when am i
where
it sounds like
alone
i don't think so
mamaaa...mamaaaa
what's happening
its' all gone
i used to play here
i think this is...
no, definitely not
so what's wrong
this is not exactly true
is it?
its time...time
need a little time
nothing to worry about
i wish things
could stay the same
if nothing changed
the important
the beautiful
seasons change
colors bloom
the rain comes
new life
a watering hole
or
metamorphosis
it happens all the time
but i've got this
work to finish
first
peace,
jo
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"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
when am i
where
it sounds like
alone
i don't think so
mamaaa...mamaaaa
what's happening
its' all gone
i used to play here
i think this is...
no, definitely not
so what's wrong
this is not exactly true
is it?
its time...time
need a little time
nothing to worry about
i wish things
could stay the same
if nothing changed
the important
the beautiful
seasons change
colors bloom
the rain comes
new life
a watering hole
or
metamorphosis
it happens all the time
but i've got this
work to finish
first
i can't even remember
her face
i've tried
oh god how
i've tried
its fuzzy
oh so fuzzy now
its been so long
maybe too long
she's gone
we had a good life
can't complain
but why
i don't know why
i let them go
they were my
children
my children too
when she went
i just couldn't be
just couldn't
look
at their faces
too much of
her
in them
they don't know
how could they
i never told
i never could
i should have
should have
should have what?
confessed that
my life was over
she was dead
and my life was
over?
they couldn't have
understood
and now
how would they
now
so many years
so many tears
no one knows
no ones seen
least of all
them
here i sit
alone
old
so so lonesome
i guess i always
meant to fix it
someday
maybe someday's
now too late
sorry
so sorry
sorry for
myself
not right
no..not right
i should be
sorry for them
yes, for them
i only wish
i could have
been a man
the man i
wanted to be
the man
they wanted me
to be
been a father
been their dad
i could have called
even after so long
i could have tried
harder
maybe they'd listen
maybe they'd understand
my reasons
reasons for what?
abandoning them?
i'm too old
too tired
and just too damned old
now
it's too damned
late
peace,
jo
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"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
Yes I remember peace, hearts, goodness
My eyes are the eyes of the old
Yet my spirit is frozen somewhere
In my youth
A juvenile
Delinquent
A puerile impetuous young man
I could tell you exactly where
Exactly where I left it
In a restaurant on valentines day 1996
The day a young man
Terrified
Ran from his own mother
Fleeing demons, real demons
To be trapped
Or rescued?
By a stranger
'Your mum is looking for you son'
She is pleading, weeping
At her wits end'
Please come back
To be rescued by an ambulance?
To be pinned down
And revived in a hazy corridor
Of fleeting shadows, of melted faces
Of friends faces merging into distant pasts and futures of unspeakable horror
Of a bunch of flowers on a waiting room table
Of a terrified mother and father
As I described the looping vision of cartoony exploding flowers, showers
As I shouted, shouted
'Please please don't do this to me, you are evil, pure evil'
As I was locked away.
And this is as far back as I can go in safety right now
Let's cut to later
And I'm exactly halfway through my years
If I'm lucky
And I'm bringing myself close to tears
And I'm eating poached eggs with ketchup
And they're going cold
And I wish I could be old
As my years
OMG so powerful
so full of hard earned truth
makes my heart ache
remembering
wonderful work.
you always take me there
whether or not
"There"
is a place i want to see
Thank you for that
may peace find you
jo
peace,
jo
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"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
Keep your wits about you
Keep your shit together
Keep your stuff close
'Cause no-one knows the hour
It's gonna come
And you are really just going to have to
GO
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There's some great stuff developing in this thread. So much to comment on, digest, think about, praise - the paintings- is that your work Pandora? Either way it's fantastic. AcrossOceans your words seem to be coming clearer and clearer (to me).
Pandora, you should save that Buddha into your avatar. I think you've been eddie clapping for far too long now!!
Thanks still-here. Sometimes when I write like that I feel a bit of a 'cheat' - it's kind of easy to evoke something by just stating some brutal facts Anyway, it is what it is
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Keep your wits about you
Keep your shit together
Keep your stuff close
'Cause no-one knows the hour
It's gonna come
And you are really just going to have to
GO
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Keep your wits about you
Keep your shit together
Keep your stuff close
'Cause no-one knows the hour
It's gonna come
And you are really just going to have to
GO
I think I need to try and be a bit kinder, bit less cruel, for a while (tho it's a cruel wild world out there)
When I wrote that I was thinking of my past, thinking of parts of the bible, and also the feelings right now. When I read it back though it reminded me of the work I did in homeless shelters with youth and with women over many years. Not really a subject matter I would want to write about if I'm trying to be kinder
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I just got back here to see all this now and I am crying,
Sorry I must be easy today but this really warms my heart.
All the outpouring of emotion, souls open to each other
creating, sharing, conversing, understanding.
Thank you all so much.
I too am gonna read back through all this wonderment
and digest it.
Makes me feel at home,
to come here and and read these words
Its really a hard thing to explain, I don't feel alone.
I feel full of all your thoughts and it feels really good.
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"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
Keep your wits about you
Keep your shit together
Keep your stuff close
'Cause no-one knows the hour
It's gonna come
And you are really just going to have to
GO
I think I need to try and be a bit kinder, bit less cruel, for a while (tho it's a cruel wild world out there)
When I wrote that I was thinking of my past, thinking of parts of the bible, and also the feelings right now. When I read it back though it reminded me of the work I did in homeless shelters with youth and with women over many years. Not really a subject matter I would want to write about if I'm trying to be kinder
we could all be a little kinder in our lives
but here....we don't need to be anything..but whatever we're feeling in the moment
scare me all you want
if it scares me....its powerful
and meaningful
if i cry
if i'm scared
if i laugh
if i feel
then you've done good
peace,
jo
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Pandora, you should save that Buddha into your avatar. I think you've been eddie clapping for far too long now!!
My avatar is a symbol I may never give up. It is from when Eddie was here in Atl at the Rialto Theatre April of 09.
I had been injured, bedridden for a couple months and was just starting to walk with a walker.
I so wanted to go and the Rialto is a customer of ours so I could have but I would have had to have gone in a wheelchair. I didn't want that, I wanted to be back to being me again so bad.
I was at a very low point in my life and I don't ever want to forget that, where I was.
He reminds me of all the good things in my life now. How far I have come and everything I have to be thankful for.
Eddie has always been a driving force and now he symbolizes the freedom I have regained, the love of my family who took care of me most especially JB, and the new me that was born from that trauma.
His smiling face means the world to me.
I know each time I see it that I am a very lucky girl
i never
thought
i'd
still
be in hiding
life is over
on this plane
hiding?
i'm not
hiding
i'm crying out
please hear me
please see me
please release me
i'm here
just a few steps
to the light
i can forgive
the violence
all but forgotten now
i can forgive the hate
all but erased
but why do i have
to hide
to be hidden
will i spend
eternity
lost in
the darkness
no
i won't
allow it
i will scream
i will fight
i will cry out
in silence
to those
who might hear
somehow
i'm here
please find me
release me
from this place
you!
because of you
a life
lived in
darkness
a life
spent in
shadowed corners
a life
spent
just spent
nothing more
spent hiding
from
you
your rage
your
ugly soul
o so lucky
they'd say
what a nice man
o so lucky
a nice, nice man
nice on the outside
dark
unholy
on the inside
a demon
never revealed
in the light
of day
timid soul
loving soul
mother
sister
friend
hiding
always hiding
from the world
from the truth
from myself
but in death
this
should not be
i'm still
in hiding
still
hidden
and that
i cannot
forgive
as
i lived my
life
now
you will
live yours
oh hide
hide yourself
well my love
hide
or
run
seek out
sheltered corners
or
live in
fear
because
you
don't know
if
you
have
hidden
me
well
peace,
jo
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"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
but here....we don't need to be anything..but whatever we're feeling in the moment
scare me all you want
if it scares me....its powerful
and meaningful
if i cry
if i'm scared
if i laugh
if i feel
then you've done good
kewl. I'll try this:
A poetical youth from Japan
Wrote verse that would never quite scan
When asked why it was
He replied 'it's because
I always try and fit as many words into the last line as I possibly can.'
He had a brother in China
Whose verses were very much finer
He said
'I intend
For my poetry to end
quite suddenly'
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Eddie has always been a driving force and now he symbolizes the freedom I have regained, the love of my family who took care of me most especially JB, and the new me that was born from that trauma.
His smiling face means the world to me.
I know each time I see it that I am a very lucky girl
You explain a lot. Was very moving reading that - this bit I could apply to myself equally
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but here....we don't need to be anything..but whatever we're feeling in the moment
scare me all you want
if it scares me....its powerful
and meaningful
if i cry
if i'm scared
if i laugh
if i feel
then you've done good
kewl. I'll try this:
A poetical youth from Japan
Wrote verse that would never quite scan
When asked why it was
He replied 'it's because
I always try and fit as many words into the last line as I possibly can.'
He had a brother in China
Whose verses were very much finer
He said
'I intend
For my poetry to end
quite suddenly'
peace,
jo
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"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
i never
thought
i'd
still
be in hiding
life is over
on this plane
hiding?
i'm not
hiding
i'm crying out
please hear me
please see me
please release me
i'm here
just a few steps
to the light
i can forgive
the violence
all but forgotten now
i can forgive the hate
all but erased
but why do i have
to hide
to be hidden
will i spend
eternity
lost in
the darkness
no
i won't
allow it
i will scream
i will fight
i will cry out
in silence
to those
who might hear
somehow
i'm here
please find me
release me
from this place
you!
because of you
a life
lived in
darkness
a life
spent in
shadowed corners
a life
spent
just spent
nothing more
spent hiding
from
you
your rage
your
ugly soul
o so lucky
they'd say
what a nice man
o so lucky
a nice, nice man
nice on the outside
dark
unholy
on the inside
a demon
never revealed
in the light
of day
timid soul
loving soul
mother
sister
friend
hiding
always hiding
from the world
from the truth
from myself
but in death
this
should not be
i'm still
in hiding
still
hidden
and that
i cannot
forgive
as
i lived my
life
now
you will
live yours
oh hide
hide yourself
well my love
hide
or
run
seek out
sheltered corners
or
live in
fear
because
you
don't know
if
you
have
hidden
me
well
very very good Jo, I love the sad and all too common situation in you brought. The emotional pleading, a life over. The story of a good woman at the hands of a deceptive evil man. I love the ending too, the sweet revenge her bones will bring. Very cool and very creative thank you
i know i'll have something to say about this
after dinner
peace,
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
i never
thought
i'd
still
be in hiding
life is over
on this plane
hiding?
i'm not
hiding
i'm crying out
please hear me
please see me
please release me
i'm here
just a few steps
to the light
i can forgive
the violence
all but forgotten now
i can forgive the hate
all but erased
but why do i have
to hide
to be hidden
will i spend
eternity
lost in
the darkness
no
i won't
allow it
i will scream
i will fight
i will cry out
in silence
to those
who might hear
somehow
i'm here
please find me
release me
from this place
you!
because of you
a life
lived in
darkness
a life
spent in
shadowed corners
a life
spent
just spent
nothing more
spent hiding
from
you
your rage
your
ugly soul
o so lucky
they'd say
what a nice man
o so lucky
a nice, nice man
nice on the outside
dark
unholy
on the inside
a demon
never revealed
in the light
of day
timid soul
loving soul
mother
sister
friend
hiding
always hiding
from the world
from the truth
from myself
but in death
this
should not be
i'm still
in hiding
still
hidden
and that
i cannot
forgive
as
i lived my
life
now
you will
live yours
oh hide
hide yourself
well my love
hide
or
run
seek out
sheltered corners
or
live in
fear
because
you
don't know
if
you
have
hidden
me
well
very very good Jo, I love the sad and all too common situation in you brought. The emotional pleading, a life over. The story of a good woman at the hands of a deceptive evil man. I love the ending too, the sweet revenge her bones will bring. Very cool and very creative thank you
thanks
unfortunately i know most of that story all too well
except for the dead part...obviously...i was "lucky" enough to get my kids and myself out of there
but not before so much damage was done...time is working on that....and i still blame myself for things i never knew that my kids went through
and no one knew...well, almost no one..and certainly no one said anything or helped
i was going to "Fix" it..fix him....hahaaaaaa...now i KNOW what a joke that is...not funny but a real joke
its a sad sad thing that so many never get out .....at least not in time
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peace,
jo
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"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
this could be anyone one of us. so be compassionate and nonjudgemental cause you just dont know.
oh yes, i certainly know....sad, sad....
peace,
jo
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"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
they toss me
a blanket
the shelters' have
room
but that's
not for me
i've been there
it's bad
white cornered sheets
shower for some
i know the routine
i know how its done
getting too comfy
in a room full of cots
getting too buggy
your brain
starts to rot
no...
i'll take
my chances
here on the street
i need me a
miracle
a
miracle
please
thirty years
hard earned years
i gave them
my all
they gave me
the title
the office
the fame
they paid me a
dollar
and who would
complain?
gold watch
territory
is what i was in
the unemployment line
is now where i've been
even that's over
they've done all
they can
the welfare line's callin
the pantry
cold cans
all of the grief
and all of the pain
what's left
the 99er
but a box
its profane!
kids
are so great
offered a bed
despite
my protesting
i took it in dread
a man needs
some resting
a little while
for his head
but i can tell you
yes sir
when i've
run out of
welcome
i need
me a
miracle
so tell me
can you
tell me
when
will that
be?
over
qualified
a tad too old
that's what
they said
well, at least
its what's in
my head
i'd do it all
anyway
pay me ten dollars
to pull out
some weeds
hand out the
french fries
patch up the knees
dig you a ditch
don't need
to be rich
no office
on wall street
no desk
down the hall
they've given
me thirty
and taken my
all
over it
over it
over it all
no recourse
to be taken
none to be had
oh, look down upon me
i know that you will
when i turn my head
toss me a quarter
maybe a dime
if you're lucky
enough to
have it
today
throw me a
miracle
i'll take
that
instead
can't be
too proud
nope
been by that route
my ego is
broken
falls through
the cracks
in the grate
right below
look at him, man
a disgrace
what a bum
just a hobo
get a job
yeah, i hear you
but, hey
don't you know
that you could
be here
just as
easily
as me?
i surely
was like you
believe it
it's true
it doesn't take much
not easy to see
no
you can't imagine
how fast
it can be
so where
is that
miracle
that they
promised
me
so count
on your
blessings
oh count on
your faith
that job that
you had
friday
will still be
there
next day
can you
see me
the real me
right here
on the flue
and looking
up at you
yeah
I pity YOU
cuz i
see that
my dear boy
you haven't
a clue
waitin on
a miracle
a miracle
please
i lie here
in shame
i've done
all i can
i don't want
your offers
not your dime
in my can
but i take
your quarters
and i take
your swill
i'd rather be
working
and doing
my will
complaining
bout healthcare
and hating my job
than lying here
naked
in front of
you all
i wish
you
could see
the only
thing that
i need
is a
miracle
yes, i need
a
miracle
please
peace,
jo
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Comments
I hold my breath everytime I gaze into this picture Pandora... whether I've got words to put out is another question, but it's good for my head...
it's like heaven beyond hell...
it reflects my thoughts, so thank you : )
when I saw it I felt it told a story, more so then many paintings
when am i
where
it sounds like
alone
i don't think so
mamaaa...mamaaaa
what's happening
its' all gone
i used to play here
i think this is...
no, definitely not
so what's wrong
this is not exactly true
is it?
its time...time
need a little time
nothing to worry about
i wish things
could stay the same
if nothing changed
the important
the beautiful
seasons change
colors bloom
the rain comes
new life
a watering hole
or
metamorphosis
it happens all the time
but i've got this
work to finish
first
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
"I wish things
could stay the same
...seasons change"
a very real feeling... nice
I wonder if he'll come
I hope he comes
It's been long
He'll have grown big... by now
bet he's a good man
huh ... wonder if he looks like me
... hope he wears a better suit than I do
I'll buy him one
I should order somethin
hope he's hungry
..should've asked his mother what he likes to eat
huh...
man I fucked up
the things I've done
what have I done
forgive me my son
i can't even remember
her face
i've tried
oh god how
i've tried
its fuzzy
oh so fuzzy now
its been so long
maybe too long
she's gone
we had a good life
can't complain
but why
i don't know why
i let them go
they were my
children
my children too
when she went
i just couldn't be
just couldn't
look
at their faces
too much of
her
in them
they don't know
how could they
i never told
i never could
i should have
should have
should have what?
confessed that
my life was over
she was dead
and my life was
over?
they couldn't have
understood
and now
how would they
now
so many years
so many tears
no one knows
no ones seen
least of all
them
here i sit
alone
old
so so lonesome
i guess i always
meant to fix it
someday
maybe someday's
now too late
sorry
so sorry
sorry for
myself
not right
no..not right
i should be
sorry for them
yes, for them
i only wish
i could have
been a man
the man i
wanted to be
the man
they wanted me
to be
been a father
been their dad
i could have called
even after so long
i could have tried
harder
maybe they'd listen
maybe they'd understand
my reasons
reasons for what?
abandoning them?
i'm too old
too tired
and just too damned old
now
it's too damned
late
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
OMG so powerful
so full of hard earned truth
makes my heart ache
remembering
wonderful work.
you always take me there
whether or not
"There"
is a place i want to see
Thank you for that
may peace find you
jo
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
Keep your wits about you
Keep your shit together
Keep your stuff close
'Cause no-one knows the hour
It's gonna come
And you are really just going to have to
GO
Send my credentials to the house of detention
Pandora, you should save that Buddha into your avatar. I think you've been eddie clapping for far too long now!!
Thanks still-here. Sometimes when I write like that I feel a bit of a 'cheat' - it's kind of easy to evoke something by just stating some brutal facts Anyway, it is what it is
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scary! absolutely terrifying..
really :shock: :shock:
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
I know, it just scared the crap out of me too.
I think I need to try and be a bit kinder, bit less cruel, for a while (tho it's a cruel wild world out there)
When I wrote that I was thinking of my past, thinking of parts of the bible, and also the feelings right now. When I read it back though it reminded me of the work I did in homeless shelters with youth and with women over many years. Not really a subject matter I would want to write about if I'm trying to be kinder
Send my credentials to the house of detention
Sorry I must be easy today but this really warms my heart.
All the outpouring of emotion, souls open to each other
creating, sharing, conversing, understanding.
Thank you all so much.
I too am gonna read back through all this wonderment
and digest it.
Makes me feel at home,
to come here and and read these words
Its really a hard thing to explain, I don't feel alone.
I feel full of all your thoughts and it feels really good.
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
we could all be a little kinder in our lives
but here....we don't need to be anything..but whatever we're feeling in the moment
scare me all you want
if it scares me....its powerful
and meaningful
if i cry
if i'm scared
if i laugh
if i feel
then you've done good
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
I had been injured, bedridden for a couple months and was just starting to walk with a walker.
I so wanted to go and the Rialto is a customer of ours so I could have but I would have had to have gone in a wheelchair. I didn't want that, I wanted to be back to being me again so bad.
I was at a very low point in my life and I don't ever want to forget that, where I was.
He reminds me of all the good things in my life now. How far I have come and everything I have to be thankful for.
Eddie has always been a driving force and now he symbolizes the freedom I have regained, the love of my family who took care of me most especially JB, and the new me that was born from that trauma.
His smiling face means the world to me.
I know each time I see it that I am a very lucky girl
My world has disappeared.
I can see nothing, I can feel nothing.
I don't want any of it.
I just want to be alone.
'LEAVE ME ALONE' screams in my head.
But I can't be alone,
I can't run.
I can't hide.
I can't go to sleep,
I can't wash it away.
I can't dream it away.
'Please just make it go away'
'Someone please make this go away'
I just need to be alone,
and I am sorry.
i never
thought
i'd
still
be in hiding
life is over
on this plane
hiding?
i'm not
hiding
i'm crying out
please hear me
please see me
please release me
i'm here
just a few steps
to the light
i can forgive
the violence
all but forgotten now
i can forgive the hate
all but erased
but why do i have
to hide
to be hidden
will i spend
eternity
lost in
the darkness
no
i won't
allow it
i will scream
i will fight
i will cry out
in silence
to those
who might hear
somehow
i'm here
please find me
release me
from this place
you!
because of you
a life
lived in
darkness
a life
spent in
shadowed corners
a life
spent
just spent
nothing more
spent hiding
from
you
your rage
your
ugly soul
o so lucky
they'd say
what a nice man
o so lucky
a nice, nice man
nice on the outside
dark
unholy
on the inside
a demon
never revealed
in the light
of day
timid soul
loving soul
mother
sister
friend
hiding
always hiding
from the world
from the truth
from myself
but in death
this
should not be
i'm still
in hiding
still
hidden
and that
i cannot
forgive
as
i lived my
life
now
you will
live yours
oh hide
hide yourself
well my love
hide
or
run
seek out
sheltered corners
or
live in
fear
because
you
don't know
if
you
have
hidden
me
well
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
kewl. I'll try this:
A poetical youth from Japan
Wrote verse that would never quite scan
When asked why it was
He replied 'it's because
I always try and fit as many words into the last line as I possibly can.'
He had a brother in China
Whose verses were very much finer
He said
'I intend
For my poetry to end
quite suddenly'
Send my credentials to the house of detention
You explain a lot. Was very moving reading that - this bit I could apply to myself equally
Send my credentials to the house of detention
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
Send my credentials to the house of detention
i know i'll have something to say about this
after dinner
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
thanks
unfortunately i know most of that story all too well
except for the dead part...obviously...i was "lucky" enough to get my kids and myself out of there
but not before so much damage was done...time is working on that....and i still blame myself for things i never knew that my kids went through
and no one knew...well, almost no one..and certainly no one said anything or helped
i was going to "Fix" it..fix him....hahaaaaaa...now i KNOW what a joke that is...not funny but a real joke
its a sad sad thing that so many never get out .....at least not in time
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
this could be anyone one of us. so be compassionate and nonjudgemental cause you just dont know.
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
oh yes, i certainly know....sad, sad....
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
he said hed never leave
one stupid mistake
and he was gone
one conscious decision
and i could be with him
but thats not what i want
take a good look
this could be the day
hold my hand
lie beside me
i just need to say
they toss me
a blanket
the shelters' have
room
but that's
not for me
i've been there
it's bad
white cornered sheets
shower for some
i know the routine
i know how its done
getting too comfy
in a room full of cots
getting too buggy
your brain
starts to rot
no...
i'll take
my chances
here on the street
i need me a
miracle
a
miracle
please
thirty years
hard earned years
i gave them
my all
they gave me
the title
the office
the fame
they paid me a
dollar
and who would
complain?
gold watch
territory
is what i was in
the unemployment line
is now where i've been
even that's over
they've done all
they can
the welfare line's callin
the pantry
cold cans
all of the grief
and all of the pain
what's left
the 99er
but a box
its profane!
kids
are so great
offered a bed
despite
my protesting
i took it in dread
a man needs
some resting
a little while
for his head
but i can tell you
yes sir
when i've
run out of
welcome
i need
me a
miracle
so tell me
can you
tell me
when
will that
be?
over
qualified
a tad too old
that's what
they said
well, at least
its what's in
my head
i'd do it all
anyway
pay me ten dollars
to pull out
some weeds
hand out the
french fries
patch up the knees
dig you a ditch
don't need
to be rich
no office
on wall street
no desk
down the hall
they've given
me thirty
and taken my
all
over it
over it
over it all
no recourse
to be taken
none to be had
oh, look down upon me
i know that you will
when i turn my head
toss me a quarter
maybe a dime
if you're lucky
enough to
have it
today
throw me a
miracle
i'll take
that
instead
can't be
too proud
nope
been by that route
my ego is
broken
falls through
the cracks
in the grate
right below
look at him, man
a disgrace
what a bum
just a hobo
get a job
yeah, i hear you
but, hey
don't you know
that you could
be here
just as
easily
as me?
i surely
was like you
believe it
it's true
it doesn't take much
not easy to see
no
you can't imagine
how fast
it can be
so where
is that
miracle
that they
promised
me
so count
on your
blessings
oh count on
your faith
that job that
you had
friday
will still be
there
next day
can you
see me
the real me
right here
on the flue
and looking
up at you
yeah
I pity YOU
cuz i
see that
my dear boy
you haven't
a clue
waitin on
a miracle
a miracle
please
i lie here
in shame
i've done
all i can
i don't want
your offers
not your dime
in my can
but i take
your quarters
and i take
your swill
i'd rather be
working
and doing
my will
complaining
bout healthcare
and hating my job
than lying here
naked
in front of
you all
i wish
you
could see
the only
thing that
i need
is a
miracle
yes, i need
a
miracle
please
jo
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"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~
wheewwww
jo
http://www.Etsy.com/Shop/SimpleEarthCreations
"How I choose to feel is how I am." ~ EV/MMc
"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness and they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy, or they become legends." ~ One Stab ~