I hope you start feeling better soon - I've had my fair share of depressed days as well and the weekends can be the worst.
Do try and eat healthy as much as possible. Try healing from the inside out - eat healthy foods lots of fruits and veggies. Filled with great vitamins and anitoxidants.
Get a gret new pair of gym shoes and walk, hike, jog, ride your bike. Amazing the "natural high" that exercise will give to you.
Take a different route home from work, stores etc and enjoy the scenery once in awhile.
Try a different restaurant - one that you don't think you would enjoy and Wake Up Those Senses. Might be fun too
Try indoor rock climbing - talk about forgetting your problems...
Heal your relationships with family/friends and make them work, if not sometimes its best to say goodbye to friends that bring you down or are hurting you.
You are all so kind, thank you heaps.
I had a nice dinner with 3 friends at a pub then went back to my friends place and kicked back chatting until after midnight.
Feel damn tired now, I need a coffee (I know I should avoid caffeine).
I take a cocktail of vitamins each day as we are in the cold n flu season.
I think I want to get an acoustic guitar and some cd's today!
Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
You are all so kind, thank you heaps.
I had a nice dinner with 3 friends at a pub then went back to my friends place and kicked back chatting until after midnight.
Feel damn tired now, I need a coffee (I know I should avoid caffeine).
I take a cocktail of vitamins each day as we are in the cold n flu season.
I think I want to get an acoustic guitar and some cd's today!
Thank you.
I feel down again, it is worse on weekends because I have more time to think I suppose.
During the working week I am distracted by work.
I am having a quiet dinner and drinks with a few friends tonight for my birthday. :?
Well Happy Birthday! Have some drinks...relax...and just laugh. I have always found laughter for me is the best medicine and it's hard at times but just do it. The whole World is funny when you really sit down and think about it. Make some new memories...make some mistakes...and then laugh about them. Have a wonderful birthday!
Buy that guitar and write inane songs about what gets posted on the forum. Braver than me to pick up a guitar and learn how to play. I don't have a musical note in my body! Go for it!
I hope things are looking up for you and I'm sending positive Chi your way!
I take offense to this. I for one have NEVER posted anything inane here. Take it back. :x
I know that that everything you say on the forum is in all seriousness, full of facts and never delighting in the bounds of fun chit chat! I only hope that you can find it somewhere in your heart to forgive me :(
I hate being, in what I call a funk.... Hope it'll pass for you soon!!!
Oh and Happy Be-Lated Birthday!!!
The thing I like most about time is that it's not real. It's all in the head. Sure, it's a useful trick to use if you want to meet someone at a specific place in the universe and have tea or coffee- but that's all it is- a trick. There is no such thing as the past. It exists only in the memory. There is no such thing as the future. It exists only in our imagination. If our watches were truly accurate, the only thing they would ever say is "Now". That's what time it is. It's "Now". - Damien Echols
How are you feeling today? I hope things are looking up. We're here to listen and talk.
peace,
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
Chorzów 2007 - Berlin 2009 - Berlin 2010 - Gdynia 2010 - Berlin 2012 - Berlin 2012 - Stockholm 2012 - EV Manchester 2012 - Milan 2014 - Trieste 2014 - Vienna 2014 - Berlin 2014 - Gdynia 2014 - Rio 2018 - Sao Paulo 2018
So I tell my friend last night I don't want to go places that are loud and with too many people around as I am not up to it, I just wanted somewhere quiet to talk. Told him I am going through some shit at the moment.
So then he is breaking my arm to go to some club and strippers and have a few beers, that is his solution to my anxiety and depression.
Then he gets annoyed I want to leave this club early as I am not feeling ok.
I cannot stand strippers, I respect women too much, plus I am not turned on by silicon implanted girls.
Then he asks why I am feeling this way , how is it possible he asked.
I ended up snapping twice at him, scared him and myself.
Meltdown.
So fuckn fed up with this.
Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
Chorzów 2007 - Berlin 2009 - Berlin 2010 - Gdynia 2010 - Berlin 2012 - Berlin 2012 - Stockholm 2012 - EV Manchester 2012 - Milan 2014 - Trieste 2014 - Vienna 2014 - Berlin 2014 - Gdynia 2014 - Rio 2018 - Sao Paulo 2018
So I tell my friend last night I don't want to go places that are loud and with too many people around as I am not up to it, I just wanted somewhere quiet to talk. Told him I am going through some shit at the moment.
So then he is breaking my arm to go to some club and strippers and have a few beers, that is his solution to my anxiety and depression.
Then he gets annoyed I want to leave this club early as I am not feeling ok.
I cannot stand strippers, I respect women too much, plus I am not turned on by silicon implanted girls.
Then he asks why I am feeling this way , how is it possible he asked.
I ended up snapping twice at him, scared him and myself.
Meltdown.
So fuckn fed up with this.
:( So sorry to hear this happened. It sounds like your friend thought he was doing good and didn't get that you really truly didn't want to go. Depression is a really really tough thing to deal with and people that have never had it have a really hard time understanding it. I hope you're doing better today...try to surround yourself with people that put YOUR interests at heart.
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Thoughts, I have been battling depression and anxiety for years. I know what you are going through. It sucks. And when you have friends who don't get it (not their fault), like the strippers and beers guy, it makes it even tougher.
My whole life I've actually been drawn to female friends, as they understand me and my emotions better when it happens.
Some days I can't even pick my guitar up I'm so down. I literally feel a weight on my shoulders. I just lay on the couch thinking about the world without me.
Gimli 1993
Fargo 2003
Winnipeg 2005
Winnipeg 2011
St. Paul 2014
Hang in there and don't give up. Sure, its tough as hell sometimes but theres always a springtime ahead. Things will get better for you and as tough as having friends "who just don't get it" might be, surround yourself with those who do. And don't ever be afraid or embarrassed to ask for help. We're here for you. Sending positive Chi and keeping you in my thoughts.
thoughts, I can elaborate a bit more on my first post as now I don't have my boss' eyes looming around.
No disrespect to others posting their good thoughts here, but I have to say that, and to be blunt, it's not as simple as having the blues or going through a rough patch or there being a springtime ahead. it's a disease. and it's debilitating emotionally, mentally, and physically. and it won't change or get better until you help yourself, either by therapy, or medication, or both. and exercise does WONDERS.
it is utterly exhausting trying to keep a smile on your face in a crowd when all you want to do is go home and cry in a pillow or you can't stop thinking about how you could get your hands on a gun, or thinking of ways, and this is going to sound ridiculous to most, to abandon your loved ones in a way that they will forget about you, not mourn your loss, so you can ride into the sunset on your own terms and not have the guilt of those left behind.
I think about these things daily.
going out for beers with friends may or may not help. but when you get home, it's back to square one.
I fear going out with friends. I make plans when I'm well that many times I don't keep, as I'm not capable at that moment to socialize. Friends are now a distant memory for me, for the most part. I had to find friends that flew by the seat of their pants as I now do. I can't make plans, knowing the likelihood of me cancelling on them at the last minute because of an anxiety attack. So I live the life of calling someone on a Saturday night at 9pm when I finally know I'm good to go, and then the disappointment of obviously no one being available.
it sucks for my wife, because she always has to check with me if it's ok to make plans with friends, and has to make me promise not to cancel.
I have beer plans this coming Friday with a ton of co workers that I stupidly initiated, and I'm stressing the fuck out every time someone says "can't wait till friday buddy!". I keep thinking "what excuse can I think of now in case I need to bail on them all?".
I too have recently become somewhat obsessed with Kurt Cobain. I don't know if this is a good or bad thing. I read books, I've been listening to Nirvana on a near constant basis. Watching their DVD's. Everything. Whatever helps, I guess.
Anyway, this is just a small part of what people like me (and maybe you) go through, so if you want to chat, pm me, or even post here. I don't mind. If it helps someone (even myself), then I'm ok with it.
Cheers man.
Gimli 1993
Fargo 2003
Winnipeg 2005
Winnipeg 2011
St. Paul 2014
You know what, I woke up this morning hours ago and I still can't get out of bed, having such a low day today. I'm up to a wierd place in life, but I think with the right attitude, we can cheer ourselves up. I'm hoping that by the end of this post, I have the urge to get out of bed and face my day ... Right, This is where I'm up to ,
I've just got out of a cruel abusive relationship. I wasn't sure If i'd ever do it. It lasted 5 looooong years. Towards the end it was abusive and ife was horrible. Think I first started posting on here when I was pretty much under house arrest by my fella. I think he felt he needed to lock me away, it gave him a kick to have me to himself and no one else got me at all.
My house rules were, no drinking, no male friends, he handled our money, no visiting anyone unless he knew where it was. He checked my phone messages, facebook. He didn't know about 10c though that was my ony hideout. Back in January I knew I had to leave. I'd have to time my escape just right so I had my own savings, qualifications and friends ready to go back to once I had left him. Saw PJ in June, a couple weeks after I was brave enough to take the leap. So I left & Now life is interesting again!!!
Now I know, I'm no freaking angel, but I'm not thaaaat bad I have had a good two months of freedom and it's been a wonderful!! Now it's up to me alone not to fuck it all up. I've been thrown a few curveballs since and have had to move back to my small town. Where I ived before I met rob in the first place. I'm feeling an element of depression kicking in, being back in my own small town. Rob has cut me off despite oweing me a Huge sum of money, I think it's his last attempt to try to control me, but I'm not chasing him for the money. Even though it's an amount that would change my life.
I haven't always been an alcohol and drug fuelled wreckless bar wench you know. I mean. I love it and it's nice to have fun with that side of me for a while. Life is a game, if I'm happy at the end then I win it as far as I'm concerned. Just got to remember whats important, all the things I left Rob for, Family Friends, Freedom, Hapiness. Thats whats worth fighting for. Goddam you know I only post this here because no one else even knows about the abuse in our relationship. NO ONE ... apart from you , Time to shrug off the bullshit and just carry on methinks, Have grabbed my worries by the throat and life by the balls. Today will be a good day reguardless of everything else, I've decided. Time to get up.
Looking back on my great depression as I call it now, I am really ashamed
because I had two small children and a husband that needed me.
We all were going through the same thing, the same changes, same losses to some degree
but it was me who just bailed.
I am not proud of this and blame myself for the bad example
I gave on how to handle life's battles.
I wanted to be better always for them.
It was that alone that finally took me out of the me me me and gave me something to live for.
What worked was requiring of myself.
Each and every day strive to be better, to be positive, to show love and to be needed.
This is living.
I never saw a doctor or used meds but if this is an option use it,
it can make a night and day difference.
As far as your friends. Count yourself lucky if you have one true one through life.
That's all we need.
I pray you meet a lovely girl, one who is natural, smart and funny.
Until then put a smile on even if you don't feel like it, it can't hurt,
she might be there smiling back.
You know what, I woke up this morning hours ago and I still can't get out of bed, having such a low day today. I'm up to a wierd place in life, but I think with the right attitude, we can cheer ourselves up. I'm hoping that by the end of this post, I have the urge to get out of bed and face my day ... Right, This is where I'm up to ,
I've just got out of a cruel abusive relationship. I wasn't sure If i'd ever do it. It lasted 5 looooong years. Towards the end it was abusive and ife was horrible. Think I first started posting on here when I was pretty much under house arrest by my fella. I think he felt he needed to lock me away, it gave him a kick to have me to himself and no one else got me at all.
My house rules were, no drinking, no male friends, he handled our money, no visiting anyone unless he knew where it was. He checked my phone messages, facebook. He didn't know about 10c though that was my ony hideout. Back in January I knew I had to leave. I'd have to time my escape just right so I had my own savings, qualifications and friends ready to go back to once I had left him. Saw PJ in June, a couple weeks after I was brave enough to take the leap. So I left & Now life is interesting again!!!
Now I know, I'm no freaking angel, but I'm not thaaaat bad I have had a good two months of freedom and it's been a wonderful!! Now it's up to me alone not to fuck it all up. I've been thrown a few curveballs since and have had to move back to my small town. Where I ived before I met rob in the first place. I'm feeling an element of depression kicking in, being back in my own small town. Rob has cut me off despite oweing me a Huge sum of money, I think it's his last attempt to try to control me, but I'm not chasing him for the money. Even though it's an amount that would change my life.
I haven't always been an alcohol and drug fuelled wreckless bar wench you know. I mean. I love it and it's nice to have fun with that side of me for a while. Life is a game, if I'm happy at the end then I win it as far as I'm concerned. Just got to remember whats important, all the things I left Rob for, Family Friends, Freedom, Hapiness. Thats whats worth fighting for. Goddam you know I only post this here because no one else even knows about the abuse in our relationship. NO ONE ... apart from you , Time to shrug off the bullshit and just carry on methinks, Have grabbed my worries by the throat and life by the balls. Today will be a good day reguardless of everything else, I've decided. Time to get up.
BIG love to everyone feeling blue today x
good for you for taking your life back. that deserves a big
Gimli 1993
Fargo 2003
Winnipeg 2005
Winnipeg 2011
St. Paul 2014
Comments
Do try and eat healthy as much as possible. Try healing from the inside out - eat healthy foods lots of fruits and veggies. Filled with great vitamins and anitoxidants.
Get a gret new pair of gym shoes and walk, hike, jog, ride your bike. Amazing the "natural high" that exercise will give to you.
Take a different route home from work, stores etc and enjoy the scenery once in awhile.
Try a different restaurant - one that you don't think you would enjoy and Wake Up Those Senses. Might be fun too
Try indoor rock climbing - talk about forgetting your problems...
Heal your relationships with family/friends and make them work, if not sometimes its best to say goodbye to friends that bring you down or are hurting you.
Take a multi-vitamin too - cant hurt you.
Wishing you all the best, Take care please.
I had a nice dinner with 3 friends at a pub then went back to my friends place and kicked back chatting until after midnight.
Feel damn tired now, I need a coffee (I know I should avoid caffeine).
I take a cocktail of vitamins each day as we are in the cold n flu season.
I think I want to get an acoustic guitar and some cd's today!
Well Happy Birthday! Have some drinks...relax...and just laugh.
I take offense to this. I for one have NEVER posted anything inane here. Take it back. :x
I hope things are looking up for you and I'm sending positive Chi your way!
Peace.
Libtardaplorable©. And proud of it.
Brilliantati©
I know that that everything you say on the forum is in all seriousness, full of facts and never delighting in the bounds of fun chit chat! I only hope that you can find it somewhere in your heart to forgive me :(
Oh and Happy Be-Lated Birthday!!!
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
Down about something at work.
I'm sorry to hear that. I have a family member that causes me anxiety and insomnia besides work :(
I hope it works out!
8/08 - Ed solo in DC, 6/09 Ed in B'more,
10/10 - Brad in B'more
So then he is breaking my arm to go to some club and strippers and have a few beers, that is his solution to my anxiety and depression.
Then he gets annoyed I want to leave this club early as I am not feeling ok.
I cannot stand strippers, I respect women too much, plus I am not turned on by silicon implanted girls.
Then he asks why I am feeling this way , how is it possible he asked.
I ended up snapping twice at him, scared him and myself.
Meltdown.
So fuckn fed up with this.
true!
:( So sorry to hear this happened. It sounds like your friend thought he was doing good and didn't get that you really truly didn't want to go. Depression is a really really tough thing to deal with and people that have never had it have a really hard time understanding it. I hope you're doing better today...try to surround yourself with people that put YOUR interests at heart.
want to be enlightened"
My whole life I've actually been drawn to female friends, as they understand me and my emotions better when it happens.
Some days I can't even pick my guitar up I'm so down. I literally feel a weight on my shoulders. I just lay on the couch thinking about the world without me.
Fargo 2003
Winnipeg 2005
Winnipeg 2011
St. Paul 2014
Hang in there and don't give up. Sure, its tough as hell sometimes but theres always a springtime ahead. Things will get better for you and as tough as having friends "who just don't get it" might be, surround yourself with those who do. And don't ever be afraid or embarrassed to ask for help. We're here for you. Sending positive Chi and keeping you in my thoughts.
Peace.
Libtardaplorable©. And proud of it.
Brilliantati©
No disrespect to others posting their good thoughts here, but I have to say that, and to be blunt, it's not as simple as having the blues or going through a rough patch or there being a springtime ahead. it's a disease. and it's debilitating emotionally, mentally, and physically. and it won't change or get better until you help yourself, either by therapy, or medication, or both. and exercise does WONDERS.
it is utterly exhausting trying to keep a smile on your face in a crowd when all you want to do is go home and cry in a pillow or you can't stop thinking about how you could get your hands on a gun, or thinking of ways, and this is going to sound ridiculous to most, to abandon your loved ones in a way that they will forget about you, not mourn your loss, so you can ride into the sunset on your own terms and not have the guilt of those left behind.
I think about these things daily.
going out for beers with friends may or may not help. but when you get home, it's back to square one.
I fear going out with friends. I make plans when I'm well that many times I don't keep, as I'm not capable at that moment to socialize. Friends are now a distant memory for me, for the most part. I had to find friends that flew by the seat of their pants as I now do. I can't make plans, knowing the likelihood of me cancelling on them at the last minute because of an anxiety attack. So I live the life of calling someone on a Saturday night at 9pm when I finally know I'm good to go, and then the disappointment of obviously no one being available.
it sucks for my wife, because she always has to check with me if it's ok to make plans with friends, and has to make me promise not to cancel.
I have beer plans this coming Friday with a ton of co workers that I stupidly initiated, and I'm stressing the fuck out every time someone says "can't wait till friday buddy!". I keep thinking "what excuse can I think of now in case I need to bail on them all?".
I too have recently become somewhat obsessed with Kurt Cobain. I don't know if this is a good or bad thing. I read books, I've been listening to Nirvana on a near constant basis. Watching their DVD's. Everything. Whatever helps, I guess.
Anyway, this is just a small part of what people like me (and maybe you) go through, so if you want to chat, pm me, or even post here. I don't mind. If it helps someone (even myself), then I'm ok with it.
Cheers man.
Fargo 2003
Winnipeg 2005
Winnipeg 2011
St. Paul 2014
I've just got out of a cruel abusive relationship. I wasn't sure If i'd ever do it. It lasted 5 looooong years. Towards the end it was abusive and ife was horrible. Think I first started posting on here when I was pretty much under house arrest by my fella. I think he felt he needed to lock me away, it gave him a kick to have me to himself and no one else got me at all.
My house rules were, no drinking, no male friends, he handled our money, no visiting anyone unless he knew where it was. He checked my phone messages, facebook. He didn't know about 10c though that was my ony hideout. Back in January I knew I had to leave. I'd have to time my escape just right so I had my own savings, qualifications and friends ready to go back to once I had left him. Saw PJ in June, a couple weeks after I was brave enough to take the leap. So I left & Now life is interesting again!!!
Now I know, I'm no freaking angel, but I'm not thaaaat bad
I haven't always been an alcohol and drug fuelled wreckless bar wench you know. I mean. I love it and it's nice to have fun with that side of me for a while. Life is a game, if I'm happy at the end then I win it as far as I'm concerned. Just got to remember whats important, all the things I left Rob for, Family Friends, Freedom, Hapiness. Thats whats worth fighting for. Goddam you know I only post this here because no one else even knows about the abuse in our relationship. NO ONE ... apart from you , Time to shrug off the bullshit and just carry on methinks, Have grabbed my worries by the throat and life by the balls. Today will be a good day reguardless of everything else, I've decided. Time to get up.
BIG love to everyone feeling blue today x
because I had two small children and a husband that needed me.
We all were going through the same thing, the same changes, same losses to some degree
but it was me who just bailed.
I am not proud of this and blame myself for the bad example
I gave on how to handle life's battles.
I wanted to be better always for them.
It was that alone that finally took me out of the me me me and gave me something to live for.
What worked was requiring of myself.
Each and every day strive to be better, to be positive, to show love and to be needed.
This is living.
I never saw a doctor or used meds but if this is an option use it,
it can make a night and day difference.
As far as your friends. Count yourself lucky if you have one true one through life.
That's all we need.
I pray you meet a lovely girl, one who is natural, smart and funny.
Until then put a smile on even if you don't feel like it, it can't hurt,
she might be there smiling back.
good for you for taking your life back. that deserves a big
Fargo 2003
Winnipeg 2005
Winnipeg 2011
St. Paul 2014