I don't give a shit what you're thankful for.

hedonist
hedonist Posts: 24,524
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Just say what it is (if anything).

Earlier I did more than my body could handle and paid for it with some good old-fashioned howling pain.  Had one of those ugly, dramatic cries while wallowing in self-pity, then - yet again - realized this is just how it is now.  How I am now.  So continue kicking my own ass and adjust as needed.  No way am I going to let a fucking illness or anything else take away from those precious pockets of time that life always has to offer.

Man, even in tears, perspective never fails to give me a much-needed slap in the face.

We're alive, have what we need, haven't gotten on each others' nerves too much (it's all been bonding, in a way), loving on Georgie, finding appreciation and release in so much.  Just chugging along and trying not to lose sight of the beauty this world still has to offer.

So with the hardships and sacrifices, I find myself looking around and thinking, "We're doing okay.  I'm doing okay."

Then again, I may just be quite high and pointlessly pontificating ;)
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  • F Me In The Brain
    F Me In The Brain this knows everybody from other commets Posts: 31,813
    What a wonderful (and Chadwickian) post, Hedo.

    Rock the fuck on and keep those moments coming.

    I'm thankful for you.

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  • mickeyrat
    mickeyrat Posts: 44,433
    ummm the thread title seems a tad incomplete. maybe a few more periods are needed? it reads rather cold.....
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  • deadendp
    deadendp Northeast Ohio Posts: 10,434
    hedonist said:
    Just say what it is (if anything).

    Earlier I did more than my body could handle and paid for it with some good old-fashioned howling pain.  Had one of those ugly, dramatic cries while wallowing in self-pity, then - yet again - realized this is just how it is now.  How I am now.  So continue kicking my own ass and adjust as needed.  No way am I going to let a fucking illness or anything else take away from those precious pockets of time that life always has to offer.

    Man, even in tears, perspective never fails to give me a much-needed slap in the face.

    We're alive, have what we need, haven't gotten on each others' nerves too much (it's all been bonding, in a way), loving on Georgie, finding appreciation and release in so much.  Just chugging along and trying not to lose sight of the beauty this world still has to offer.

    So with the hardships and sacrifices, I find myself looking around and thinking, "We're doing okay.  I'm doing okay."

    Then again, I may just be quite high and pointlessly pontificating ;)
    I am thankful for my tasty splat flat chocolate chip banana bread, dammit! 

    I get where you are going though. Sometimes you have to self contain in a pocket, block the outside and just take in what is going on in your own world. I would guess that it isn't that you truly don't give a shit, it's just that you need to give that shit for yourself at that point. 
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  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    Hooray for the no-more-buttless bread, Amy! One of these days, a piece for me in person :)

    mickey, I figure the message is in...the message ;) The title simply reflected my state of mind at the time. 

    F Me, love you, brother!
  • Renfield
    Renfield NYC NY Posts: 1,054
    I’m not sure what I’ve stumbled upon here... but I’ll take a piece of the banana bread please.
  • deadendp
    deadendp Northeast Ohio Posts: 10,434
    Renfield said:
    I’m not sure what I’ve stumbled upon here... but I’ll take a piece of the banana bread please.
    I even made you some tea. :smiley:

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  • eeriepadave
    eeriepadave West Chester, PA Posts: 43,201
    deadendp said:
    Renfield said:
    I’m not sure what I’ve stumbled upon here... but I’ll take a piece of the banana bread please.
    I even made you some tea. :smiley:

    Why is everyone making banana bread all of the sudden?
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  • deadendp
    deadendp Northeast Ohio Posts: 10,434
    eeriepadave said:
    deadendp said:
    Renfield said:
    I’m not sure what I’ve stumbled upon here... but I’ll take a piece of the banana bread please.
    I even made you some tea. :smiley:

    Why is everyone making banana bread all of the sudden?
    I had a few overripe bananas that needed to be used.  My husband said that he would choke them down, but . . . banana bread it is!  I made apple bread earlier in the week.  I only made that because it is my daughter's favorite for breakfast.  I generally bake something anyhow, so if you know me well enough, you know that it isn't a surprise coming out of my kitchen. 

    This week I am due to make another batch of granola.  :smiley: 
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  • deadendp
    deadendp Northeast Ohio Posts: 10,434
    I also saw where some people ordered bananas through grocery delivery.  Some services order bananas by singles and some order by bunches.  There were some people who missed the order specification and ended up with a hella big load o' bananas.  My guess is that may be part of the banana bread baking craze, too.  

    And . . . for some it is a comfort food. :smile: 
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  • Malroth
    Malroth broken down chevrolet Posts: 2,557
    I could give a shit about what you're not thankful......for.......or something.
    The worst of times..they don't phase me,
    even if I look and act really crazy.
  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    Malroth said:
    I could give a shit about what you're not thankful......for.......or something.
    Could...or couldn’t, Mal?

     I think banana bread is something I could do!
  • Renfield
    Renfield NYC NY Posts: 1,054
    deadendp said:
    Renfield said:
    I’m not sure what I’ve stumbled upon here... but I’ll take a piece of the banana bread please.
    I even made you some tea. :smiley:

    Why thank you. It looks delicious 😋 
  • deadendp
    deadendp Northeast Ohio Posts: 10,434
    Renfield said:
    deadendp said:
    Renfield said:
    I’m not sure what I’ve stumbled upon here... but I’ll take a piece of the banana bread please.
    I even made you some tea. :smiley:

    Why thank you. It looks delicious 😋 
    It's a fresh piece.  I promise I didn't eat part of it.  This piece was a victim of the Great Banana Bread collapse and rebake. 
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  • Malroth
    Malroth broken down chevrolet Posts: 2,557
    hedonist said:
    Malroth said:
    I could give a shit about what you're not thankful......for.......or something.
    Could...or couldn’t, Mal?

     I think banana bread is something I could do!

    I could too
    The worst of times..they don't phase me,
    even if I look and act really crazy.
  • Renfield
    Renfield NYC NY Posts: 1,054
    deadendp said:
    Renfield said:
    It's a fresh piece.  I promise I didn't eat part of it.  This piece was a victim of the Great Banana Bread collapse :lol::lol:
    and rebake. 
    Hysterical. And I trust you.
    I love BB, one of my top sweet treats. I don’t bake, don’t even have a proper pan for baking. I haven’t had any sweets in 6 weeks since I’m under Stay At Home. 
  • lastexitlondon
    lastexitlondon Posts: 14,898
    Banana cake here also. And the  reason.  Over ripe bananas. 
    After . Keep all the  skins in a bottle of water for a week or so and its a great  plant food. Beware it smells like puke. Plants that are ready to start fruiting
    love it. Free home plant feed. 


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  • brianlux
    brianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 43,663
    hedonist said:
    Just say what it is (if anything).

    Earlier I did more than my body could handle and paid for it with some good old-fashioned howling pain.  Had one of those ugly, dramatic cries while wallowing in self-pity, then - yet again - realized this is just how it is now.  How I am now.  So continue kicking my own ass and adjust as needed.  No way am I going to let a fucking illness or anything else take away from those precious pockets of time that life always has to offer.

    Man, even in tears, perspective never fails to give me a much-needed slap in the face.

    We're alive, have what we need, haven't gotten on each others' nerves too much (it's all been bonding, in a way), loving on Georgie, finding appreciation and release in so much.  Just chugging along and trying not to lose sight of the beauty this world still has to offer.

    So with the hardships and sacrifices, I find myself looking around and thinking, "We're doing okay.  I'm doing okay."

    Then again, I may just be quite high and pointlessly pontificating ;)

    This most definitely qualifies for the Official Henry Rollins Hack or Pack Club.  I'm digging it! 

    You might end up with a new (and most honorable)  nick name:  Hackin' Hedo!
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  • ConorKavanagh
    ConorKavanagh Ireland Posts: 1,148
    What is the Hack Or Pack Club? I haven't kept up with Henry Rollins the last few years, but was lucky enough to catch him live a few times somewhere between 2008 - 10 kind of timeframe. I guess I'm thankful for the pace of life slowing down recently and having time with my partner.
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  • rgambs
    rgambs Posts: 13,576
    I'm thankful for every damn person in my life.
    I'm thankful that the land is coming out of it's winter slumber.

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  • brianlux
    brianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 43,663
    ConorKavanagh said:
    What is the Hack Or Pack Club? I haven't kept up with Henry Rollins the last few years, but was lucky enough to catch him live a few times somewhere between 2008 - 10 kind of timeframe. I guess I'm thankful for the pace of life slowing down recently and having time with my partner.

    I made up the "Club" part, but the "hack or pack" part is something Rollins used a few times in one of his books.  He has often been very forthcoming about his issues with having depression and even what at times sounds like despair.  He came to a point where he knew he had to either hack (deal with life) or pack (giving up, giving in, or possibly even suicide?)  and told himself he was determined to hack.  That sense of determination was and still is very influential for me.  In my worst moments of anxiety, worry or depression, I think about that and convinced myself it is better to hack than it is to pack.
    "It's a sad and beautiful world"
    -Roberto Benigni

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