annoyed bc i recall the hype getting tickets used to be competative and fun with even the abusive word or two thrown in there for some reason which you cant possibly achieve anymore lol....
Talking to her on Friday night, I mixed up the procedures, what they entailed and when she was having them done, which made her feel like she was all alone when it comes to dealing with her disease and that I need to pay more attention because I'll have to be her proxy and advocate one day.
A lot of her frustration with me was just a side effect of her depression and anxiety about having the test done and finding out the bad news -- because it's never going to be good news -- but the rest of it was because of my denial, ignorance and, well, jerkiness. I'm working on it.
"...Dimitri...He talks to me...'.."The Ghost of Greece..".
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
Talking to her on Friday night, I mixed up the procedures, what they entailed and when she was having them done, which made her feel like she was all alone when it comes to dealing with her disease and that I need to pay more attention because I'll have to be her proxy and advocate one day.
A lot of her frustration with me was just a side effect of her depression and anxiety about having the test done and finding out the bad news -- because it's never going to be good news -- but the rest of it was because of my denial, ignorance and, well, jerkiness. I'm working on it.
There's a significant number of people out there who would take off upon finding out their spouse/partner has any kind of chronic illness, much less an incurable & possibly terminal one. You are not one of them. So while yea, you need to keep on top of the tests & procedures and pay attention - don't beat yourself up about it too much. You are standing by her. And good luck to her with the rest of the stuff this week!
Talking to her on Friday night, I mixed up the procedures, what they entailed and when she was having them done, which made her feel like she was all alone when it comes to dealing with her disease and that I need to pay more attention because I'll have to be her proxy and advocate one day.
A lot of her frustration with me was just a side effect of her depression and anxiety about having the test done and finding out the bad news -- because it's never going to be good news -- but the rest of it was because of my denial, ignorance and, well, jerkiness. I'm working on it.
There's a significant number of people out there who would take off upon finding out their spouse/partner has any kind of chronic illness, much less an incurable & possibly terminal one. You are not one of them. So while yea, you need to keep on top of the tests & procedures and pay attention - don't beat yourself up about it too much. You are standing by her. And good luck to her with the rest of the stuff this week!
I also agree the comment above is nicely well put..
I'm tired and things are taking long in the world bc there are still some good changes the children can make and be for themselves to save themselves and somebody cares strongly about this...it's a chance for for kids not us...rockers who have life and have it made
bummed...but I excised my Washington State legal right and partook in recreational activities... feel pretty good, but my first feeling is kinda killing the mood.
how do you explain that feeling?
The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.
I just truly forgot how old I am for the first time ever (Not in the 'oh, I forgot for a second there!' way. I actually had to do the math). So I feel fucking OLD, because I was like, "Is that right?!?!" when I realized how old I am. That doesn't happen to young people. I feel like I just crossed an invisible line in life by forgetting my age and then being surprised by it.
Yes, I know you're only as old/young as you feel... and yeah, I feel like I'm still in my mid-20s inside my head... And yes, with age comes wisdom, and I feel that. Great. Just great..... but I'm still one day closer to death today, so I'm allowed to wallow in self-pity about aging once in a while.
(no offense to the people who are older than me, lol. I'm not even that old, but fuck... once in a while it just kind of bops you over the head!)
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With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy. ~ Desiderata
bummed...but I excised my Washington State legal right and partook in recreational activities... feel pretty good, but my first feeling is kinda killing the mood.
bummed...but I excised my Washington State legal right and partook in recreational activities... feel pretty good, but my first feeling is kinda killing the mood.
how do you explain that feeling?
I believe you call this a buzzkill?
sort of...I have a friend (not a super close friend), and she went through some really tough times...I saw her a few months ago and she was sad because she didn't have a job and was basically at the end of her rope. I suggested she come work with me, it's a fairly easy job, I know she has the skills, it would get her out of the house, get her mind off all the trauma she's been through. My boss liked her and she has been working with me for the last few weeks, my boss has been talking to me about her...she called me before she left for her convention and now I know some things that make me sad...she's basically spiraling out of control.
I just wish I could help her, but I don't know how, or if it's my place to do so.
The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.
bummed...but I excised my Washington State legal right and partook in recreational activities... feel pretty good, but my first feeling is kinda killing the mood.
how do you explain that feeling?
I believe you call this a buzzkill?
sort of...I have a friend (not a super close friend), and she went through some really tough times...I saw her a few months ago and she was sad because she didn't have a job and was basically at the end of her rope. I suggested she come work with me, it's a fairly easy job, I know she has the skills, it would get her out of the house, get her mind off all the trauma she's been through. My boss liked her and she has been working with me for the last few weeks, my boss has been talking to me about her...she called me before she left for her convention and now I know some things that make me sad...she's basically spiraling out of control.
I just wish I could help her, but I don't know how, or if it's my place to do so.
"She seems distracted, and I know just what is gonna happen next...."
It sounds tough. What is the best thing to do not only for you but for your friend? There's the rub.
I've pretty much lost my very best friend due to the treacherous path he has chosen/taken. I tried to listen and guide him, but he's so far gone, I probably sounded like Charlie Brown's teacher to him.
These days I just Google him to make sure there are no new mugshots. Still love him dearly. And miss who he was.
"She seems distracted, and I know just what is gonna happen next...."
It sounds tough. What is the best thing to do not only for you but for your friend? There's the rub.
I've pretty much lost my very best friend due to the treacherous path he has chosen/taken. I tried to listen and guide him, but he's so far gone, I probably sounded like Charlie Brown's teacher to him.
These days I just Google him to make sure there are no new mugshots. Still love him dearly. And miss who he was.
That's exactly what I am afraid of. there are other things that I know that my boss doesn't, there are pieces I see that I can put together and I don't like how they fit together-maybe I just don't want them to fit that way. She has so much to live for, but not in the way that she thinks it should be, I wish she would realize that.
Thanks Dan...*hugs*
The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.
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Tattooed Dissident!
Tattooed Dissident!
An explanation: As some here may remember from this old thread (http://community.pearljam.com/discussion/213009/told-my-wife-to-take-a-hike-update-done/p1), my wife has an incurable and often terminal disease called PSC. Well, starting Saturday and continuing this Thursday, she has to endure her annual tests to see how much it has progressed.
Talking to her on Friday night, I mixed up the procedures, what they entailed and when she was having them done, which made her feel like she was all alone when it comes to dealing with her disease and that I need to pay more attention because I'll have to be her proxy and advocate one day.
A lot of her frustration with me was just a side effect of her depression and anxiety about having the test done and finding out the bad news -- because it's never going to be good news -- but the rest of it was because of my denial, ignorance and, well, jerkiness. I'm working on it.
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
Prague Krakow Berlin 2018. Berlin 2022
EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
And good luck to her with the rest of the stuff this week!
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I'm tired and things are taking long in the world bc there are still some good changes the children can make and be for themselves to save themselves and somebody cares strongly about this...it's a chance for for kids not us...rockers who have life and have it made
how do you explain that feeling?
- Christopher McCandless
Tattooed Dissident!
Yes, I know you're only as old/young as you feel... and yeah, I feel like I'm still in my mid-20s inside my head... And yes, with age comes wisdom, and I feel that. Great. Just great..... but I'm still one day closer to death today, so I'm allowed to wallow in self-pity about aging once in a while.
(no offense to the people who are older than me, lol. I'm not even that old, but fuck... once in a while it just kind of bops you over the head!)
And RKCNDY: I believe you call this a buzzkill?
I just wish I could help her, but I don't know how, or if it's my place to do so.
- Christopher McCandless
It sounds tough. What is the best thing to do not only for you but for your friend? There's the rub.
I've pretty much lost my very best friend due to the treacherous path he has chosen/taken. I tried to listen and guide him, but he's so far gone, I probably sounded like Charlie Brown's teacher to him.
These days I just Google him to make sure there are no new mugshots. Still love him dearly. And miss who he was.
She has so much to live for, but not in the way that she thinks it should be, I wish she would realize that.
Thanks Dan...*hugs*
- Christopher McCandless