Anxiety

brianlux said:

Hugh-- Last time I was near Vegas, too tired to push on any further, we camped out near a mosquito infested spring in an otherwise very arid environment. At night, we could see this massive energy glow on the horizon to the north east of us that was coming from the city of Las Vegas. Even though I was thinking about what was lost to make all those kilowatts, I couldn't help but feel the energy of the place just by seeing that glow. It even seemed strangely inviting. Whenever you get a little edgy being there, just think about all those nasty mosquitoes that are not pestering you! Keep it on the good side as best you can and will look forward to hearing how it goes.

Annafalk said:

Great story Brian, and Hugh try to think that you only have a couple of days in Vegas, take the chance to enjoy it, you'll soon be home again. Have fun and think positive. (I think it's always interesting when visiting places like that, to observe people and think a little about why are they here? What is there life story about? How could she choose that dress? etc., I know I'm weird

brianlux said:

HughFreakingDillon said:

brianlux said:

Hugh-- Last time I was near Vegas, too tired to push on any further, we camped out near a mosquito infested spring in an otherwise very arid environment. At night, we could see this massive energy glow on the horizon to the north east of us that was coming from the city of Las Vegas. Even though I was thinking about what was lost to make all those kilowatts, I couldn't help but feel the energy of the place just by seeing that glow. It even seemed strangely inviting. Whenever you get a little edgy being there, just think about all those nasty mosquitoes that are not pestering you! Keep it on the good side as best you can and will look forward to hearing how it goes.

Annafalk said:

Great story Brian, and Hugh try to think that you only have a couple of days in Vegas, take the chance to enjoy it, you'll soon be home again. Have fun and think positive. (I think it's always interesting when visiting places like that, to observe people and think a little about why are they here? What is there life story about? How could she choose that dress? etc., I know I'm weird

I completely forgot about this thread. anxiety sure is a funny thing. I had an absolute blast in Vegas, yet the entire time I was there, even though I didn't feel anxious, my IBD symptoms reared their ugly head the entire time. On the second last day I had to spend it alone in my hotel room. My wife and I were about to go for a walk and explore (our friends had already gone back home), and all of a sudden, I had to go back. And I anticipated needing to be at home base for a while, so I told her to go without me. It was a little disappointing.

we are booking a trip today for Mexico in spring 2017 with the same couple. It's going to be nerve wracking knowing what happened in Vegas won't stay in Vegas.

My recollection from years ago is that they make killer margaritas and the beer is good and cheap in Mexico if that's any help. Plus I found it to be a relaxed atmosphere down there. Hopefully that will be your experience as well, HFD!

brianlux said:

rgambs said:

I never had anxiety, or even understood it, until I ate too many mushrooms and opened a door in my head that was better left closed lol
I feel like once you have a panic attack it's like you are a heroin addict, you can go the rest of your life without another fix/attack, but you are still under it's shadow no matter what.

Breathe deep, bend your mind away from unpleasant thoughts, and trust that life is good and can be made better.
Good luck y'all!

I don't see a duck here, just a good guy sharing a story and some good thoughts.

It's hard to live with anxiety, hard to live with someone who has anxiety. I find the key for both dealing with it as well as possible and also as much as possible not putting the wonderful person I live with in that arena is to work on containment, abatement and transformation. My experience with anxiety is that it's an energy (like love or anger or the muse) and a strong one at that. Sometimes it just takes a little taming (down boy!) or it can take great force of will to contain the ripping claws inside.

Sometimes I'm able to lessen anxiety's grip but usually I look to my ally, time. Time is my friend.

Lastly, transforming anxiety into something useful might involve hours of pecking at a keyboard or a brief flurry of creativity.

I've often been told to try to stay level. But I resist that because to me level is flat and flat is numb and numb is that dark place I don't want to go to. It can come to me which is fine because it will but on its own time, not mine.

The flip side of down is up and up is so good, so delicious, so intense.

Yes, Jimi, I hear you. Side A, song 2.