My husband just killed himself, and I wanted to let you know that..

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  • darthvedder88
    darthvedder88 Posts: 1,023
    That is just awful. I'm very sorry that you're are going through such a terrible point in your life. We'll give you all the love you need. Listen to "Light Years" I heard that Eddie wrote it for a friend who had died.
    "Darth Vader would say 'Impressive'."

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  • Killoran
    Killoran Posts: 27
    darthvedder88 wrote:
    That is just awful. I'm very sorry that you're are going through such a terrible point in your life. We'll give you all the love you need. Listen to "Light Years" I heard that Eddie wrote it for a friend who had died.

    I'm not sure if I'll be able to handle listening to Pearl Jam ever again, but I'm definately going to try..
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  • oi loike da...
    oi loike da... Posts: 37
    Sorry for the loss, i can't imagine your pain.
    If anyone has any good ideas for band names PM me cause me and my band are amazingly stuck for ideas. Darn that band Pearl Jam for having such a cool name
  • gjemsel
    gjemsel Posts: 77
    I am very sorry for your loss, as well as your family and his. Let us know if you want to chat or if we can help in any of the little ways to make things seem better.
    . . . and in the aching night under satellites, I was not received. --CC
  • «¤tîg®ê§§¤»
    «¤tîg®ê§§¤» Posts: 5,137
    My thoughts and prayers go out to you. Please hang around here if youneed someone just to pass time with and chat with. We are always here and lending an ear or an outstretched hug, cyber style, are our specialties. Stay strong, and listen to the music. It may sound like a hard thing to do but you will find solice inside it. Take Care
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  • Pearl Jam and toast
    Pearl Jam and toast Posts: 4,475
    thanks for sharing.

    i'm sorry for your loss...

    this community is pretty tight... hope you're a fan too.
    Come on pilgrim you know he loves you..

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  • Killoran
    Killoran Posts: 27
    Pearl Jam and toast wrote:
    thanks for sharing.

    i'm sorry for your loss...

    this community is pretty tight... hope you're a fan too.

    Yep.. I've been a fan since I was.. 8 or 9ish? No idea.. my older sister loves Pearl Jam, so I followed her I guess.

    I just got back from the viewing/funeral, and I told him about all the support.. that everyone misses him, but he didn't get up.. so.. that was awful.

    His forehead was all bruised, not even the makeup could cover it.. his cheek too. He has a cut on his nose that wasn't there when I left a week ago.. and on his hands.
    Only a few people were actually mad at me and showed it.. they skipped over me for hugs, which is fine, I guess. I understand.. no one blames me more than myself.

    I went back to the house (which is a tiny trailer from the 60s), the carpet was taken out, the bed frame was against the wall - I guess he did it on the bed.. because his pillow (the thing I wanted more than anything else) was gone, as well as the mattress, sheets, and one of the blankets.

    okay.. no more of that. It makes me feel sick. I can't handle it.

    Just.. thank you guys. Please excse my poor grammar/spelling - I'm terribly tired, I haven't been sleeping or eating, and I'm just really out of it. Thanks.
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  • smokeabud
    smokeabud Posts: 253
    he must have had some serious issues to take his own life. i hope he is at peace .
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  • Killoran
    Killoran Posts: 27
    smokeabud wrote:
    he must have had some serious issues to take his own life. i hope he is at peace .

    He loves me more than anything, and he's so scared of losing me. He thought I was leaving him, so he started drinking again. I think it was mostly the alcohol. He changes completely when he's drunk.
    http://www.myspace.com/karatepop

    my spaceship
  • soaks the pages
    soaks the pages Posts: 91
    i'm sorry. suicide is a difficult thing to handle, and all i can say is i'm sorry and that i hope you will find comfort somehow.
    that's faarkokte.
  • Your_endorphin_rush
    Your_endorphin_rush Posts: 69
    how long were you two married?
    This is the best I could come up with.
  • smokeabud
    smokeabud Posts: 253
    Killoran wrote:
    He loves me more than anything, and he's so scared of losing me. He thought I was leaving him, so he started drinking again. I think it was mostly the alcohol. He changes completely when he's drunk.


    U speak of him in terms as if he is still alive.

    this is a strange thread.. :confused:
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    6/18/03 chicago

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  • Killoran
    Killoran Posts: 27
    Your_endorphin_rush wrote:
    how long were you two married?

    We got married in December, on my 18th birthday - 8 December.
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  • Killoran
    Killoran Posts: 27
    smokeabud wrote:
    U speak of him in terms as if he is still alive.

    this is a strange thread.. :confused:

    I just can't refer to him in past tense. I can't.
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  • Cropduster84
    Cropduster84 Posts: 1,283
    This is quite upsetting, I think i speak for everyone when I say our thoughts are with you.
    'The more I studied religions the more I am convinced that man never worshipped anything but himself.' - Sir Richard Francis Burton
  • Killoran
    Killoran Posts: 27
    Cropduster84 wrote:
    This is quite upsetting, I think i speak for everyone when I say our thoughts are with you.

    Thank you..
    http://www.myspace.com/karatepop

    my spaceship
  • guildenstern
    guildenstern Posts: 92
    everyone's here to help, even if in small ways. ciao.
    ThisIsNotAnExit
  • Killoran
    Killoran Posts: 27
    Yeah, thanks.

    If Pearl Jam ever comes to MA, then I'd like to go, and tell them how much they mean to Jason and all that.. but the odds of anything of the sort happening are slim.

    but thanks
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    my spaceship
  • Killoran
    Killoran Posts: 27
    The Indifferent One wrote:
    No, I think if you got in touch with the band somehow, over here or write a letter they would be happy to acknowledge what you want to say to them.

    It's the whole contact thing that's an issue. I can't actually talk to people, I could when Jason was around.. but now I've gone back to Old Killoran, being all panicky and shy.

    I'm fine with writing, but I wouldn't send a letter.. basically because I'm afraid it'd never be read.
    http://www.myspace.com/karatepop

    my spaceship
  • drsnjrg
    drsnjrg Posts: 58
    I'm so sorry for your loss, my heart goes out to you. We don't "know" each other but if you need a shoulder or anything, don't hesitate.

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