Is anyone on here clinically depressed?

I have been depressed on and off and have been on meds that didn't make me feel like I thought I should, so I got off of them and withdrew, (I went off without the doc's ok) so I didn't think I needed to be on any meds legal or not that gave me that problem so I just never went back.

But to answer your question, I truly think it is when all is seemingly ok in your life, no major issues and you cannot seem to shake the blues. Now, when you are feeling that way, though, it is important to really know if you are truly unhappy and need to change your life even though others might say,"oh, no just go be happy"........(to which I answer that they must have missed their life calling to be a therapist or a shrink........).

sometimes we all need to get sad so that we can change our lives for the better. why do you ask, may I ask?

Since I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes in 2003, ive suffered from depression, was crying everyday for no reason, thinking about death and what way I would like to die etc, took me about 2 years to do anything about it, was on amitriptilyne for months, then moved started taking fluoxetene, ive stopped taking them now, i still have my downs, but I cope alot better now.

Last thursday evening I dislocated the index finger of my right hand, I was in the bathroom and slapped a shelf with an open palm. There was no real physical pain involved but it appeared a little gruesome. Thing is, I haven't the faintest what was in my mind that led me into the action of striking the shelf at all. I've punched a few walls before with a fist, now that I know hurts, so the open palm bit I've sussed!
When I was 17 I visited a doctor claiming to be depressed, he more or less refused me any medication. Always been morbid fucker, if I'd had access to a gun in my school years especially then....whoa! yet I was never picked on and outwardly perhaps have appeared happy and contented, or maybe just an asshole! Hmmm, yeah I find events and situations of the past mount up on maybe a monthly basis and I feel set to explode. Its depression but it is something I can keep reined in so as not to be a bastard, being introverted by nature helps with that. Relationships I've destroyed, though usually they'd of been better never initiated in the first place and besides I do have friends, even those who would never in the slightest tak em efor the misanthrorpist I am.
Anyway, I've had a few beers tonight and its late, my fingers in a cast so this has been more of a mission than usual. I haven't nearly said all I could on this subject and some prior posts here have more precisely expressed how I feel than I can manage. I'm posting this babble!

humans are silly

This thread makes me depressed.....:eek: Seriously!! You all are too good to feel so lousy!!

it seems there are alot of us here that have suffered depression or are depressed.

Not many of you will remember but when I first started posting I started a Thread asking for help with Depression, or just some info whether or not anyone else was suffering too. That thread was hijacked by someone (I wont name names) and ended up not being very helpful, and actually turned quite abusive.
Anyway, glad theres others here that are taking this seriously.
Like others have said, the fact that you posted this thread warrants the need to speak to someone in the business of counselling. Your body is just giving you the hints that its time to make decisions.

Symptoms that I encounter when I get a relapse are, in no particular order:

* Difficulty sleeping or getting to sleep
* Loss of appetite/eating more
* Feelings of intense dread and/or sadness
* Irritability and anxiety
* Moody

I have a type of depression (I think its like Erogenous???) that stems from past experiences, and as far as I know Clinical Depression has no obvious cause, which means that its a chemical imbalance that can be treated and managed with meds and counselling. But you CANT have one without the other. The meds and Drs work TOGETHER and only when you team them up can you move forward. Too many people rely on just meds and it doesnt work!!!!

Not sure where you are but im sure there is a good clinic nearby that can put you in the right direction. Make sure you shop around for Drs too, it took me about 5 different counsellors to find one I liked, and then I was on the road to managing this disease better.

Also, I found that Cognitive Behavioural Therapy worked the best...it focuses on your pattern of thinking and teaches you to process thoughts in a different way....
I hope this sheds some light, if not...hope it made you feel less alone

weenie wrote:

Good to hear others come forth. I have big time anger issues and don't know if the meds aggravate it. I seriously do wonder though. It's sort of the yin for the yang you know?

Anyway, I think one thing we can all agree on is that PJ is a big time release for all of our shit. Those guys give me so much fuckin hope when I'm down. And sometimes I think Ed is writing about my life.

So here's to all you jammers who suffer the depths - we have fucking FINE taste in music don't we????

If anyone here ever wants to talk about their stuff - pm me. I'm always up for a good talk with a fellow jammer - especially if I can help.
love ya all~
weenie

awwww ...good on ya weenie!!! Will keep that in mind