im no lady. good to go
    for poetry through the ceiling. ISBN: 1 4241 8840 7

    "Hear me, my chiefs!
    I am tired; my heart is
    sick and sad. From where
    the sun stands I will fight
    no more forever."
    Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
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