How you feeling right now???

hedonist

But I know we can’t all stay here forever
So I’ll write my words
On the face of today



…and then they’ll paint it

brianlux

HughFreakingDillon said:

brianlux said:

I am thrilled to be able to walk again!
Tuesday night, I started getting a sharp pain in the inner side of my left hip- a stabbing pain in the inside part of the joint. It quickly got worse to the point that all of Tuesday night I was in excruciating pain, could not get comfortable and could not sleep at all. The next morning, yesterday morning, I was a total wreck. My wife was able to get me an appointment the AM and drove me in to see my doctor. I could not walk on my own and even using a cane, it was very hard to move much at all and still in constant pain. Getting up and down in a chair was worse- absolutely killer stabbing pain in my hip. I was given a prescription for pain and sent to radiology for x-rays. By that evening the pain had finally subsided a little and I could get around a bit more with the cane. This morning was even better- I only needed the cane for light support and the pain was even more reduced.
And now, this evening, being cautious, I can walk on my own again! I still have pain in the hip joint but far, far less and it is no longer constant. That first 24 hours of agony though was really challenging. Sure glad to be past that point!

jesus brian, stop moshing around to Black Flag. we ain't gettin' any younger. 

(hehe, glad you're better)

Haha!  Just saw this and it made me laugh!  And oh man, with living in the midst of chaos and turmoil lately, man did a laugh feel good!  Thank you, bud! 

lastexitlondon

Rowing in circles. Eternally 

BLACK35

Excited for my niece who is getting married later this afternoon 

dankind

Not ready. 

For any of it. 

hedonist

dankind said:

Not ready. 

For any of it. 

Flying by the seat of your pants…that’s always a fun one.

lastexitlondon

dankind said:

Not ready. 

For any of it. 

This.  Lots of this 

mfc2006

Worried about everyone in Louisiana 

Purple Fairy Tree

I'm really tired from an evening of statistics. I never fail to surprise myself by taking things on where I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing but somehow I manage to find my way through! At least there is tomorrow

Purple Fairy Tree

Oops

brianlux

Grieving heavily the loss by fire of some of the most beautiful places along U.S. 50 and Hwy 88 in the Sierra Mountains.  Horsetail Falls area, Saddleback Pass, much of the Strawberry area, our secret places around Tragedy Creek, Casita Flats, Flemming Meadow, Happy Valley, and even crusty Grizzly Flats which never thrilled me but was home to so many around here.  All gone. 

I know, this is a very selfish post.  Sorry.  :-(

HughFreakingDillon

brianlux said:

Grieving heavily the loss by fire of some of the most beautiful places along U.S. 50 and Hwy 88 in the Sierra Mountains.  Horsetail Falls area, Saddleback Pass, much of the Strawberry area, our secret places around Tragedy Creek, Casita Flats, Flemming Meadow, Happy Valley, and even crusty Grizzly Flats which never thrilled me but was home to so many around here.  All gone. 

I know, this is a very selfish post.  Sorry.  :-(

how is it selfish to grieve nature lost to tragedy?

brianlux

HughFreakingDillon said:

brianlux said:

Grieving heavily the loss by fire of some of the most beautiful places along U.S. 50 and Hwy 88 in the Sierra Mountains.  Horsetail Falls area, Saddleback Pass, much of the Strawberry area, our secret places around Tragedy Creek, Casita Flats, Flemming Meadow, Happy Valley, and even crusty Grizzly Flats which never thrilled me but was home to so many around here.  All gone. 

I know, this is a very selfish post.  Sorry.  :-(

how is it selfish to grieve nature lost to tragedy?

It's not, truly it's not. 

But it's all confusing.   I feel selfish knowing I still have a home that still standing and that I can still be in when tens of thousands of people in my community are in shelters or trailers or or sleeping in there cars in parking lots or god knows where and that many of them have no home to return to.  And yet as terrible as that is for these people (and it really is), all you hear about is "these homes were burned", and "those building were waved".  Hardly anyone talks about the massive loss of nature that is happening a few miles up the hill from my home and all over the west, and the phenomenal amount of smoke going into the air, and what the consequences of those losses will mean for our future.  I don't know what to feel anymore because it's grief, and anger, and confusion, and shame for being selfish, and uncertainty about where to go, and a lot of concern that my wife and I could be the next aimless refugees from fire, and so much doubt about the future. 

 

cblock4life

brianlux said:

HughFreakingDillon said:

brianlux said:

Grieving heavily the loss by fire of some of the most beautiful places along U.S. 50 and Hwy 88 in the Sierra Mountains.  Horsetail Falls area, Saddleback Pass, much of the Strawberry area, our secret places around Tragedy Creek, Casita Flats, Flemming Meadow, Happy Valley, and even crusty Grizzly Flats which never thrilled me but was home to so many around here.  All gone. 

I know, this is a very selfish post.  Sorry.  :-(

how is it selfish to grieve nature lost to tragedy?

It's not, truly it's not. 

But it's all confusing.   I feel selfish knowing I still have a home that still standing and that I can still be in when tens of thousands of people in my community are in shelters or trailers or or sleeping in there cars in parking lots or god knows where and that many of them have no home to return to.  And yet as terrible as that is for these people (and it really is), all you hear about is "these homes were burned", and "those building were waved".  Hardly anyone talks about the massive loss of nature that is happening a few miles up the hill from my home and all over the west, and the phenomenal amount of smoke going into the air, and what the consequences of those losses will mean for our future.  I don't know what to feel anymore because it's grief, and anger, and confusion, and shame for being selfish, and uncertainty about where to go, and a lot of concern that my wife and I could be the next aimless refugees from fire, and so much doubt about the future. 

 

I don’t know anyone from out your way so every time I read/hear about the fires I think about you as I’m sure most around here do.  

And what you’re feeling is totally normal IMO.  What is it they call it, survivors remorse/guilt?
Totally normal to feel that way.  I also feel awful about the amount of land so damaged now and I believe many do.  And finally it’s ok to think about and worry about yourself, wife and property right now.  Don’t beat yourself up so much…. You sound very, very normal to me and you have to know you’re a good person otherwise you wouldn’t be thinking the way you are.  

lastexitlondon

Plus 1

brianlux

cblock4life said:

brianlux said:

HughFreakingDillon said:

brianlux said:

Grieving heavily the loss by fire of some of the most beautiful places along U.S. 50 and Hwy 88 in the Sierra Mountains.  Horsetail Falls area, Saddleback Pass, much of the Strawberry area, our secret places around Tragedy Creek, Casita Flats, Flemming Meadow, Happy Valley, and even crusty Grizzly Flats which never thrilled me but was home to so many around here.  All gone. 

I know, this is a very selfish post.  Sorry.  :-(

how is it selfish to grieve nature lost to tragedy?

It's not, truly it's not. 

But it's all confusing.   I feel selfish knowing I still have a home that still standing and that I can still be in when tens of thousands of people in my community are in shelters or trailers or or sleeping in there cars in parking lots or god knows where and that many of them have no home to return to.  And yet as terrible as that is for these people (and it really is), all you hear about is "these homes were burned", and "those building were waved".  Hardly anyone talks about the massive loss of nature that is happening a few miles up the hill from my home and all over the west, and the phenomenal amount of smoke going into the air, and what the consequences of those losses will mean for our future.  I don't know what to feel anymore because it's grief, and anger, and confusion, and shame for being selfish, and uncertainty about where to go, and a lot of concern that my wife and I could be the next aimless refugees from fire, and so much doubt about the future. 

 

I don’t know anyone from out your way so every time I read/hear about the fires I think about you as I’m sure most around here do.  

And what you’re feeling is totally normal IMO.  What is it they call it, survivors remorse/guilt?
Totally normal to feel that way.  I also feel awful about the amount of land so damaged now and I believe many do.  And finally it’s ok to think about and worry about yourself, wife and property right now.  Don’t beat yourself up so much…. You sound very, very normal to me and you have to know you’re a good person otherwise you wouldn’t be thinking the way you are.  

Thanks, cblock, much appreciated.

hedonist

I’m feeling good in this moment. No pain is nice. So’s a happy mindset.

Rock on, me!

Purple Fairy Tree

Relieved that I no longer have to wait hours at the hospital with my nearest and dearest, as I have over the last few weeks. 

However, that time seems to have been replaced by spending way too much time looking continuously at spreadsheets which I'm also hoping to spend less time doing very soon.

Let's hope there will be nice weather this weekend with good food and beer.

GlowGirl

West Coast Dreamgirl said:

Relieved that I no longer have to wait hours at the hospital with my nearest and dearest, as I have over the last few weeks. 

However, that time seems to have been replaced by spending way too much time looking continuously at spreadsheets which I'm also hoping to spend less time doing very soon.

Let's hope there will be nice weather this weekend with good food and beer.

Hope everything is ok with your dearest. 

Spunkie

hedonist said:

I’m feeling good in this moment. No pain is nice. So’s a happy mindset.

Rock on, me!

Yay!!! Keep channeling wellness