I beat Cancer ... I hope :)

GivenToLukinKP

Halifax2TheMax wrote:

So hang in, rant and rage and scream and yell and stamp your feet and cry. It's okay. Just don't kick your dog or break any plates! MY Rant over.

and don't spill anything that stains on your jersey

Halifax2TheMax wrote:

Did you get the envelope with the duct tape I sent you?

He's probably still trying to get it open

ShimmyMommy

Hi Rob. It's okay if you have times when you are pissed right off. It's human. I take days like those as days to slow down and just be. Be mad, be sad, be "meh". I am sending more love, light and hugs. xo

Wobbie

Halifax2TheMax wrote:

"I'll get by with a little from my friends, I'll get by with a little help from my friends, I'll get high with a little help from my friends......................." And what is it about sleeping dogs, you cant keep them down or something like that? Hey Rob, really, you deserve every rant you feel to muster. That we haven't seen one in quite some time is a testament to your fortitude and fighting spirit. And I know these are just words but really, you have been nothing short of amazing in how you have handled yourself. I have had family members who decided they would just, literally, lay down and die. And that is what they did. For two and a half fucking years! What they could have done or experienced with that time. You have chosen to fight and to live and to beat this shit. And how you have chosen to do it is truly admirable. Easy? Hell no. Feel like dying some days? Sure, I bet you do. Get depressed and wonder why me? Absolutely. But you keep on keeping on. Why? Because me thinks you have an incredible spirit and see the beauty in the everyday. And you can still take the ups with the downs and laugh and find pleasure and see the way the tree bends. And think its special. I saw the sparkle in your eyes in that photo with your PJ Giants jersey and your friends in Vancouver. I saw it and it inspired me. You're full of life and winning. Even if you don't feel like it or your Utah football team and Giants are losing. When I first started reading this thread, I knew there would be times and posts like this. But I still believe in you and I think you know, we're all here for you and you're not walking this road alone. Yes, you have to deal and wake up everyday in your new reality but we're with you. Even if you don't feel it. And you are certainly entitled to feeling like you do and ranting about it. No matter how cold the winter, there's a spring time ahead. And it's okay. It's okay, it's okay. So hang in, rant and rage and scream and yell and stamp your feet and cry. It's okay. Just don't kick your dog or break any plates! MY Rant over.

wow! what nice thoughts

luckily, no, I never really wish I was dead. sometimes I'm pissed, but the long dirt nap is not an alternative I'm interested in.

some friends from vegas stopped by today....we went out for a tasty breakfast and caught up on fire department gossip . last night, I drank a bunch of guiness and watched baseball. the end result pissed me off, but it was a fun evening. things are good. I get to see my suck-ass Utes play again, tomorrow night

Thanks, Kyle, you have been an awesome friend :thumbup:

Halifax2TheMax

imalive wrote:

Halifax2TheMax wrote:

"I'll get by with a little from my friends, I'll get by with a little help from my friends, I'll get high with a little help from my friends......................." And what is it about sleeping dogs, you cant keep them down or something like that? Hey Rob, really, you deserve every rant you feel to muster. That we haven't seen one in quite some time is a testament to your fortitude and fighting spirit. And I know these are just words but really, you have been nothing short of amazing in how you have handled yourself. I have had family members who decided they would just, literally, lay down and die. And that is what they did. For two and a half fucking years! What they could have done or experienced with that time. You have chosen to fight and to live and to beat this shit. And how you have chosen to do it is truly admirable. Easy? Hell no. Feel like dying some days? Sure, I bet you do. Get depressed and wonder why me? Absolutely. But you keep on keeping on. Why? Because me thinks you have an incredible spirit and see the beauty in the everyday. And you can still take the ups with the downs and laugh and find pleasure and see the way the tree bends. And think its special. I saw the sparkle in your eyes in that photo with your PJ Giants jersey and your friends in Vancouver. I saw it and it inspired me. You're full of life and winning. Even if you don't feel like it or your Utah football team and Giants are losing. When I first started reading this thread, I knew there would be times and posts like this. But I still believe in you and I think you know, we're all here for you and you're not walking this road alone. Yes, you have to deal and wake up everyday in your new reality but we're with you. Even if you don't feel it. And you are certainly entitled to feeling like you do and ranting about it. No matter how cold the winter, there's a spring time ahead. And it's okay. It's okay, it's okay. So hang in, rant and rage and scream and yell and stamp your feet and cry. It's okay. Just don't kick your dog or break any plates! MY Rant over.

wow! what nice thoughts

luckily, no, I never really wish I was dead. sometimes I'm pissed, but the long dirt nap is not an alternative I'm interested in.

some friends from vegas stopped by today....we went out for a tasty breakfast and caught up on fire department gossip . last night, I drank a bunch of guiness and watched baseball. the end result pissed me off, but it was a fun evening. things are good. I get to see my suck-ass Utes play again, tomorrow night

Thanks, Kyle, you have been an awesome friend :thumbup:

Well, that's the fighting spirit and sense of humor I know so well! The long dirt nap? Are we regressing to our childhood? I used to sleep in the dirt. No, I know what you're saying and I didn't mean to try and bring you down. Again, I'm amazed at your fortitude of not even considering it an option, particularly with all you've been through.

I'm really glad to hear things are good for you Rob. Enjoy the game tonight! I may go see Brown versus Penn this afternoon. I know, Ivy league but I can walk to the stadium and the tickets are free. But its freakin' cold out! So, we'll see.

Be well my friend. Peace.

Wobbie

Halifax2TheMax wrote:

I may go see Brown versus Penn this afternoon. I know, Ivy league but I can walk to the stadium and the tickets are free. But its freakin' cold out! So, we'll see.

my dad actually went to Penn and told they used to chant "what's the color of horseshit? brown, brown, brown!" close your eyes and picture a late 1940s football crowd....

he.who.forgets

imalive wrote:

Halifax2TheMax wrote:

I may go see Brown versus Penn this afternoon. I know, Ivy league but I can walk to the stadium and the tickets are free. But its freakin' cold out! So, we'll see.

my dad actually went to Penn and told they used to chant "what's the color of horseshit? brown, brown, brown!" close your eyes and picture a late 1940s football crowd....

HA! Love it. Hope you're well Rob!

DreamOfAngels

Rob,
I have been through my own stuff over the last year and a half (if you remember when we discussed in Columbus 2010) and I can tell you the one thing I've not yet figured out is how to come to "accept" my new being. I frequently get sad or angry about the circumstances, what I had, what I lost, and where I will go from here. If you ever want to chat, let me know. My stroke set me back emotionally and definitely broke the foundation of my life. My sense of self, my identity, self esteem, everything turned upside down. It will take time, they all keep saying...time. Well, time, and a lot of books on acceptance and forgiveness. It is grieving process. We didn't control what happened to us, we were not responsible, but now we have the cards we do and it is difficult when we know what life was like before.

Take care, and use whatever outlet you need to in order to heal yourself. I had posted some poems on the forum that were raw and pain-ridden - after I wrote them, posted, and maybe 4 people read - I deleted them. I didn't need to spread my poisonous pain but it felt good to get it out and WAS necessary.
DOA

GivenToLukinKP

Hey Rob!
Just thought I'd say hello and let you know I'm thinking of you. I hope all is well!

ShimmyMommy

Hi Rob! Just sending love, light and hugs, that today is a good day.

Wobbie

ShimmyMommy wrote:

Hi Rob! Just sending love, light and hugs, that today is a good day.

I've actually had a string of good days

I do the two day chemo thing again tomorrow

gotta take my spoiled dog to the park....she is so spoiled....you ought to see how miserable the weather is

ShimmyMommy

imalive wrote:

ShimmyMommy wrote:

Hi Rob! Just sending love, light and hugs, that today is a good day.

I've actually had a string of good days

I do the two day chemo thing again tomorrow

gotta take my spoiled dog to the park....she is so spoiled....you ought to see how miserable the weather is

I know you have had a string of good days, I was hoping for one more before "the day".

Have fun with Gracie at the park! Our doggy is a suck when it rains or snows...he spoils me!

Katyz

imalive wrote:

Katyz wrote:

Looks like the roller-coaster continues

it is a damn roller coaster :x ....got DC'ed from chemo on friday and unwisely drank a bunch of beers wile watching PJ20 that night....felt like crap the next morning. I took it pretty easy the rest of the weekend but still don't feel great today. not terrible; just not good.

I need to figure out how long the massive 46 hour dose of chemo will be affecting me. luckily, I don't get any more until a week from wednesday

Your rant below is so needed and something you will be doing in the future too. The 'good' news is there IS a future for you to rant over....shitty (sorry) consolation, I know! Sam just finished treatment after two full years and I'm terrified...Will it all come back now the chemo is gone? You have a new normal ahead of you and, like Sam's it SUCKS. And knowing others are worse off is not a help at all! Lean on us, rant away at us, we are here for you Rob. xxx

Halifax2TheMax

imalive wrote:

Halifax2TheMax wrote:

I may go see Brown versus Penn this afternoon. I know, Ivy league but I can walk to the stadium and the tickets are free. But its freakin' cold out! So, we'll see.

my dad actually went to Penn and told they used to chant "what's the color of horseshit? brown, brown, brown!" close your eyes and picture a late 1940s football crowd....

So your Utes won, I think, and Brown did win. 6 to 0. Sorry, but I closed my eyes and imagined a 1940's football crowd with the men wearing fedoras and cigarette smoke permeating the air. It was too damn cold, wet and windy to sit in cement bleachers. Particularly for a 6 to 0 score! And I love the old school chant, that's the spirit!

Positive Chi to you for the next few days and don't forget to spoil your dog. He/she deserves it!

Be well!

Peace.

Wobbie

Halifax2TheMax wrote:

Sorry, but I closed my eyes and imagined a 1940's football crowd with the men wearing fedoras and cigarette smoke permeating the air.

don't forget the raccoon coats! and, yeah, pretty much everyone smoked in those days (so I'm told).....and drank rye whiskey.

PJ_ROCKS

Morning Rob, will be thinking about you today buddy... stay strong! sending some good (((vibes))) your way

Wobbie

Halifax2TheMax wrote:

don't forget to spoil your dog. He/she deserves it!

it's a she.....Gracie....she's always there for me; good days and bad.



and don't worry....she's PLENTY spoiled

inlet13

Dude,

Keep fighting the good fight. I got to say reading through this thread, you're a really impressive guy. Keep your spirits up... and stay determined.

You're in my thoughts/prayers.

-inlet

Halifax2TheMax

imalive wrote:

Halifax2TheMax wrote:

don't forget to spoil your dog. He/she deserves it!

it's a she.....Gracie....she's always there for me; good days and bad.



and don't worry....she's PLENTY spoiled

Damn, that is a great lookin' doggie and ahem, Rob, she looks wicked spoiled! But I'll bet deservedly so! And the football game, in my imagination, the women were wearing fox stoles around there collars while the men sipped from silver flasks. Can't you just picture it?

I hope you made out okay today and will feel alright tomorrow as well. Hang in there buddy, that dog needs some more spoiling!

Positive Chi to you and yours Rob. Be well.

Peace.

Rani

imalive wrote:

ShimmyMommy wrote:

Hi Rob! Just sending love, light and hugs, that today is a good day.

I've actually had a string of good days

I do the two day chemo thing again tomorrow

gotta take my spoiled dog to the park....she is so spoiled....you ought to see how miserable the weather is

thoughts and prayers are with you once again...here's to hoping for chemo going smoothly.

Wobbie

Halifax2TheMax wrote:

imalive wrote:

Halifax2TheMax wrote:

don't forget to spoil your dog. He/she deserves it!

it's a she.....Gracie....she's always there for me; good days and bad.



and don't worry....she's PLENTY spoiled

Damn, that is a great lookin' doggie and ahem, Rob, she looks wicked spoiled! But I'll bet deservedly so!

gracie is pretty well known over in ~:~:~: The Doggie Thread!! :~:~:~ She was raised in that thread. it's much like this thread....happy and sad; very supportive. gracie is my inspiration...she got CANCER when she was 18 months old....did the chemo and everything. Now, she's three and a half (going on 8 months :roll: ) and CURED

Halifax2TheMax wrote:

And the football game, in my imagination, the women were wearing fox stoles around there collars while the men sipped from silver flasks. Can't you just picture it?

I not only can picture it, I have my Dad's old silver flask which probably did hold booze thru some Penn games. It now holds booze at Utah games. Talk about full circle . The flask had a cork gasket that was leaking just a little....I went to home depot to find an "O" ring in plumbing....a guy comes up to help...I worry he's Mormon but pull the flask out anyway...it cracked him right the fuck up

brianlux

Sweet dog!

Wobbie

brianlux wrote:

Sweet dog!

except when she's not

I cut her a little slack for being a cancer survivor.

dcfaithful

Hope you're having a great morning Rob! :wave:

Wobbie

dcfaithful wrote:

Hope you're having a great morning Rob! :wave:

pretty good but.....I went out to the truck to take gracie to the park.....touched the cold ass steering wheel and....BOOM!....tingle, tingle, tingle in my hands. It was like they were asleep :shock: . Didn't go away until I got home and put my hands in warm water.

they warned me this would happen. chemo ain't no joke. I would suggest you all try to avoid it at all costs.

Wobbie

chemo sucks . gotta rally for rich robinson tonight :?

iamica

imalive wrote:

chemo sucks . gotta rally for rich robinson tonight :?

Hope you're feeling much better soon! Hang in there!

dottles

imalive wrote:

chemo sucks . gotta rally for rich robinson tonight :?

:( keep going my lovely, you'll have a magazine to read from the UK soon

Johnnyguitarwatson

Good luck bro

Katyz

Hugs and love, Rob...keep on fighting. xxx

Claireack

Hi from a cold and grey England.

Don't know if I've said it before Rob, but reflexology has had positive effects with regards to the side effects of chemo. It's worth a thought.