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the wolf

pandora wrote:

StillHere wrote:

the wolf wrote:

last breath

I wiped her face,.
the bile from her mouth, and nose
I cleaned her up the best I could,..
she was helpless
defeated,..
I was afraid to move her,..
she felt so,... frail
I was terrified I would break her,..
gently,..
I picked her up,..
and carried her to her deathbed.

i'm sooo sorry
i can't help but cry
for i know your pain
all too well
she is with hankie and jake now
and i'm so so sorry
your tears are my tears
and i cry for us all

Hey Jo
I love his name Hankie, you know, that is just so sweet, just like him.
It's hard the first Christmas, my heart goes out to you both.

yeah,.. it's my first Christmas ever completley on my own.
the ex came by on Sunday and picked up all her Christmas decorations and as i was taking the stuff out
to her car,.. i noticed dog hair on so much of it.
i just said,.. "look, Princess and Zillah hair".
i've been in a deep deep funk since then.

this Christmas is going to blow.

pandora

the wolf wrote:

pandora wrote:

StillHere wrote:

i'm sooo sorry
i can't help but cry
for i know your pain
all too well
she is with hankie and jake now
and i'm so so sorry
your tears are my tears
and i cry for us all

Hey Jo
I love his name Hankie, you know, that is just so sweet, just like him.
It's hard the first Christmas, my heart goes out to you both.

yeah,.. it's my first Christmas ever completley on my own.
the ex came by on Sunday and picked up all her Christmas decorations and as i was taking the stuff out
to her car,.. i noticed dog hair on so much of it.
i just said,.. "look, Princess and Zillah hair".
i've been in a deep deep funk since then.

this Christmas is going to blow.

Some holiday years are like that.... just.... getting through.
We have had some hard ones too but then that humbling makes you appreciate the better so much more.
You're in my thoughts dear and I still say
not to harp like Moms do
give your love to someone new
Can't waste a good human and that you are

StillHere

the wolf wrote:

the wolf wrote:

last breath

I wiped her face,.
the bile from her mouth, and nose
I cleaned her up the best I could,..
she was helpless
defeated,..
I was afraid to move her,..
she felt so,... frail
I was terrified I would break her,..
gently,..
I picked her up,..
and carried her to her deathbed.

yeah,.. it's my first Christmas ever completley on my own.
the ex came by on Sunday and picked up all her Christmas decorations and as i was taking the stuff out
to her car,.. i noticed dog hair on so much of it.
i just said,.. "look, Princess and Zillah hair".
i've been in a deep deep funk since then.

this Christmas is going to blow.

i'm so sad that you're so sad
been there
oh yes
it gets better
believe me it does
too bad you're so far away
in the physical sense
but in my heart you're close
and we can lean on each other
we all have each other
hugs
be sound (i stole that line but its worth repeating)

justam

the wolf wrote:

yeah,.. it's my first Christmas ever completley on my own.
the ex came by on Sunday and picked up all her Christmas decorations and as i was taking the stuff out
to her car,.. i noticed dog hair on so much of it.
i just said,.. "look, Princess and Zillah hair".
i've been in a deep deep funk since then.

this Christmas is going to blow.

That's tough wolf.

pandora

StillHere wrote:

you know, i was seriously thinking about getting a pup for the little kids for the holidays, a shelter pup like hankie was, but now, with the tears streaming down so hard i can't even see what i'm typing, i just don't know if i can

god, who knew this could be so hard
so so hard

The saddest thing is go to animal control and look in their eyes and know that they will leave this world in a matter of days. Love.... life wasted.....
Anyone out there if you have love to give go save a life

Dog is God spelled backwards...Mans best friend...it was the plan...let one into your life's plan today


Jo, Hankie would want you to love again but I know, your heart will tell you when. To hold a warm little body against yours, to get that unexpected lick or nudge to your hand, to look over and see those eyes watching you from across the room, grateful eyes that know.
They are truly a blessing.

StillHere

pandora wrote:

StillHere wrote:

you know, i was seriously thinking about getting a pup for the little kids for the holidays, a shelter pup like hankie was, but now, with the tears streaming down so hard i can't even see what i'm typing, i just don't know if i can

god, who knew this could be so hard
so so hard

The saddest thing is go to animal control and look in their eyes and know that they will leave this world in a matter of days. Love.... life wasted.....
Anyone out there if you have love to give go save a life

Dog is God spelled backwards...Mans best friend...it was the plan...let one into your life's plan today


Jo, Hankie would want you to love again but I know, your heart will tell you when. To hold a warm little body against yours, to get that unexpected lick or nudge to your hand, to look over and see those eyes watching you from across the room, grateful eyes that know.
They are truly a blessing.

I do so want to rescue another little guy.
But every time I come here to this thread I cry my eyes out.
Then I go look on Petfinder.com and I see sad eyes staring back at me.
And URGENT posts that this one or that one will be euthanized "by heart stick" WTF???????/
It's nearly unbearable.
I'm not sure what to do.
I want to share my love.
And when I see these pups on their respective webpages
Its all I can do to keep from running over there and getting them ALL
Then I think to myself,
what if I am always comparing the little guy to Hankie?
That wouldn't work
There is no one that will ever compare
And it surely wouldn't be fair
i know i will try not to
Compare that is
But I'm afraid of not appreciating a new little guy
the way i should
Then again
How could I not?
Yes..DOG...GOD...I believe it
I wish hankie was here to help me decide
and choose the right little guy
This is going to sound so horrible
but i think it's true
that even though my own dad
passed away 5 years ago
i think that i miss
Hankie more
I certainly cry a lot more over Hankie
especially now
Is that so wrong?
I can't believe I wrote that out loud.
Well..but its the truth, at least for now
What should I do?
Should I go get the new little guy?
I know he'd love it here

the wolf

I don't think it's wrong. Losing both my dogs has been harder on me then losing both my parents in ways, and i was really close with my parents.

there is something about being responsible for the dogs that makes it hard for me i guess.
they depended on me to take care of them,.. to do what was best for them,...
i don't know.

I'm sorry I made you sad.

BinauralJam

pandora

'It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all'
this can be said for the fear to love again too.
Don't be afraid, have faith.
Faith that the right time will come and the right new friend will find it's to you.

Jo, the comparisons will be positive. Your new friend will do this or that like Hankie,
do things to remind you of him forever. Its kind of like a living tribute.
Yes you will compare but no one will replace Hankie.... it will be new love.

My Lucy was heaven sent..she is so much like Jake.
Savannah found Lucy 2 years ago to the day, in a garbage dump, so skinny...
she's 81 pounds of love now sleeping peacefully beside me.


We all should be thankful we feel...even when it's sad feelings.
Feeling is why we are here and how we learn what's truly important in this life.
And no one can judge how we choose to feel.
If someone mourns the loss of their animal friend more than a human bond,so be it,
that is their love lost.

I think Steve's poem was a blessing to help us share these feelings,
it touched all our hearts and maybe many more.

pandora

BinauralJam wrote:

oh my she is pretty
we should get some nice poetry aroused by that

BinauralJam

i actually posted the wrong pic, too many pages open, here's what i ment to post.
Although i'm glad you like her, i think that's Sexy as hell.

StillHere

the wolf wrote:

I don't think it's wrong. Losing both my dogs has been harder on me then losing both my parents in ways, and i was really close with my parents.

there is something about being responsible for the dogs that makes it hard for me i guess.
they depended on me to take care of them,.. to do what was best for them,...
i don't know.

I'm sorry I made you sad.

YOU didn't make me sad wolf
life without hankie makes me sad
i'm sure you understand
i'm just right there with you that's all
we gotta pick ourselves up by our bootstraps, right?
you know what we need?
we need some eddie up in here
after he's done down under
we need him up in here.
and PJ... and some of mike's crying guitar
so i can close my eyes and go off to that special place
where life is good and we're all together
i think it will be a good PJ live year
and that will pull us right out of our funk
most definitely
feel kinda biploar these days
and yet
i have so much to be thankful for
my kids, their kids
a roof over my head
being able to be with my kids and grandkids
every single day (well, usually)
being warm
having you guys to talk to and call my friends
living in a "free" country (that's a whole other discussion)
waking up every morning
food, way too much food for my own good :roll:
clean water
my health, such as it is, at least i have doctors to prescribe me meds for my pain
so much else to be truly thankful for
why do i dwell on what i'm missing?
well, because i miss him
i think it might just be time for another little shelter guy in my life
and wolf, i hope you have things to be thankful for too
if i just stop and take a quick look at my life
i'm kinda embarrassed for whining so much

StillHere

pandora wrote:

'It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all'
this can be said for the fear to love again too.
Don't be afraid, have faith.
Faith that the right time will come and the right new friend will find it's to you.

Jo, the comparisons will be positive. Your new friend will do this or that like Hankie,
do things to remind you of him forever. Its kind of like a living tribute.
Yes you will compare but no one will replace Hankie.... it will be new love.

My Lucy was heaven sent..she is so much like Jake.
Savannah found Lucy 2 years ago to the day, in a garbage dump, so skinny...
she's 81 pounds of love now sleeping peacefully beside me.


We all should be thankful we feel...even when it's sad feelings.
Feeling is why we are here and how we learn what's truly important in this life.
And no one can judge how we choose to feel.
If someone mourns the loss of their animal friend more than a human bond,so be it,
that is their love lost.

I think Steve's poem was a blessing to help us share these feelings,
it touched all our hearts and maybe many more.

pandi, how did you ever get to be so wise
you are so right
and you always know just how to relate what needs to be said
thanks for the insight
and the support

and to wolf
i hope that pandi's words are just as uplifting to you as they are to me
life will go on
and we will be happy
and yes, pandi, we will love again
thanks so much for reminding me
<3<3

pandora

StillHere wrote:

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pandi, how did you ever get to be so wise
you are so right
and you always know just how to relate what needs to be said
thanks for the insight
and the support

and to wolf
i hope that pandi's words are just as uplifting to you as they are to me
life will go on
and we will be happy
and yes, pandi, we will love again
thanks so much for reminding me
<3<3

Jo, you are a beautiful, courageous, sensitive, giving spirit with so much love ...some very lucky little dog will find you...
I can't wait to know them!

pandora

the wolf

tremors

the wolf wrote:

Once upon a time I left no tracks
And then wherever I went they followed me
Hounded by the trail itself
Wishing I could just rise up above it all
And look down from a safer place
Just look down and take it all in
The view, the forest, the snow, the figures
Far away telescoped and freeze framed
And not threatening me.
You know I used to watch TV and wish I could see
just that, life I couldn't live, without getting involved
Without being scared
of the world
Just press a button and teleport into the tv box
And be happy
Living other people's lives
Well today I've teleported myself to here
From far away
Today
I sit with that life that once was wrenched from me

tremors

So much I could tell them
Yet probably never shall
Like the shivering alone in the hole
Watching the walls cave in
With not a soul to cling to
Too scared to leave the cage
And forced to tiptoe and piss in the sink
Pissing with fear and loneliness
And the years, the years
Struggling alone
Fighting a force that never relented
Only humilty and the head down and the music
That kept me alive
The daily pacts
With myself
To survive
The scribbled notes
Pleas desperate to turn to affimations
The daily hell
The isolation
The never ending tunnel
The years
The years
So frightened
For all those years
Too many years

the wolf

Your awesome Tremors. Great stuff.

the wolf

I think I’ll go it alone,
this journey
the path laid out for me,
and me alone
I wish I could take you,
I wish I could have saved you
from me,
from us
I caught a snowflake on my tongue,..
it tasted like the end of the world.