And now kinda sorta pissed.. yet kinda too tired even for that.. my boss just sent me home, and said take one more day.. he said I still looked half dead.. I know I still feel drained.. but I can't afford this.. I too tired to cry..
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And now kinda sorta pissed.. yet kinda too tired even for that.. my boss just sent me home, and said take one more day.. he said I still looked half dead.. I know I still feel drained.. but I can't afford this.. I too tired to cry..
Had you worked and got paid, you'd be in worse shape for tomorrow and miss another day. Hope you can put some of that stress aside for now and just chill and rest. And get better!
And now kinda sorta pissed.. yet kinda too tired even for that.. my boss just sent me home, and said take one more day.. he said I still looked half dead.. I know I still feel drained.. but I can't afford this.. I too tired to cry..
Had you worked and got paid, you'd be in worse shape for tomorrow and miss another day. Hope you can put some of that stress aside for now and just chill and rest. And get better!
Been a weird day.. a lot of PTSD crap I'm fighting today.. glad I don't work today, and that it will be done snowing tonight and 50's tomorrow.. I was having such a 'cloudy' morning that I finally broke down and spent $20 that I don't have to spend on some pot.. it has helped some.. but today is one of those days that I could smoke an ounce.. the pain is terrible today.. inside and out.. and the phantom pains ( symptom of the complex PTSD) is worse than the neuropathy today. Have no idea what triggered it.. just IS today.. yet I am filled with love and joy from my friends here.. so basically I am riding an emotional roller coaster, that I keep expecting to see blood flying from.. but those scars are over 30+ years old.. they don't bleed anymore.. I just keep looking at my arms, and thinking I should see it, because I feel the pain.. weird and tiring day today..
(((Hugs))) to you Tree. Sending you strong, healing vibes>>>>>>
Thank you. I hate days when this happens. It's so.. it is such a weird thing to experience.. you can't rationalize it away.. knowing it's not real makes it worse.. it is just insane.. and I think the frustration is just as exhausting as the pain, both phantom and real. Thank you.
Much better today.. only neuropathy to deal with today.. I can do that.. so far the phantom pain has subsided.. and thank you Jesus it wasn't the worst one.. my family other than Melissa has yet to experience that one.. the torture pains I can usually 'hide', but the beatings pains are a little harder to hide. I usually am the one hiding away for those..
Much better today.. only neuropathy to deal with today.. I can do that.. so far the phantom pain has subsided.. and thank you Jesus it wasn't the worst one.. my family other than Melissa has yet to experience that one.. the torture pains I can usually 'hide', but the beatings pains are a little harder to hide. I usually am the one hiding away for those..
Much better today.. only neuropathy to deal with today.. I can do that.. so far the phantom pain has subsided.. and thank you Jesus it wasn't the worst one.. my family other than Melissa has yet to experience that one.. the torture pains I can usually 'hide', but the beatings pains are a little harder to hide. I usually am the one hiding away for those..
May today be a much better day for you, Tree.
Thank you. You are one of the most wonderful people I have had the honor to meet from here. (I can't wait to meet the rest of you all! ) Thank you again, for yesterday. That was a brief moment of happiness amidst the memories that had my brain all whacked.. super big
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I feel like I need to listen to RVM on your behalf, Tree.
You're among the many I look forward to hugging in person.
Much better today.. only neuropathy to deal with today.. I can do that.. so far the phantom pain has subsided.. and thank you Jesus it wasn't the worst one.. my family other than Melissa has yet to experience that one.. the torture pains I can usually 'hide', but the beatings pains are a little harder to hide. I usually am the one hiding away for those..
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And then my concert season begins, so excited for that.
You never really had to begin with.
Sometimes it's not the song that makes you emotional it's the people and things that come to your mind when you hear it.
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EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
Prague Krakow Berlin 2018. Berlin 2022
EV, Taormina 1+2 2017.
I wish i was the souvenir you kept your house key on..
meet from here. (I can't wait to meet the rest of you all! ) Thank you again, for yesterday. That was a brief moment of happiness amidst the memories that had my brain all whacked.. super big
You're among the many I look forward to hugging in person.
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You never really had to begin with.
Sometimes it's not the song that makes you emotional it's the people and things that come to your mind when you hear it.
For me for so long..