lonliness

deadnote · July 2008

im 35 aand wondering aabout this lonely road

anyone else a lonely loser

EvilMerlin · July 2008

I'm very lonely. Always have been since I started learning about my emotions in my early teens.

Always the lonely soul in a crowd.

libragirl · July 2008

I am...but I guess I rather be lonely then take shit from someone. But yeah I would like to find someone who understands me and all....lonliness sucks. :(

Byrnzie · July 2008

The world's a big place. Get out there and explore/enjoy it.

And never say never.

LONGRD · July 2008

*gives hugs to the posters above*
http://www.boomspeed.com/1631951/hugs05.jpg

oh yeah loneliness sucks :(

ajedigecko · July 2008

i understand where you are coming from and the cruel twist to the entire dilema is;

when you want company.........no one is around.

when you do not want company..........everyone is around.

you are · July 2008

ajedigecko wrote:

i understand where you are coming from and the cruel twist to the entire dilema is;

when you want company.........no one is around.

when you do not want company..........everyone is around.

EXACTLY!!

Slip Kid · July 2008

"raises hand"

yep it sucks but whatever..

stickboy · July 2008

deadnote wrote:

im 35 aand wondering aabout this lonely road

anyone else a lonely loser

you're never alone man
trust that

cause days like today and the past few days/weeks at the age of 35 I feel like I'm about to actually hit the road....again.

stickboy · July 2008

Slip Kid wrote:

"raises hand"

yep it sucks but whatever..

nah dog, put your fuckin hand down
Im so sick of people making others feel like losers..people like..well..the Beast, and my friends know who the beast is so I'll leave it at that.fuckin getting tired of it and then the beast and the fam and the friends wonder why I fuckin isolate myself from the world and the only time I enjoy life is when Im at a fuckin PJ show with you guys???
fuck that

yea fucked up days/weeks to say the least
:mad:

Slip Kid · July 2008

stickboy wrote:

nah dog, put your fuckin hand down
Im so sick of people making others feel like losers..people like..well..the Beast, and my friends know who the beast is so I'll leave it at that.fuckin getting tired of it and then the beast and the fam and the friends wonder why I fuckin isolate myself from the world and the only time I enjoy life is when Im at a fuckin PJ show with you guys???
fuck that

yea fucked up days/weeks to say the least
:mad:

well i have no fucking clue who the beast is other than that guy from X-Men

ajedigecko · July 2008

stickboy wrote:

you're never alone man
trust that

cause days like today and the past few days/weeks at the age of 35 I feel like I'm about to actually hit the road....again.

i am heading out on a day long ride tomorrow, actually today. just me, my bike, and my camera. all dirt roads.

LikeAnOcean · July 2008

Lonelyness?.. I don't know how I made it, but I made it from a northside bar, an area I've never been, home, taking the El, walking.. drunk,.. I'm home, but I wonder how I got here.. alone. :(

stickboy · July 2008

Slip Kid wrote:

well i have no fucking clue who the beast is other than that guy from X-Men

oh ..u mean mandi hasnt told ya??

its my fuckin mother dude...shes here from Greece on vacation to enjoy time with me and my sis and fam and all I here every day is BITCH BITCH BITCH
COME TO GREECE, DO THIS DO THAT< WHY HAVENT YOU ACCOMPLISHED ANYTHING??? When are you gonna get married?? GET A REAL JOB!!
GOING TO 30 PEARL JAM SHOWS??? ARE YOU RETARDED?? You waste your money on that satanic bullshit???

like :rolleyes:
yea...and theres more..from like 7am till 11pm+ ..nag and bitch and whine

im about to fuckin lose it..shes leaving in like 2 weeks and trying to be a good son, but ...damn already man..EVERY FUCKIN DAY! :mad: :mad:

ajedigecko · July 2008

stickboy wrote:

oh ..u mean mandi hasnt told ya??

its my fuckin mother dude...shes here from Greece on vacation to enjoy time with me and my sis and fam and all I here every day is BITCH BITCH BITCH
COME TO GREECE, DO THIS DO THAT< WHY HAVENT YOU ACCOMPLISHED ANYTHING??? When are you gonna get married?? GET A REAL JOB!!
GOING TO 30 PEARL JAM SHOWS??? ARE YOU RETARDED?? You waste your money on that satanic bullshit???

like :rolleyes:
yea...and theres more..from like 7am till 11pm+ ..nag and bitch and whine

im about to fuckin lose it..shes leaving in like 2 weeks and trying to be a good son, but ...damn already man..EVERY FUCKIN DAY! :mad: :mad:

and the amazing thing is.............she would lay down her life for you.

stickboy · July 2008

ajedigecko wrote:

i am heading out on a day long ride tomorrow, actually today. just me, my bike, and my camera. all dirt roads.

bro
when I left the fakeness of miami and the superficiality and all that stress there was no better feeling than being on a bike for 6 days pedaling north out of FLA...i felt so free and ..and...I dunno man
HAPPY???

so I mad it back to NY and now my stress level is rising again and people like friends and fam are sarting to notice me losing my sense of being humble
I hate myelf when I allow to get affected by bullshit

ajedigecko · July 2008

stickboy wrote:

bro
when I left the fakeness of miami and the superficiality and all that stress there was no better feeling than being on a bike for 6 days pedaling north out of FLA...i felt so free and ..and...I dunno man
HAPPY???

so I mad it back to NY and now my stress level is rising again and people like friends and fam are sarting to notice me losing my sense of being humble
I hate myelf when I allow to get affected by bullshit

did you carry your gear with you?

sleep on the beach?

i would like to hear the details, but if not, i understand.

Slip Kid · July 2008

stickboy wrote:

bro
when I left the fakeness of miami and the superficiality and all that stress there was no better feeling than being on a bike for 6 days pedaling north out of FLA...i felt so free and ..and...I dunno man
HAPPY???

so I mad it back to NY and now my stress level is rising again and people like friends and fam are sarting to notice me losing my sense of being humble
I hate myelf when I allow to get affected by bullshit

Well from talking to you the other day I got what was up. I didn't know you refered to her as the beast.. haha

I'm sorry that times are rough for you once again. Like other times, you'll get through it. It's hard to see it now but it'll happen

stickboy · July 2008

ajedigecko wrote:

and the amazing thing is.............she would lay down her life for you.

no question man
I know shes got nothing but great intentions...its how she gets at me and how her anxiety and stress level rise

why is it so hard to understand these are the paths I choose and Im happy with those decisions wether good or bad..if I fuck up or fail OH WELL I'll deal with it..

sorry ..its just getting pretty bad to the point I gotta leave every day b4 she wakes up..I dont wanna tell her to STFUP!!! cause I'll feel like shit so I just nod my head and say yea yea..yea..yea.ok ma
fuck

stickboy · July 2008

ajedigecko wrote:

did you carry your gear with you?

sleep on the beach?

i would like to hear the details, but if not, i understand.

fuck yea man
all long A1A on Collins ave from south beach to wherever it ended I would pass out on the beach, shower up in public restrooms or late at night in lke those rest stop areas where they have showers for truckers and keep it moving at night on US1 and the afternoon
Made it to Savannah had a smoke or 10 with Eric n Mandi and it was the shit.
Bought a backpack and my guitar..thats it...no rush to go anywhere just strolling thru diff places talking to diff people.

ajedigecko · July 2008

stickboy wrote:

no question man
I know shes got nothing but great intentions...its how she gets at me and how her anxiety and stress level rise

why is it so hard to understand these are the paths I choose and Im happy with those decisions wether good or bad..if I fuck up or fail OH WELL I'll deal with it..

sorry ..its just getting pretty bad to the point I gotta leave every day b4 she wakes up..I dont wanna tell her to STFUP!!! cause I'll feel like shit so I just nod my head and say yea yea..yea..yea.ok ma
fuck

she is only concerned with your paths because she wants to protect you and values you. you give her reason to live regardless of your age.

i only speak like this because i see myself developing this mindset with my daughter and she is only 5.

man it is stressful......................good stress...........but stressful.

lonliness

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